Éiriú-Eolas - Breathing Program

[Gertrudes]

An update on EE:

I haven't been feeling many changes during EE, but I have recently realized that one thing has changed in my daily life.
A couple of months ago I posted that when doing EE there was a ball type feeling in my chest that became rather uncomfortable. This ball feeling resembled what I think was a milder, but more constant, uncomfortable feeling that I had for years in my chest. Looking back, it was like the same feeling being condensed into a ball when doing the program.
This ball has eventually and progressively subsided during EE, and I recently noticed that the uncomfortable feeling that I have gotten used to throughout the years is gone. Like that, puff, gone!

One other thing that I have noticed is that I began to feel something strange an unusual in my solar plexus. It feels somewhat bitter and related to anger. I've been thinking about this and have mentioned that to my therapist, we both seem to agree in that I am pulling out deeply held emotions that have been rotting for years. I am beginning to look at them, and that is generating a feeling of rightful anger. Anger for things that have happened and that for several reasons I wasn't allowed to express. Well, this would definitely explain my very angry mood of the last months! I think this is something positive and if I am seeing it correctly, it helps me feel less frustrated with this anger but instead, to experience it as part of my growth.

Just thought I'd share.

As promised (though it took some time and doing), the new PUBLIC EE forum is now open:
http://eiriu-eolas.org/forum/

Great!

 

[Lucius]

omg today night was hard to my body.
from beginning of the day I fell week ( detox and gym and ee program)
When I back to home 18:00 I went sleep and then after awake Ee program about 20:00
21:20 I have go sleep again I have been felling very Week .
I cant sleep from 2 to 4 I have stomach pain and kidney. I wanted to vomit.
I have about 4 dreams , about EE practising in the group , about c,s and Flight cancer .

after this horrible night I fell good. only some pain kidney.. going to work then back to home town.

Greeting.

Do you have some fiscal pain ?

 

[Ollie]

A ‘spooky’ experience occurred this week: whilst doing the E-E Breathing programme on Monday, it was during the PotS part; suddenly the image of the face of the female spook (spy, MI6, character) in the BBC TV series ‘Spooks’ invaded my face for a moment or so before disappearing. How weird is that?!

On a positive note, the roughness of the skin on the knuckles of my hands has now gone completely. :)

 

[andi]

How weird is that?!

I think there is nothing unusual about this in that state. But it's intresting isn't it? I had a flash like that and I saw the face of a soldier in a ditch wearing a helmet and I knew it was me. But I was dead - very powerful.

 

[paralleloscope]

My first EE report

I have been doing the program steadily for 3 months at 4 times a week at minimum. I feel much better with my mind state which has been erratic at times beforehand, many pockets of disclosure regarding self remembering has opened up. I have been doing the program mainly before going to bed and going to sleep feels much safer, and dream recovery (helped by 5-htp) has improved manyfold. I am still trying to regulate the rigth ratio of diaphragm-lung-vagus pressure/ flow.

I often have very strong motor reactions against doing the round breathing and have reduced it to 3 times a week. Last week after round breathing, I went to my bed for the POTS part and felt my stomach area vibrating or pulsing rapidly, not exactly unpleasant but very forceful, I have never felt anything like that before, I was wondering if I had forced something, Meditation was like being under effect of laughter gas.

Yesterday as I was trying to reply to a thread, which to I had a nervous reaction going on, so I did the program but with half length round breathing, went to the bed for POTS and had a growing sensation through the session of my chest being warmed and received in some sort connection, I felt a bit anxious even though I was doing POTS, could STS dudes really impress upon a session in communion Cosmic Mind?, i guess they could if I was to hold subconscious loopholes open so i continued a vigilant observing, The warming started vibrating and swirling around the heart, I was thinking should I let this happen, and how to, what if I'm doing it wrong, the connection was allowed and a connection from the heart to the top of my head let off a kinetic 'image' of a twisting helix towards the crown, I was overwhelmed by the bliss of being warmed by the 'wiring'. underways I was critic to the appearant kundalini nature of the image but could not resist the feeling of freedom it let me have. At the end of POTS cycle I was lying there buzzing and asking internally what this was, the internal voice said I was connecting with me, stil semi critical I received a name which has popped up in meditation before, a soul name? do they have names.

I have become very happy with Prayer of the Soul, it has near instant relief in times of pressure/attack.

Thankyou Laura for this technique, truly a heaven sent one.

 

[theos]

During my last couple times of doing the POTS I've been seeing faces and scenes of people morphing into one another. The first I saw was a demon-like face changing expression. Last night I saw myself, or it looked like me, in the embrace of some man. These images are all vague and "far-away" looking and only last for a few seconds.

 

[andi]

My first EE report
I have been doing the program steadily for 3 months at 4 times a week at minimum. I feel much better with my mind state [...]

