Following your advice has been very helpful @Nienna
All this time, it has been almost a chore to make it through certain portions of the program; most notably the Breatha portion. I think I may have been breathing a little too aggressively, because by the end of that process my body would sometimes be vibrating so intensely that I felt “stuck” in the position I was in for a minute or two, and had to allow that vibrating sensation to dissipate before I could continue into the meditative phase.
Today, the entire program was almost effortless for me, and I got a better understanding of just how beneficial this will be after performing EE in its entirety the correct way. I still look forward to attending an online group session once my schedule aligns with one of the classes, but as of now I’m fairly confident that I’m doing this the right way.
Also a side note: my repressed emotions definitely have been brought to the surface, but it has been during the meditation that I’ve experienced this. Three sessions ago I experienced an overwhelming outpouring, but it was followed by a feeling of joy/appreciation that I haven’t felt in such a long time. I felt so thankful to be here and to have the opportunity to learn and share my lessons and experiences of soul growth and development. The peace felt in those brief moments were nothing short of extraordinary. And the session before the one I did today was also the first time I experienced the “zoning out” phenomenon during the POTS meditation. I was a little confused when I came back to my senses, but yet again, felt an intense surge of happiness and contentment.
I think I’m finally on the right track here, but I’ll know for sure once I have the opportunity to attend one of the online meetings.
Thanks for all of the advice that’s been shared here!