Éiriú-Eolas - Breathing Program

[MilkoJanovich]

The most amazing is my respiratory system. I was already conformed with being a person that breath with only one nostril, and in the winter had to breath through the mouth. Now, my entire respiratory passage is always clean and shiny. Goodbye dust allergies!

I also had problems with breathing through my nose nearly all my life. I have nasal septum deviation and was diagnosed with strong allergy for nearly all possible allergens so most of my life I was breathing through the mouth. There were times when my paranasal sinuses were so blocked that I was experiencing so horrible headaches that once, when I was 12 or 13 years old I tried to commit suicide because the pain was so strong and lasted for hours. So I started getting vaccines and they of course didn’t help me. I think that they only poisoned me with mercury(I was given dozens of injections for three years). What helped me was a change of diet. A year ago I quit gluten, sugar and diary and, additionaly, month ago eggs and nuts and that helped a lot but not completely. I think that there are too many pollutants around me because I still have some rhinitis and yesterday I started feeling eyes itching. Anyway, if I hadn't quit this toxic food I wouldn't have been able to practice EE.

 

[Alada]

I took a break from the full program in part because I noticed with the doing the EE before bed, I had a tendency to wake at 5 am with the feeling of heavily processing something in my unconscious mind. Nevertheless my mind would launch in to high speed conscious processing and thinking and so then sleep was impossible. This was physically tiring me out so, after stopping EE, I now sleep later again. However, my sleep pattern has strangely altered in that I usually feel like immediately falling asleep earlier (10 or 10:30 pm) and waking about 6 am. Too bad because so far I found it best to arrange to do EE at 10:30 or 11 in the laundry room so as not to disturb the wife and kids and I have not learned to do EE in the mornings yet. We will see what happens, because I intend to return to it.

Maybe when the full EE program is causing problems for folk doing it late in the evening, or when laying off the full program for a while, there's still the POTS.

Memorise the prayer and you can do it in bed last thing at night before you sleep. No need to use a full on pipe breath - its probably going to disturb your partner having Darth Vader in the bed - but a slowing of the breath and paying attention to it to fit with the flow of the prayer still works. It's something you can practice every day.

 

[Learner]

Hi, I want to give an update and some reflection about my current part of the EE-journey. For now I do only Pipe Breathing and the POTS nearly every night. As some of you do, I practise it in the context of nature sometimes, as the days are getting warmer now here in my place. By sitting on a bank for example, the PB just goes marvellous, it seems easier than doing it, while laying in bed at night.
I sometimes recognized, while doing PB for six to twelve times or more, that it goes easier from one breath to the next breath and so on. At first it feels like a little block had been put on my throat to be removed later, when I proceeded. Or the tightening of the throat in terms of engaging the glottis seems a little bit like a flat bicycle tyre whitout any air - but by proceeding the "tyre gets repaired" and the breathing becomes very easy. That breathing seems difficult to me at first, occures, when I did not practise on one or more days. I enjoy it to see, how every time the body and PB become harmonized with each other - even if I left one or more days out. When there are these breaks, then my hemorrhoids come back - but when I continue, they lessen and there's no ache anymore.

I cut Round Breathing out and only seldom do some Warriors Breathing. As I have an emotionally tensed time behind me, because of old relationship issues and on the other hand I have to prepare for my exams to finish my university studies, I do not want to do the full program: because I somehow sense or fear, too much of old emotional stuff will come up which I could not endure at the moment. As it had been pointed out many times here, PB and POTS seem to be a softer way for releasing and cleaning, so I will continue by doing only that. I was also tinkering with starting a physical diet to accompany EE, so the cleansing would probably be more effective, but I cannot figure out at the moment how to get myself started. Well, maybe I should check out the thread "How to get started" in the Diet and Health Section. Okay, that's what I will do during one of my next visits on the forum...

