Éiriú-Eolas - Breathing Program

[Jeremy F Kreuz]

I was washing my clothes, in some kind of pool, maybe feelings, and there was other people, the dream looks so vivid, the colors, like when you take an old image and with phoshop you makit look better, shyne. And I started to ejaculate, yeah ejaculate whil washing my clothes, but it was not literally from me, I don't know but I was ejaculating, and I was like what the heck, how is this happening, and there was a lot of semen over me.

A few weeks I had two of these kind of dreams too, which where of a different type then the erotic dreams I get once every few months, in which it seems some energy is stolen. The ordinary erotic dream in my case drains me, and if feels like being visited by a unwanted presence who comes to harvest. These two dreams from a few weeks ago where different.

Last friday the EE was intense. I have been trying since two weeks now to concentrate on the third eye and it is a ongoing struggle to unglue the eyes (the feeling that the inner eyelids are glued to the eyeball and nothing can be seen). The way I have been going about it to unglue them is to gather all the I´s that are willing and want to move forward and use that force to oppose those I´s that don´t want to change an inch. Friday the eyes unglued and during the second slow part of the Baha I saw a image of a foetus, which, I understood was me in the belly of my mother. So I started to release tensions, stress and toxins related with this foetus. A strong wave of emotions overwhelmed me. At a point is seems something in me got really scared and shut the eyes and access to the third eye (a physical act). The weird thing is that the way this part of me managed to glue the eyes was thinking; this is so great, you have to write about it on the forum. The ego got all excited and the eyes glued. My current understanding is that internal weak spots are being used to derail progress. I have been noticing this more and more: how the predator is using particular weak spots. I start to recognize them and when I do I talk to the predator, telling him this trick wont work any longer.

When I do the POTS the unglueing happens most of the time. A bright pulsing spot, which is getting bigger session after session, appears, sometimes followed by clear pictures (like looking through a window) of nature and people I have known in my life. On saturday I looked with closed eyes at a bright starry night for a few seconds, as if I was looking at the universe through the third eye.

A last thing I like to mention is that these last weeks when I don´t do the full EE at night the next day I won´t feel very alive and awake the next day. Every night I battle to get going. Without a full EE every day I am losing ground. I am currently doing the detox diet (off though from gluten and dairy since two months).

 

[Woodsman]

So I finally got down to trying the EE breathing meditation and have done it several times now over the past week.

Wow. I'd long ago stopped seeking experiences for the sake of experiences, partly because the new-ness of being aware of the matrix reality and the areas lying beyond stopped being points of "Holy cow!!" fascination, but also because I'd gotten used to never really experiencing much when it came to meditation. At least not so quickly. I really didn't expect this to be so powerful.

I tried it once when it first became available a year or so ago, (when there were only a dozen or so posts in this thread), and I remember finding that I didn't make it through to the end before zoning out and coming back to my conscious awareness to hear the tail end of the music. I didn't know what to make of it, and I didn't try it again for more than a year. Until last week. The universe kept throwing the idea in front of me with increasing intensity and I knew it was time to smarten up and listen. So I pulled up the files on my computer and ran through the disks again.

When it came time to do the meditation, the same results came up, similar to some of which have been reported here and in the (very helpful) FAQ.

The Ba Hah round breathing portion is the thing which got my mind feeling zone-ish, and at some point I just vanished, only to come back to my conscious awareness to hear the tail end of the music, feeling wonderfully refreshed.

On my second attempt, I was able to listen to the whole recording from beginning to end. This was good. I'd not yet heard in my conscious awareness the POTS, and was happy to hear it. Wet eyes and all.

But the several times after that have resulted in my passing from conscious awareness into an altered state. I think (??) that Laura's hypnosis training serves well. Knowing that I was hearing such a completely positive message while I was under is reassuring, and I think I must have cued correctly on the part where she offers the option upon returning to normal awareness of either waking up or going on to continue in regular sleep. I think I was doing as instructed each time. I never thought I was the sort of person who could be hypnotized, (if that is what is happening).

