How are you feeling?

[Odin]

Hi Evan,

I am glad you shared your current situation and I feel for you. This life can lead us to challenges that at times seem like they are too much. Last time I was in a very rough place financially, the old session from 7th. November 1998 was just published and helped me greatly at that time. This is the quote that set it all in motion:

"A: When one worries first about money, the trap is set. When one pursues one's passion, all else falls into place. What you do not yet allow yourself to understand is that this principle never, ever fails. But you certainly are not alone. The 4th density STS programmers relish the thought."

After reading that I worked to change my perspective even though it felt weird, I worked to open up to the possibilities of what the universe might bring my way. I worked to not get stuck on one way of thinking of how the money would come or where the solution to the problem might come from. It feels somewhat primitive to be so worried about money but the world is what it is at this point.

Another thing that "popped" into my mind at that point was the aspect of "faith". Every time the feeling and thoughts of utter gloom came to me, a small voice whispered "faith". I don't know if this will work for you but maybe remind yourself to keep the faith even when it all seems dark.

On a final note, I always like to listen to this poem when things seem bleak:

Keep us posted and remember that you are not alone :)

 

[spheric]

Been meditating heaps lately, got some crystals, read somewhere that solar plexus helps with fear, meditated on it and fear went away (momentarily :P) read transcripts and they said it’s the rebalance regen chakra so could help if people feeling off. I lie down hands over solar plexus deep breath into area, very focused and works for me. Was doing it for a bit then felt it shoot up out of crown and like a gust hit window above head which was strange/interesting/coincidental.

I rarely dream/remember dreams but was struggling a bit and asked self for next steps/help. Both times got a dream/message, first one looked like Celtic cross that was turning around in sections, east section had green skinned druid looking fella, neutral face, with numbers on arm, 134x, bright light and two crystals, two crystals I got which related to lower chakras. The other arms with nothing and diff numbers 0000.

Second recently was no dream but msg just before brain woke up. “The letter H”, nordic came to mind looked it up. Hagalaz, transformation, chaos, old to new which sounds right.

Getting attacked sometimes, very deceptive.

 

[loreta]

I too had the flu, which was quite strong, a strange kind of flu. For three days I had a terrible headache, and nothing, not even the strongest painkillers, did anything. Then a lot of fever. During those 3 days I stayed in bed, unable to do anything, unable to read! Just the bed. Then the headaches disappeared, little by little I felt better, but very, very tired. And the recovery was very difficult, but I made the effort to resume my yoga and judo classes, and I also started my laughter yoga again.

I started to feel a little depressed, which is still present but less so. I take Moringa and also Ashwagandha. Plus vitamins. My sadness comes and goes, and so does my energy. Illness is always like a grandmother who takes care of you, who teaches you a bit about life, about your life. But it's not easy. It teaches you about your body, this mysterious body that is so strong and so valuable. Now I have my ups and downs, I've started to read again, to see the news of this world, but as if from a distance, a little further away.

I've also noticed more closely how stress is present in my life and how I have difficulty with it.

Illness teaches us patience, of course, and to be humble with ourselves, which is difficult, but we're ill for a reason.

When you're ill, you're finally alone with yourself, and the healing process puts you back in touch with the sun, people, books and dogs.

I had a lot of coughs that I cured with a homeopathic syrup.

 

[EmeraldR]

Just thought I would check in -

about three weeks ago I contracted an upper respiratory infection- started off with feeling cold and shivery then a day later a really inflamed throat so sore I could barely swallow without wincing! I kept my nose clear with saline/hydrogen peorxide solution and gargled with same - the inflammation and sore throat subsided after 3/4 days - no thick mucous or wheeziness in the lungs-but then the next 2 weeks I had this persistent tickly cough that was at me as soon as I lay down flat at bedtime - the bronchioles would tickle and reflex respons was a spasm of coughing - then it would go for a while and repeat - it really affected my sleep pattern -continued interrupted sleep-its stopped now but the last few weeks have been quite a challenge as my energy was pretty low and depleted- interesting to note that when this all started was a weather change from really sunny icey crisp weather to a series of wet damp stormy weather- usually I go out into nature but its been conntinuos rain and wind here for quite a few weeks which didnt help.
I ve spoken to a few freinds and aquaintences locally here and pretty much all of them have had almost exacly the same upper repiratory inflamed throat and extreme fatigue for a few weeks after.
I hope everyone else is weathering the storm - good to check in.
hows everyone else been doing ?

