Éiriú-Eolas - Breathing Program

[Buddy]

Hi Sonrisa. I'm sorry to hear about this. If it were a little bit different, this would be a perfect opportunity for you to study how this 'path' acts and reacts to you so that you might gain a bit of immunity from this kind of behavior towards you. As it stands, it appears you are torn up over it and need some kind of immediate relief.

Stress of this nature can have a similar effect on brain chemistry as addictive drugs and you are going through something probably similar to this:

How a psychopath spots a victim

In the video I, Psychopath, Sam Vaknin describes "the great secret of bullys" which explains what may be going on in your brain/body regarding this issue.


Sam V, slips coldly and easily into the third person as he describes what would have been happening with Ian while he (Sam) bullied Ian in the hotel lobby earlier (it's around 38:00):

"You're body is flooded instantly with adrenaline and it's derivatives, like norenephrine. Now when these hormones pervade the bloodstream, you're brain reacts. It shuts down certain centers and activates others. This is called the stress reaction. Or stress syndrome action. Then when the abuse recedes, the adrenaline levels begin to drop. As they drop, the entire system goes into mayhem. So what bullies usually do...they start and stop, start and stop. That achieves the maximal stress syndrome. And this is the great secret of bullying: never overdo it...small doses...the victim will do the rest."

Location of video: _http://blip.tv/file/2268740

I wonder if it might be possible to take this information to your lawyer or the PTB at your work and let them know that there could be medical expenses involved in your treatment/recovery from this terrorist if it is allowed to continue. (it's just a thought, fwiw).

In the meantime, it looks like you could benefit from finding a way to call on some strength from deep down inside you to get through this.

Here is an excerpt that might provide some inspiration. In this piece, Max Stirner is talking about the similarities between Identification and Idolatry and going on the offense against his idols and the idols of others to reclaim his power over himself:

The Ego and Its Own by Max Stirner
Part 1, Chapter 2, section 2.-- The Possessed

Man, your head is haunted;...You imagine great things, and depict to yourself a whole world of gods that has an existence for you, You have a fixed idea!

Do not think that I am jesting or speaking figuratively when I regard those persons who cling to the Higher, and (because the vast majority belongs under this head) almost the whole world of men, as veritable fools, fools in a madhouse.

What is it, then, that is called a "fixed idea"? An idea that has subjected the man to itself. When you recognize, with regard to such a fixed idea, that it is a folly, you shut its slave up in an asylum. And is the truth of the faith, say, which we are not to doubt; the majesty of (e.g.) the people, which we are not to strike at (he who does is guilty of -- lese-majesty); virtue, against which the censor is not to let a word pass, that morality may be kept pure; -- are these not "fixed ideas"?

Is not all the stupid chatter of (e.g.) most of our newspapers the babble of fools who suffer from the fixed idea of morality, legality, Christianity, etc., and only seem to go about free because the madhouse in which they walk takes in so broad a space? Touch the fixed idea of such a fool, and you will at once have to guard your back against the lunatic's stealthy malice. For these great lunatics are like the little so-called lunatics in this point too -- that they assail by stealth him who touches their fixed idea.

They first steal his weapon, steal free speech from him, and then they fall upon him with their nails. Every day now lays bare the cowardice and vindictiveness of these maniacs, and the stupid populace hurrahs for their crazy measures. One must read the journals of this period, and must hear the Philistines talk, to get the horrible conviction that one is shut up in a house with fools.

"Thou shalt not call thy brother a fool; if thou dost -- etc." But I do not fear the curse, and I say, my brothers are arch-fools. Whether a poor fool of the insane asylum is possessed by the fancy that he is God the Father, Emperor of Japan, the Holy Spirit, etc., or whether a citizen in comfortable circumstances conceives that it is his mission to be a good Christian, a faithful Protestant, a loyal citizen, a virtuous man -- both these are one and the same "fixed idea."

Just as the schoolmen philosophized only inside the belief of the church; as Pope Benedict XIV wrote fat books inside the papist superstition, without ever throwing a doubt upon this belief; as authors fill whole folios on the State without calling in question the fixed idea of the State itself; as our newspapers are crammed with politics because they are conjured into the fancy that man was created to be a zoon politicon -- so also subjects vegetate in subjection, virtuous people in virtue, liberals in humanity, without ever putting to these fixed ideas of theirs the searching knife of criticism. Undislodgeable, like a madman's delusion, those thoughts stand on a firm footing, and he who doubts them -- lays hands on the sacred! Yes, the "fixed idea," that is the truly sacred!


