Éiriú-Eolas - Breathing Program

[Torstone]

Hi

I have been doing the EE program for an average of 2-3 times a week for 2 months now. I usually do it in the evening before i go to bed, and it helps me to go right into sleep after the meditation. What I have noticed is that I go into a much deeper sleep everytime I do the EE program, and I am having dreams almost every night. I have tried for most of the time to sit in my bed during the whole program but have changed it to sitting during the 3 stage breathing and lying down during the round breathing due to back pain and it actually works better since I feel i get more air and it is easier to move the diaphragm up and down.

Yesterday when doing the round breathing I had an outbreak and felt the urge to really hit something (which I did). That was a first time, I have had som buildt in rage inside me when doing the round breathing but it has been enough just to clinch my fists and it would disappear.
This seems to correlate with me being in a bad mood this recent time, but for no apparent "external reason". I think I am getting a better hang on the whole EE program though, much thanks to this thread :)

 

[manitoban]

Yesterday when doing the round breathing I had an outbreak and felt the urge to really hit something (which I did). That was a first time, I have had som buildt in rage inside me when doing the round breathing but it has been enough just to clinch my fists and it would disappear.
This seems to correlate with me being in a bad mood this recent time, but for no apparent "external reason". I think I am getting a better hang on the whole EE program though, much thanks to this thread Smiley

Hi Torstone,

Thanks for the update. Sounds like you are indeed getting a hang of the program. Many of us have been having the type of release of suppressed emotions as you describe. The clearing process is quite something isn't it? I was thinking recently about just how long we may have been holding on to these emotions - probably years, and now the program is allowing them to be released in a safe and gentle way.

 

[KC Kelly]

One thing that I was wondering about and not sure if it has been mentioned, is when following along with the prayer, some sentences are short and I can only take a short breath. Then there is a short pause - then the next sentence (breath out). Is this correct? I feel like I should keep breathing in until the next sentence then breathe out as the following one starts. But maybe I need some air exchange to happen?

Here's what I do: I usually fit my breathing to the audio meditation by inhaling for 2 phrases, then exhaling for 4 (all pipe breath, which helps relax and slow things down, and gives you greater control). This fits nicely with my breathing capacity, and gives a total of 3 breaths in and out for the whole prayer (18 phrases in all). Actually as I've been doing the program a lot, I think my breathing capacity is increasing, and I can slow down and stretch it out even more when I'm getting very relaxed. But the idea is to do what is within the comfort range of your body - and structure your breathing to a count which fits in with the recording, if that's comfortable.

Hi Nomad....After getting caught up on this thread (again) after "life" calling for a couple of weeks, I wanted to draw attention to the bolded part of your post, because as far as I can tell, I haven't read this from any of the others' posts on here. I can attest that this certainly seems to be the case for me also.

Having been employed in the public school system here in KC as a custodian for some 15 years, an integral part of my daily activities involves mostly physical labor throughout my shift, so I've gotten used to that. However, on occasion my crew and I will be required to do some heavier carrying (in this case, old computers) up and down stairs and load them in trucks (our OLD building is without a freight elevator of any kind).

Anyway, Wednesday of last week the four of us plus a student helping out for community service, had some 50 computers to carry down a flight of stairs and into a storage area to be picked up the next day. One male coworker who just turned 64 a couple of weeks ago, and 2 female coworkers who are (probably) in their early to mid fifties, I'm guessing cuz I wouldn't dare ask them(!), all were huffing and puffing, (and incidentally complaining enough to wake the dead) by the time we were finished. The student and I were the only two actually carrying them down the stairs; the other three were rolling them on carts to the storage area to set them on the floor, then roll the cart back to get another one.

