Had this same feeling...on and off...since childhood. I tried to brush it off, first thinking it was crazy, then eliminating any deep thoughts as to why by way of distractions and foolishness. Perhaps those distractions (tilting at political windmills, without any knowledge of psychopathy) and embarrassing acts (like joining a conservative Christian church!) were lessons in themselves, possibly preparing me to understand and deal with the dark days to come.Nela said:Also, sometimes, I have a feeling of expectation, like on some deep level I knew all the time what is coming and like whole my life and lessons I have learned were "preparation" for this crucial point. Considering possibility that we all have chosen this point of time and space to be born, this might hold some truth to all people living here and now.
Observing the confused expressions of my friends, co-workers, and neighbors as they try to make sense of dangerously escalating world events, while desperately clinging to their programmed dreams of a savior, be it spiritual (Jesus, with sword in hand, will save me from the tribulation!) or political (Obama or Palin, sword in hand, will take on the bad guys and/or banker swine!) is interesting...and sad at the same time.
Were it not for my past political/spiritual adventures, I probably would be another "believer" whose dreams are about to be crushed...literally in some cases. While I'm far from cleaning out my machine, gaining greater insight into the lies of two controlling systems that are in serious need of being busted wide open via the truth has helped me to be less fearful and to accept "what will be, will be."
Knowledge does indeed protect. That protection is not necessarily for my physical body, but knowledge for my soul...which is more lasting in the long run. :)