Windmill knight said:
In my experience, one danger of 'slipping' is spiraling down like this: I did something I don't approve of -> I disappoint myself -> Perhaps I'm not as good as I thought -> In fact I am a terrible person pretending to be good -> Maybe I should at least be honest and not try to be good anymore -> I'll disappoint myself again as there is no point in trying... and so on.
The above sounds so familiar
And it will take time to change this thought loops, no doubt. But with some effort we can maybe change our perceptions (writing exercises, catching the thoughts as they begin and replace them, learning more about the mind operates, and so on).
Along with all the great advice you received, Enaid, I'd like to add this quote that I read in the above mentioned (previous post) article today, and it made me pause and marvel at how I never thought of it this way before. I am sure it speaks to most of us:
When something goes wrong, do we berate ourselves or do we see our troubles as important lessons given to us because we are worthy to receive them?
From
here.