I just noticed by the time we were finished, after about an hour of this, that the young male student and I were in shape to carry even more if there were any, while the others were just sweating, huffing, puffing, complaining, wiping their foreheads, drinking lots of water, etc. Now, this student is young and much more energetic than they, and I am a handful of years younger than they, (I'll be 50 later this year) so I can understand to some extent the physical effort required for them is going to be greater. However, I have little doubt that the EE program has helped to increase my breathing capacity, and to accomplish more physical work before tiring than I was formerly able to do.

When I noticed the discrepancy between how the work affected the others and how I was able to handle the whole job and not get worn down, I mean, I can't prove it, but it sure seems as though 6 months or so of EE is increasing my breathing capacity also. Thank you EE and all those who are committed to continue on this road we are travelling together!

 

[pete02]

One thing that I was wondering about and not sure if it has been mentioned, is when following along with the prayer, some sentences are short and I can only take a short breath. Then there is a short pause - then the next sentence (breath out). Is this correct? I feel like I should keep breathing in until the next sentence then breathe out as the following one starts. But maybe I need some air exchange to happen?

Here's what I do: I usually fit my breathing to the audio meditation by inhaling for 2 phrases, then exhaling for 4 (all pipe breath, which helps relax and slow things down, and gives you greater control). This fits nicely with my breathing capacity, and gives a total of 3 breaths in and out for the whole prayer (18 phrases in all). Actually as I've been doing the program a lot, I think my breathing capacity is increasing, and I can slow down and stretch it out even more when I'm getting very relaxed. But the idea is to do what is within the comfort range of your body - and structure your breathing to a count which fits in with the recording, if that's comfortable.

Hi Nomad....After getting caught up on this thread (again) after "life" calling for a couple of weeks, I wanted to draw attention to the bolded part of your post, because as far as I can tell, I haven't read this from any of the others' posts on here. I can attest that this certainly seems to be the case for me also.

You guys are definitely not alone there. ;) My breathing capacity has also increased since doing the E/E program. Very similar to yourself KC, I have also noticed it more in my performance at work. I can go further and longer than before and the amazing thing about it is that on my two days off I still smoke my pipe. Granted its natural tobacco with a pipe, no paper or chemicals, but still this used to give me that weighed down feeling and I don't have that anymore. Even when doing the E/E I have had to make adjustments to my count because I am breathing deeper and holding more air.

The thing I really like the most is that I am finally starting to breathe with my belly more. Once in a while I'll stop just to pay attention to my breathing and sometimes I find my stomach is tensed up and I'm still using my upper chest but a lot of times lately I've also noticed that I have been using my belly to breathe and it feels good.

 

[Green_Manalishi]

Hi, i would just like to discuss a few more details about the EE.

You'll understand this more when you get more relaxed with the program. The meditation usually puts people into a deeply relaxed state, as meditations should. The count back up is merely a mechanism to help people exit the meditative state in a less jarring manner.

One of the objectives is to do the breathing and the POTS without the audio, so if we use it without the audio our "exit" will be more jarring, or with time we can by ourselves exit in a less jarring manner when not using the audio?
Also, for the ones that don't use the audio how many times do you say the POTS, the same as in the audio?
I'm really parted between using the audio and not, because if i don't use it i can time better the POTS sentences with my breathing rhythm and i focus more on the words because i'm saying them (i'm having to remember them), but if i use it i relax more because of the background music and also perhaps because of Laura's voice.
Also another "technical" question i have is the following, the actual meditation only occurs after we say the POTS? I'm asking this because the POTS is supposed to be the seed, and as i see it after we plant the seed we have to wait for it to grow, this would correspond to the deep breathing without thinking on the seed, that moment of silence is when the seed grows. Is my thinking correct, or not really, because i would like to understand the different steps in this meditation.

Thanks is advance for the replies.

