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Dagobah Resident
Well, just to check in here...the program with myself lately...i gotta be honest, there's no "weird" stuff happening at all. Athough,
I do feel more "balanced" again, i'm showing different emotions more often, and making an effort to consciously observe myself.
When I get mad, I am forced to ask myself why i got mad in the first place, i question myself constantly. "is this okay, does this seem right?"
If i start to dwell on past things that begin to make me sad, I ask myslef, "the past is not now, is there any reason to dwell on this for a second longer at all?"
At that point, when i catch myself, i have trained my mind to say "do not forget your power...pay no attention to those that belittle you, they are machines, they are asleep, they have no understanding of the world we live in."
and i try to remind myself of this quote from the C's...i couldn't possibly forget it, ever. (emphasis is mine)
"There are those who believe the world exist for them to shut out, overcome, or ignore. For them the worlds will cease, they will become exactly what they give to life, a dream in the "past. Those who pay strict attention
to objective reality right and left, become the reality of the "future."
This quote really helps me whenever i start to mourn the loss of my illusions, it is almost as effective for me as POTS. For me, it's constant reminder that I am working towards something which is greater than any of us,
that all this work is "for something."
I do feel more "balanced" again, i'm showing different emotions more often, and making an effort to consciously observe myself.
When I get mad, I am forced to ask myself why i got mad in the first place, i question myself constantly. "is this okay, does this seem right?"
If i start to dwell on past things that begin to make me sad, I ask myslef, "the past is not now, is there any reason to dwell on this for a second longer at all?"
At that point, when i catch myself, i have trained my mind to say "do not forget your power...pay no attention to those that belittle you, they are machines, they are asleep, they have no understanding of the world we live in."
and i try to remind myself of this quote from the C's...i couldn't possibly forget it, ever. (emphasis is mine)
"There are those who believe the world exist for them to shut out, overcome, or ignore. For them the worlds will cease, they will become exactly what they give to life, a dream in the "past. Those who pay strict attention
to objective reality right and left, become the reality of the "future."
This quote really helps me whenever i start to mourn the loss of my illusions, it is almost as effective for me as POTS. For me, it's constant reminder that I am working towards something which is greater than any of us,
that all this work is "for something."