Galaxia2002
Dagobah Resident
NSD said:
If you master the breathing, I don´t see any problem in to combine prayer with breathing, but I think is good do some breathing before start the prayer.
Éiriú-Eolas - Breathing Program
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If you master the breathing, I don´t see any problem in to combine prayer with breathing, but I think is good do some breathing before start the prayer.
D Rusak
Jedi Council Member
RedFox said:
Hmmm, not sure. It wasn't my personal apartment door, just the door to the building. I was home when my bike was taken. Interesting idea, I hadn't really thought about things that way at all. The first thing that comes to mind re: parts of me that are left out in public view refers to my website, on which I post my upcoming gigs, and mention what schools I teach at. My mom has done things like call up the schools repeatedly asking where I am, then when I talk to her she gets upset since I haven't told her every detail about all my gigs, and then tells me, oh, you can't do this gig, you can't be a musician, and then this spiral into this whole thing about how irresponsible I am, etc. It used to make me pretty upset. I had cut off contact for a while, and hadn't updated my address with them for a bit. Earlier in the summer I decided to confront this issue by telling them that I was an adult, and did not feel it was necessary to tell them every bit of information about my work. I acknowledged that they did not agree with my living or career choices, and that they may think they are trying to watch out for me, but I am free to do what I want and feel fits me best. I also capitulated and mentioned info about one or two major gigs so as to include my mom a little bit (I don't think she's a total nutjob, just that she's been as affected by narcissism as a lot of people are, myself included, and she also wants to not be cut out of my life completely) and gave my mailing address. That seems like it has ameliorated the tension greatly, I don't feel anxious or guilty or bad about that situation at all. But I guess what was "stolen" in my previous interactions with my mom was emotional energy. I also have had some disruptions lately in my sleep schedule (see "Broken Body Clock" thread), I guess that energy has been "stolen" as well. Not sure on this one to be honest.
Otherwise, I have lost much work this year- lost two big teaching gigs which totaled over $20,000. But I am happy about this in a way since then I don't have to work a job that I don't like and can focus on playing my instrument and the teaching that I do like- working with individuals one on one. I have many gigs so far this fall (keep my fingers crossed) so things should be all right financially, at least for a while. And my friends have been great- I have a network of them finally!- several people offered me a bike to use.
D Rusak, shouldn't the superintendent of the building be responsible for your stolen property? Maybe a good idea would be to get some renter's insurance to protect your investment in the material things in your apartment if something like this happens again?
D Rusak
Jedi Council Member
I have renter's insurance, it just is a nuisance to find a new bike like the one I had, that's all. Plus I have no idea how long it will take to process my claim, I just have to wait now for their forms.
As far as the building goes, they say no, it's not their fault, since I didn't have the bike in my apartment, just in the hallway. Even though THEY were the ones who left the door open (arrgh). Also they said it's not their fault, that's what renter's insurance is for.
Sorry for venting guys, just thought it was curious because it happened exactly when I fell asleep very deeply during the meditation session, which is not something that usually happens, I usually am awake the whole time.
As far as the building goes, they say no, it's not their fault, since I didn't have the bike in my apartment, just in the hallway. Even though THEY were the ones who left the door open (arrgh). Also they said it's not their fault, that's what renter's insurance is for.
Sorry for venting guys, just thought it was curious because it happened exactly when I fell asleep very deeply during the meditation session, which is not something that usually happens, I usually am awake the whole time.
Cathryn
The Force is Strong With This One
Dawn said:
Hi Dawn, I've noticed quite a bit on the forum that the words conscious and conscience are used interchangeably. In your post if I am not mistaken, the context was in terms of 'consciousness,' i.e being conscious, aware/awake; whereas conscience has a different meaning, the quality of having or not having a conscience is what regulates our thought and action as to what is acceptable and moral behavior for us. I think the word you were intending was consciousness.
Putting both words in context we might say... 'I became conscious that what I had done was pricking my conscience.'
So although related and intertwined the meaning is different. You might want to check out the cassiopaea glossary http://glossary.cassiopaea.com/glossary.php for clarification, and one of the dictionary sites. _http://dictionary.reference.com/?regHome=true
Hope this helps your (?) My conscience is pricking me because I am conscious that I might be 'preaching' here.
c
Dawn said:
Hi Dawn,
Yes you have misspelled consciousness. When you see the red line underneath, it means that this is an unknown word/spelling error.