 

[Mountain Crown]

[quote author=Green_Manalishi]Also another "technical" question i have is the following, the actual meditation only occurs after we say the POTS? I'm asking this because the POTS is supposed to be the seed, and as i see it after we plant the seed we have to wait for it to grow, this would correspond to the deep breathing without thinking on the seed, that moment of silence is when the seed grows. Is my thinking correct, or not really, because i would like to understand the different steps in this meditation.[/quote]

You may be reasoning from analogy a little too literally. Relaxing the body, controlling the breath as instructed, and the POTS being done together is the meditation.

It has been pointed out that much of the real transformative work happens on a different level-as when zoning for example. The prayer as seed could be seen as that which prepares for that work, which is like fruit.

Since the mind is filled with various distractions the prayer is also a homing base to facilitate the stilling of those thought loops. A starting point, or seed, for the soul.

 

[Evolutionary1]

I'm really parted between using the audio and not, because if i don't use it i can time better the POTS sentences with my breathing rhythm and i focus more on the words because i'm saying them (i'm having to remember them), but if i use it i relax more because of the background music and also perhaps because of Laura's voice.

Hi Green, I personally use Laura's audio only during the full program as I do not oen a copy of it yet. I also tend to continue meditating afterwards while the music is still playing. It takes a while to calm my mind's chatter, and this helps me to get in some good meditation time on the heels of the program. Otherwise, I do notice that I relax much easier with Laura's voice, but focus better when I recite alone in my head; I find both methods to be very healing and beneficial in different ways.

One of the objectives is to do the breathing and the POTS without the audio, so if we use it without the audio our "exit" will be more jarring, or with time we can by ourselves exit in a less jarring manner when not using the audio?

I'm not sure of this. When I meditate alone, which I do each night and sometimes during the day as well, I don't find the exit to be jarring at all. However, this may vary from person to person, and possibly how deep one has gone. I suggest using a combination of doing the program both with and without, but I think it would be fine to do whatever you find to be more comfortable and effective. Though I want to note that the C's have said that there is a powerful and positive frequency emitted from Laura's voice (or something to that effect) and I wouldn't recommend eliminating the guided meditation completely.

Also, for the ones that don't use the audio how many times do you say the POTS, the same as in the audio?

I don't tend to count the rounds that I meditate because I focus more on getting into a meditative state where my mind is not constantly wandering. Usually before bed this can last anywhere between 30 minutes to two hours if I do not just naturally drift off to sleep. I'm not sure if there is a minimum recommended, but since it is cumulative, maybe try working with what you are comfortable with and maybe increasing the time later on if you want. And, again, I'm sure that this will vary from person to person

I'm not sure on these last points, so if I am off, I'd appreciate the feedback, as I'm sure that GM might as well.

Anyway, I hope this helps.

 

[broken.english]

The first short dream I recalled this week is a recurrent dream (with different pictures): I was helping people cross from one ‘state’ to another ‘state’, across a border for safety. In this case the border was a road, usually it is a river, or water. As usual I am the last to cross.

The third short dream I can partially recall was last night. In this one I was leading people through a long deep underground tunnel on the top of what looked like miniature car-like sleds. I don’t recall much more; perhaps it was linked to the theme of the first dream mentioned above, to get to the other side, to safety.

I have a kind of funnier version of this: I was behind some people crossing a border on bicycles. In order to help I attached a piece of my clothes on a bicycle carrier. It was my pullover.

 

[Green_Manalishi]

You may be reasoning from analogy a little too literally. Relaxing the body, controlling the breath as instructed, and the POTS being done together is the meditation.

Yes i understand this. Perhaps i should have been more specific, i should have said that in my personal case the most strong symptoms tend to happen after the recitation of the POTS, so my reasoning was that perhaps the POTS was indeed a seed for the most profound part of the meditation (the POTS also being part of the meditation).

Even yesterday, after the recitation of the POTS, i made a conscious effort (or at least has conscious as i can get) to stop my internal noise and literally on the same second i felt that familiar pressure in the forehead between the eyes. By the way does anyone has any idea of what that could be? I known it is "geographically" in the same spot as the third eye, but it could be something else.