While doing PB and POTS, after some time I feel a relaxation that spreads across my body step for step, beginning with the feet. It also warms the extremities up, from my experience. I usually suffer from cold feet in the evening and often need a hot-water bottle, before going to sleep. If my feet are not too cold, not thoroughly at least, then I can get them warm without the hot-water bottle, by just pipebreathing for a while. For this I have to lay in bed, the legs bended, my feet grounded on the mattress. By proceeding further with breathing and POTS, I sometimes emotionally feel like I want to fly like an eagle. And by doing it longer, I sometimes somehow feel embraced by something which I cannot really describe in words. Maybe it is Divine Cosmic Mind, which I call God, which I perceive that way. It feels like an all encompassing peace, that makes me feel like coming home and where I can open up - then I can cry and in this state I sometimes felt a warm and strong connection to Laura and to this forum; I felt and feel so thankful about the providing of the EE here and that it is totally free. That's true giving.

But what had become a bit problematic for me recently, especially after I joined this forum in February, is the formula "Divine Cosmic Mind". To give some background, I was raised in a Lutheran Christian family and I was used to pray to God and Jesus in Christian context. As the Sufi tradition of knowledge, which is also valued for the Work undertaken in this forum, holds - there are many names of God. Therefore Divine Cosmic Mind seems just to be one of those names. But there seems to be a hugh program installed in my subconciousness, that has another point of view. Maybe it is the Predator's Mind, that does not want me to develop further (because, I guess, it fears to be unmasked and when this happens, then has to go, if the real "I" attains more strenght [given that I have such an "I"]) by putting such an obstacle in my way. Mostly when I pray "Divine Cosmic Mind", this program jumps in and says: "Oh, this is not God you pray to, that is something else". What I try then, is just to continue with the Prayer of the Soul and banning the disturbing thoughts out. Sometimes it works and I can relax, if I do several rounds of the Prayer. But on many times I cannot contemplate that much. That program, that fusses around about the phrase "Divine Cosmic Mind" takes a lot of energy. I actually feel angry because of this obstacle and I want to have it gone. Maybe time will bring a solution, I guess. As the greatest vicories will be achieved by patience.
Originally it was not my intention to post this problem this evening, as I thought about the positive things, that EE has brought into my life and that played out before that obstacle came up and also in some ways while the problem is there. I wanted to refrain from posting this problem, as I thought, that I did not want to call for your energy and figure it out by myself (also a program, I guess: trying to solve problems for myself as I do not want to burden others with them or as I do not trust them, however). But on the other hand, networking is the key and I carry this problem around with me since weeks by now - and before I could think, the passage was just started being typed into the typing pad. And such, as the passage once is there now, any help regarding this problem will be highly appreciated.
Sorry for this confused (I did not learn about the Work until five months ago) and lenghty post and Thank You for your patience.

 

[Nienna]

Learner,

I think that it is great that you are doing so well while doing the Pipe Breathing and the POTS.

I have a question, though. Have you started on a detox diet? Have you quit eating gluten, dairy and sugar? Have you tried to find out if you have sensitivities to any other foods?

 

[Learner]

Hi Nienna Eluch,

thank you for your quick reply. To answer your question: I did not start on detox diet yet. So I am still driving on the old and broad road; so there is also still dairy, gluten and sugar in my life. But I was pondering about to start a detox diet. But I was not ready yet and on the same time I didn't and don't know how to get started. It is interesting, that you asked me that question now, as today exactly - when I was not on the forum and outside downtown - the thought about that it would be the right time to start the detox diet now came into my mind. For beginning, maybe the Thread "How to get started" in the Detox Section of this forum will be a good starting point?

Have you tried to find out if you have sensitivities to any other foods?

Well, I did not find out sensitivities to any other foods and foods in general until recently. Since I am doing Pipe Breathing and the POTS regularly, I noticed some itching on my body, that occures sometimes. Maybe it can be applied to emotional issues, that start to come out and at the same time to still consuming sugar, dairy and gluten. The body maybe tries to get rid of them and telling me by way of itching about it. Maybe, if I quit those three things, I will find out if I am sensitive to other kinds of food as well. So, I do not know yet, if the itching can be applied to other kinds of food for now.