The Ego and Its Own (German: Der Einzige und sein Eigentum; also translated as The Individual and His Property; a literal translation would read The Sole One and His Property) is a philosophical work by German philosopher Max Stirner (1806-1856), first published in 1844.
_http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Ego_and_Its_Own
_http://www.lsr-projekt.de/poly/enee.html
_http://www.nonserviam.com/egoistarchive/stirner/TheEgo.pdf

In addition, if you need a good feeling of bonding with supporting friends, and maybe a good cry to metabolize some of this pain, you could watch this video:

Peter Gabriel & Kate Bush -Don't Give Up
_http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiCRZLr9oRw


...and there is DLPA which Laura suggested to another forum member:

I would take a little DLPA along with the breathing/meditation program, to try to get some relief from the chemical withdrawal symptoms which is what you are experiencing physical symptoms of.

...and my post on what is DLPA following that one.

These are just my thoughts, so if something I've said needs correction or modification, I'm sure someone will step in with some more helpful advice.

Good luck to you, Sonrisa and keep us posted! :)

 

[RGG]

Sorry for the two posts in a row but i never know what the Universe is going to deliver up or when I'll get a chance to post again....
I have not updated on this EE thread for a long while so here it goes.....

Despite the onslaught of crap from the universe that I've had to wade through, I have been religious in keeping up with the full meditations on Mon/Thur and POTS before sleeping and even before naps with the babe. Recently I've also added a short 1/2 hour in the FIR sauna followed by a yoga class before i do the complete meditation and that has had spectacular results. I've gone from having almost no dreams to a spectacular "night life" full of meaningful messages from my subconscious in the form of vivid dreams and the bonus is I easily remember them too!

In one funny dream I had, I was out in this clearing in the forest during the daytime with a few others (I think my husband was there). I was standing beside a man and his fire truck and his job was to capture the energy that was about to emerge from the sky with his fire hose. I looked up to where this energy was going to emerge from and saw this big swirling opening in the clouds. Suddenly as we all watched, it turned into a helical vortex (kind of like a tornado) that slowly began to descend from the space in the sky. I decided to run back away from the truck since I didn't want to be in the way of something potentially dangerous and when I did, it followed me! I was running around in this clearing try to evade this thing (I was not at all frightened though) but new it was useless to run because this vortex of energy was homing in on me. When I finally stopped, It lightly landed on the top of my head and I immediately had a pleasant sensation of being filled with warmth and light. Then I woke up.
I'm not sure what it all meant but it stands out as something significant and I'm positive it has to do with the EE program.

The zone outs continue regularly with the same kind of vivid dreams/experiences sometimes for up to 45 minutes. I have noticed an increasingly positive mood in all members of my household and I think that is a direct result of all of the effort I have been putting into uncovering programs, reading books on child psychology and positive discipline as well as taking charge of our health by slowly eliminating dairy, wheat and refined sugar from my families diet while sticking to the candida diet myself. It has been a rough transition for us but things are slowly turning around especially for my five year old son and my husband who have had very challenging year. So finally there seems to be a lull on the battle field of my life and I at least have time to post and read the posts of others. Who knows, I may even find the time to chronicle the whole saga in the swamp at sometime just to remind myself of how far I've come and get some advice for the challenges that still remain (A husband who hates his work because of his psychopathic boss and a chronically to-tight budget for my family of five)
I really believe that being disciplined with the EE program is what got me through it all and allowed me to be there fully to help them so keep it up everyone!

Rx

 

[Buddy]

Wow, Rx. That is truly fantastic. Considering your circumstances and how well your discipline is paying off, I'd say that dream was a confirmation that your seeding of your own future self is proceeding just right (it's just an impression). Great job, osit! :)

 

[pete02]

Wow, Rx. That is truly fantastic. Considering your circumstances and how well your discipline is paying off, I'd say that dream was a confirmation that your seeding of your own future self is proceeding just right (it's just an impression). Great job, osit! :)

Yeah, I second that Rx! Sounds like you've come a long way and brought your family to boot! :P

A BIG Thumbs up to you!