I don't tend to count the rounds that I meditate because I focus more on getting into a meditative state where my mind is not constantly wandering

That is probably a good way of doing it. Thanks for the advise.

 

[Mountain Crown]

[quote author=Evolutionary] I do notice that I relax much easier with Laura's voice, but focus better when I recite alone in my head; I find both methods to be very healing and beneficial in different ways[/quote]

I agree.

I'm not sure of this. When I meditate alone, which I do each night and sometimes during the day as well, I don't find the exit to be jarring at all. However, this may vary from person to person, and possibly how deep one has gone. I suggest using a combination of doing the program both with and without, but I think it would be fine to do whatever you find to be more comfortable and effective. Though I want to note that the C's have said that there is a powerful and positive frequency emitted from Laura's voice (or something to that effect) and I wouldn't recommend eliminating the guided meditation completely.

This is sound advice.

[quote author=Green_Manalishi] Also, for the ones that don't use the audio how many times do you say the POTS, the same as in the audio? [/quote]

Fwiw- since there is no fixed number of times for the POTS, I meditate until I either fall asleep or until I feel like stopping, when I’ll do it one more time.

Sometimes the zoning occurs so frequently that everything just come to a halt. I wind up rolling over and sleeping very soundly.

 

[rylek]

I'm really parted between using the audio and not, because if i don't use it i can time better the POTS sentences with my breathing rhythm and i focus more on the words because i'm saying them (i'm having to remember them), but if i use it i relax more because of the background music and also perhaps because of Laura's voice.

Hi Green, I personally use Laura's audio only during the full program as I do not oen a copy of it yet. I also tend to continue meditating afterwards while the music is still playing. It takes a while to calm my mind's chatter, and this helps me to get in some good meditation time on the heels of the program. Otherwise, I do notice that I relax much easier with Laura's voice, but focus better when I recite alone in my head; I find both methods to be very healing and beneficial in different ways.

I also use the audio during the full program. I'm still doing every day 3 stage breathing in the morning without the audio, then the entire program with audio in the evening. For me it is better to do POTS right after round breathing since there isn't as much chatter and takes less time to get into meditative state.

The first short dream I recalled this week is a recurrent dream (with different pictures): I was helping people cross from one ‘state’ to another ‘state’, across a border for safety. In this case the border was a road, usually it is a river, or water. As usual I am the last to cross.

The third short dream I can partially recall was last night. In this one I was leading people through a long deep underground tunnel on the top of what looked like miniature car-like sleds. I don’t recall much more; perhaps it was linked to the theme of the first dream mentioned above, to get to the other side, to safety.

I have a kind of funnier version of this: I was behind some people crossing a border on bicycles. In order to help I attached a piece of my clothes on a bicycle carrier. It was my pullover.

I've had a dream some days ago where Laura and the "Team" were stationed in a building that looked like a control tower, soon after a commotion started, my perspective moved to where everyone was facing and in the distance a huge tsunami wave coming. That was it.

EDIT: forgot to mention one overall observation about doing E/E. When I first started regular practicing the de-stressing effect was quite dramatic really strong. After a few weeks I've observed that some of the stress that was with me before has come back, it's re-surfaced, but now is something I can observe and control. If I get startled and afraid it is something I can keep below the neck and process. Before the feeling would just engulf me.

 

[seeking_spirals]

It's been a few months since I've been to SOTT or done any EE breathing. I stopped by the forum on Feb. 13 however and noticed that there had been a session on my birthday, Dec. 29. That piqued my curiosity a bit ( and admittedly some self importance ), but it also renewed my interest in the EE program with some significant results.