 

[Windmill knight]

But what had become a bit problematic for me recently, especially after I joined this forum in February, is the formula "Divine Cosmic Mind". To give some background, I was raised in a Lutheran Christian family and I was used to pray to God and Jesus in Christian context. As the Sufi tradition of knowledge, which is also valued for the Work undertaken in this forum, holds - there are many names of God. Therefore Divine Cosmic Mind seems just to be one of those names. But there seems to be a hugh program installed in my subconciousness, that has another point of view. Maybe it is the Predator's Mind, that does not want me to develop further (because, I guess, it fears to be unmasked and when this happens, then has to go, if the real "I" attains more strenght [given that I have such an "I"]) by putting such an obstacle in my way. Mostly when I pray "Divine Cosmic Mind", this program jumps in and says: "Oh, this is not God you pray to, that is something else". What I try then, is just to continue with the Prayer of the Soul and banning the disturbing thoughts out. Sometimes it works and I can relax, if I do several rounds of the Prayer. But on many times I cannot contemplate that much. That program, that fusses around about the phrase "Divine Cosmic Mind" takes a lot of energy. I actually feel angry because of this obstacle and I want to have it gone. Maybe time will bring a solution, I guess. As the greatest vicories will be achieved by patience.

Hi Learner. I don't think it is any problem at all if you prefer to pray to God rather than the DCM. If your mind accepts it better, I think you should go for it and replace the words. I can assure you that God/DCM will not mind how you call Her/Him! After all, if there is One that truly accepts us as we are it is God/DCM. That is why we exist exactly as we are!

Now isn't that a wonderful thought? :)

 

[Learner]

Hi Windmill knight,

thank you very much for your reply! Your post came exactly at the right time, as I am going to go to bed now and that means time for pipe breathing and POTS for me.

Hi Learner. I don't think it is any problem at all if you prefer to pray to God rather than the DCM. If your mind accepts it better, I think you should go for it and replace the words. I can assure you that God/DCM will not mind how you call Her/Him! After all, if there is One that truly accepts us as we are it is God/DCM. That is why we exist exactly as we are!

Now isn't that a wonderful thought? Smiley

That is a really wonderful thought! :) You are right, because from the angle I perceived and also experienced God/DCM (or so I thought I would experience him), before discovering EE, He/She already felt so different from the Jahwe-god how it is depicted in the Old Testament and revered by many Christians. The Jahwe-god would very probably have punished me, because I called it by the wrong name; but the God I have experienced in my life - He/She was to me just like an ideal mother/father would be, from my point of view. Accepting me the way as I am. Helping me, when I ask for it. Embracing me with His/Her all-encompassing warmth. I now realize, I already prayed and connected with DCM/God before - because I see for now, that the connection with DCM before my mind started to refuse that term equaled as good as exactly the connection with God, I started to feel really strong almost two years ago. That was the time, when I saw my relationship with my former boyfriend declining and felt really helpless, because I didn't know what to do and then experienced the break-up. During the time of decline I started to pray for some solution, however, it did not turn out as I wished. But the break-up was the starting point for me to look behind the curtain of reality, how I did perceive it. The connections with God - who is also Divine Cosmic Mind, as I realize now - occured only occasionally and when that was the case, they turned out really strong. And while I was suffering from the break-up, it was really comforting. The only difference with EE is, that the connection happens regularly. Therefore it is clear, it doesn't matter to God how I call Her/him - He/She would embrace me, as soon as I made the connection or tried it, no matter how I would call Her/Him. And I can say now, that these former experiences with Her/Him led me to dig deeper in terms of spirituality and spiritual development - and so I found Laura and this community in the end. That's why God/DCM is so marvellous. By writing this post, I have tears in my eyes.

I will follow your advice, Windmill knight, and replace the term "DCM" with the word "God". I will try it this way in the night and will report here around the coming days, how it worked out.