Congratulation Freyr ! Keep it like that. :)
Thks for the heads up.

 

[Pandora]

Update and questions:

I would like to first say thank you to those of you who have shared and gave input and suggestions on breathing and doing EE before bed. It was all very helpful and your words stay with me while I doing the breath work.
It has been very helpful to read all responses and what you all have shared as of lately. I don't feel so alone in sharing what I just experience lately.

I too have had the drifting thoughts as of lately... yet peaceful mind and very much looking within on my actions and choices. Yet... crying at moving words and amazing insight. No physical pain though. Dreams are always very intense for me from very early childhood. As if I close my eyes to open my mind's eye to another world and many many dream events that I usually can alter while dreaming and remember if needed.

I did find myself fighting off a sort of presence the other night. I was sitting in my bed in the dream. I was in Meditation simple cross leg pose and I was in complete darkness. There was a sort of soft white light the came around me. Sort of fog like appearance and them I felt danger...
A deep strong shove from something trying to move me away. It would move my spirit it seemed (I was very light) from one side of the bed to the other. It keep trying to enter, it felt like it wanted to take me, or take over. I grew angry and told it " NO" you are not welcome" Leave here. It insisted (pushing and moving me around) for a few more seconds ( How much time I don't know?) I grew stronger/angry and keep resiting the movement or manipulation of my body/soul? This did not feel like a dream I could not leave the area or change the scene as I usually can when I know I am in danger in dream land. I usually go to a dark floating quite area or I just tell myself to wake up. It did go away. I stayed wondering all day if that was an attachment trying to "move in"?

 

[Pandora]

Oh yes... and that same evening my roomate had a dream of something knocking at the yard glass sliding door. She said it was not human. It was trying to get in and felt was very afraid.

High strangeness happen around my place it seems.

 

[Mike]

I posted about this on the EE forum and thought to share it here. My occurrence and symptoms of Paruresis (shy bladder) have disappeared. I noticed the symptoms gradually diminishing since starting the EE program and 'tested' myself out at a large sporting event without any of the old anxiety or problems. I also think making drastic changes to my diet over the last six months and addressing a severe vitamin D deficiency helped me to overcome this issue. Many thanks!

http://www.paruresis.org/

In fact, recent studies show that about seven percent (7%) of the public, or 17 million people, may suffer from this social anxiety disorder.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paruresis
For general info on the disorder.

I've also thought about incorporating the POTS during yoga by going through the prayer in my head during each movement/intake and outbreath, but decided not to experiment without first mentioning it here. Figure those that have more experience with the program and yoga have a better idea if doing so would have adverse effects and a better idea about experimentation.

Edit Added: If you would like to use my post (or portions of it) about Paruresis as a review of EE, please do. I'm going to post about EE's help with it on the forum of the above website. 7% of the public is a lot of people that could use the help.

 

[Mrs.Tigersoap]

Just wanted to report a funny thing that happened this morning: I woke up and my first thought was 'Is the production of matter in the universe always matched by the production of anti-matter? And is it linked to STO and STS balance?'.

What was that about?!? My first thought is usually 'I'm hungry' or 'I'm tired' or 'Where am I?'.
I don't know where that comes from, since I must admit that my interest in anti-matter is, let's say, basic (that's probably a mistake, I agree).

I must also say that for the first time in my life I have green fingers and actually manage to keep orchids and other plants without them dying. Yeah!

I don't know if these two things are related to the EE program but I just thought I'd share.

 

[Windmill knight]

Just wanted to report a funny thing that happened this morning: I woke up and my first thought was 'Is the production of matter in the universe always matched by the production of anti-matter? And is it linked to STO and STS balance?'.

What was that about?!? My first thought is usually 'I'm hungry' or 'I'm tired' or 'Where am I?'.

Thanks for sharing Mrs T! That made me laugh, in a good way. Maybe your inner genius is waking up? ;D This comments from the Cs regarding EE may apply:

(L) What is the nature of some of these really upsetting dreams and experiences that people here and people in the forum are having?

A: Memories of lives of pain and suffering that remained unresolved at the end of those lives. We are sorry that some of this is painful, but this method is actually the least traumatic method of any for this purpose. Once the dark dreams are processed out of the system, all will be better. Then there are no more hooks for illusion to attach to.

Q: (L) In other words, then people are able to be less controlled by hidden unseen or unknown emotion and more able to... (Keit) Assess reality and reactions to see what is objective...?

A: Yes

Q: (L) I have noticed that quite a number of people on the forum seem to be getting smarter. Is that just - they really seem to be getting things, putting things together, and...

A: When energy is no longer needed to support illusion it is available for knowledge and awareness.

