People say that I am the kindest, most gentle natured person they have ever met. That is my nature.
Win54, I don't think it was your nature or your character that was assessed above but your behaviour and your response to a specific situation. That response doesn't define you as a human being, neither does it negate the positive qualities your friends appreciate. It merely suggests a flaw in your thinking that may lead to trouble - and we wouldn't like to see that.
Usually I prefer to sit in the wings and observe. (...) I seldom make statements for the sake of making noise. I also rarely assume things.
What guarantee do you have that you will be given the opportunity to only observe because this is what you prefer to do? What if you find yourself thrown into the centre of action?
It may be a good idea to overcome the fear of making noise and post more often to allow the network to help you calibrate your thinking, thus gaining more protection. I think it would be a good example of a way to put what you lean into practice which was discussed in the recent session.
What people generally think about me when they don't know me is usually wrong thinking, likely based on their own shortcomings.
I agree that projection is a mistake we all make at times. But in the above part you say that people who know you think you're a kind and gentle natured person, yet those who don't know you usually misjudge you badly. Well, I guess you don't make a good first impression
Also, blaming other people's negative opinion of you on something being wrong with
them is not the best line of defence.
I like to think that there is a chance for me to graduate. That is why I am here. Whether it will be into STS or STO is based on the lessons learned in this and past lives. I would rather expire completely than graduate into an STS4D existence. This is a nightmare!
Well, yeah, it will be based on what you've learned in this and past lives but note that the upcoming upheaval is a part of your lessons in this life too. How well you've coped with it may impact on where you're going next. As the C's said, "invasion happens when programming is complete" so it's likely that we ain't seen nothing yet and
now it's going to get nasty.
And be careful with that "expire completely", it smells of the state of non-being to me and that defaults to STS.
It's not character assassination we're after but helping you adjust your sails. It may be safer to take the network's feedback as a lesson rather than entirely reject it as undeserved criticism from people who don't know you well enough to see your kind and gentle nature and nothing else.
Note that the Ra material says that even some Wanderers were tricked into converting to the STS path. If it's possible to corrupt someone with an STO essence, just imagine how alert those who don't have that advantage have to be.
To sum up, by all means, sit back and watch the show but
do fasten your seat belt!!!