If you hold your mouse over the word that is underlined in red and right-click, it gives you a list of words that you might have meant. Usually, the correct spelling of the word you want is there. You just click that word and it will correct your spelling. I use it quite frequently. ;)
Hope this helps you.
Nawd
Dagobah Resident
Thank you all. Well I did a quick search on the word/non-word Conscienceness, and at least one other person is making up this word:
A Forest Conscienceness
(Hardcover, 2005)
product.half(dot)ebay.com/_W0QQprZ71151371
The spelling tool you mentioned Nienna, will come in handy for a terrible speller, and maker up of words. :)
Edit note: Not promoting the book, just showing one that uses the same mis-spelling.
A Forest Conscienceness
(Hardcover, 2005)
product.half(dot)ebay.com/_W0QQprZ71151371
The spelling tool you mentioned Nienna, will come in handy for a terrible speller, and maker up of words. :)
Edit note: Not promoting the book, just showing one that uses the same mis-spelling.
Nienna Eluch said:
agni
Dagobah Resident
agni said:
I was too early to post of the results. Week after the post I have started to have some emotional episodes. I did not realize how much anger was hidden within self. It quite scared me, because I had some uncontrollable bursts coming to surface, like confronting parents to stop emotional manipulation when encountered one. To me this is quite unusual, I rarely express any anger. What scared me the most was an absence of external considering at the moment of confrontation from my side.
Furthermore, all of my hidden & forgotten fears, unresolved situations, personal issues all starting come to the surface. They feelings associated with it are very intense, to the point I feel like I am going to explode or have a nervous break down. It has discouraged me at first, but now I see it as a good opportunity to learn from it as much as possible. And actually feel strong desire to deal with all of that. These issues are also almost daily seen in my dreams.
Another thing I have noticed, now I seem to have very low tolerance towards any kind of manipulation in general and it's arises feeling of anger. However, something does not seem right, because as I've mentioned earlier, I seem to have difficulty exercising external considering when such episodes occur, only post factum.
I have been doing exercise twice a week, but lately been skipping due to the fear that I would be overwhelmed by such episodes to the point I would not be able to handle this anymore.
Gimpy
The Living Force
Hello all.
Just wanted to report on an experiment that I tried yesterday. I've had a mild flu that went into bronchitis and a sinus infection, and for a few days I couldn't breathe through my nose at all, even with decongestants. Wondering how that could be possible, I got the headphones on and sat up in bed to go through the EE program. It was tough at first, but by concentrating and relaxing at the same time, by the second time through the EE program, my nose was clear! I haven't taken a decongestant for my nose since, and things are draining and healing.
Its a little thing, but great when you can't breathe. ;)
When going through the program the third time, I fell asleep, and was jolted awake in time for the prayer. It was like my nervous system was making sure I paid attention. :D (Or the higher self, if its there.)
A small progress, but every step helps.
Just wanted to report on an experiment that I tried yesterday. I've had a mild flu that went into bronchitis and a sinus infection, and for a few days I couldn't breathe through my nose at all, even with decongestants. Wondering how that could be possible, I got the headphones on and sat up in bed to go through the EE program. It was tough at first, but by concentrating and relaxing at the same time, by the second time through the EE program, my nose was clear! I haven't taken a decongestant for my nose since, and things are draining and healing.
Its a little thing, but great when you can't breathe. ;)
When going through the program the third time, I fell asleep, and was jolted awake in time for the prayer. It was like my nervous system was making sure I paid attention. :D (Or the higher self, if its there.)
A small progress, but every step helps.
mamadrama
The Living Force
agni said:
Hi, agni.
Fwiw, I went through about a 2-3 week period of irritability after doing the program a while. Is there anyway to just limit your interactions with others for a short time until this subsides? Also, I noticed for me, there were a few dietary changes that needed to be made. Do you read the Diet and Health Board? There's some great information and advice there if you're not familiar with it. If possible, I'd still recommend doing the full program twice a week and the pipe breath and prayer daily. It will help you process what you're going through. If that just seems like too much, perhaps then just the pipe breath and prayer daily until you recover some balance.
agni
Dagobah Resident
Black Swan said:
Hi Black Swan,
Thank you for the advice, limiting interactions with others seems like a good idea. No one deserves to deal with my emotional diharia. Now I constantly bear this in mind not to fall for same again.