I have only been doing the POTS meditation starting with some pipe breaths these past few days and the first night was quite upsetting. I began on the night of Feb. 13 and I was having a difficult time keeping my mind focused on the prayer. I was distracted all over the place. But I finally did get on track for a good amount of time and started feeling a tingling pressure in the region of my "third eye." I had remember reading that you should try to hold on to it so I focused on the sensation while still reciting the prayer in the background. Suddenly I noticed that fear was creeping in and it was spreading. I became paranoid that some unseen force was in the apartment and out to get me. I kept playing all sorts of scenarios in my head and it just escalated out of control. I said screw it and went to sleep distraught and disappointed.

I had a very vivid dream that night (which by then was early morning of Feb. 14) about my grandmother who passed away a few years ago. Coincidentally, her birthday was on Feb. 14. I remember seeking refuge at my grandmother's. It wasn't her house as I remember it though, it was in some strange mountain with some strange creatures. There was one that looked like a 10 foot tall greyhound with long slender 6 foot tall legs scaling the cliff sides. It was quite bizarre and I remember just staring at it for a long while, captivated. Anyway, My grandmother sent me on an errand to collect some herbs because she was going to make some kind of potion. For the last ingredient, she directed me to a tree that looked like it was made out of wood mixed with stone and it was inhabited by a flock of happily chirping birds. The tree had pockets in it filled with little shiny stones which was the last ingredient. I asked her what they were and she said agate. However when she said it, the word appeared in my head in capital block letters AGATE. She then shaved a few flakes of this stone into the liquid and it turned it into a solid cake like substance, which she told me to eat. I still remember how it had an odd crunchy texture but no flavor. After that I went to sleep and when I awoke, (still dreaming) I had this terrible feeling that something bad was coming and that it was coming for the agate. It started raining and I went to go find my grandmother to tell her what I was feeling. But she was nowhere to be found. So I went to go find the stones to keep them safe but they too were missing from the tree, as well as the birds. I started to panic and I thought, "What do I do now?" Then a really loud crash of thunder startled me and I awoke in real life, still hearing the echo of the thunder fading away.

This dream left me feeling uneasy and it took awhile to fall back asleep. I kept thinking about the word agate. Later that day I didn't do any breathing but I did look up the word. I knew that it actually was a stone but i wanted to see if maybe it had been attributed any special properties. I found this here:

From http://www.bernardine.com/gemstones/agates.htm

Agate Folklore, Legend, and Healing Properties:

Agate is believed to discern truth, accept circumstances, and is a powerful emotional healer. Legend says that Agate improves memory and concentration, increases stamina and encourages honesty. Agate is said to be particularly beneficial to people born under the sign of Gemini as it helps them to remain calm and focused

It is believed to prevent insomnia and insure pleasant dreams, to enhance personal courage and protect one against danger. Agate provides a calming influence, improves perception, concentration and helps to develop and increase ones analytical talents.

I don't know how valid this is but it's sure seems like a nice thing for my subconscious mind to have ingested! I also thought that maybe agate might have meant A Gate - as in I opened some new door or something. I don't know... But I do know things have been shaken up a bit.

I did the the POTS meditation again on Feb. 15. After awhile I started to feel the tingling pressure on my forehead again and began to focus on it, and yet again the fear started to creep in. But this time a little voice in the back of my head said "faith" and so I just intently focused on reciting the prayer. I still felt the fear quite strongly. It was like my entire body was encased by an energy field and that energy was vibrating to the frequency of fear. I felt fear over my entire body yet I was unafraid. Eventually it subsided and faded away. The vibrating energy was still there, but it was calm and I was very relaxed.

I read some quotes from the EE FAQ yesterday that put some things into context regarding my experiences

29. QUESTION:As far as keeping sensations below the neck, I think I've missed to read it. If it's not too much to ask, can you point it out ? Is it in regard to physical/inner sensations or in regards to feelings/behaviors/actions that arise & projected to external world (aka in work - keep your anger below the neck )?
ANSWER:Just for the sake of clarity here, "keeping emotions below the neck" does not mean not expressing emotions, it means not allowing emotions (or emotional energy) to be "usurped" by the intellect and converted into theories etc. It is better to simply express the emotion as it is, in some way or other.