 

[Evolutionary1]

Hi

Last night I saw 1 time light when I have closed eyes during pray... . Now at the day I hear men voice . ??
I hear a male voice in the distance, talking to someone, I checked if there is none in the room and emptiness ... ??
This is my obervation day 1 ( back EE program )
Ah No zoned Out.

Greeting.

Hi Lucas, it is good to hear that you're back on track with the program. I don't zone often myself, but over time it has increased, so just keep it up. :)

 

[Evolutionary1]

Just a quick update.

The vibrating in my foot has pretty much dissipated , seemingly in time with completely eliminating sugar and wheat. I will start the ultrasimple plan this weekend.

Something I noticed the other night was while doing the meditation, in my left ear there was a sound like the one made when someone runs a finger along a glass of water, low and kind of pretty, repeating itself. At first I was afraid, but then I figured that if there was a danger from some STS forces, the wisest thing to do would be to continue praying. I did, and all was well. I heard the same sound later when I woke up in the middle of the night, as well, but nothing otherwise scary happened. I still seeing swirling lights, and often a single stationary point like a distant star that I attempt to hold onto with my mind, though I'm not sure if I'm doing it correctly (or even if this is the light I should be holding on to) and have not made much progress in this area. And though I don't zone often, when I do I sometimes experience a surge of energy in my body, fairly intense yet pleasant.

Furthermore, I have had many dreams, often of being back in school, going to classes, interacting with people from my past, many of whom I haven't thought of for a while if not years. Curiouser and curiouser...

That's all for now. :)

 

[gotogo]

These "time anomalies" that some of you are having are exactly what I call "zoning." I don't really have any other term for it and it is hard to describe except for the fact that you are aware that something has happened with the "time." You aren't asleep, but either a lot of time has passed and it felt like an instant, or no time at all passed, and it felt like eternity. I think that these are events where you are in direct contact with your higher self.

You don't necessarily bring anything back with you consciously - you can't say what did or did not happen - but it does have overall profound effects on you - life-changing, even. If you aren't keeping a journal, do keep reporting here because at some point, you'll want to collect your reports and review them in concert with a review of events in "real life" that run parallel with them.

It really is an exciting process though while you are in the middle of it, you may not yet see just how dramatic it is!

Nice description! That is how it seems like for me too.

Happy Birthday Laura!!

 

[StrangeCaptain]

Hello all,

Thanks for sharing your experiences everyone. My primary practice since I started our meditations has been POTS with pipe breathing before going to bed at night and sometimes during the day as well if I have time for a nap. I have had experience with deep breathing in other areas so there was no lag time really between learning how to breath and learning how to say the prayer while breathing. In other words, the breathing is in no way a distraction while I do the prayer.

I have some interruptions in my practice mainly due to being so exhausted from work and school that I fall asleep either before I start the prayer or maybe 20 seconds into it. It has been that way for a couple of weeks, but for the past few days, I stay awake long enough to do the prayer a few times.

I have had the experiences of "zoning out," of intense emotional release, of physical sensations of pain and tenseness, of violent dreams, of past life dreams, etc. Some of which I have detailed in this thread.

Last night I had a new sensation of the time-warping "zoning out" type. My out-breath seemed to go on forever and ever. Some little part of my brain commented, "My gosh! How can there be so much air in my body. I did not breathe that much in!"

All the while I was having the sensations of moving through 3-dimensional imagery, and some of it was again of the shocking, violent variety. I have so much gunk in there to clean out! I am truly happy that I have a realistic hope now of being able to do so with this breathing practice. Thanks all!

 

[Ollie]

The review of this week’s E-E Breathing Meditation activity is more positive. I think I’m finally on the right path with ‘supplements for my mind’ (thanks Psyche). I wouldn’t say that the degradation in my thinking processes is recovered from the depths that it has sunk to in the last, several, months; it does seem lighter and turning upwards.

For the past two sessions of the three-stage breathing and pots meditation, Wednesday and Thursday, I zoned out on both occasions. The difference, I think, is down to the fact that I was deeply relaxed when I lay down on the floor for PotS.