As far as dietary changes I believe I am up to speed, except for coffee may be (absense of it gives me headaches)
Well, I was thinking the same about returning to breathing regularly. Need to have more trust to higher self and what it's doing.
Looks like some people are getting some action. I guess I'm gonna have to either record a talk about what to expect, or write it.
Clearing stuff is not going to be easy for everyone. I think it depends on the depth of the individual. Deeper people just simply suffer more. That's my take on it, anyway. Of course, it's no comfort when you are going through it.
The good thing is: it IS a changing of reality from the inside out. It is a step toward 4 D awareness. Those people who go through it in advance, are way ahead of the game, I think. And I'm sure that some people can go through something like this without a breathing/meditation program, but just simply via shocks - but that's horribly unpleasant too. Probably even worse.
The first stage of the process was, as I have described in Grace, back in the mid-to-late 80s. That was a direct result of my breathing/meditation practice which ya'll are doing pretty much as I did it then. Thing was, I meditated EVERY night along with doing controlled pipe breathing at the beginning (only) of the meditation. I would then relax into a more normal breathing pattern as the meditation proceeded.
So, that was the first BIG layer of stuff that came off.
Following that, there were a LOT of changes in my life that, looking back, I directly attribute to this cleansing. Each change led step by step to the Cs Experiment. Now, everyone isn't going to go through this exactly the same because everyone isn't gonna be channeling as I did it. So just take this in a general way.
The Cs project was a more conscious way of accessing what was in my subconscious/superconscious. Most of ya'll will get there without having to go through this painful, protracted process. I'm just a really stubborn, strong-willed person and often my stubbornness manifests in resistance to what is good for me. I'm hoping ya'll can avoid a lot of that misery.
Anyway, so the Cs project was, in itself, an initiation and a cleansing of nonsense in my head, belief centers, emotions, what have you. And it was seven months after that began, in February of 1995, that the next big layer came off. So, we are talking about a spread of about ten years in between two of the major events. I think it had to be that way for me because if I had to go through it all at once, it probably would have killed me.
The fusing of my emotional center began in February, as I mentioned, and it was one heck of a process! It was like losing my mind. It is recorded in the sessions though in a very obtuse way. I did NOT want to tell ANYbody what was going on in my head/innards. So I tried to ask questions about it without being too direct. Oddly enough, there was a "death link" to the event which makes me wonder about PepperFritz's death in a new way. It was "Frank''s" father. He committed suicide. The thing is, he looked a LOT like my grandfather and I really felt a connection to the old guy even though I only interacted with him a few times. So, it was kind of a trigger when he died, I guess.
Anyway, here is the clip from the session when I first asked about it. (Interestingly, it was my grandfather's birthday):
Well, things didn't get much better. As I have said before, it was like having my solar plexus blown wide open and all the emotions in the Universe flowing through me like a hurricane. There were times when the only thing I could do was curl up in the bed and rock and cry and try to hang on to my sanity. I really did think I was going mad!
Dabrowski refers to it as "positive disintegration" and "disintegration" is a good word, but I'm not sure about the "positive" part - at least not while you are going through it.
The next time I tried to ask about it was a week later on Feb 18th. Again, I was really being covert about my question. I also think that the energy of this session, which was quite chaotic, reflected what was going on in me:
There are several clues in the above session about the cleansing/moving toward 4 D process.
There's no words really, to describe it. You really do feel shattered, in pieces, hopeless and helpless and every emotion in the world is slamming right into your solar plexus.
Like I said, I often just curled up on the bed to rock and cry and feel sorry for myself at every stage of my life, and in every life I ever lived, and feel sorry for everybody else around me, those I hurt and who hurt me and didn't mean it... and so on. Gads! Well, I can't say I don't wish it on anybody because it is the real dark night of the soul - the valley of the shadow of death - and you have to go through it to be born. But I do wish it wasn't so hard and traumatic.
But it is worth it. It really is. To finally find that one little piece of yourself that is authentic, to grab it and hold onto it for dear life and begin to re-build yourself according to what is really YOU and not a bunch of crap that you had to invent to survive or crap that other people projected onto you.