I think this is why on the first night the fear got so out of control. It was because my intellect had usurped the energy of my emotional center.

Many of you don't want to go beyond these emotional barriers and through
your personal boundaries because it might be painful. You'd like to say
"abracadabra" and just have them be gone. Pain brings you feeling. If
you can feel in no other way, sometimes, in order to capture your
attention as a stubborn human, you create pain to show yourself the
range of your abilities and to bring yourself into life. In this way,
you can feel the richness of being alive.

Most human beings are afraid of their emotional or feeling center; they
are afraid to feel. /Trust your feelings no matter what they are. /Trust
that they lead you to something and that the way you feel can bring you
a realization. You all want to be in life and be removed from it at the
same time. You say, "Let me just be here and be a powerful person, but I
don't want to feel or participate too much because it hurts too much and
then I will get sucked down. I don't trust life."

When you are not afraid of feeling, and you move past judgment and allow
yourself to feel all the ways you feel, you will have a tremendous
breakthrough because you will be able to /ride feeling into other
realities. /Some of you are afraid to feel and participate in this
reality; let alone ride into other realities, because you do not trust
your feelings. If you wish to have an acceleration, dive into something
that brings up feeling. Stop skirting the issue so that you can think
you are in control. Dive in the middle of it and then see if you are in
control.

It's not that you don't know how to feel, it's that you are /afraid of
your feelings. /You don't know what to do with them when you have them.
They bring up a sense of powerlessness within you, so you associate
feeling with a sense of, "Oh, no, I blew it." You have a boundary in
your belief system that states that when something comes up that is
emotional and brings pain or anger, then it is not good. It is time to
stop tiptoeing around things and avoiding your emotions.

Anger serves a purpose. All of you want to get finished with it: you
want to sweep it under the rug and act as if it is no good. You act like
it is rotten vegetables, throw it out, and bury it in the back garden as
if there is no purpose to it. We are emphasizing that there is a purpose
to fear and a purpose to anger. If you would allow yourselves to express
and experience your fears, which might lead to the expression of your
anger, you would learn something. Those of you who want desperately to
avoid fear and anger, and who are really afraid of these feelings, have
something great to learn through these emotions. They are techniques
that move you beyond your personal boundaries of identity and behavior,
and you are simply afraid to experience this.

Most of the time, all you want is to be accepted. You feel that no one
will like you if you do certain things or feel certain ways, so you
don't give yourself permission to have those certain feelings. That is
where the anger comes from. You have anger because you make judgments
about what you can and cannot do. If you do not give yourself permission
to feel, you cannot learn. Feeling connects you with life.

Feelings serve a variety of purposes in human beings. We encourage all
of you to please trust and cultivate and rely on your feelings.
Understand that your feelings are your ticket to ride into
multidimensional realities, where you must go if you are seriously
playing this game. In multidimensional realities, you learn to hold and
focus many different versions of yourself at once. Feelings can take you
to these places, particularly feelings that you trust. Many of you are
very suspicious and masterful over your feelings. You will not allow
certain feelings to come forward, or you judge them when they come up
instead of observing where they take you or what they do for you.

Because you have a fear of something, you keep yourself from
experiencing it because you put up a wall that says, "If I go there, it
is bad." You put the brakes on. In actuality, your fear will eventually
energize the experience into your realm of development because all
thought is drawn into form based on the emotional influence behind it.
So sometimes the greatest thing to do is to simply say, "What the heck,
I will go there. I surrender." Then deal with being there and don't
worry about being centered while you are in your feeling center. If you
intend to go into your feeling center and always be in control, you are
not giving yourself the range of movement that is needed to ride the
emotions that knock down boundaries and belief systems.

The second night I rode the fear until it ran out of gas. I let it do it's thing and clear out. I think this was a breakthrough for me and I released the first of probably many many blocks in my healing process. I'm looking forward to continuing the EE program and I'm going to start the detox program as well. Thanks for reading sorry if it was kind of long.

