Some new experience and some help please:
I am more fearful in the last time.
I tend to think that it is related to EE and I would be very pleased if there are
somebody with an advice if this could be some sort of dissolution/solving/break-up (sorry, don't know the appropriate word in English for that) or so?
Not that I can't bear it but I can't control it and I am normal not THAT fearful.
I would also appreciate an advice how to handle with such a situation (Just let-it-be or something like that? Will it go away from alone when time goes by by doing EE regularly?)
For Example:
I am laying in bed at night, hear some noises, nothing spectacular, but seemingly something inside interprets this noises as "danger", and suddenly my heartbeat increased, I felt "fear" in my hole body, I said to myself to calming down: "Hey, the door is locked, and it sounds just like a car on the street or so", but it doesn't really help and I don't understood this fear. Some minutes later the "same game" again, my adrenalin-level got so high that I got up, smoking a cigarette and reading a bit. (would like to add that I am now reading "In an Unspoken Voice", by Peter Levine, some of the written touched me that evening and some tears came up, but with no special thoughts or so)
Or last week, I saw a flash in front of the house (I was inside), I started screaming and running, and heartbeat increased tremendous. (But I am generally fearful of thunderstorms)
Or sometimes, when I am for example reading and my telephone rings, I startle up. For no current reason.
Thank you!