You should also be able to suppress it a bit as long as you make appointments with yourself to let it all out later. I had to do that because I still had to take care of the kids and the house and everything. And it would come in waves... when it got really bad and I thought the pain was going to force me to leave the body, I would just rock and repeat: "this will pass, this will pass, this will pass... I feel it now, I felt it then, let me drain the last drop of it and it will pass..."
Somehow, that got me through it.
I started reading through the subsequent sessions to try to jog my memory about stuff. That was in February of 1995 ... and Tom French and Cherie Diez were in the picture. I had a lot of pressure on me to "act normal" and I did pretty much after the initial couple of weeks of feeling like I was falling apart "at odds with myself" "don't know who I am" "don't know where to go" and so on. But there were some things throughout that year where whatever went on in this second "cleansing" and opening, that now, in retrospect, seem to be connected.
For example, there was the accident therapy in the background (hmmm... maybe ya'll ought to get some bodywork done?) and then the strange episodes with the "eclipsing of realities" that came about in July of that year - a year after the Cs came. I think that was an event of making a choice at some subconscious level and even though I wasn't aware of it at the time, it set the stage for what happened later (divorce, Ark entering the picture, etc).
The dreams I was having were pretty powerful, too. A lot of stuff was just dumping. I was living a lot of the time between two realities. I could close my eyes and still see... I heard constant conversations kind of like what is described in "Operators and Things". Some of it was creepy. I slept with a radio playing all night long and put yellow bug lights on the porches and left them on all night.
If ya'll will read al-Arabi (Chittick's "The Sufi Path of Knowledge") about unveiling, states and stations, you'll see that he pretty much describes a lot of this. Just ignore the Muslim gloss.
Apparently, you have to get used to running a stronger current on your circuits and after awhile, you acclimate.
I was interacting with a LOT of people. I didn't know where anything was going with the Cs or whatever - in fact, I was kinda depressed throughout because of the deterioration of my marriage and my attempts to continue to deny that. Then, I had the dream in September of that year about getting married and dancing and it left a powerful impression on me of hope even in spite of all the misery I was experiencing in my life. Then, I had the other event and saw Ark's face like a total hallucination. Like as real as the book in front of me on my desk.
So, the year proceeded and then, finally, 13 months later, I asked for a separation and a little more than 3 months later, Ark came. The interesting thing about this is that I actually DID go to Pensacola, and it was there that I had a dream about being kissed and waked up, kind of like Snow White or Sleeping Beauty. The kiss was so real, so intense, that it actually woke me up and I could still feel a "presence". Tom French and Cherie Diez were at the conference in Pensacola with us, and I told them about this strange "dream kiss" the next morning at breakfast. The odd thing about it was that from that moment, my attitude about everything changed. It really was like being awakened.
So, yeah, it can be a process and it can last for awhile and it seems that it can involve a lot of different elements and phenomena. It's actually kind of exciting to me to think about it now. Of course, at the time, I was SO afraid - just afraid of about everything. I was afraid of changes, of what I didn't know or understand, or what might happen tomorrow, or next week, and so on. A real worry wart needing to be in control of everything in order to feel semi-secure/safe. I was cranky when anything happened that was out of the ordinary or not what I wanted or expected. I had very little tolerance for anything or anybody that was not under control, so to say. I was grouchy, irritable, easy to fly off the handle, easily frustrated. I had no idea at that time that, 13 months later I would step out of my world and into a totally different reality where "safe" had a completely different meaning.
But it did take about a year to get used to the higher energy flow, the level of emotional content that went with it, and so on.
So, I hope this helps some of you to know some of the things that can happen and how to cope with it. Just remember, this is stuff that is living inside YOU... and you can either clear it out, or continue to stuff it and remain as you are. It's a choice.
But, from where I sit, it sure was worth it!
EDIT: removed a couple segments of the session that were unrelated to make for smoother reading, added a couple of details relating to the session.
Clearing stuff is not going to be easy for everyone. I think it depends on the depth of the individual. Deeper people just simply suffer more. That's my take on it, anyway. Of course, it's no comfort when you are going through it.
The good thing is: it IS a changing of reality from the inside out. It is a step toward 4 D awareness. Those people who go through it in advance, are way ahead of the game, I think. And I'm sure that some people can go through something like this without a breathing/meditation program, but just simply via shocks - but that's horribly unpleasant too. Probably even worse.
