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The Living Force
I've been drifting for a while in life, and made a choice last year that I was going to make a radical change in my life. The plan was to draft up the 300 or so short stories I'd compiled during a fruitful fertile period where new ideas were tumbling over me. I went a bit silly in 2014-16, and used to get stoned quite a bit. Not every day, but the occasional splurge. I gave that particular period a big place in my journalling, as I am the kind of person who has to write thoughts down, and I was painting and drawing quite a lot and co-working at an art studio in my home town. Anyway long story short, last year I loaded up the USB stick where I'd logged ideas from my journals, I drew up the synopsis for about 300 short stories. Just the bare bones to develop the ideas. Surprisingly decent ideas for strange and quirky tales, mainly focused on characters rather than plots. The plan for 2023 was to write these all up to a decent standard.
I've put the plan into effect this year, but progress has been slow. I'm struggling a little to find enthusiasm for some tales. Bearing in mind that these ideas were first jotted down a decade ago basically, so they seem a bit old. I've learned a little this year about procrastination and the value of a work ethic. I came up with a little quote a few years back, "When talent fails, Hard Work prevails". The idea was to give myself a little nudge to develop my effort level more. I'm lucky in that I have access to a private room where I can work. Just me, a laptop, about 400 books and 500 CD's, in a little one bed room. I've used this room for writing, painting and music for 15 years. But this year I've averaged about 2 hours a day of work. That's a less than satisfactory effort level from me. I procrastinate often, even coming up with new story ideas rather than drafting the current tales I've got on the go. It's been a trait of mine since school, to come up with cool ideas but not follow them up with the perspiration. And it's proven to me that the hard effort, free from any ego glamour, is where the real ability is dwelling. And it can be very intense psychologically to be in that particular zone for any length of time. So my work of late has been finding greater will and effort, while dealing with reflexive traits dating back to 1990 times. It's proven to be a bigger challenge than I originally thought, but progress is still there. I want to double that 2 hour working session per day, then I think I'll be dealing with the stalling and procrastination.
So much work ahead, and dealing with the intensity of the psychological state when working is the main challenge for me right now. Coffee and cigs have been a regular venting point throughout this process. Couldn't really function that well without them that's for sure. I can't fathom how I dealt with the intensity of my writing work as an undergraduate, I could write essays in a furious 10 hour session when I was younger. Now I know and understand more, but I do less. I have to overcome such hesitation in order to achieve something in this project. What I've done so far is good in my view, and I'm my harshest critic. I'm learning a fair bit about what I'm made of by doing this, and I'd recommend written work to all forum members, it gets different parts of the brain working. Not sure if I've quite grasped a new understanding, but I have developed a healthy dose of humility, not getting carried away with ideas and having to be more pragmatic in terms of completing drafts. Truly, when talent fails, hard work prevails. What has impressed me most was discovering that I have a smaller stress threshold these day than when I wrote essays 25 years ago. But the mind is a muscle, and the idea now is to give it a more thorough work out each day now and get a bit more done. Onwards and upwards, and learning truly is fun if you make what interests you most your passion.
I've put the plan into effect this year, but progress has been slow. I'm struggling a little to find enthusiasm for some tales. Bearing in mind that these ideas were first jotted down a decade ago basically, so they seem a bit old. I've learned a little this year about procrastination and the value of a work ethic. I came up with a little quote a few years back, "When talent fails, Hard Work prevails". The idea was to give myself a little nudge to develop my effort level more. I'm lucky in that I have access to a private room where I can work. Just me, a laptop, about 400 books and 500 CD's, in a little one bed room. I've used this room for writing, painting and music for 15 years. But this year I've averaged about 2 hours a day of work. That's a less than satisfactory effort level from me. I procrastinate often, even coming up with new story ideas rather than drafting the current tales I've got on the go. It's been a trait of mine since school, to come up with cool ideas but not follow them up with the perspiration. And it's proven to me that the hard effort, free from any ego glamour, is where the real ability is dwelling. And it can be very intense psychologically to be in that particular zone for any length of time. So my work of late has been finding greater will and effort, while dealing with reflexive traits dating back to 1990 times. It's proven to be a bigger challenge than I originally thought, but progress is still there. I want to double that 2 hour working session per day, then I think I'll be dealing with the stalling and procrastination.
So much work ahead, and dealing with the intensity of the psychological state when working is the main challenge for me right now. Coffee and cigs have been a regular venting point throughout this process. Couldn't really function that well without them that's for sure. I can't fathom how I dealt with the intensity of my writing work as an undergraduate, I could write essays in a furious 10 hour session when I was younger. Now I know and understand more, but I do less. I have to overcome such hesitation in order to achieve something in this project. What I've done so far is good in my view, and I'm my harshest critic. I'm learning a fair bit about what I'm made of by doing this, and I'd recommend written work to all forum members, it gets different parts of the brain working. Not sure if I've quite grasped a new understanding, but I have developed a healthy dose of humility, not getting carried away with ideas and having to be more pragmatic in terms of completing drafts. Truly, when talent fails, hard work prevails. What has impressed me most was discovering that I have a smaller stress threshold these day than when I wrote essays 25 years ago. But the mind is a muscle, and the idea now is to give it a more thorough work out each day now and get a bit more done. Onwards and upwards, and learning truly is fun if you make what interests you most your passion.