My lung capacity feels much greater, and I feel stronger in the world, but wow, I feel a LOT of things churning beneath the surface. I look forward to each session with a sense of adventure!

I'm a little nervous after reading some of what I might expect, but it sounds like people get through okay. I am going to trust that my subconscious self knows what is best.

So anyway. . , I just wanted to pitch in my two cents and thank everybody for clearing the way with all of their observations.

I don't know exactly why it has taken so long for me to come to this, but now that I have, there's no turning back!

 

[Zadius Sky]

Here's my EE report:

In the last month, I was doing two full programs a week with just pipe breathing and POTS on other days before bed. And, I've noticed that my "zoning out" was getting less (or rare). At the time, I was concerned if I did it wrong (this was before I read others' experience on rarity of "zoning out" was becoming common), so I did the round breathing 2 times during the full program period. Bad idea. My nerves became "hardened" as a result and my body was kinda paralyzed but not really. So, I cut back to just pipe breathing and POTS for a week or so before I went back to a full program on last Sunday, which I finally did "zoned out" (during the middle of the round breathing and "came back" at the last portion of POTS).

Other than "zoning out," I had no other experiences during the EE program.

 

[Aiming]

At a point is seems something in me got really scared and shut the eyes and access to the third eye (a physical act). The weird thing is that the way this part of me managed to glue the eyes was thinking; this is so great, you have to write about it on the forum. The ego got all excited and the eyes glued. My current understanding is that internal weak spots are being used to derail progress. I have been noticing this more and more: how the predator is using particular weak spots. I start to recognize them and when I do I talk to the predator, telling him this trick wont work any longer.

Thanks for sharing this, Jeremy, this is my observation exactly: progress during EE being derailed by getting hooked into ego programs.
Another perspective that just came to mind is maybe it's not so much about derailing as it is exactly about recognizing these mechanisms.. and only once one is able to recognize them and act against them is one ready to face the deeply buried stuff. As in, it's just another layer to peel/become aware of and to then find new behaviour, substituting the automatical programs, which in your example might even be a simple buffer, because there's so much pain involved.

 

[Bluefyre]

I have been doing the EE for a year and a half and have not posted any of my experiences until now. I have read through part of the thread, but it has become so huge I wanted to post before I read through the rest.

When I first started I zoned out frequently and more so when I did the full session after a long work day before bed. For months I experienced panic for the first few pipe breaths, feeling I was asphixiating. It still happens occasionally but only for the first breath.

I don't know how I managed to continue before I started doing EE. During the POTS I often see lovely colours and always am wrapped in such warmth and peace that I can See and feel the glow for quite some time after. I am also reading The Narcissistic Family presently and it seems that doing EE helps me through the layers of painful memories and I have compassion for my little girl in a way I have not be able to before, as well as finding myself able to sometimes objectively look at the source of pain. Also seeing so much more clearly how I have spent my life a slave to external validation which has robbed me of the power within me which doing EE is helping me to rediscover. I cannot say a big enough thank you to everyone who worked to put this program together and the feedback from everyone on this thread!

 

[Psalehesost]

It's been a very long time since I last posted in this thread. In short, nothing dramatic whatsoever has happened during E-E practice, which is now very regular - the whole program done most days.

What has brought about changes and intensified the experience of the POTS is in contemplating - semi-spontaneously, deeper feeling and new thoughts will occur, and it will become a focus, and this focus leads to what feels like inner cleansing and a change in understanding.

 

[Meager1]

What has brought about changes and intensified the experience of the POTS is in contemplating - semi-spontaneously, deeper feeling and new thoughts will occur, and it will become a focus, and this focus leads to what feels like inner cleansing and a change in understanding.

I have been experiencing something similar just recently during the meditation as well, so I`m going to briefly post about it. The "flavor" seems to be somewhat alchemical?

for instance..

"Fire is rapid digestion."

I know that fire consumes, but never though of it as a "digestion".

