Greetings Everyone,
I received my crystals on the last day of August. As I opened the cardboard box and held the bundle of crystals in the palms of my hands, it felt warm. This warmth gave me a sensation that triggered my emotion to the point where I was sobbing. I really can't say if it stemmed from being overjoy or the long yearning for it's arrival to be finally here. I slowly unraveled each stone with tears flowing down my face, every one of them were SO BEAUTIFUL!!!
The month of August for me has been one tornado after another! Each day it seems, brought new form of chaos pushing my limits to the breaking point. I was in the mist of my parents, who's been married some 51 years, are now wanting separation from each other! So to make a long story short, my dad (a atheist/sociopath)bought a new house and my mother (a Buddhist/stockholm syndrome) and I will be moving in with my brother (a new ager/passive) who also bought a new house. In the meanwhile, we're all still living in the old houses, packing and waiting for the new houses to be vacant. Needless to say, family arguments and temperament were a constant obstacles resulting in name calling and lies being told to pin point who is to be blamed for.
I've learned that if you give a lie what it ask for; the truth, the dark forces increase their influences in ways that knocked me off guard! I found myself with each passing days, expressing more and more from my lower emotion & lower intellect resulting in me doing harm to myself (I broke a ironing board and the pieces hit my foot and it swelled up like a balloon, and the stress level lower my immunity and so I got sick).
And than the dark forces moved it's influences onto, my younger brother (a drug addict/ tyrant ) who sided with my dad, managed to scare my poor mother so badly that she insisted that we go to a hotel in the middle of the night. (that in itself took a toll on my mind, body and soul).
The dark forces didn't stop there, it continued to bring in more re-enforcement! Like a musical chair, it was now my brother (the new ager/passive), he had reached a breaking point with all this chaos, began to attack me verbally with cursing and calling me a WITCH (my dad too have called me that as well)! He also proclaimed by rejecting me, my mother, my dad, my younger brother and told us he didn't want anything to do with this #@%* family anymore, and simply said "have a nice life without me!"
During the mist of this chaos, the dark forces influence my other brother (a family of born again Christians). When he finally got the wind of it all, texted ME a nasty letter!!
I was studded and heartbroken from all that had happened and I was desperately needing some help and some guidance to see me through! As synchronicity would have it, I received what I needed to hear. I happened to find a sticky note in my nightstand one evening and it read; ["One should not "act against" the forces of darkness, but that rather one should "act for" one's own destiny. C's].
I'm still mulling over this passage, citing it over and over, trying to understand it's deeper meaning and how to put it into action. But ever so slowly, I think I'm starting to SEE and HEAR the essence behind the darkness in a way that it did not occurred to me before. I recite "The prayer of the soul" each day and with it comes what I seek in my prayer, a chance to gain knowledge, and it is through lessons (influences created by the dark forces) that can be presented as an opportunity for oneself to learn something from it and at the same time, pay any Karmic dept owed through the inner struggles within, and express it with as much Grace as I am able to do, if any of this makes any sense.
So the timing of the arrival of my crystals came at a moment where crossroads were presented. Now, I am armed with that extra help (connection) in learning my lessons.
I can not express the extend of my gratitude for Laura and the rest of the Crew for all your hard work. I am hornored and privileged to be part of this Tribe. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart.
okiron
