mabar said:
Certainly, in my case the karaoke, triggered all self importance, self criticize near to the self gossip, related to evaluations, feeling observed buttons. I had been able to pass other uncomfortabilites like dancing, but not with singing, when I was being a kid, there was this kid's dancing/singing group, and I felt obliged to be part of because, they –other girls from the block wanted to be complete, we used to do our show in whatever reunion/party with adults, I left the other girls being the stars of the show, I remember an uncle yelling me to sing Lauder every time, couldn't/didn't do it. With time and other friends from high-school and university I began to dance by my choice, but not the singing part.
Talk in public, I had done and it does not seems to be that problematic. I'm not sure if that kid's group was the traumatic experience from the past that may have triggered my aversion to sing with public or would be another experience, because I tend to sing sometimes being alone, and sometimes people had told me they had heard it, and I do not feel bad, and had been kept singing, like in the shower or before doing EE. Of course, always trying not to be heard, not successfully it seems.
Thanks for going into further detail. I think I understand what you're getting at.
When I was a kid, I was in plays (performances) at school and as far as I know, had no difficulty with it. I also took dance lessons and at the end of the season, we had a performance in front of an audience. These thins may have been 'easier' because I was on stage with many other people, but I suspect that in my case, age played a more important role as I think tat when we get older (somewhere around adolescence) we tend to care about what others think of us. Even if we don't, it seems that our peers are more willing to point out 'flaws' they perceive in us. This can send one in a downward spiral in terms of self consciousness.
In your situation, from what you've written, I also think that your uncle's response caused you to feel self conscious. I think the moment he called out to you, your perception that he was yelling at you made you feel uncomfortable. This feeling of discomfort was then tied to singing in public in general.
What's great about the book, is that Aron suggests reframing moments like these - perceiving them in a different way. So if you identify as hsp (or even not because you can also do writing exercises suggested in other threads), you may now be able to consider other possibilities like perhaps your uncle thought he was helping you by asking/telling you that you needed to sing louder because everyone wanted to hear you sing. If he didn't want to hear you sing or thought you were a 'bad' singer, he probably would've been more than happy to no be able to hear you. See the difference? :)
mabar said:
I suppose, best remedy would be singing in public, isn't it?, One/me should be brave ... but, I think I prefer to dive head first from whatever height, I was not able to do it neither ever…. On the contrary, if it is chosen the platform of 10 meters, I think I would prefer to sing, though. I suppose it would depend on the level of disliking in question. Too bad is for the purpose of an “evaluation”, it would be better to take it off forever.
Well, this makes me think that those who are fine with singing in public may want to do another activity that is more challenging for them. Dunno.
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@ trendsetter,
I'll try to explain the trait in one way it expresses for me the best way I can. When I read a post on the forum, I don't 'just' read the words but also the underlying context - what is not written. Based on the replies I see others give on various threads in the forum, I can tell to some extent how others read posts as well so I don't reading posts in more than one way is uncommon with this group.
So when I read a post, there aren't just the words on the page but how the post is written. What's being said and more importantly what's not being said. What the feelings are 'behind' the post, if any. What information is attempting to being conveyed and what is consciously or unconsciously hidden.
I may also get a visual image depending upon what is said. So my current understanding of what's going on is that there are many different types of 'languages' that are being perceived. The languages correspond to the senses - the way we perceive information in our environment (sight, sound, taste, touch, smell).
The majority of the information perceived by those with sensory sensitivity issues is non verbal. I don't currently think that information is irrelevant but it may really depend on whether the person can recognize that the language exists, interpret or make sense of it, combine it with other information that already 'exists' and 'newly' perceived information and then translate it into a form that others can understand.
I think people both read and understand this information differently depending upon many different factors (biological makeup, trauma, actual spoken language, programs, etc).
When speaking with people, not only is everything described above taken into consideration, but there is now the added verbal communication and all that entails. I find that when most people speak, they are not really saying what they mean. I do this as well. We are taught from a very young age that this is not okay but yet we must still communicate.