Thank you again, from the bottom of my heart

 

[Alada]

But what had become a bit problematic for me recently, especially after I joined this forum in February, is the formula "Divine Cosmic Mind". [...] Mostly when I pray "Divine Cosmic Mind", this program jumps in and says: "Oh, this is not God you pray to, that is something else". What I try then, is just to continue with the Prayer of the Soul and banning the disturbing thoughts out. Sometimes it works and I can relax, if I do several rounds of the Prayer. But on many times I cannot contemplate that much. That program, that fusses around about the phrase "Divine Cosmic Mind" takes a lot of energy. I actually feel angry because of this obstacle and I want to have it gone. Maybe time will bring a solution, I guess. As the greatest vicories will be achieved by patience.

I agree with others that it doesn't matter, you can exchange Divine Cosmic Mind for God or whatever name is more comfortable for you. We can't help but be filled with a certain amount of bias through upbringing and cultural background, so naturally there can be certain attachments. But that's okay I think, God will not mind. ;)

What would be more of a problem is the thing you have already worked out for yourself, that the question was taking up too much energy. Not much use having a battle going on in the intellect if your trying to meditate and give attention to the breath/prayer.

Its not as if you are being rigid and dogmatic about it, you did at least try practicing the Prayer with Divine Cosmic Mind, you were open to it. If you had had serious programs that were going to be a problem around the issue, you probably wouldn't have gotten that far. So don't worry, sounds like your doing just fine.

 

[RedFox]

Just wanted to give a quick update as I haven't posted in this thread for a while.....
Was thinking about this last night (having not posted on here for a while) before doing the program, and it felt like I haven't thanked Laura et al enough for the program.
I felt quite embarrassed.

So (and I hope I'm not over doing it?) Thankyou from the bottom of my heart for the E-E program. It really is changing my life.
The best description I can give for the process is that of dreaming you are able to walk, to waking up occasionally, to taking my first shuffling steps whilst trying to stay awake. I get the weirdest sense of de-ja-vu thinking about it. Have I/we done this all before?

It also dawned on me (in a small way) how important this program is...given the way things are heating up with this strange atmosphere of negativity/disintegration, without the E-E program I think I would have sunk....and I thought about everyone here who may be going through the same....and about those who don't know of the E-E program or the work.

Having focused on my gut health and detox (beyond drinking the detox shake that I've been doing for probably 6 months now) this week, it really seems to be helping with everything. Seems that this program can only help so far, and it is the combination of diet and detox and balancing your health in whatever way it needs (both physical health, mental and emotional health) is what helps the most.
The idea of a situation stalling without extra effort at a key point (to have enough momentum to launch it off the ground) comes to mind. Focus on several areas at once seems to be required as you progress.....and with practice the focus becomes constant and broader.
With this I had a glimpse of a few areas of my life and this forum/community where I can see input needs to be added to keep up the momentum.....and I've felt both embarrassed that I have not done anything about it, and frustrated that I still can't get past myself to do something about it.
I don't know if I should be angry that I can only shuffle my feet?? Or if I'm mistaken and I can actually do more than I think I can??
I've been trying to assemble some data in two posts I'm trying to create.....and its taking me days.

*edit*
Just to add (I had forgotton to mention the program)....things have been quite regular and calm for me. Deep relaxed breathing, deep relaxation etc...some major zoning out. I was away a few weeks ago and zoned out after the program until 6am!!! Given the mp3 player was going round and round I must have listened to the full program+intro 4 or 5 times! I put this down to the long drive (4 hours), a long days study and doing the program near midnight.
I came back after my week away feeling like a new person (wondering what had changed?) perhaps it was down to the above???

