Éiriú-Eolas - Breathing Program

[Oxajil]

During the meditation of my last full EE session I saw a beautiful vivid purple color. First I saw it as (slimey) droplets falling down, but then it moved around. One of the sessions before I saw a green color. Quite funny!

My sessions lately haven't been so much releasing, but more balancing and relaxing.

 

[Turgon]

To give an update on what's been happening on EE, other than zoning out with just about everyone else at a group EE class a few weeks ago, the sessions have been fairly uneventful. What is noticeable lately, is how I feel and think afterwards. I do notice I don't react as much to situations as negatively as I normally do, and when I'm running programs, I can catch see them a bit better and not identify with them as much.

Also, emotionally, for some reason, I feel like crying sometimes. I'm not really sure why, but certain things will cause me to get teary-eyed. Scenes in a movie, or even just melancholy (from my perspective) situations in life that bring up bittersweet emotions. I've realized how much I've buffered and denied the emotional aspect of myself for pretty much as far back as I can remember. So I'm not sure if I'm starting to connect with my feeling centre or not. Because if it's the case, it's uncharted territory for me.

 

[Zadius Sky]

An EE update:

Usually, I've zoned out during the Ba-Ha portion and came back during the middle of POTS or after. Last Friday, I didn't zoned out but when I got to POTS, I got this image of being in a cave when a dawn came and there's this another person across from me (about 15 feet or so) wrapped a thick blanket around themselves, sitting. He/She moved their head toward the cave opening when the light came in (to my left).

As for crying, over week ago, I cried during the POTS as it seems to only happens once.

 

[Aiming]

An EE update:

Usually, I've zoned out during the Ba-Ha portion and came back during the middle of POTS or after. Last Friday, I didn't zoned out but when I got to POTS, I got this image of being in a cave when a dawn came and there's this another person across from me (about 15 feet or so) wrapped a thick blanket around themselves, sitting. He/She moved their head toward the cave opening when the light came in (to my left).

As for crying, over week ago, I cried during the POTS as it seems to only happens once.

That reminds me of how I recently saw an image during the meditation: I was in a cave of rock. In the cave it's dark and the rock is strong. But the front opens to a beautiful beach and ocean. What I 'got' from it while seeing it was that 'the connection is made, but the rest of the rock represents my work and I need to chisel it away so I'm free of that cave'.

As for crying, I've recently felt like crying just like that; these were short events in all-day life and mostly about gratefulness and also sadness.

Also, I recently introduced my studying course to pipe breathing. In each class we have at least one break in which we do some sort of exercise: either body stuff or visualisations coupled with breathing. So recently, when our teacher talked about having lots of stress I said I know a really helpful exercise for relieving stress. They were really interested, so I showed it to them.

 

[Graalsword]

During the meditation of my last full EE session I saw a beautiful vivid purple color. First I saw it as (slimey) droplets falling down, but then it moved around. One of the sessions before I saw a green color. Quite funny!

My sessions lately haven't been so much releasing, but more balancing and relaxing.

In my case, when I see colours I see purple more often, sometimes green too, or blue. I don't know why.

 

[Bim]

I've recently bought the EE dvd/cd and so far i've been focusing on getting pipe breathing and just regular belly breathing down before moving forward (because i realized i didnt breathe right!), but i did watch the second part in order to get familiar with the rest after a couple of days of practice.

Will let u all know how it goes, i'm very excited to get going to the next part, and even got my mom to watch it with me so that hopefully i also get her doing EE ;D

I do find myself wondering how long i should practice before jumping into it fully... any recommendations?

 

[pete02]

I've recently bought the EE dvd/cd and so far i've been focusing on getting pipe breathing and just regular belly breathing down before moving forward (because i realized i didnt breathe right!), but i did watch the second part in order to get familiar with the rest after a couple of days of practice.

Will let u all know how it goes, i'm very excited to get going to the next part, and even got my mom to watch it with me so that hopefully i also get her doing EE ;D

I do find myself wondering how long i should practice before jumping into it fully... any recommendations?

I would start the full program now Bim. Practice makes perfect and if it becomes too much you can always put it off for a few days. Remember the full program should be done only twice a week (preferably Mondays and Thursdays) but you can practice the pipe breathing, warrior's breath and Prayer of the Soul as much as you like. From some of the classes I've attended I've learned that warrior's breath is good in the mornings for a wake up call and the Prayer of the Soul should be done every night before bed. Pipe breathing you can practice anytime you get the chance. If you should find that your not breathing properly during the program just focus and pick back up on the next breath. Don't think that just because you didn't breathe right a couple of times it won't work because as long as you focus and keep trying it will. Eventually with your body's responses you'll know that your doing it right. Remember in through the nose, out through the mouth and always belly breathe. ;)

 

[Bim]

Thanks a lot for the input, Pete... i'll jump right in and get going then! :D

 

[Gawan]

To give an update of the last weeks. At the moment I'm trying to do full EE one time in the week, cause at the moment I'm at some points pretty tired and need to take a nap in the middle of the day, if it's my working schedule allows it.

So far I had quiet some releases/tears in the last weeks: old memories for example, also during the prayer before going to bed for example.

What was interesting, in a session about three weeks ago, there got a knot untied. It was on the one hand an internal picture mixed with a tiny knot from a line that was over my bed.

The next weeks full-time-meditation something reoccurred and I think it is related with a past live experience.

Where I saw a stake again with person in there burning (I guess this has been me) and also some pictures came up what happened before. That -they- took me to bring me to the stake and there were two cute kids (girls), I guess these ones have been mine, and they didn't understand why they have come after me and I couldn't explain it to them and also had not the chance to say goodbye to them. Well, I still see the faces of the kids and it brings again some tears up.