 

[PopHistorian]

I started to feel a little depressed, which is still present but less so.

I was just reading the thread on low-dose Lithium for better mental health - maybe worth a look for you if you haven't seen it. Low dose Lithium for better mental health

 

[Z...]

Has anyone else been feeling particularly weird for the past 7 days?
I have this feeling of lightheadedness ( not dizzy just totally spaced out although at times it feels like i am going to loose my balance) and very subtle feeling of pressure in my upper chest.
These are very subtle feelings but enough to notice and make me feel like I am not on top of my game. Difficult to describe but kind of like my body is on one plane and my head on another.
Lots of bizarre dreams and interrupted sleep too - all last week.
My energy levels have been okay until today - all day i felt like doing nothing and just lounging around. I even skipped my workout and cold plunge which never ever happens. Spent almost 3h in HBO chamber sleeping.
I thought i was coming down with something but no fever or any other symptoms. My pendulum does say i have a virus going through my body at the moment.
However, I just saw this and it makes sense especially reading other people’s comments…

 

[Ellipse]

I too had the flu, which was quite strong, a strange kind of flu. For three days I had a terrible headache, and nothing, not even the strongest painkillers, did anything. Then a lot of fever. During those 3 days I stayed in bed, unable to do anything, unable to read! Just the bed. Then the headaches disappeared, little by little I felt better, but very, very tired. And the recovery was very difficult, but I made the effort to resume my yoga and judo classes, and I also started my laughter yoga again.

I started to feel a little depressed, which is still present but less so. I take Moringa and also Ashwagandha. Plus vitamins. My sadness comes and goes, and so does my energy. Illness is always like a grandmother who takes care of you, who teaches you a bit about life, about your life. But it's not easy. It teaches you about your body, this mysterious body that is so strong and so valuable. Now I have my ups and downs, I've started to read again, to see the news of this world, but as if from a distance, a little further away.

I've also noticed more closely how stress is present in my life and how I have difficulty with it.

Illness teaches us patience, of course, and to be humble with ourselves, which is difficult, but we're ill for a reason.

When you're ill, you're finally alone with yourself, and the healing process puts you back in touch with the sun, people, books and dogs.

I had a lot of coughs that I cured with a homeopathic syrup.

I missed your message. So this is the second time you had a strong event At work here other people had the flu too at the same time of you. Are you fully recovered now?

 

[loreta]

I missed your message. So this is the second time you had a strong event At work here other people had the flu too at the same time of you. Are you fully recovered now?

Yes, absolutely, but it took a long time, like climbing a mountain. Anyway, I found this flu very strange, very different from the other times. I've never had flu with three days of headaches so bad that no painkiller could make it go away. And then de fatigue and the sadness. A lot of people around me had flu, and I think that the fumigation they do every day in the sky is partly responsible for all this flu. A flu that's different, as I said.

Thank you for asking. Everything's back to normal, even if it was and it is a rollercoaster ride. I can have a lot of energy in one day and then suddenly be very tired. But I don't think I'm the only one going through this. It's a rollercoaster both physically and mentally.

It's the price we have to pay for being alive, at every level, during this period that is so hard, so dark and so fascinating too.

It's a good thing this forum exists. You don't take antibiotics during flu, it doesn't help. But this forum is the best antibiotic on earth.

