opossum said:Wetroof, you have made an amazingly insightful post!
wetroof said:I feel my mom has amazing STO instincts. her whole life she has been independent, and a hard worker. Always thinking of others etc. In the same way, she believes in a "divine cosmic mind" Grin / god / creator, but refutes organized religions. It is interesting though... she does not go beyond this.
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I asked her the question recently, "what is wrong with organized religions?" or similar in wording. (because you would think someone who takes that stance has done some thinking about it perhaps???" My mom referred to pedophilia in the christian church, but that was the only reasoning besides "it just doesn't feel right..." or "I've always considered myself more spiritual". and then she asked me "do you think I'm a spiritual person" and I was like "Okayyyy.... yes." I then asked her so what is wrong with buddhism, to which she didn't answer. So maybe she isn't really against organized religion, but she says she is... it is strange to me, my mom has these amazing qualities, and intuitive feelings about life, and living life, yet how did she get to these conclusions I wonder somehow...
My question remains,is there any way to "see" true difference or we must work on machine and when machine is clean of all garbage and when person gain awareness then someone will see the true difference or we only have theory and in this life we cant really "see" who is OP.
Al Today said:My question remains,is there any way to "see" true difference or we must work on machine and when machine is clean of all garbage and when person gain awareness then someone will see the true difference or we only have theory and in this life we cant really "see" who is OP.
Nope, not easy to spot an OP, if they can be spotted. Work on your machine and as you learn about yourself, you learn about others... That's what is happening with my experience, fwiw...
daco said:I dont want to bealive in it,I want to truly "see it" or understand it with all my being.
Bud said:I'm just curious, daco. Why is that so very important to you right now? Will it make a difference in how you treat anyone or even yourself?
daco said:It is not "important" right now and will not make any difference,I just put some questions about this subject,I can see truth in this but I cant "see it" or verify it.So if I cant do this I must believe in this like every seriuos reader on this forum but I dont want to believe.
Everybody on this forum (serious readers) "believe" in this without questioning,if we cant see it in practice or understand it on deeper level than why believe in it.
daco said:Everybody on this forum (serious readers) "believe" in this without questioning,if we cant see it in practice or understand it on deeper level than why believe in it.
lord jim said:you'll go somewhere after you pass, but i know that i won't.
Heimdallr said:Your friend, from the descriptions you provided, sounds more like Mouravieff's chimera (lack of emotional center) than organic portal. OPs tend to be more emotional than cold, rational thinkers. I don't think being an OP makes it impossible to believe in life after death.
Bud said:lord jim said:you'll go somewhere after you pass, but i know that i won't.
I understand that you were 'taken aback' and so probably didn't think about it, but it might have been interesting to find out how he thinks he could know something like that with that much certainty.
aleana said:When we have had narcissists for parents and learned at a very early age that is NOT OK to say no because our very survival depended on the “make nice” program, I think it is more difficult later to learn how to say No without feeling great anxiety. And then it becomes part of the false personality - we want to be nice people, unlike our narcissist parents. Finally, we begin to draw these vampires into our lives because they can spot our programs and see we are ripe for feeding. Also I think we draw them because they feel familiar.
scratchpad said:3 sappers
1. My oldest acquaintance which is currently on my 'phonelist' has been sapping me since kindergarten, whom lately I have tried to ignore, not taking phone calls, as I do not know how to say 'you drain the dayligth out of me, leave me be'. He texts me that his dog died, so he had a new hook, I came around to his place to give him a shoulder (to bite into). He utilized every hook in the book and talked without saying anything, now he is back on ignore, which I don't think is the honorable way to end such a relationsship, even though it is one of predation, is this nice guy talk or do we need to make that closing statement? like a clean No or Goodbye without going into explanations.
hooks : old 'friendship', pity and 'throat-chakra domination' accept at some level. Guilt trip of egotism, a ploy so deep and entangled in STS-nature, probably the oldest in the book for the conscientious nature of souled ones.
2. A guy I talk with about spiritual stuff with has that 'solar plexus drain' effect on me (which i described a few places already). The effect became very severe and I mentioned to him, over the course of months, that I felt stunned and 'eaten' in his presence, he finnally asked out in the air (not with heart);'what is it?' and I by reflex reached for 'Unholy hungers' which he went home with, we met again weeks later, he had not read it and said he couldn't really relate to 'psychic vampires', We talked about the effects we have on people but as usual the conversation didn't evolve and now I can't imagine seeing him again, save for collecting my books.
hooks : has an open ear to spiritual theory which is a lure for my need to share about my studies and my free will bending need to impend a change on his relation to non Being.
3. A girl I met whom had that sadness to her (or maybe reflected mine) drew me in, and I showed her my city and we talked at length. She was on leave from a mental-ward and had a skizoidal case of alternative understanding which at that point in my life was refreshing platform. Some years have passed and allthough it seems she is making progress being reintegrated into society, her feeding frenzy in manner of support, in all her relations is clear, money and emotional despair which needs a caring hand is the top ruse she uses to get sympathy. A non intimate relation in the physical sense.
hooks : pity and devotion/dependancy (which I don't want at top level, but on lower ones there is meaning in such exchange)
Note: I have come to see that I am invested in holding these relationships alive by my inner consideration. what I got from dreams this nigth, is that I hold the relationships going by my sexual center's pollen which is dispensed via a narcissistic imprint pattern. I discovered something I would describe as a socket in my back (assemblage point?) through which I will give over to being controlled/ sapped if being handled with 'care' and niceties. So in these bonds there is on my side a desire for reception of love entangled, stockolm syndrome/ narcissist style. These relations keep me in the loop of non Being
Freyr said:...scratchpad said:3 sappers...[SNIP]