Chu said:
Thank you Chu.
OK, I'll will open new therad with the topic about making own food and tobacco in Croatia (for people who are interested in such things), but in a little while when I can present real results and possible problems.
Sorry for not understanding correctly importance of that what Saša asked of me. I had a impression that is most important to explain ongoing programs and biases in my head, but I'll try to explain it as best possible what I learned from spirit board experiment.
Experiment ended after we found out that we are lying ourself, actually that we a probably in direct danger since communicating with elementals (I must say I still don't understand this part totally but that little what I can understand is giving me goose bumps), but I'm grateful with all my heart that Laura asked C's about it.
I will try to write in chronological order what I learned thanks to the mistake involving our experiment, and thanks to the fact I was banned from the forum.
1. Ouija board is dangerous in a hands of ignorant and egoistic operators, that is myself.
2. Curiosity is dangerous if mixed with the ego.
3. Stupidity is no excuse for life threatening episodes.
4. There is no better place to learn about STO but in this forum.
5. There is no better organization on the world but FOTCM.
6. Nothing is more valuable than extended family in FOTCM, once you lose it, feels like dying. Nothing can heal this wound.
7. It is possible to kill ego with networking on the forum, it hurts less than being banned from the FOTCM and forum, and that one must do it all allone.
8. Situations that ego perceive as a bad things, are usually situations with valuable lessons, if not fighting ego, lessons are not learned, and than must learn it on much harder way.
9. Although there is no time, just a 3D illusion of it, I can not return 4 years back and I will have to live with the notion that I'm slow learner, and that could be a problem in the future.
10. I was a vampire especially when impatient and reckless, and whenever vampire was active I had feeling of hole in my stomach, blurred vision, and I was addicted shopingholic.
11. The vampire beast in me is now popping up only after the bite of another vampire. I gave information to my mother and people in my household to tell me whenever vampire is active in order to fight it. Most of the time I can see it by myself, but sometimes when I'm extremely tired or when having strong migraines and have to work it pop ups. This is ongoing situation I'm figting with.
12. Flight is not an option when among the forum members, there is no option for networking.
13. Cowardice is not excuse for making life threatening mistakes.
14. Never listen to the lazy "I's" these are false personalities.
15. Guilt is a good thing if serves as a constant reminder never again to do the same mistake, or anyting remotely stupid and dangerous.
16. Don't listen to the family member who is saying "you can do everything you want." That means family member don't think at all.
17. Dissociation is not a help to survive trough negative experiences, that is a sign to wake up and work on a mind garbage.
18. When expecting freebies, one become free lunch.
19. Never take friendship for a granted.
20. Learn to say sorry and never do the same mistake again.
21. If you don't understand something, ask for explanation, no big deal if you have dyslexia, dysgraphia, dyscalculia, learn to live with it.
Right now I'm fighting with: 8, 9, 11, 13, 17 and 21.
I lost any wish to play with spirit board, and to be honest, it is scary to know that Ouija is sold all around the world as a "game."
The points I mentioned in upper parts of the posts bothered me for last two and half years, the biggest motivation to fight the programs I mentioned was mistake I did with Ouija board and regret about it. Please forgive me not to writing whole novel how did I come to upper conclusions, because it is really hard to put 27 months of work in one post.
Please ask me whatewer needed, I'll be happy to answer any question and to give more feedback.
