I had an different/new experience with Beatha breath, last time I did it was like 6 months ago, from physiological secondary effects –dizziness, cramps- that left me in an state of nervousness and anxious with psicological secondary effects that left me with similar states, I found myself pretty much avoiding it. Last time, one of the psychological effects was that I realized that I, in the present and past, did not like my life –although, I think I need post/work this issue, I am not doing it now.
Yesterday, after coming from work, I noticed I was in a gloom mood, worries from work, bad sales, the march's (encountered feelings about it), this country –since I have the use of reason- is very unequal, unjust, corrupt, etc … since August, we have been having teachers from CNTE (non official syndicate against education reforms) _http://www.excelsior.com.mx/comunidad/2013/09/04/917093, FUL-APPO groups (United front for the reconstruction of the popular assembly of the towns of Oaxaca), Barzonistas _http://www.excelsior.com.mx/comunidad/2013/09/05/917192 reached this week to the city. There are a lot of mass movements, what complainers complain, is fair; problem is, the city allows them to complain affecting many people directly, imagine a campament –with all the problems it has (smells-they do not have efficient wc’s, garbage, etc…- in front of your business for 2 months, your sells dropped, and you still have to pay to providers, taxes, salaries, services, etc., nowadays people complain from others that complain _http://tlalpan.info/2013/10/30/protestan-comerciantes-en-el-angel-por-planton-de-la-cnte-cierran-de-nuevo-negocios-tlalpan/, doing march's too. Or imagine that you need to take a flight, but no, it is impossible, traffic in the city is upside down, and once you get near the airport, no, too bad to you, is not allowed, teachers had blockade it. Or you need to get to work, no, too bad to you, you are stop in traffic., etc, etc, etc,. Sorry for the off topic, I thought it could help to understand my frustration? But as always with everything it could be worst, like cities in Syria.
AH! Another curious thing happend, I received a gift, from the florist, I see him every day in an avenue at night, he give me one rose, it improve my mood somehow, I thank him and to the universe, just when I was feeling gloom, I receive a flower, I love flowers. :)
So then, yesterday, It was in my mind to do the Tubular, Warriors and Meditation from EE program, but with other worries –other pendings that I still have to do, I was with the intention of not doing EE, until there was a moment that I realized that, time for it wont come back either, so I did it. After Warrior’s, somehow my body move to lay down and do the Beatha, it surprises me, because it was not my intention, sometimes body knows best? … and I did it. After it, I felt something curious, I felt energized? … that is the more accurate word I could find for describing that state, like when you start your car and is ready to run?, then I enter to meditation and zoned out.
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