So when someone is speaking, I 'hear' their dreams, their hopes, their fears, their sadness, their anger, etc. In addition to this, there is a weighing and measuring process that takes place - am I able to correctly interpret what I'm reading via my own 'dictionary' or am I putting my own spin on it. In other words, separating what is mine from someone elses. For me, this is a natural and continuous phenomenon.
It's difficult for me to come up with concrete examples because I think that spoken/written language doesn't quite touch it - it doesn't allow for the subtleties and nuances that occur in the various languages of the senses.
luc said:
Basically, I found three things that I think "interfere" with the "diagnosis" or definition of the HSP for me personally:
1. Different types of HSPs
As Aron points out,
there may be different "flavors" of HSPs, not all fall in the stereotype category "totally shy, quiet, conscientious etc.". She makes the distinction between the "pause-to-check system" and the "activation system", the former being the hallmark and defining factor of the HSP. It is the system which "inhibits" us, gets an internal dialogue going, puts us in the "be careful, think"-mode as opposed to the "act now" mode. But there may be different configurations in various types of HSPs. As she writes:
The HSP said:
This two-system explanation of sensitivity also suggests two different types of HSPs. Some might have only an average-strength pause-to-check system but an activation system that is even weaker. This kind of HSP might be very calm, quiet and content with a simple life.
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Another kind of HSP could potentially have an even stronger pause-to-check system but an activation system that is also very strong - just not quite as strong. This kind of HSP would be both very curious and very cautious, bold yet anxious, easily bored yet easily overaroused.
I think the latter description applies very much indeed to myself and explains why there are some contradictions in my responses to the self-test. I also thought of a friend of mine, who I think is clearly an HSP, but whose behavior in some instances is completely the opposite of what is suggested in some of the questions of the self-test. So as always, it is not that black-and-white.
I agree. There seems to be an entire spectrum of how this can present depending upon the individual. What I'm also finding is that there seems to also be some similarities in people considered to be autistic which I find interesting.
luc said:
The HSP said:
You probably had favorite methods of overriding the pause-to-check system if it slowed you too long or often. One way might have been to imitate those with less of it. You just went ahead and god some good things, too, like them, in spite of you caution.
Yes! I might add that more often than not, these weren't good things at all!
Same here! I've found that often when I attempt to override the pause to check system and made decisions before waiting a while to assimilate information, things went horribly wrong!
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For whatever reason, the term 'receivership capability' is coming to mind as I think more and more about the subject of sensory sensitivity so i looked up the cass session that referenced it:
Q: (L) The fact is, we've got 3 billion base pairs... do some of these so-called segments of "junk DNA," if they were activated, would they instruct chromosomal replication to take place with more than 23 pairs as a result?
A: In part.
Q: Is there anything we can do in terms of activities or...
A: No. Biogenetic engineering.
Q: Was my insight that I had one night that, at some point in time something may happen that will turn genes on in our bodies that will cause us to physically transform, an accurate perception of what could happen at the time of transition to 4th density?
A: For the most part, yes.
Q: Are there any limitations to what our physical bodies can transform to if instructed by the DNA? Could we literally grow taller, rejuvenate, change our physical appearance, capabilities, or whatever, if instructed by the DNA?
A: Receivership capability.
Q: What is receivership capability?
A: Change to broader receivership capability.
Q: (A) That means that you can receive more of something.
A: Close.
Q: (A) It means how good is your receiver.
A: Yes.
Q: (L) What is your receiver? The physical body?
A: Mind through central nervous system connection to higher levels.
Q: So, that is the whole issue of gaining knowledge and developing control over your body. If your mind and CNS are tuned to higher levels of consciousness, that has significance in terms of your receivership capability?
A: Close.
http://www.cassiopaea.org/cass/mouravieff.htm
Although people are categorized in this book as hsp and non hsps, I wonder if the 'issue' with those considered non hsps is not that they aren't able to pick up on subtleties in their environment at all, but rather that their particular reading instrument has evolved (for survival purposes) to shut out extraneous information in general as our environment has gotten 'noisier' not only in terms of sound but lights and other forms of technology.