Outside the sessions, two things of possible significance have occurred: dreams, and I don’t know if this is significant or not, my core temperature seems to have risen.

On the dreams front, I think that the mind chemical supplements are beginning to take effect, as the minimum periods of sleep between bathroom visits is now at two hours – a vast improvement.

The first short dream I recalled this week is a recurrent dream (with different pictures): I was helping people cross from one ‘state’ to another ‘state’, across a border for safety. In this case the border was a road, usually it is a river, or water. As usual I am the last to cross.

A second dream that night was of me making a presentation – I think to do with writing a catalogue. However, before I could finish the presentation I was interrupted by Tony Blair, who made a presentation (of what I have no idea, I was just waiting for him to finish), before I could continue.

The third short dream I can partially recall was last night. In this one I was leading people through a long deep underground tunnel on the top of what looked like miniature car-like sleds. I don’t recall much more; perhaps it was linked to the theme of the first dream mentioned above, to get to the other side, to safety.

 

[forge]

Update: possible release event, awaiting confirmation

During my whole life i had problems with libido, obscene parasitic attachments, reported first time on Casschat The Entity- type events, hyperkinetic attacks, like depicted in the movie, without the enhanced drama factor of course. Still these attacks were similar, strong, frightening. As Carla's psychologist tells her in the movie, she is the cause of these attacks to an extent. Dr. Malachi Martin, author of Hostage to the Devil, said that people usually invite evil - attachments - by their deeds, how they live their lives, and also by parental influence. In my case i think it was that nasty psychopath 'Big Boy' who gathered little children around himself when i was ~6 and then effected a psychopathic influence on the whole neighborhood.

"If you play in the dirt, you will get dirty." Inherited psychopath-genes, unhealthy and destructive impressions from both pathological parents didn't help either. My Center of Gravity is was fighting this sickness within me, desperately searching for a way to eject this attachment from my mind/soul and spirit.

Infusing my life with unhealthy obsession for sex, these attacks/harrassments also came in a state of sleep-paralysis. I think not the physical but the spirit/etheric body - i guess residing directly under the skin adjusted to the bio-energetical field of cell mass of human body, has same shape. In a sleep-paralysis this body's sensations become active, it feels like wind blowing through my physical skin and hitting directly this etheric body. So anything that is non-corporeal, more close to the spirit realms than to this 3rd density physical, can directly affect this etheric body. [my speculation]

Anyway, until recently i always had these attacks if i was tired and laid down to relax in a "vulnerable" position, on the back, lower-arms resting up, beside my head. I usually slept in and very often woke up to a scenario at night resembling to an assault, like wrestling that precedes rape.

Remember when you cook and accidentally touch hot iron you release it falls quickly back to its place? Recently on two occasions this "visitation" began and something extraordinary happened: I felt like an ice-slab thrown into a heated up steel pan, in my back especially i had this sizzling sensation as if the attacker tried to grab me - (i lay motionless these are just OOBE movements, i think), pulled me up, but i fell back. The experience was profound. Strong sensation of defence, strategic enclosure, recognition of effects of Prayer all my Opposition to the attacker was focused and recognized in this event. It happened a second time, similar, with a new flavor, strengthening my resolve.

Now, the third time, i'm awakening, paralyzed, instantly recognizing the situation. You have to know that i do a lot of positive dissociation, watching lot of movies and try to process my small life's events that way. I think positive dissociation successfully substituted for a girlfriend or a wife, whom i wouldn't wanna hurt while i'm carrying my sickness anyway. Followed Castaneda in this regard: go into a desolate place and fight the Predator inside you alone.

The Entity: my parasitic attachment for some 30 years.
It had a movie face, the Mummy, a glowing, transparent black&white Death Mask with two small, simmering point-lights in place of its hollow eyes, very evil looking and if i had not have the EE-training, i would have found it very frightening! Wasn't frightened at all however and focused my opposition into a fierce warrior act, struggling with the paralyzing force, that made my physical - and the arms of my etheric body immobile with the monster on top of me. I slowly began with all my strength to lift my right arm and reach toward the throat of this being (to subdue it and become victorious), with the intention of once i have it's throat it's beaten somehow. This was the all-deciding Goal, somehow i felt the Entity did not like somebody grabbing at it's throat at all.