The burning itself was also painfull and afterwards somehow also releasing (I cannot fully describe it, it's a pain and it is not), where my body shook and also the solar plexus seemed to be wide open, sweating, heating and silent crying.

Also when this is such a long time ago, these pictures still cause sometimes sorrowfulness.

Today I did whisper the prayer to myself again, where I could concentrate much better, also just moving the tongue without saying anything helped me to concentrate better.

 

[ursula]

I would like to share my experience with you.
Yesterday I did the hole program. It was really hard for me because I had such a strong pressure in the area of the solar plexus. I couldn't inhale fully. It was hard to concentrate on the counting and the belly breathing. Then a sensation of heat came up. I could not relax until the end.

Today I woke up. Everything seemed ok. Then I started to work and after a while I got this pressure again. I was a little bit afraid. I couldn't even sit. I stood up and made some stretching exercises. And then I started with EE again, but this time I laid down. So I had very little pressure in this area.
After the session the pressure was gone.

Did someone have similar experiences?

In the last weeks I was not very disciplined with doing EE. And I have an exam at the end of July.
Maybe this could be a reason why I am so tensed!?

 

[Liberty]

This is the first week in many months that I have gone back to working with the full EE session. I have had a major block in my life emotionally. Physically I have had pain and creaky joints. Shoulders tender and neck very stiff more so on the right and a pretty constant block or pressure and buzzing in ears.

Sundays session, left ear only blocked which eased eventually by the end of the last faster part of the Baha session, whole of body felt clearer and relaxed. Rest of week right ear has been blocked , pressured and buzzing and feels tender and inflamed unable to clear for any length of time.
During the Baha today a lot of tears at the start. Then there came a point when I was half way through the Baha, it felt like a wall was all around me and right up close to my face. Then the wall was inside me which was quite scary and I had to breath deeper to work through this pushing this obstacle out of me and out of my way.

In the past I have felt that the Baha part was too long and was wishing it to be over or at times stopping as my nose felt like it couldn't cope with the amount of air that was trying to pass in and out. This week I have found myself surprised to hear Laura's voice and the pots session beginning. At last the Baha has begun to be an established and welcome part of EE.

My joint pain does seem to come and go from one day to the next and so think that I should also be checking diet again and probably cutting the night shade group of foods, so will need to again review recipes and meal ideas as a life with no potatoes, tomatoes, aubergine is getting emptier and my weight loss is on going.

Any advise greatly appreciated.

 

[pete02]

In the past I have felt that the Baha part was too long and was wishing it to be over or at times stopping as my nose felt like it couldn't cope with the amount of air that was trying to pass in and out. This week I have found myself surprised to hear Laura's voice and the pots session beginning. At last the Baha has begun to be an established and welcome part of EE.

Just a quick check Liberty but you are breathing in through the nose and out through the mouth right? The whole EE program works that way.

 

[cubbex]

I feel stuck... I need to understand more. Let see if EE helps me again, I am reading but feel like there's nothing new, I think I'm going to get that polyvagal theory as a good challenge.

 

[Hesper]

Also, emotionally, for some reason, I feel like crying sometimes. I'm not really sure why, but certain things will cause me to get teary-eyed. Scenes in a movie, or even just melancholy (from my perspective) situations in life that bring up bittersweet emotions. I've realized how much I've buffered and denied the emotional aspect of myself for pretty much as far back as I can remember. So I'm not sure if I'm starting to connect with my feeling centre or not. Because if it's the case, it's uncharted territory for me.

I have been feeling the same thing, Turgon. It really is like walking off the deep end, isn't it? All of a sudden, even if it's for a moment, life feels real, and often when this happens it hurts, but I want to feel more anyways. And for me all of a sudden there's a sense that I better not show my feelings, or better hide them better, because someone may be watching. This is uncharted territory, but we'll just have to keep breathing and remember that we can always share those feelings here, even if we have to hide them when we're "away". One step at a time, right?
Yard by yard and life's real hard, but inch by inch and life's a cinch :)

 

[Turgon]

Also, emotionally, for some reason, I feel like crying sometimes. I'm not really sure why, but certain things will cause me to get teary-eyed. Scenes in a movie, or even just melancholy (from my perspective) situations in life that bring up bittersweet emotions. I've realized how much I've buffered and denied the emotional aspect of myself for pretty much as far back as I can remember. So I'm not sure if I'm starting to connect with my feeling centre or not. Because if it's the case, it's uncharted territory for me.

I have been feeling the same thing, Turgon. It really is like walking off the deep end, isn't it? All of a sudden, even if it's for a moment, life feels real, and often when this happens it hurts, but I want to feel more anyways. And for me all of a sudden there's a sense that I better not show my feelings, or better hide them better, because someone may be watching. This is uncharted territory, but we'll just have to keep breathing and remember that we can always share those feelings here, even if we have to hide them when we're "away". One step at a time, right?
Yard by yard and life's real hard, but inch by inch and life's a cinch :)

I know what you mean. We start to get a semblance of emotion, something real inside us but all of a sudden that 'manly' program takes over and we have to hide, suppress it, pretend it doesn't exist. I think there's a certain vulnerability in these emotions that's both scary and liberating because it's the unknown, at least for me. You spend so much time trying to be in 'control' and you realize how little you have and how at the mercy we are to everything around us. I've been meaning to write a post about it for a while (other than the quick post above), but sometimes, getting from the emotions to the mind to the fingers to typing definitely feels like broken telephone. My analytical side dilutes the emotions into wordiness and whatever was true or honest emotionally has been taken over and doesn't wring true in the writing.

But thanks, really.