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Mrs. Peel said:
I bet it's more the person drawing the blood than you, and having that tourniquet tied tight on your arm
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This rings true, she had it tight to get the vein, then loosened it off? It's not finding the vein that seems to be the problem, but I think she was pretty inexperienced. anyway, I'll go to someone else after xmas,

A Jay said:
Yep, passing out from a blood draw has happened to me twice. Doesn't mean you're a wuss, though I understand the feeling. For some strange reason it doesn't feel very manly when you pass out for any reason. 😅

Now I just make sure to drink a lot of water beforehand and have something sweet for during or after the process. But it does sound like it was more your inexperienced nurse than you.

Hope the new doc helps to finally get you sorted and feeling like yourself again!
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hahah Yeah I hear you brother, I've been doing a lot of work on integrating my more masculine energy over the past 6 months, so it was a bit of blow to my manliness :lol: well, my perceived manliness at that ;)

I'll make sure to start drinking more fluids the night before as well as on the morning of next time too!

thanks mate, much appreciated, me too!!
 
I've always been squeamish about having blood drawn, so if they are planning to take a lot for testing i will ask to lie on a table. I share this issue with others in my family, men included. So don't feel like a wuss. Some of us cannot even watch the process for others! Also having something to drink afterwards helps, and stay put until you feel stronger.
 
Thanks annp! I think I’ll lay down next time, yes there’s a bit to be drawn 🙄😂
it’s interesting to see my own bias here, I just assumed it was not very common, after talking to people about it, turns out it is quite common indeed, the power of network huh 💪😎 also that it’s a physical response more than a mental one!
 
A Jay said:
Last night I dreamt of three people being kidnapped, hog-tied, and put into the back of a truck by an old man. After putting the people in the truck the old man watched as the people were slowly transformed into partial beasts while also fusing together into a sort of blob and getting absorbed into some much bigger and ever more grotesque, non-local, blob-like evil force. The people were calling for help but because of the partial beast transformation it was a horrific mixture of animal calls and human speech. The worst part was that all I could do was watch their transformation and feel their fear and pain.

After describing the dream to some peeps, I think it may have something to do with what happens when people believe lies. Take the Leftists who think it's good to push trans stuff on kids and those on the Right who believe in Israel's justified self-defense. They tie themselves to something outside of their own conscience, an ideology, and that turns them into something they might otherwise view as hideously grotesque. Serving a horrible master they'd sworn to stand against.

I was on Twitter before going to bed just reflecting on how screwed up the world has become, how twisted people have become, and how there's no chance of averting major disasters because TPTB want those disasters. So that's probably why I had the dream. Still, the fear and anguish were very real and I wonder if this is happening to them at some level.
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Ugh, it reminded me of Lovecraft's story "The Colour Out of Space." There was even a film based on it starring Nicolas Cage. It's an eerie sight.

The story was written in 1927 and combines elements of horror and science fiction. Lovecraft himself considered "Color..." to be his best work.
The story describes the terrible events that happened to a family of American farmers after the fall of a mysterious meteorite near a well. He poisoned all living things nearby with water and air. Vegetation became huge and disgusting to the taste, animals acquired terrible shapes, and people lost their minds, willpower, mutated or died one after another due to contact with an unknown life form.
In fact, there was a certain "body" in the fallen meteorite - the same alien. When the alien arrived on Earth, he was too weak. And he began to suck the life force out of everything he could reach with his radiation - from plants, pets, people. Numerous mutations and burns as from radiation are the consequences of contact with an alien mind from outer space.
Gradually, gaining strength, the Color began to transform the area in accordance with its ideas. In short, he transformed the landscape in the style of his native world, from which he came with an unknown purpose....
The main technique of the story is a color that has never been seen before for mankind (hence the name). This reflects one of Lovecraft's main ideas — the existence of certain things beyond human understanding and cognition and the insignificance of human knowledge about the universe.
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The most horrific scenes were the fusion of mutilated bodies of animals and people.

trytofly said:
I also have some bad dreams in which I am forced to be violent in quite horrific ways towards other people in order to survive. This had never happened to me before. This annoys me and forces me to no longer want to sleep when I wake up so as not to relive this situation. I have never been violent, except in self-defense, and dreaming of having to kill is extremely disturbing. Even hurting someone verbally has never crossed my mind, so these nightmares are the antithesis of my personality. This upsets me considerably !
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I am familiar with such dreams. However, it was a long time ago, in 2012. At that time, I had just begun to get acquainted with the materials of C's and Laura. My son went to the 1st grade of school, and I started practicing EE. It was a few painful months when I was afraid to go to bed, because in my dreams I was killing or being killed. I woke up completely exhausted and in no mood. Gradually it passed. I think this was the initial stage of my inner transformation.
Hold on, trytofly, you will definitely manage and everything will get better!
 
