It's been very interesting reading all the responses from everyone here and it's great to see many making a super effort to apply the knowledge shared by Laura and crew. It's very exciting to see were all of this will lead, and the recent threads on evolution and such have been such a powerful antidote.
I wanted to share the odd week I've had, and the company I work at has also had an interesting few months.
I've recently been in school for my Electrical apprenticeship and finished a week ago. I had no idea what was happening with the company I work at but a few months ago my journeyman(call him J) decided to try to sell his house and move out of Vancouver. He told the Owner (call him O) but since the house market in Vancouver is very slow, O didn't really think the house would sell. Despite this though J managed to sell his house and so told O he'd be leaving the company. Now our company is very small, just 3 of us, so if J leaves then we'd have to shut down and I'd need to look for another company. O is also past his 70s so he can't really work hands on. So a few weeks ago O had decided to close down the company by the end of June and was somewhat down about it. Then out of the blue O got in contact with J's first Journeyman (the Journey man that J first apprenticed under some 15 years go) and this new Journeyman decided to take over J's position. This was surprising because O should have retired a long time ago and J mentioned that O looked like he had given up on the company but made a 180 degree change in his attitude. This may not be related to the reality merge but thought I'd share.
So after I finished school, and was recovering from the flue, I think something shifted. Starting on Saturday, out of the blue, my machine lost all it's tendencies to dissociate. I just didn't care for any of it, and have been reading, doing chores, fixing my car, and just being very productive.
This week is the first week back at work, and unfortunately we're working at a mansion loaded with 5G WIFI routers(like 10 or more). Very rich man who seems to love his WIFI. Since I was trying to get my bearings I forgot about the WIFI and carried on as normal. Not much happened on Tuesday but yesterday when I got home it felt like I was being beamed or something. I sat at home and my brain and emotional state just went nuts, like my machine was trying to do all it could to dissociate. I sat and had a battle trying to remain present for a couple hours, until I just got furious and everything stopped. So I then realized I had let my guard down and re-read
this session, as well as the current one, and went to work today keeping all this information in the back burner. Just staying vigilant, reciting POT now and then, and generally being as aware as I could be while anticipating attack, especially through WIFI.
Nothing happened at work, and thankfully now that I'm home I feel like my new self. But after work as I was driving home I came upon an accident. One block from my job site there was group of firefighters trying to resuscitate this man who had gotten into some type of car accident. There was a big moving truck that had a dent on the side and the driver was in the middle of the intersection receiving CPR. It was quite shocking and I think he may be dead, I didn't stick around to find out for certain though and headed home.
On the drive home it dawned on me that it is quite possible that all this time my constant dissociated periods I've been fighting against could have been(in part maybe) due to my lack of vigilance with beaming, especially with WIFI. I'm not entire sure if this is the case, but yesterday's event did not originate from me and I recognize that odd "thirst" for dissociation. Thing is I have read all necessary information to protect myself before(and I feel a little foolish from not recognizing this) but I must have gotten in my own way of absorbing this knowledge and applying it, and networking has been difficult for my machine. I'm not sure if these two events are related though but it could be that whatever may have been beamed at me may have bounced off due to the application of appropriate defenses and caused havoc nearby. Thought again I'm not at all certain if this is the case.
Whatever the case I'll keep on being vigilant and continue this, I think, upward trend as best I can.