Just basically odd stuff like that coming in, so was just wondering if others are getting anything like this lately.

 

[cubbex]

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In the way you write I thought you was doing the EE program. This will improve a lot.

 

[Hesper]

I don't know how I managed to continue before I started doing EE.

It's great to hear that you've come so far, especially with the beatha portion of the program and understanding the wounds of your past. Hopefully the round breathing will continue to improve, and you won't have the "asphyxiation" problem at all any more. Very happy for you Bluefyre :)

As for my own EE practice, I've come across a sort of bump in the road. It seems like, possibly due to emotional detoxification, I've become much more sentimental than in the past. This has led me to be afraid to post on the forum, because my sentimentality has started to make me gag, and I am becoming very self-conscious of my lack of real knowledge in a lot of areas. I'm also struggling with relationship issues; being a young man in zombieland makes for bad dating experiences. And because of my increased sentimentality I feel a lot of pressure to become a father figure, and the future ain't looking so good in that department! But all in all I feel happy go lucky, with ups when I accomplish something meaningful, and downs when I see my major pathologies (I still think I am "chosen" in some way). Thank you everyone.

 

[Harold]

As for my own EE practice, I've come across a sort of bump in the road. It seems like, possibly due to emotional detoxification, I've become much more sentimental than in the past. This has led me to be afraid to post on the forum, because my sentimentality has started to make me gag, and I am becoming very self-conscious of my lack of real knowledge in a lot of areas. I'm also struggling with relationship issues; being a young man in zombieland makes for bad dating experiences. And because of my increased sentimentality I feel a lot of pressure to become a father figure, and the future ain't looking so good in that department! But all in all I feel happy go lucky, with ups when I accomplish something meaningful, and downs when I see my major pathologies (I still think I am "chosen" in some way). Thank you everyone.

I can pretty much echo what you have just said Hesper. I am in the same boat. Except for the relationship part. I have avoided dating in 'zombieland' coming up to 3 years now.

That (not dating) doesn't bother me at all. Other than that my experience is the same. 'Chosen', or singled out by the STS to have a crappy life, and sometimes special too... my astrology and as I look back at my life is really strange. I do feel at times that I have a connection to a higher self who is watching over me and helping me too, also I feel like other higher beings are messing with me too. It is confusing to say the least.

Also I really relate to your sentimentality and not posting on the forum.

Thank-you for sharing Hesper and putting what I want to say allot better than I could have said in the first place. :)

 

[Aya]

I have been doing the EE for a year and a half and have not posted any of my experiences until now. I have read through part of the thread, but it has become so huge I wanted to post before I read through the rest.

So have I. I started the EE on the New Year of 2010.

When I first started I zoned out frequently and more so when I did the full session after a long work day before bed.

At first I zoned out as well. For the first time I did the whole EE session, I zoned out easily and the next day my body felt sooooo heavy that I could not wake up. On the next day, I passed out for a half day...and it happened for another 2 days. I wasn't sure what was happening though the experience tells me how much powerful the EE is!!

Now I don't zoned out easily. I usually do not get rid of beatha because I like it the part of the program. After beatha, I feel so relaxed. When I go into the prayer part, I feel vibration through my body...It feels amazing. It feels like the energy is flowing from my head to toe, circulating alive. I haven't had exceptionally intense experience with EE yet. But I sometimes see small lights or feel like looking things while my eyes are closing. Moreover, I had a time when I felt like my hearing became better while I was doing the prayer as "I cleared my ears". My sleep improved and stress is reduced. I feel emotionally fresh whenever I do it.

As for my own EE practice, I've come across a sort of bump in the road. It seems like, possibly due to emotional detoxification, I've become much more sentimental than in the past.

Going through such an experience of deep emotional detoxification must be hard. I have done intense physical detoxification years back and it wasn't easy. I need to do the EE continuously so that I can release more emotional "toxins". Living in a confusing and stressful city, the EE gives me a good support.

I want to say, thank you Laura and the team for bringing this amazing healing program.

