Last week’s experiences of the Breathing-Meditation programme, are less about during the programme and more about between sessions.
In session, I still am tending to drift off (zoning out) during the Ba-Ha breathing, and still zoning out soon after Laura starts to recite the Prayer of the Soul.
Whilst away at the weekend, on the Saturday I managed to mildly strain my back whilst picking up a towel off the floor after emerging from a hot shower. And experienced a twinge in my right leg above the knee.
According to Louise Hay in ‘You Can Heal Your Life’, the right hand side is about ‘letting go’, and lower back problems are about ‘fear of money, lack of financial support’. OK, I can relate to the latter having just started early retirement.
From Lise Boubeau, in ‘Your body’s telling you: Love yourself!’
For Back pain,
Emotional Block
Pain and disability in the lower back (sacral region) at the base of the spine indicates fear of losing your freedom when others need your help. Your freedom is “sacred.” Often enough, you fear for your own survival.
Mental Block
Pain in lower back: … You may begin to realize that you are afraid that others will not be there for you or that they may take advantage of you as before. These fears keep you from giving, which consequently prevent you from receiving. If you feel your survival is at stake, realize that it is simply your emotional dependence that generates this fear and keeps you from believing that you can’t survive alone. You have all the tools to take care of yourself.
For Thigh problems,
Emotional Block
… pain in the thigh indicates restraining of the life force and blocking of vitality and joy. Fear of going forward, of enjoying life to its fullest is the underlying psychological cause.
Mental Block
... body’s way to bring attention to your need to play and have fun with a simplicity that integrates the needs of your childlike and adult selves. Your body is urging you to go forward in the knowledge that you are the master of your own destiny and no longer the echo of your father’s or your mother’s voice.
Also, I’ve recently become aware that I ma dropping (letting go) things (safely – nothing breaks or is broken as a consequence). Perhaps my body is telling me to let go.
I recall from a previous C’s session that the C’s told Laura to keep ‘flushing’, well, my experience of the last few days is that, ‘flushing’ is often at times that are: ‘other than convenient – time and place-wise’ (again in a ‘safe fashion’) – it happens as if there is ‘no control’. Perhaps my Motor centre is showing the way for my Lower Emotional centre to follow? It seems that the message is about letting go of my emotions.
Whilst eating lunch at my Mother’s house on Monday, I became aware of what appeared to be a darkly dressed man walking from the back gate, passed the French windows, to the back door – there was no one physically there, and then it happened again a minute later – needless to say there was no-one physically there, again. What is this about?
In terms of Laura question; whilst having experience of breathing techniques, facilitating individuals and groups, my meditation skills are less well pronounced - certainly not with other people in a group. I could lead and teach, but from what grounded basis, if I feel it lacking in myself.