It was quite a challenge to get bloodwork today. The power went out on the Peninsula at around 9AM. The battery on the lab machine had a little bit of juice left so they tried to run the blood on it. It worked then ran out of power with only three minutes to go. The power came on about 45 minutes later and they ran it. Her proteins plummeted and her white blood cells were 49,000. Her blood sugar was 458. The pancreatic enzymes had gone down to 400 which was way less but when it plummets like that when it has been high while it seems positive it usually means that the pancreas has shut down. Her stomach was filled with fluid, it was huge. There was a bunch of other stuff the vet said about the bloodwork but I knew it was time after I heard that so was just kind of tuning it out. She looked a lot worse than yesterday that even before the bloodwork came back I knew we would have to help her out of her body. The vet said it was the right thing to do and was glad that I chose that option instead of choosing to try prednisone even though it does not work with diabetes. She said that she just did not want to give up on her until we got the bloodwork back but now that we knew that it was the best choice and that is what she would do if it was her dog.
So we helped her out of her body at around Noon today. I am having an individual cremation done so I can get her ashes back. I won't keep the ashes so as to not trap her soul here and will release her into the surf like I did with Charlie so that she can be anywhere and everywhere.
I think Ruby fought to stay very hard for me but her body just would not work. Even today in such horrible shape that she was in, when I came to her kennel, she sat up and was ready to go and would not lay down and just struggled to remain in a sitting position even thought she was in pain inspite of the pain medication and was panting. I gave her the talk again about going to the light like I explained before and gave her a lot of love.
It is almost 4PM here and it just started snowing here which is unusual for this time of year most especially since we had some sunny days last week. It is Ruby's goodbye.
Thank you so much everyone for the support, information, hugs and love. It means a lot.