In any case, when I'm ill (I have to say that these are small illnesses compared to the big ones) I have to say that it's like a new adventure to go through, and sometimes adventures are dangerous, that's true. But illness is an extraordinary contact with ourselves, our bodies and our emotions. It's a little trip to hell. And then when you come back, when the illness is gone, life is so beautiful.

 

[Korzik18]

Has anyone else been feeling particularly weird for the past 7 days?
I have this feeling of lightheadedness ( not dizzy just totally spaced out although at times it feels like i am going to loose my balance) and very subtle feeling of pressure in my upper chest.
These are very subtle feelings but enough to notice and make me feel like I am not on top of my game. Difficult to describe but kind of like my body is on one plane and my head on another.
Lots of bizarre dreams and interrupted sleep too - all last week.
My energy levels have been okay until today - all day i felt like doing nothing and just lounging around. I even skipped my workout and cold plunge which never ever happens. Spent almost 3h in HBO chamber sleeping.
I thought i was coming down with something but no fever or any other symptoms. My pendulum does say i have a virus going through my body at the moment.
However, I just saw this and it makes sense especially reading other people’s comments…

Since February 15, I've felt something very similar. Early Thursday morning I had a scary dream in which me and my friends/family were being attacked by VERY vicious dogs (either sheepdogs or wolves). They were going to maul us all. We had to hide in the house and come up with a plan to get out of it to the cars. But out of everyone there, I think I was the only one who was panicking and scared the most. I climbed up on the closet and was shaking with fear. That feeling was with me for half a day after waking up.

I had absolutely no energy that day. I decided that I had overstretched myself the day before (honestly life has been pretty dynamic the last few months) and my body needed a rest. Alas, the fatigue, weakness and complete lack of desire to do anything has not gone away until now. Only on Sunday the sore throat and cough started.

And yes, sleep has become more disturbing. The deep sleep phase was very much reduced. In the last week I wake up several times in the middle of the night at 2 or 5 o'clock and can't fall asleep for a long time, which almost never happened to me before.

In general, my condition can be easily explained, only it is not clear what was the primary weakening of the body and joined virus or virus was the primary.

My son (17 years old) was experiencing similar symptoms- low energy and bad mood on the same days (15-18 February). At the time, I also thought that the prolonged gloomy weather might have had such an effect. But now I don't know how to explain it

 

[Keit]

My son (17 years old) was experiencing similar symptoms- low energy and bad mood on the same days (15-18 February). At the time, I also thought that the prolonged gloomy weather might have had such an effect. But now I don't know how to explain it

Apparently there is a pretty intense period happening right now, so what you shared fits. Here's what astrologer I am usually listen to had to say about this period. The peak of the period fell on 13-14th of February, but apparently it takes a week before and after as well, so the whole period is 7-21st of February.

 

[Natus Videre]

Apparently there is a pretty intense period happening right now, so what you shared fits. Here's what astrologer I am usually listen to had to say about this period. The peak of the period fell on 13-14th of February, but apparently it takes a week before and after as well, so the whole period is 7-21st of February.

I also felt a period of 'turbulence.' In fact, I got very angry at myself on the 10th of February, because I violated some of my personal rules. It's not the type of anger that makes you smash things; it's more of a 'pissed off' kind of anger. And then boom, there was enough space for darkness to creep in, and I developed some symptoms (like a 'frozen air corridor' going through my mouth, throat, and lungs). Then, 3-4 days later I started coughing and sneezing. Now, I am fine. I got sick twice within a span of 8 weeks—I don't remember the last time this happened to me.

Some 'force' has been preventing me from doing EE for a few months now. It's ridiculous. I'm wondering if this has to do with the loud pop music I am forced to hear when I'm ice skating. Putting ear plugs is a bit too dangerous because there are a lot of skaters, and the ability to hear sounds is very useful for avoiding collisions! These negative lyrics/vibrations stick to my mind for a few days; it's hard to get rid of them even if I try to mentally block them! On top of that, near my home, there is a 'never-ending' construction site which makes all kinds of inharmonious sounds that are driving me mad.

