From sitting.
You've read all the transcripts. And the emotion this material has engendered in you is disgust. Yes?
No no no!....funny, i just re-read the whole thread and got to my last post and thought I may have answered your question totally wrong... :O...when you asked;
Assuming you've read all of the transcript material, what kind of feelings & emotions does it engender in your being?
i somehow thought it was two questions....1. Have you read all the transcripts? and 2. what kind of feelings does
hope(I mistakenly injected that word into your Q, since that was the subject at hand) engender?...I'm sorry sitting , i split your question and answered what i thought you asked...similar to Joe's question.....gez, i shouldn't post when I'm tired and hungry, sorry about that.
To the question you really asked....wow!...not sure if i can answer that. I guess it depends on what their talking about....many, many different emotions. When they speak of nasty things and nasty people and being controlled it makes me angry, and yes some times disgusted, when they speak of some things like the futility of 4d sts plans yes, it gives me "hope". ( I take it that's the response you were angling for?) ...but those emotions are connected to the subjects being discussed.
Please understand that that hope doesn't stay with me long...even if i try my best to "believe" that what they say is really true , i still can't be certain....and i don't think anyone here has, or encourages, 100% certitude in what they say anyway.
The truth is that I've lost the ability to believe
anything! ...I can assign probabilities, but "belief", defined as being certain of something without ant real evidence, is not something i can do anymore....maybe I've been burnt too many times, and it doesn't seem to matter weather it was from my own stupidity or anothers, the damage is done. When i was young i was
so totally naive. I thought most everyone was good and honest. I couldn't even conceive of the kind of things people do to each other....until they started happening to me. It then took a long time and lots of abuse till i realized the truth about this world and the "creatures" that inhabit it. The wounds do heal, but the scars are there forever.
So to try and answer your question, "What does it engender in your being"...i guess you got me...it is hope, but not for this world. It is hope of moving on to the next world where people treat each other with dignity and respect. Where the golden rule is like breathing...that is, something you have to do just to exist there, ya know?...a place where the shape of ones heart is as transparent as the finest crystal.
As for this world...i still think its f***ed....and i feel there is an
extremely low probability that it can be fixed....so for now I still have to agree with my dead friends, Joe B. and John T....hope is for suckers, served up by psychos, so you sit around and hope while they destroy and eat everything they can. I really do hope I'm wrong about that....and i hope i didn't bring you all down too much with my opinion...but you did ask....I gotta go sleep now. Good night friends and thanks, Dave