I woke up Saturday morning to rain and heavy overcast skies. While having juice on the patio I noticed how tall the grass was in the backyard so I asked my oldest son to mow it before the celebration. It was thick and wet with rain and after he had struggled mowing the outer perimeter of the yard, I got an idea. I decided I would cut a design into the grass, sort of like my own crop circle. Much to my son's relief, I took over the task and made something like this:
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Two outer rings and one inner circle transversed by three straight tangental lines making a pyramid point in the center. To me, the circle represented the three densities and the three lines forming the pyramid, the three dimensions.
I set my fire ring in the center of the inner circle. Then I did my first spin of the day. I juice/tea fasted all day as well as took flower and crystal essences. Around 2 oclock I decided to drive to the local EarthFare for a shot of weatgrass. Stepping over the smooshed, dead frog on the driveway ( this plays an important role later) I headed out. On my way home I stopped at my usual vantage point, an overlook where there is a great view of the surrounding mountains. Of course it was so overcast, the sun was not visible but soon after I began my meditation, the sun revealed itself to me through the layers of mist and clouds. When it receeded again behind the clouds, I left for home. I was quite reverent all day. Just feeling gratitude and asking to be awake and aware and hopefully to learn to see. When I was preparing for my celebration at 4:30, I put on the cd, Holy Harmony, which uses healing code tuning forks and ancient chants to heal and relax. I did some yoga and chi gong on the deck and revelled in the appearance of my neighboring red tailed hawk. It circled over me twice, approving my preparations, before flying off to its nest. At 5:41 I began my celebration with my second spin. I then walked the labyrinth to the inner circle. I talked and prayed about being awake, aligning myself with STO forces, the densities and balance. I burned some significant papers that related to my relationship with my ex-partner . I placed crystals around my cirlce that correspond to the seven chakras and the seven densities. At 6:41 a light rain fell just on my circles. The clouds cleared and a patch of blue crowned my sacred space. I did my final spin slowly inside the inner cirlce. At 7 o'clock I was done. I would have loved to stay there longer but I had to go pick up my younger son. When we got home he said, "Mommy, look a frog!" I thought he was referring to the smooshed one (we had spent a good deal of time looking at it earlier) and so I just sort of said, "Uh huh," without looking and he said, "No, Mommy, look! It's a live frog!" And what do you know. In the same place where the smooshed frog had been decaying for days, there was now a young, very alive frog, sitting there looking warily at us. There was no sign of the dead frog anywhere. How's that for renewal? Frogs are liminal creatures that live between worlds. They represent transformation between water and sound. It is a totem for metamorphisis. It is a symbol for coming into one's power. So be it!