 

[Voyageur]

Just wanted to relate some things about EE Breathing that I have been experiencing. First, things have been upside down and inside out for a few months; probably most of life if I had cared to really notice. When first learning EE it was difficult to concentrate, find rhythm between exhalations/inhalations and the mind, felt like there was panic between breaths, like when coming out from deep under water, reaching for air. It was like learning how to breath all over again or more aptly how to breath for the first time.

Fast forward; now I look forward to the time alone to work on EE, it has become much more natural to the point that counting is done subconsciously and the breathing has a timed cadence, like a kind of muscles memory, it act much more naturally from when beginning. On the self created con side of things, have been working trying to get a better routine of the EE combinations but seem never to give myself the proper amount of time or can’t discipline myself with the time, like a dharma practice, so need to work on creating the conditions for this. This is an area that is a bit of a frustration as I read many here doing so well, so disciplined and my daily life controls me and not the other way around it so often seems.

On the pro side, really notice when missing a day not breathing now, but in the beginning it was very much an emotional roller coaster that ebbed and flowed without particular reason, coming up from places locked away. Between reading Martha Stout’s book and The Narcissistic Family, any shielding once firmly in place suffered cracks and the programs, the layers, parental, or sibling became apparent in my questions, remembrances and variations of reasoning. The shelters we erect upon are lives are really just made of straw and seeing the holes is no comfort. The more holes that were depicted the more Breathing I did which helped to calm, to take a step back and contemplate these emotional questions.

Lately I have been trying when in stressful situations; Dr. offices, planes, before a meeting and after and even driving, etcetera, to find brief moments to Breath and the effects are so apparent that it is truly a gift to have been given this Breathing technique. For sleeping, EE is much more conducive, especially when taking small amounts of Melatonin. Dreaming is more pronounced and different from the norm which at this point is not exactly quantifiable. Very strangely, remember dreams that seem somehow integrated with forum discussions, small fragments, impressions of a kind of real conversation of various things being discussed – not sure what to make of this.

My prayers are with the cosmic mind to help all who ask become more aware and with patients my work with EE will be to find true integration as is the intent of EE.

Thanks for listening. :)

 

[Ollie]

For my weekly report on the E-E Breathing Meditation programme, let me say that strong tears are winning out over yawning, with zoning out somewhere in between for the daily sessions of pipe breathing and PotS using the audio. Coupling this with verbal recitation of PotS in bed immediately before sleep is paying off: perseverance would appear to be the key.

A shock to the system on Thursday morning at breakfast time, I burnt the outer edge of the palm of my left hand on the end of the handle of a hot skillet that I was getting out of a hot oven. A sharp reminder from my body that urgent Work is required by me for resolution of a ‘burning issue’.

Burns – Anger. Burning up. Incensed.

BURN
EMOTIONAL BLOCK
From a metaphysical perspective, burns are aggressive and violent events in the face of guilt and punishment. The degree of burn (first, second or third) has a direct correlation to the degree of guilt, and the location of the burned tissue reveals the burning issues surrounding it.

MENTAL BLOCK
A burning sensation indicates a burning attitude. Who or what is making you flaming mad? As you would prevent a forest fire by snuffing out the flames, so you must snuff out anger in your own life with a gentle tolerance towards yourself and others. [duly noted] Guilt and punishment have no place in your life and offer nothing positive to contribute to your wholeness.

Since a burn usually happens by accident, I refer you to ACCIDENT.

Accidents – Inability to speak up for the self. Rebellion against authority. Belief in violence.