All my power was used to reach it's throat, while the thing was roaring, snarling viciously, it's visage would have been very frightening - would have caused a fear-shock-surrender 8 months ago. As the Entity realized that i somehow become stronger and would not yield, in fact my hand was coming steadily closer to it's throat IT BACKED OUT!!!!

In the middle of this experience i don't think i can realize the significance of this event. I am waiting a few days now, will lay down in the 'vulnerable position' sleeping in, laying a trap for the Entity, what will happen, when it comes.

Also my hunger for pornographic media an obsession for searching the perfect image on the internet to feed this Parasitic Attachment dramatically abated, atrophied into a shadowy remembrance. I don't know if it is gone, but by God i am continuing my Prayer and devoting myself fully to the Holy Spirit of Christ.

 

[Mixtli]

Forge. That update was quite astonishing. I guess we all have our demons we keep fighting all the time. About the libido and the sex drive: As men we are all conditioned to "desire" to have sex all the time. I guess for me the EE program has given me a chance to reevaluate many of the things I have been doing all my life. Looking them through another perspective. I will try to do it more often.

 

[Zadius Sky]

Not much to report on my experiences regarding the program, except that it's more calm and relaxing the more I do it.

The odd thing that I've noticed in the last few days, and I tend to do the program during mid-day now (since I'm out of the job), and I would feel so tired and something forced me to take a nap. So, I took a nap and woke up very alert and refreshed, but went to bed very late, which is out of character for me, by the way.

Outside the sessions, two things of possible significance have occurred: dreams, and I don’t know if this is significant or not, my core temperature seems to have risen.

My body temperature was rising for no reason last Monday as I've sweated heavily while sleeping. I couldn't find the reason, and it was right after doing the program.

As for the dreams lately, I don't remember much of the details but vaguely I've remembered being with people, learning to deal with and trying to make compromises with them. It's like this alot lately.

 

[Ollie]

My body temperature was rising for no reason last Monday as I've sweated heavily while sleeping. I couldn't find the reason, and it was right after doing the program.

Interestingly, during the FIR sauna session on Thursday (well before the E-E session), I sweated the most I have ever sweated since starting FIR blanket saunas back in August 2009. :)

 

[Laura]

Update: possible release event, awaiting confirmation<snip>

Also my hunger for pornographic media an obsession for searching the perfect image on the internet to feed this Parasitic Attachment dramatically abated, atrophied into a shadowy remembrance. I don't know if it is gone, but by God i am continuing my Prayer and devoting myself fully to the Holy Spirit of Christ.

That sounds like a very powerful event, forge. Keep us updated and keep doing the POTS meditation. I have the idea that this meditation can increase soul strength so that such releases may become commonplace as people free themselves from attachments of all sorts.

Once you begin to feel stronger inside, you can gradually begin to cut back on dissociation so that you begin to exercise this new strength constantly in effecting awareness of the here and now. Remember what the Cs said:

Life is religion. Life experiences reflect how one interacts with God. Those who are asleep are those of little faith in terms of their interaction with the creation. Some people think that the world exists for them to overcome or ignore or shut out. For those individuals, the worlds will cease. They will become exactly what they give to life. They will become merely a dream in the "past." People who pay strict attention to objective reality right and left, become the reality of the "Future."

 

[Tigersoap]

Still doing the POTS and parts of the EE program.

Lately, I have more frequent and vivid dreams involving myself or myself as another person, sometimes grasping the situation from different angles at the same time.
I also made a few dreams about underground passages, subways or caverns.

A priest had a transparent ceiling in his small underground dwelling, I looked up to see the sky and saw hundreds of tiny points of light, I started to film them with my digital cameras and then I realized that we were under the sea and the lights were in fact hundreds of sharks coming closer and trying to break up the ceiling, the priest was fixing the transparent ceiling with some kind of glu and told us (me and my wife) to keep moving ahead.

In another dream I was stuck with a few people in an abandonned underground city and someone still living there kidnapped one of our group and I was trying to make them understand that if we had all come to the rescue we could have stopped it.

One thing I noticed is that I get a lot more impressions, for lack of a better word, as if I remembered events that never happened but can't really know what it's about. I can feel it in my body but I can't describe what exactly either.