@PERLOU I just read your post about your health and I hope you're doing better now.
I am not a doctor but I had a similar condition about seven years ago, where I was completely unable to wake up and walk or I'd throw up and I lost all my sense of equilibrium, my eyes not being able to focus on a screen or book neither. It was the most horrible thing I'd ever experienced. Anyway, in my case it was the vestibular nerve (inner ear) that had been affected and some tiny crystals found in the inner ear that had moved around. He said this was caused by stress and/or a viral infection or inflammation or a correlation of factors. I was suffering from ulcerative colitis at the same time, so I had a general state of inflammation going on for a long time.
I was prescribed corticoids (which I didn't take) and physiotherapy (which I took) and told to exercise as much as possible to earn my equilibrium back. It took me three months to start driving again and six months to recover 90% and I think even today I have some deficit but I don't feel it anymore.
I think you should check with your doctors as soon as possible to get a diagnostic at least. Wishing you well.
 
Mrs. Peel said:
I bet it's more the person drawing the blood than you, and having that tourniquet tied tight on your arm. I dread blood tests cause I'm the same way, sometimes they can't get it out of me either. Once at the emergency room in the hospital, they had to send for the "queen of veins" who brought some kind of x-ray machine that finds your veins. Once when I donated blood (I'll never do that again) I got really sick after, threw up, and almost passed out. They told me later my blood pressure went waaaay down.

I had to have bloodwork done yesterday for the stomach thing, and I always make sure to drink lots of water, and I have a little squishy ball I squeeze in my hand before, to try and get my veins pumping. While I'm in the waiting room, I'll do push-ups with the arms of the chair, lifting my body slightly out of the chair, also to try and get the blood flowing. Also, I tell them ahead of time I'm a "problem child" and to use their smallest needle. ;-D
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Ouch... I used to be very easy-going with needles and blood-works ( I had had a lot of them during my childhood ) until two years ago when a lady who performed it on my missed my vein and had to restart a couple of time on both arms until she hit it. I didn't realise but I almost fainted and now I've been struggling to get another one done. I've been postponing my doctor's prescription for a year... I'll try your strategies when I decide to go now. :)
 
Ravintsara said:
didn't realise but I almost fainted and now I've been struggling to get another one done. I've been postponing my doctor's prescription for a year... I'll try your strategies when I decide to go now. :)
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IMO the longer you leave it the more anxious you get, I felt the same way after passing out and having a bad experience, it is not fun for sure! I was encouraged to get back on the horse as soon as possible, which even though it wasn’t great experience, it helped me realise that I was ok, next time I’m sure I’ll be a bit anxious but I know I can do it, and so can you! Once you face those fears, you are free of them!
 
Three am wake-ups have been occurring more frequently over the last year and a half.
The dreams are also very interesting with some being quite bizarre.

People from the past shared things about their lives with details of how things went wrong.

Example: I find myself watching a home with light smoke billowing out the top of the structure while feeling a sense of dread. This was followed by seeing a cat (I feed two feral cats that run in the village), looking like it was tripping on acid but sensed that it had been poisoned. And then hear the word Yahweh.

Besides the post mentioning following the diet recommendations:
I find that breaking down the tension (from all the negative deep-state data news) is physically demanding exercise beyond the norm for my age, accompanied by mounds of Melatonin.

Getting out and socializing every day with 95% of most of the encounters being very refreshing thus anchoring the heart and spirit of how resilient the French people are as the elders have seen been down this road many times in the past.

The deep breathing exercises have been and continue to be a home run for maintaining mental and psychic stability.

Staying creative in all aspects of life. Acknowledge those that ring the truth through generosity.
 
We no longer have 'Jesus' per se but we do have Caesar, Divine Cosmic Mind, the C's, Apostle Paul, and many others in the higher realms. Not forgetting this special Forum.
I share this as many of us are unable to enjoy 'Christmas' this year with the unparalleled suffering in Palestine. I know I cant, but pray they are our pioneers for a new world, so that their suffering and courage was not in vain. Yes I know it is important to be in joy, or evil wins by our sadness too.
Beautifully shared by Emmanuel