 

[Gawan]

That sounds great Aya!

Going through such an experience of deep emotional detoxification must be hard. I have done intense physical detoxification years back and it wasn't easy. I need to do the EE continuously so that I can release more emotional "toxins". Living in a confusing and stressful city, the EE gives me a good support.

We recommend doing the full EE program two times a week on Monday and Thursday. :)

 

[cubbex]

I was washing my clothes, in some kind of pool, maybe feelings, and there was other people, the dream looks so vivid, the colors, like when you take an old image and with phoshop you makit look better, shyne. And I started to ejaculate, yeah ejaculate whil washing my clothes, but it was not literally from me, I don't know but I was ejaculating, and I was like what the heck, how is this happening, and there was a lot of semen over me.

A few weeks I had two of these kind of dreams too, which where of a different type then the erotic dreams I get once every few months, in which it seems some energy is stolen. The ordinary erotic dream in my case drains me, and if feels like being visited by a unwanted presence who comes to harvest. These two dreams from a few weeks ago where different.

Take care. My experience was not like that, instead of that I was washing and there was other people washing their clothes too.

I think reading about alchemy I have found some coincidences, for example this one:

3. Tin, planet Jupiter: the color gray that appears at the end of the process of Blackness, when the Matter has been purified to almost a perfect white. Jupiter is the son of Saturn, therefore he is the next stage.

And Then

The entire dominion of Jupiter is used to wash the milk, what happens by the successive ascending and descending of mercury on the earth. That water represents the sea, Of which the flow and reflux is marked by these ascensions and continual descensions.

That Mercury thing maybe is what happens to everybody doing the EE, the so known "Zone out", or conection with the higher being. And jupiter washing the milk it's similar to the ejaculation/sperm I was washing as other people around.

LOL and I didn't knew about this when I had the dream, as before with some character I have imagined in one of my stories with an especial ring, and then read about the solomon king and his ring. I think some 6th density being is giving me inspiration.

 

[rognaill]

This thread is huge and hard to go back through each page to see if others have posted a similiar experiance, but thought I would share.

When I do the ba-ha section I have my eyes closed and try to focus just on the breathing. While I have my eyes closed I see irregular circles that originate from the outer part of the periphial and collapse into a single point. The rings are slightly glowing, but not so much as to cause my eyes to open. When one ring completely collapses the next one will start, and go one for as long as I have my mind calm and eyes closed. This has happened even before EE, when I used to take yoga and during the mediation portion of the class and on my own, I would experiance the same thing.

I onced asked the 'guru' that lead the mediation what this was and he said some goobley-gook of higher vibrations/achieving enlightenment. This was over ten years ago and still have no solid answer that seems to fit.

The frequency of the collapsing circles (irregular in shape) is about 1.5 seconds, and does not seem to vary in speed. To try to explain in other ways, it is similiar to when you watch a computer animation of going down a worm hole, but in reverse as ususally animations have the concentric circles growing and expanding to the edges of the periphial which simulates forward movement. What I see is the reverse where the circles start in the periphial and grow smaller, collapsing into a single point.

Also it is good to read that others zone out, I tend to during POTS and awaken when the program starts over and Luara is talking at the beginning. Even when well rested and not tires I sometimes zone out, with no rememberance of anything unlike actual sleeping where thoughts and/or dreams seem to occur. I am not certain the zoning out is particulairly bad, as I feel something happened on a different level that I am not able to access.

Per some sound advice, I hope to post and interact with everyone more and look forward to hearing others thoughts or similiar experiances regarding the irregular circles I 'see' when in certain states.

 

[stellar]

Hi rognaill, I too have been seeing these circles (usually in colour) since I started EE in early 2010. And I also zone out during the round breathing. Actually I often don't wake up until some time during the night, long after the cd runs out.

Sometimes I come out of the 'zone' just as the POTS session begins but half way through I'm outa here and through till morning.

I have no issues with that so I just keep going and see what happens.It certainly is soothing though and keeps me calm. :)