Last night I started seeing some images passing in front of my eyes. It was like trying to see on a really bright day after having been in the dark....the image was intense and I was mentally blinking/squinting at it....so it wasn't stable.
I was stood on a sandy beach, with a warm breeze watching children play on the sea shore. My eyes stopped on a small boy with blond hair who was stood watching the others play....and I got the strongest sense that it was me (I had blond hair when I was a small kid)....and this was a memory of mine?? I can't say I've ever had a memory of something, where I saw myself in the third person. That was pretty cool.....it stirred up (in a good way I think) a lot of emotions in me. Joy and sadness.

 

[Learner]

Hi Alada,

thank you for your reply.

I agree with others that it doesn't matter, you can exchange Divine Cosmic Mind for God or whatever name is more comfortable for you. [...] God will not mind.

As you second Windmill knight's thought here, I now feel the more encouraged to try the POTS with the word "God". I have tried it that way last night. But it still feels a little bit strange, because I learned the POTS by heart with the phrase "Oh Divine Cosmic Mind". Just saying "Oh God - Holy Awareness in All Creation" feels a bit like something is missed (as "God" is shorther then the term "DCM"); so I tried it that way last night: "Oh God, that You are The All-One - Holy Awareness in All Creation [...] The Holiness of True Existence - God, that You are The All-One". But because I was so tired, I fell asleep before finishing the first round of the POTS, so there was not enough time to observe, how it would have worked out with that other phrase last night. I will experiment with it in the next days and will see, with what my mind will go along best. I will keep you posted about how it will work out and the results.

Not much use having a battle going on in the intellect if your trying to meditate and give attention to the breath/prayer.

I can really second that, as it is not only the DCM/God matter, that keeps my mind busy while I am trying to meditate, also other thoughts jump in - about what happened on the day and about what is going on in my life. In general I am a person that always used to think too much about too many things, more or less; that can be useful sometimes, but on the other hand it can be such a waste of energy. That is one of the reasons I started with EE - in fact, the thread about it was the very first one (or so I think) I started to read when I found this forum first and then I started the program itself two or three weeks later. Although it brought and brings such results, as I have described, the thought loops still can be very tenacious at times. When they come about, regarding the PB I call the numbers in my mind and at the same time visualize them - if I succeed in this, it keeps my mind quite busy as it has to concentrate on two things at the same time; and then there is no more place for thought loops. Regarding the POTS I hear the words in my mind (I am doing it as well as the PB mostly without the audio now and in my own language), but in terms of visualize something, the last word has not been spoken yet. Sometimes it seems, like there is some light or something similar, or flowers that are about to blossom or a tree in the time of spring, full of new leaves. I will continue this way and keep you all posted.

So don't worry, sounds like your doing just fine.

Thank you, it encourages me further to advance on my way :)

@RedFox,

So (and I hope I'm not over doing it?) Thankyou from the bottom of my heart for the E-E program.

I do not think, that you are over doing it. :) Your thank is expressed in the same way how I feel in regards to the EE-program. I think, one can never over do in thanking for it - because it also changes my life as yours, and it does it in a way no other program could ever have done or ever do, or so I think.

It also dawned on me (in a small way) how important this program is...given the way things are heating up with this strange atmosphere of negativity/disintegration, without the E-E program I think I would have sunk

I agree with you. Without the EE I would probably have sunk as well - into the swamp of the issues, that occured to me in the end of January, and in the aftermath of those issues. EE really helped me to process those things much faster than it could have been the case without it (I compare to the person I was before I encountered EE).

I thought [...] about those who don't know of the E-E program or the work.

Yes, there are still many people on this world, who do not know about EE and the Work and/or do not have access to it. Regarding EE, I occasionally tell friends and family about it and how it works out for me. Some can also see for themselves, my mother has told me, that I am somewhat changing in my inside in positive term. I also tell them about this forum - "There is a thread, where many people describe their experiences with EE, and what you read there can be really breath-taking sometimes, as many made such wonderful experiences with the program". Some seem open to try EE. They asked me if I could teach them the program, when there is time and as soon they really feel ready. I said "Yes". I have read, that the translation work of the program in other languages is in its final phase (as I have read it correctly). As soon as the German Version will be out, I will ask those who are interested, if they feel ready. As I see, if all of us here that are doing EE, will find some people who they can teach, we will already be a considerable network (as many are doing EE already, from what I have observed). Not to imagine, if the teacher-pupil units/network will multiplicate!