One thing I've noticed in myself is that a couple of months after starting with the program I suddenly began to have strong cravings of classical music. It's not that I didn't like it before - it's just that now I need Bach or Vivaldi with the passion I used to need Radiohead or Pink Floyd (which I haven't stopped liking, by the way). Like yourself, I don't know if this is related to EE - but perhaps it might. Although music tastes are not exactly knowledge and awareness, they may reflect some of my inner state.

 

[Juba]

EE 3 months report:

Every night practice and during day according to situation (more stressed more, breathing and meditation)

1-Depression: still in it, but no more crying (probably everything is allready gone), funny body aches are gone as well (now, when I wake up I do not feel like someone was beating me up)
2-Suddenly H2O lover: Except green tea can't drink anything else and lot of water
3-No more sugar lover; I have no clue what happened but my sweet tooth is gone????
4-Vivid, strange and scary dreams: Something funny is going on, before I usually could remember last dream before waking up, and now; jeez all these running, fighting, hiding, dying,....,... :( and sleeping whole night long, before had lot of problems with insomnia
5-Less appetite: I do not feel hungry, especially not for junk food (yes I'm on detox as well)
6-Having much more energy: All the time :D, that's great
7-Migraines: 70% gone
8-Learning and remembering much more and easier without psychological fatigue, much more concentrated and focused on whatever I'm doing or thinking without digressions.
9-Smells, aromas, music taste and colors seems different: I'm painting and making comics; suddenly I'm using all kind of different techniques and different colors in my work. Food taste diffrent and some scents that I like before I do not love any more, same with spices, music; before I loved alternative rock, pop and beat music and now I'm on slow music of every kind.
10-Deeper perspective
11-Sounds are diffrent and my hearing problems are mostly gone; had accident on diving and could not hear low and mid range tones on left ear, I do not know how but except tinnitus I'm beck on stereo hearing again, and yes enjoying in guitar playing once more after 15 years of mono sound :)
12-Feeling much calmer than ever
13-Time feeling & planing seems different, before I was thinking on tomorrow, now I'm thinking on today, what a relief


Thank you Laura and C's, EE is absolutely amazing breathing program.

 

[Mike]

When doing the pipe breathing and POTS portion with my hands on my chest it's normal for me to feel my heart beat. Other times I can feel it as a kind of small body jolt or pulse. Anyway, when I recognize this I tend to automatically synchronize my breath counts (during the pipe breathing) with my heart beat. This reminded me of what Mouravieff wrote in Gnosis I:

It must be made clear that the unit of measure of time is individual and varies, particularly with age. This basic unit for each person is the interval between two heartbeats when the body is at rest. One must acquire the interior memory of this unit, of this heartbeat, because the rhythm of esoteric exercises is always regulated in accordance with it.

 

[shijing]

EE 3 months report:

Every night practice and during day according to situation (more stressed more, breathing and meditation)

1-Depression: still in it, but no more crying (probably everything is allready gone), funny body aches are gone as well (now, when I wake up I do not feel like someone was beating me up)
2-Suddenly H2O lover: Except green tea can't drink anything else and lot of water
3-No more sugar lover; I have no clue what happened but my sweet tooth is gone????
4-Vivid, strange and scary dreams: Something funny is going on, before I usually could remember last dream before waking up, and now; jeez all these running, fighting, hiding, dying,....,... :( and sleeping whole night long, before had lot of problems with insomnia
5-Less appetite: I do not feel hungry, especially not for junk food (yes I'm on detox as well)
6-Having much more energy: All the time :D, that's great
7-Migraines: 70% gone
8-Learning and remembering much more and easier without psychological fatigue, much more concentrated and focused on whatever I'm doing or thinking without digressions.
9-Smells, aromas, music taste and colors seems different: I'm painting and making comics; suddenly I'm using all kind of different techniques and different colors in my work. Food taste diffrent and some scents that I like before I do not love any more, same with spices, music; before I loved alternative rock, pop and beat music and now I'm on slow music of every kind.
10-Deeper perspective
11-Sounds are diffrent and my hearing problems are mostly gone; had accident on diving and could not hear low and mid range tones on left ear, I do not know how but except tinnitus I'm beck on stereo hearing again, and yes enjoying in guitar playing once more after 15 years of mono sound :)
12-Feeling much calmer than ever
13-Time feeling & planing seems different, before I was thinking on tomorrow, now I'm thinking on today, what a relief


Thank you Laura and C's, EE is absolutely amazing breathing program.

jubazo, congratulations on all of the improvements you have been experiencing -- this is the kind of thing that would go great on the new E/E forum if and when you become a member.

For everyone who is already a member or considering joining, most of the material posted on this thread (minus any "woo woo" stuff) will translate really well over there and help get that forum off to a good start. Remember, whatever you post there will eventually help many people who aren't necessarily ever going to be members of this forum, so it's going to be very helpful to get as many E/E users posting there as we can.