“When, in the hours of intimate heatrbreak, discouragement invades your soul and tears come to your eyes, seek Me:
"I am the One who knows how to stifle your weeping and stop your tears".
When you think you are misunderstood by those around you and see that there is indifference around you, approach Me:
"I am the Light, under whose rays the purity of your intentions and the nobility of your feelings clarify you".
When your spirits are extinguished to overcome the vicissitudes of life and find yourself on the verge of fainting, call Me:
"I am the Force capable of removing the stones from the path and overcoming the adversities of the world".
When the windstorms of luck are whipping you and if you do not know where to lay your head, run to Me:
"I am the Refuge in whose bosom you will find shelter for your body and tranquility for your soul”.
When you lack calm, in times of greatest distress and consider yourself unable to maintain your serenity of mind, invoke Me: "I am the Patience that makes you overcome the most painful phases and triumph in the most difficult situations".
When you struggle with the paroxysms of pain and your soul is ulcerated by thistles, shout for Me: "I am the balm that heals wounds and lessens your suffering”.
When the world deceives you with its false promises and realizes that no one can inspire you with confidence, come to Me:
"I am the Sincerity that knows how to correspond to the frankness of your attitudes and the extent of your ideals".
When sadness and melancholy fill your heart and everything upsets you, call out to Me:
"I am the Joy that breathes a new breath and makes you know the charms of your inner world".
When, one by one, the most beautiful ideals fade and you feel in the height of despair, appeal for Me:
"I am the Hope that strengthens your faith and nourishes your dreams".
When wickedness refuses to reveal your faults and experience the hardness of the human heart, seek Me:
"I am the forgiveness that raises your spirits and promotes the rehabilitation of your soul”.
When you doubt everything, even your own convictions, and skepticism overwhelms your soul, turn to Me:
"I am the Belief that floods you with light and understanding and enables you to achieve happiness".
When you no longer taste the sublimity of a tender and sincere affection and disappoint yourself with the feeling of your neighbour, approach Me:
"I am the Renunciation that teaches you to forget the ingratitude of men and forget the incomprehension of the world".
And when, finally, you want to know who I am, ask the stream that murmurs and the bird that sings, the flower that blooms and the star that sparkles.
My name is Love, the remedy for all the evils that torment your spirit! ...
I am JESUS! ”

Emmanuel.
Meditação
Livro: Paz e Libertação.
 
Thank you for this thread. I've sat on this question for a while, partly because of the time of year that is inherently busy and stressful in my field of work anyways.

Now with a few days off to reflect and not so consumed by work I realise that I'm feeling a constant pressure that ebb and flows but is always present, building and reducing but never abating.

I definitely feel that having a teenager in the mix adds to the feelings of stress, knowing that whatever comes he will endure, while at the same time making the most of what we have and doing things we love as a family, I bear the burden of choosing this path of knowledge and some days it consumes me more than I would like it to.

Over the years I have felt many emotions, sometimes sadness, anger, confusion at what is happening and how people react or respond and lately I feel mostly frustration.

I am frustrated that clients are still cancelling appointments because they have 'covid', I am frustrated that clients family members are dying suddelny and still no-one is questioning, I am frustrated that I work so hard to keep a business afloat over covid and it feels like any day the impending financial crash will once again strip me bear, I feel frustrated that my staff have no idea of what is going on around them and so I carry the burden of seeing for all of us, and wondering how this next year will be and if the business will sustain us all, I feel frustrated that the wait for something to happen keeps me in this constant cycle of pregnant stress, watching the World around me in turmoil and still putting one foot in front of the other because the only way is forwards and if I don't keep moving along then all the work so far is for no reason at all.

And yet amongst all the frustration I know that the work I do is of valuable service to my community and that the people I employ are in good hands and that a part of me actually feeds off the stress because I could quite easily let it all go if I wanted to and go and work for someone else and have none of this, but the stress gives me a sense of purpose and I actually enjoy the daily challenges of not knowing what comes next and having to navigate so much uncertainty. There is a part of me that seeks suffering and as soon as things get easy I look for a new challenge anyways.

If I look from the outside into my life I am one of the lucky ones. I do work that I value, have a supportive family I adore and want for nothing really. I have time to read and reflect and practice good health and I agree with @Arwenn, we are meant for these times. So, sharing my feelings here are not a cry for help, just a moment of reflection and an opportunity to share with my fellow forum members what goes on inside this head of mine if I really sit down and ponder how I'm feeling.

Despite the frustration and pressure I find myself smiling and laughing and enjoying small pleasures in my daily life that this path is chosen by all of us, my son included; and we are here for the ride come what may.

Thanks for reading :)
 
Mytja said:
Thanks for asking and starting the thread.

Well, plainly and simply, for the most part that I'm aware of the nature of my feelings, I've been angry. I mean, yeah, there've been traces and occurences of shame and fear too, also bits and pieces of dissapointment, but anger has been the prevalent one. And when unacknowledged and/or supressed it would sour the milk into being frustrated or/and resentful.
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Thank you for posting @Mytja. Your post reminds me of a dream I had a long time ago, over 20 years. I was in a corridor waiting with a trolley to get onto a lift. I can't remember what purpose had the trolley, or who was next to me. When the lift came, the doors opened to a nearly full lift. Someone got in and when it was my turn, a person who seemed like a man in white robe with white long hair told me that I wasn't ready to take the the lift. I asked why, and he said I had too much anger in me.
Since then I have looked and corrected my behaviour with my kids and family member. But in some situations like the covid restrictions, it flared up again.
Now I have anger especially when talking to my youngest son. I discovered that the anger is related to fear for his wellbeing (he is homeless in another country and dont want my help). I realise that the anger is with me, with something I haven't dealt with yet and fear is related.

When i have recurrent theme dreams, everytime I have to make a last minute decision which irremediably makes me lag behind, with loosing my way and encountering difficult situations... thus loosing the team I was with and finding myself alone. Those dreams had gone for years and now they are back.
 
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