[...] (beyond drinking the detox shake that I've been doing for probably 6 months now)[...]

As I am going to start with detox diet, how does this detox shake you are writing about help you in specific? How did your health improved? I ask because I am interested to probably try this shake, and experience by someone with it helps me to make a decision. Can the recipe for that detox drink be found in this forum?
Thank you in advance.

 

[Laurentien2]

Posté par: Breton

I have had moments of astounding clarity, observing my surroundings, at the same time observing my own thoughts, emotions. At those times I feel like I can choose from among them to use, and as you say, take the best ones rather than just the mechanical ones triggered by external stimuli. These moments are intensely satisfying and hopeful, but humbling and somewhat depressing at the same time because it proves to me what a machine with multiple programs I really am the rest of the time!

Yes I experienced something similar at the beginning, observing programs that triggered automatic reaction in a slow motion way. Like you said, and astounding clarity that permit you to proceed thoughts or emotional reactions at a tremendous speed as if, you could see them coming, observe them and identify them in a fraction of second. How I could describe it best is like standing still and seeing balls trow a me but instead of trying to catch all of them, which was my usual reflex, I could stop them in mid air, observe and identify them and only catch those that were desired, slowly cleaning my mind from years of accumulated false programs, automatism. Don't be depress, we are or were all machines, rejoice at every small victory they would accumulate and you will eventually clean the machine.

I would like to observe that it seems to me that the EE breathing program is a great accelerator in this work on the self. However, I don't think esoteric work on the self, and self-observation will happen spontaneously without getting as much knowledge about the self (reading the psychology books for example), and possessing a real desire to see the self. Although if one is not engaged in the Work, I guess one can still use the EE program to get the amazing stress relieving and emotional cleansing benefits.

Again, reading the psychology books help me to identify more program and learn the potential arm that they can cause to others. As well as identify programs in others which can cause me arm if unaware. Knowledge protect. Psychology books help me to do a "fine tuning" of my machine.

I say this because I did the program faithfully throughout last fall and these moments of clarity were more frequent than they have been in the last couple of months when I have mostly taken a break from it. I still get these moments of "clarity", just not as often.

ThisI took a break from the full program in part because I noticed with the doing the EE before bed, I had a tendency to wake at 5 am with the feeling of heavily processing something in my unconscious mind. Nevertheless my mind would launch in to high speed conscious processing and thinking and so then sleep was impossible. was physically tiring me out so, after stopping EE, I now sleep later again. However, my sleep pattern has strangely altered in that I usually feel like immediately falling asleep earlier (10 or 10:30 pm) and waking about 6 am. Too bad because so far I found it best to arrange to do EE at 10:30 or 11 in the laundry room so as not to disturb the wife and kids and I have not learned to do EE in the mornings yet. We will see what happens, because I intend to return to it.

Breton, I experienced the same feeling of heavy processing while sleeping last fall. Every night instead of just dreaming I would hear and try to follow and process thought probably as you said from the unconscious mind but, I just couldn't keep up with it, my conscious mind was just receiving to much "data" to fast. I would wake-up more tired and exhausted every morning and I had to stop doing the full program every night before bed. I did Pb and POTS for a maybe 6 to 8 weeks before coming back to the full program. I haven't have that experience since then, now I usually do the full program on Monday and Tuesday, sometime more, and PB and pots as often as I can. It will pass, I came back gradually to the full breathing program, at the beginning when I tried it I had negative feeling, bad mood etc.. the next day so didn't push it and waited another week or so before doing it. then one day everything was fine and no more negative reaction pointed it nose the next day. I knew then that what ever caused these feeling was gone, had been processed in a more gentle way by doing the PB and POTS only. So maybe coming back to the program slowly may be a good approach, starting with the PB or POTS first and gradually bringing more of the program.

