How can I say it in a brief way?
I feel overwhelmed. Sometimes I can not control my emotional responses, or I take impulsive decisions. My willpower to control myself is not a strong as it used to be. Ive been looking for help in the traditional ways, and its like every door is constantly being shut in my face. I dont understand why thats happening. I do know there are techniques that help control this emotions and states, but is hard, is really hard. It has been going for months now. I thought that maybe undergoing SRT might help me identify other causes of why Im going through this process other than my apparent "mental weakness".
Hi Statera, based on the above I agree with the consensus that a conventional therapist would be more beneficial than STR. The last thing a "desperate" person should do is leap into realms with so much unknowns. Personally, I would never tell someone over the phone or during a casual consultation they have a demon attached to them, and "better have the therapy quick before it drags you off to hell!". That seems more like a scare tactic than anything, and in the context of a disciplined therapeutic approach is extraordinary unprofessional. I think you have the correct instincts about that.
The first thing to do when seeing that our life is full of chaos is to learn to properly articulate what the specific problem is - what grinds our gears, what provokes stress and drainage of energy, that is all to ready to snap us up in the name of comfort (thinking of negative dissociation here). A running conversation, where someone simply LISTENS, will more than anything also teach you to listen well to yourself and your internal gut signals.
Related to the latter, I would also recommend the
Eiriu Eolas breathing program, particularly the pipe breathing and prayer/meditation, which both would calm the rough emotional waters. (Based on what you said I would be more careful about doing the beatha breathing). In the same vein, do you enjoy any forms of exercise, such as yoga, jogging, swimming, weight lifting, hiking, etc? Physical exercise is also a great way to help bring our attention back into our bodies and comparatively blunt the automatic negative thoughts (providing it's done in a conscious and controlled manner... some people do just throw on headphones and tune out when going to the gym).
Do you keep a journal at all? Writing out your problems in a dispassionate, objective way (like you're someone watching yourself from the outside) over several days - rewriting and rewriting in different sessions - can also help to consolidate memories and also potentially reveal patterns you may find useful.
Hoping the best for the best in you.