Yesterday's session was unusual. During the BaHa portion I felt energy constantly moving up and down my spine, as well as through my arms and legs, accompanied by gentle convulsions. It's that kind of energy that's not easy to bear, sometimes it tickled, but mostly it was as if the energy traveling through my spine was stronger than my own energy. I also felt that tight spot in my left side again, as well as a spot in my spine, which felt like an open wound. I've been feeling that spot in my spine for quite a few weeks now and it's unpleasant. It's the same spot I once saw in an inner vision as being the feeding tube to 4D STS. Of course I cannot know whether this is objective.
During the meditation I fell asleep only to awake in that state which is between dream and being awake. Shortly before I was dreaming a scene which I know to be a warning sign for an entity experience. So I 'awoke' into that semi-awake state and had that humming sound in my head again, which I've always had when it came to something I understood as "expelling an entity". For this to happen however I am to concentrate on that humming, vibrating sound in my head so that it dramatically increases until it reaches a peak, which signifies that the entity is being expelled. (Sorry for all that subjective jumble -- I know I have no way of telling whether what I 'understand' from these things is even close to truth.) This time however I couldn't make that sound increase.
So there was an entity in my room and close to me, holding wih an iron grip onto my blanket and pulling it. I was pulling, too, but couldn't make it release the blanket. I tried to throw it out of my room, but it didn't work. Later my room was full of other critters, I was surrounded by them and was fighting them off. It was really frightening this time.
All the while I was feeling that "open wound" on my spine and the humming sound in my head. When I finally awoke I could still feel the entity's presence to my right side. It all felt very real, and the whole entity experience lasted really long, and I slipped into dream states in between, but describing it all would be too much for this post.
When I awoke for real, I was lying there for a long time and I thought about how ignorant I've been in having been thinking all this time that I was 'alone', while I'm actually being surrounded by critters and just don't see them. It also worried me that this time no "entity expelling" had happened, and I was still feeling it right next to me.
Not sure whether this actually was about an attachment, or whether it represented something in my psyche. It could also have to do with an alleged ghost in the house.
In any case, I feel that "open wound" on my spine even now and very intensely. Yesterday night I had to search for a specific pillow with grains inside and was laying with my back on it, in order to even be able to sleep at all. It helped to feel pressure there, otherwise it wasn't bearable.
(the edit was an accident, nothing's changed)