 

[Gaby]

For beginning, maybe the Thread "How to get started" in the Detox Section of this forum will be a good starting point?

Hi Learner, the Ultra Simple diet is also a good thread to start with: http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=13241.0

The important threads have also invaluable information.

 

[Laura]

Hi Alada,

thank you for your reply.

I agree with others that it doesn't matter, you can exchange Divine Cosmic Mind for God or whatever name is more comfortable for you. [...] God will not mind.

As you second Windmill knight's thought here, I now feel the more encouraged to try the POTS with the word "God". I have tried it that way last night. But it still feels a little bit strange, because I learned the POTS by heart with the phrase "Oh Divine Cosmic Mind". Just saying "Oh God - Holy Awareness in All Creation" feels a bit like something is missed (as "God" is shorther then the term "DCM"); so I tried it that way last night: "Oh God, that You are The All-One - Holy Awareness in All Creation [...] The Holiness of True Existence - God, that You are The All-One".

In short, some part of you noticed that using "god" is delimiting... that there is something "outside" god, i.e. ALL consciousness = the "real" god. If you want to substitute a term, try "Holy Spirit".

 

[Chu]

Hi Learner,

I would find it very limiting too to use "God". With our monotheistic religions, the term has been attributed such a negative connotation that it would make it really hard for me to feel safe while doing the POTS. I used to refer to God as "The Universe" or "Inconditional Love and Knowledge", and then with the POTS, I now find the Divine Cosmic Mind to include all those. Holy Spirit is much better, IMO, because it is not personified.

I was a bit behind this thread, and just finished catching up. It is so good to read about all your experiences and things like "It has changed my life", "It's changing me in a positive way", "I am now able to do things I couldn't do before", etc. It really brought warmth to my heart and a lot of hope. It IS possible to make a change! And I'm eternally thankful for having found you all. Thank you for sharing so much.

As for my experience with EE, it's going very well. I now breathe naturally and constantly with Belly Breathing, and use PB every time I need it. After some very rough emotional release periods, I feel different now. More focused, more decided, less negative... Lots of changes. My dreams have been quite vivid recently, so something more must be happening even if the tears have stopped for a few weeks now.

PB has also had an amazing effect on my stomach. I used to have problems all the time, and since I've started doing EE, it's gone! I can control my level of stress early enough, so that it doesn't affect my health. The detox diet is certainly helping too, but I was doing it even before EE, and now the change is really clear.

I've found a very good thing that I'd like to share here in case you try it and it works for you too. When I watch videos or read articles from SOTT that talk about the cruelty and suffering in this world, right after doing so I close my eyes, and say the POTS a couple of times. Before, the shock used to be so strong that I had to stop reading and I would be so sad that I was unable to read anything for a few days/weeks. And that didn't help me Do anything about it. Now, during the POTS I think about what I've just read or watched, and even if the sadness is still there, it kind of transforms into will power. I get up and do something related to the work here (translating, posting, FOTCM related things, etc.) I keep focusing on those children that are dying, and wanting to Do more and more. I feel I/we have a big responsibility, because we were born in different circumstances and have the possibility to prevent their lives from having been in vain. People in Palestine, children burnt and killed so young, they don't have that opportunity. I feel we owe it to them.

Thank you Laura!!!

 

[forge]

Chorus

Anybody hearing a chorus while saying the Prayer or getting idea or prescience about us kneeling together, the words of POTS enhanced by men and women voices working in unison?

I am forced to take long distance walks to and from my workplace, my flat-floot hurts like hell and i'm praying constantly to ease the pain and i get impressions, the idea-thoughts of our group kneeling and saying the lines of Prayer of the Soul together in perfect harmony, men and women and the feeling is powerful, uplifting, i can hear/imagine the strong resonance of male and female voices working in unison. Just thinking about this possible future event is very energizing. It's like an echo from the future, sometimes i begin the POTS while walking and there this echo of our chorus..