The first stage of the process was, as I have described in Grace, back in the mid-to-late 80s. That was a direct result of my breathing/meditation practice which ya'll are doing pretty much as I did it then. Thing was, I meditated EVERY night along with doing controlled pipe breathing at the beginning (only) of the meditation. I would then relax into a more normal breathing pattern as the meditation proceeded.
So, that was the first BIG layer of stuff that came off.
Following that, there were a LOT of changes in my life that, looking back, I directly attribute to this cleansing. Each change led step by step to the Cs Experiment. Now, everyone isn't going to go through this exactly the same because everyone isn't gonna be channeling as I did it. So just take this in a general way.
The Cs project was a more conscious way of accessing what was in my subconscious/superconscious. Most of ya'll will get there without having to go through this painful, protracted process. I'm just a really stubborn, strong-willed person and often my stubbornness manifests in resistance to what is good for me. I'm hoping ya'll can avoid a lot of that misery.
Anyway, so the Cs project was, in itself, an initiation and a cleansing of nonsense in my head, belief centers, emotions, what have you. And it was seven months after that began, in February of 1995, that the next big layer came off. So, we are talking about a spread of about ten years in between two of the major events. I think it had to be that way for me because if I had to go through it all at once, it probably would have killed me.
The fusing of my emotional center began in February, as I mentioned, and it was one heck of a process! It was like losing my mind. It is recorded in the sessions though in a very obtuse way. I did NOT want to tell ANYbody what was going on in my head/innards. So I tried to ask questions about it without being too direct. Oddly enough, there was a "death link" to the event which makes me wonder about PepperFritz's death in a new way. It was "Frank''s" father. He committed suicide. The thing is, he looked a LOT like my grandfather and I really felt a connection to the old guy even though I only interacted with him a few times. So, it was kind of a trigger when he died, I guess.
Anyway, here is the clip from the session when I first asked about it. (Interestingly, it was my grandfather's birthday):
Well, things didn't get much better. As I have said before, it was like having my solar plexus blown wide open and all the emotions in the Universe flowing through me like a hurricane. There were times when the only thing I could do was curl up in the bed and rock and cry and try to hang on to my sanity. I really did think I was going mad!
Dabrowski refers to it as "positive disintegration" and "disintegration" is a good word, but I'm not sure about the "positive" part - at least not while you are going through it.
The next time I tried to ask about it was a week later on Feb 18th. Again, I was really being covert about my question. I also think that the energy of this session, which was quite chaotic, reflected what was going on in me:
There are several clues in the above session about the cleansing/moving toward 4 D process.
There's no words really, to describe it. You really do feel shattered, in pieces, hopeless and helpless and every emotion in the world is slamming right into your solar plexus.
Like I said, I often just curled up on the bed to rock and cry and feel sorry for myself at every stage of my life, and in every life I ever lived, and feel sorry for everybody else around me, those I hurt and who hurt me and didn't mean it... and so on. Gads! Well, I can't say I don't wish it on anybody because it is the real dark night of the soul - the valley of the shadow of death - and you have to go through it to be born. But I do wish it wasn't so hard and traumatic.
But it is worth it. It really is. To finally find that one little piece of yourself that is authentic, to grab it and hold onto it for dear life and begin to re-build yourself according to what is really YOU and not a bunch of crap that you had to invent to survive or crap that other people projected onto you.
You should also be able to suppress it a bit as long as you make appointments with yourself to let it all out later. I had to do that because I still had to take care of the kids and the house and everything. And it would come in waves... when it got really bad and I thought the pain was going to force me to leave the body, I would just rock and repeat: "this will pass, this will pass, this will pass... I feel it now, I felt it then, let me drain the last drop of it and it will pass..."
Somehow, that got me through it.
I started reading through the subsequent sessions to try to jog my memory about stuff. That was in February of 1995 ... and Tom French and Cherie Diez were in the picture. I had a lot of pressure on me to "act normal" and I did pretty much after the initial couple of weeks of feeling like I was falling apart "at odds with myself" "don't know who I am" "don't know where to go" and so on. But there were some things throughout that year where whatever went on in this second "cleansing" and opening, that now, in retrospect, seem to be connected.
For example, there was the accident therapy in the background (hmmm... maybe ya'll ought to get some bodywork done?) and then the strange episodes with the "eclipsing of realities" that came about in July of that year - a year after the Cs came. I think that was an event of making a choice at some subconscious level and even though I wasn't aware of it at the time, it set the stage for what happened later (divorce, Ark entering the picture, etc).
