I have some similar thoughts as you but also other thoughts that differ.
For one, I’m highly grateful to have my life partner for support and have my back through hard times. We have different skills that compliment each other.
Also, there is a big difference between viewing impending doom and gloom on social media versus leaving one’s house and viewing true reality. Nature, life, beauty all around, I remind myself I’m so grateful to be alive to have this amazing opportunity to experience this life, it’s lessons, that being alive is such a gift. I thank the divine cosmic mind for this gift. That anchors me in the now not a potential apocalyptic future. That future is open but how I invest my energy in the now is most likely affecting what future will manifest.
Preparation can be fun, so many new skills to learn, remember learning is fun. Cultivate your creativity, could be anything from gardening, to woodworking, botanical identification/medicine etc. I’m having fun learning weaving and sewing. I’m even working on a business plan and project, a dream I’ve always had. I live on an island facing potential invasion and war on top of all the other impending chaos. Someone could say, What’s the point if everything will be burned to a crisp? Well, I don’t think there is a definite pre-determined ending. I might as well have fun and create all while I stare into the abyss, that’s my signal to the Universe, not fear but faith.
And if I am burned to a crisp or swallowed by a major earthquake, oh well so be it, onto the next adventure!
Or cultivate other arts, like music, painting or even cooking, all bring beauty and joy to others, brighten their day, help lighten other’s frequency.
Do I still have bouts of fear or a sense of impending doom? Yes. I had that last week, but I chose not to succumb to those feelings. I choose to use my free will to keep working on myself, my programs and swinging the pendulum away from that which stokes fear and bleakness towards gratitude and unconditional love for life and creation.
It’s hard. The more I learn about the truth of our reality, even my own ignorance on all things, it’s so hard. But maybe it’s just a quirk of my own but I refuse to give up the idea that there is a way forward to be forged towards light and a better world after the old has been cleansed, balance.
People who are still attached to the hierarchical materialism programming of this STS realm will have trouble letting go. We all have these programs, connected to what we believe our lives should look like, careers and relationship goals.
If we’re frozen in fear of the future then we’re wasting precious time, which in a way sounds like a STS trap to me. So why not choose to defy the fear or bleakness? That defiance will look different to each of us. It’s that defiance that makes us human, unpredictable and can potentially seed a different timeline. Is this wishful thinking or faith? I don’t know, I’m chooing to believe it’s faith, as the Cs say, Wait and see!
