I have been doing E.E. consistently over recent weeks which is good for me. I generally find that I have quite a lot of resistance to doing it which I put down to not wanting to bring up repressed thoughts and emotions. I have found that it has really helped me, however, and it has been worth the effort in overcoming my resistance. I have felt calmer which is welcome as the current world situation has made me very angry. I do find, however, that my emotions are very sensitised right now. It takes almost nothing for me to respond to something with intense feelings of anger or sadness but so far I have been able to work my way through those without them becoming entrenched. I have dropped the 'ba-ha' part of my routine though as I was finding it all too much. I also have the odd 'day off' when I find like I just can't handle it.
I have noticed that I have a feeling of there being a 'lump' in my chest, slightly left of centre. I was wondering earlier what it was, whether it was a virus (although I don't have any symptoms) or something to do with asthma or hayfever. Without consciously deciding to do so I 'felt' the lump with my awareness and thought to myself something like: "What's this about?" I was then hit with profound sadness and a desire to weep. Well, that's that answered then! I have been feeling 'blue' recently so I like to think that my consistent E.E. practise has been gradually chipping away at this 'lump' in my chest. I think that that is a reasonable conclusion to come to.
A curious thing too: I recently have had a strong urge to take up pipe smoking. This came after several days of great E.E. sessions where I felt totally engaged in it. It felt like my higher self was trying to give me some advice but that might just be my rationalisation. Now, this came as quite a surprise to me as I have always been firmly anti-smoking; not in the sense of other people smoking (what they do with their life is their business) but in the sense of me being around it as the smoke really does not agree with me. I had thought idly that I might take up pipe smoking when I was elderly as the idea of doing something that would now be regarded as eccentric amused me. I am only 54 though so that would still be a couple of decades away (if I get there!). Whilst the benefits of smoking to make one less likely to be a snack of 4D STS appealed as did the anti-viral element (I have already had C-19, I believe, but the C's say that there's something worse on the way within the next couple of years so this would be a good time to take up smoking!) but I was still in no rush to start smoking. So, as you can see, this has come as quite a bombshell. After a couple of weeks of pondering it, however, I have bought a pipe 'starter kit'. I am yet to have my first smoke; there seems to be a bit of a mental and emotional hurdle for me to overcome but I am really interested to see how I react to it. Hopefully, I am genetically congruent with smoking unlike Ark, bless him.
Considering the current situation around the world, I bet that in turn of 2020 and 2021, people will start to feel the first serious effects of lockdowns (i.a. the food shortages). C's said that, as some members concluded in the other place of the forum, coronavirus is a certain suggestion that these "cosmic" virus/viruses are here (connecting smoking, lungs, and corona).
So if we assume that viruses are here and as C's said that food shortages are doors to such events like the plagues, then we can expect that in the one year from one, very likely, we will observe the real pandemic in some places on the world, probably from places with bad conditions. Still, in a short time, it can arrive at so-called "civilized" countries.
If you come to the preparation, here, C's said that spiritual and physical preparation is needed. For the spiritual, we work from the first time of our conscious life, and such events that will have a place, will "check" our spiritual preparation in many ways. If it comes to physical preparation then I think that It depends on the person, we may not care about every supplement or some daily and not daily activity we do which have to improve our health, but we can focus on the most important things for our health.
And everyone should know to his/her the main factors which make him healthy/unhealthy, what effects the most when is present or is absent in our diet or daily "rituals." I noticed that form important is pork and iodin, for instance. I think for many reasons, one of those is my blood.
By the way. If it comes to the Eiriu-Eolas - I noticed a few things. First, this is the confirmation that you do not need a long therapy while that you back to your past with your therapist, etc. More important is to improve your actual state. The coming back to the past in thoughts or emotions is ruled by some inner conflict or programming possible to break by the present acts.
The key is the Positive Dissociation. When doing Ba-Ha breathing the key is the positive dissociation. I can have two kinds of experience, with positive and negative dissociation when I do Ba-Ha breathing. Negative is when I dissociate on my thoughts. I rip-off from the situation I am - from meditating and ruminate various unnecessary things in my head.
The fruitful experience is when I rip-off from unnecessary emotions and thoughts, and focus and going deep into the record, Laura's voice and breath I rip-off from part of myself, but on what I dissociate aren't automatic thoughts, but breathing, Laura's voice in the record, the meaning of the word Life - this is positive dissociation. When I go deeper into Ba-Ha breathing this influence my inner state and stops emotional/thought programs from the lower part of myself.