The dreams I was having were pretty powerful, too. A lot of stuff was just dumping. I was living a lot of the time between two realities. I could close my eyes and still see... I heard constant conversations kind of like what is described in "Operators and Things". Some of it was creepy. I slept with a radio playing all night long and put yellow bug lights on the porches and left them on all night.
If ya'll will read al-Arabi (Chittick's "The Sufi Path of Knowledge") about unveiling, states and stations, you'll see that he pretty much describes a lot of this. Just ignore the Muslim gloss.
Apparently, you have to get used to running a stronger current on your circuits and after awhile, you acclimate.
I was interacting with a LOT of people. I didn't know where anything was going with the Cs or whatever - in fact, I was kinda depressed throughout because of the deterioration of my marriage and my attempts to continue to deny that. Then, I had the dream in September of that year about getting married and dancing and it left a powerful impression on me of hope even in spite of all the misery I was experiencing in my life. Then, I had the other event and saw Ark's face like a total hallucination. Like as real as the book in front of me on my desk.
So, the year proceeded and then, finally, 13 months later, I asked for a separation and a little more than 3 months later, Ark came. The interesting thing about this is that I actually DID go to Pensacola, and it was there that I had a dream about being kissed and waked up, kind of like Snow White or Sleeping Beauty. The kiss was so real, so intense, that it actually woke me up and I could still feel a "presence". Tom French and Cherie Diez were at the conference in Pensacola with us, and I told them about this strange "dream kiss" the next morning at breakfast. The odd thing about it was that from that moment, my attitude about everything changed. It really was like being awakened.
So, yeah, it can be a process and it can last for awhile and it seems that it can involve a lot of different elements and phenomena. It's actually kind of exciting to me to think about it now. Of course, at the time, I was SO afraid - just afraid of about everything. I was afraid of changes, of what I didn't know or understand, or what might happen tomorrow, or next week, and so on. A real worry wart needing to be in control of everything in order to feel semi-secure/safe. I was cranky when anything happened that was out of the ordinary or not what I wanted or expected. I had very little tolerance for anything or anybody that was not under control, so to say. I was grouchy, irritable, easy to fly off the handle, easily frustrated. I had no idea at that time that, 13 months later I would step out of my world and into a totally different reality where "safe" had a completely different meaning.
But it did take about a year to get used to the higher energy flow, the level of emotional content that went with it, and so on.
So, I hope this helps some of you to know some of the things that can happen and how to cope with it. Just remember, this is stuff that is living inside YOU... and you can either clear it out, or continue to stuff it and remain as you are. It's a choice.
But, from where I sit, it sure was worth it!
EDIT: removed a couple segments of the session that were unrelated to make for smoother reading, added a couple of details relating to the session.
fille des bois
Jedi
Hi everybody
Thank you Laura for taking the time to explain to all of us the process and the changes in your life that you attibute to the clainsing of your body, and your head
. This describing is so intens, so vivid that it's difficult for me to tell my first little confrontation with emotional problem.
Aan the beginning of my experience with the breathing programa, I had sometimes what it is called a zoning out . But since a week, I am
overcome by aan intence felling of despair, i begin to cry and i can't stop during the prayer .
I apologize to be so negatief but i think i am not alone in this difficult time
Thank you Laura for taking the time to explain to all of us the process and the changes in your life that you attibute to the clainsing of your body, and your head
. This describing is so intens, so vivid that it's difficult for me to tell my first little confrontation with emotional problem.
Aan the beginning of my experience with the breathing programa, I had sometimes what it is called a zoning out . But since a week, I am
overcome by aan intence felling of despair, i begin to cry and i can't stop during the prayer .
I apologize to be so negatief but i think i am not alone in this difficult time
Mr. Premise
The Living Force
Thanks for sharing this, this is really good to know. I've had some episodes of that "cranky when anything happened that was out of the ordinary or not what I wanted or expected" and being "grouchy, irritable, easy to fly off the handle, easily frustrated." And these episodes would happen after periods of greater clarity and operating with higher current in the circuits. So it was discouraging, I felt like I was backsliding or not really making progress. Again, this is helpful to hear of your experiences!
Laura said:
