Wow, this is shocking to say the least.
Sasa, I'm also curious to know what compelled you to take up this experiment. Have you read all of Laura's works like the Wave and Adventure series that talks about the channeling process? Watch the
knowledge & being video or read on the forum on the topic like these threads
http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,20506.0.html
http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=6439.0
before you decided to experiment on your own? If you have read the material, it's very shocking that your conclusion would be to take up this very dangerous experiment on your own with no networking. And if you haven't, that's even more shocking, because you've basically gone to uncharted territory without a map or knowledge base.