ACCIDENT
PHYSICAL BLOCK
Because an accident is an unpredictable event, we often believe it happens by pure chance. Increasingly, we are being told, “there are no accidents.” Nothing happens by coincidence. I believe that chance and accidents are tools the Universe (GOD) uses to get our attention. Just make note of what part of the body has been injured and how seriously. …

EMOTIONAL BLOCK
Accidents are interpreted as punishment, as on a deeper level we blame ourselves and accuse our inner-self. We feel responsible for what goes on around us. … Accidents are a way to neutralize our guilt, to punish ourselves. Unfortunately, all of this goes on unconsciously.

MENTAL BLOCK
Your definition of guilt needs to be revised. According to our legal system, a person is declared guilty when it has been proven, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that harm was intended. Each time you blame yourself or feel guilty about something, ask yourself if you intended to do harm. If not, stop accusing yourself in your mind. This will help you to stop punishing yourself with “accidents.”
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Now moving on to the ‘burning issues surrounding’ the burn, the part of the body injured.

Hands – Hold and handle. Clutch and grasp. Grasping and letting go. Caressing. Pinching. All ways of dealing with experiences.
Left side of the body – Represents receptivity, taking in, feminine energy, women, the mother.

HAND PROBLEMS
EMOTIONAL BLOCK
The hand performs a multitude of functions. To determine the metaphysical cause of the pain, examine what it prevents you from doing and what the area of your life seems to be most effected. The hands, as well as the arms, are an extension of the heart region, therefore pain in the hands indicates that what is being done is not being done out of love, especially self-love. The hands must be used to express love for yourself as well as love for others.

The left hand is linked to receiving and the [right hand[/i] to giving. Pain in the hands indicates that you are out of touch with your needs and heart’s desires. You are holding back from doing what you really want to do with your hands.

MENTAL BLOCK
If pain is experienced in the left hand, examine what you feel about receiving. Are you afraid to receive a helping hand? Do you receive with love and gratitude or do you feel that you are obliged to return the favor in order to avoid looking ungrateful or selfish? Do you believe it is impossible for someone to give you something without wanting something from you in return? Your belief system is creating an obstacle to enjoyment. Learn to receive graciously and openly, with the understanding that you are a special person whom others like to give to and you deserve it.
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I understand the ‘holding back from doing what you really want to do with your hands’: I’ve been experiencing a loss of what, for me, is the way forward, what my role is. This is a priority for resolution (and already in the process of successfully sorting) as of today.

Well, for me the ‘‘burning’ issue’ is about letting go of the deep, deep protection my inner-self has put in place, through early childhood trauma, by dissociating all of my emotions from me. I guess, I’ve been ignoring all the progressive work that PotS has been putting in place for me, and still blaming my-self for a lack of discernable progress; blaming my-self and feeling guilty for this: punishing my-self. This would tie in with ‘afraid to receive a helping hand’; I need to receive graciously ad openly for what is happening at deeper levels outside of my consciousness.

Patience and perseverance, I know, are the keys to unlocking success now.

All in all, a salutary lesson for me to learn from.

Also, at long last! The new mind supplements are beginning to work: bathroom visits reduced by a factor of two; sleep periods beginning to be long enough for the unconscious mind to work on repairing the body; and more energy available for the day’s activities. Which is good as the ‘mountain walking season’ is only a month or so away. A good week for mind, body and spirit.

Patience and perseverance is paying off.

 

[endescent]

Hey folks, had the house to myself this afternoon and decided to do my first full run through the program. So far the only physiological changes I've experienced are feelings of energy accumulated in my body, and a little light-headedness, and at the end of the meditation following Laura's "Divine Cosmic Mind Bless You All", I think I just opened myself up at that point to the "emotional release" that others have been talking about.

I had a good sobbing session, and I had to go into the other room to get a pillow because I foolishly forgot to get one beforehand. I punched the pillow a few times, not so much in an angry way, more of a "why? Why?! WHY?!" sort of way. Then I hugged the pillow and just basked in the feeling.

Thank you for this program, I look forward to doing it when I can to facilitate the cleansing process. I will share my future experiences as they come.