No wonder why there is a part of me which wants to escape, while the other part wants to control the 'escape.' When I get sick, the 'escape' part wins, because I don't have enough energy to contain it. The dissociative habits takeover and vibrate long after the stressor is gone, like Pavlovian dogs.

What's even more maddening is the fact that I know EXACTLY what to do to reach a more stable state—the recipe is all laid out—yet I don't do it, as if my mind rejected even the tiniest bit of additional suffering (which is paradoxical, because the 'escape' route is loaded with sweet, incremental suffering).

 

[Odin]

What's even more maddening is the fact that I know EXACTLY what to do to reach a more stable state—the recipe is all laid out—yet I don't do it, as if my mind rejected even the tiniest bit of additional suffering (which is paradoxical, because the 'escape' route is loaded with sweet, incremental suffering).

I completely understand what you are saying Natus Videre.

I have also been in a weird state of mind these last weeks with a lot more anxiety and depression than I have been used to. Much thanks to this forum and you guys I have tools that I can normally apply to get over it but now it feels tough.

What is new now is that it seems like the negative is coming all together and with full force. Anxiety over losing my company and going bankrupt, fear of not being able to provide for my daughter, fear of being sick, fear of not being good enough for the people around me etc.. But the worst has been the notion that I will never "make it". That is to say, I will not get out of this vicious circle of negativity and financial struggle. On top of that, I start to feel sorry for myself which makes it even more ridiculous I am laughing because it just seems too absurd now. Deep down I know things will work out and that most of these thoughts and feelings are not "my own" but that I am someone's dinner a lot more than usual these days.

My last line of defense now has been listening to some positive affirmations to try and get out of the negative state of mind but I feel strange doing it since I always thought it to be "new age" and laughable.

Anyway, thanks to those who read this, and hopefully it can be of relevance to someone else.

We need to hang in there and never lose our faith and hope for a better future :)

 

[ImaPrototype]

Has anyone else been feeling particularly weird for the past 7 days?
I have this feeling of lightheadedness ( not dizzy just totally spaced out although at times it feels like i am going to loose my balance) and very subtle feeling of pressure in my upper chest.
Lots of bizarre dreams and interrupted sleep too - all last week.
My energy levels have been okay until today - all day i felt like doing nothing and just lounging around. I even skipped my workout and cold plunge which never ever happens. Spent almost 3h in HBO chamber sleeping.
I thought i was coming down with something but no fever or any other symptoms. My pendulum does say i have a virus going through my body at the moment.
However, I just saw this and it makes sense especially reading other people’s comments…

exactly how I'm feeling this past week, feels like POTS
i had a break from HBOT but energy level hasn't changed much kinda low

These are very subtle feelings but enough to notice and make me feel like I am not on top of my game. Difficult to describe but kind of like my body is on one plane and my head on another.

also this quote popped up to me

'Bronze is the mirror of the form, wine of the mind.' Aeschylus

 

[EmeraldR]

thankyou so much everyone for sharing and most of all networking, I experienced some really intense headaches last week -so intense I could handly stand up and screaming tinnitus (the tinnitis seems to happen between 645 am gmt until 8.45 am . My energy has been zapped -I havent been 100 percent since I got the upper respirtatory infection( I shared about this a while back on this thread. The other thing thatI experienced alot of was feeling really spaced out -brainfog and forgetful - I forgot to pick up my elerly neighbor from her daughters last saturday as well as completely forgetting to call a good buddy of mine which we do every saturday - .I m better today and since last night - headaches have eased .Also I had ordered 4 items 2 from uk and 3 from mainland europe -they havent arrived yet _they were ordered 3 weeks ago.. strange times ! I did practice my morning and evening meditation through all of this - the weather hasnt helped continual rain ,mist and drizzle for nearly five weeks - it was sunny to day and really felt like spring .

I hope youre all taking lots of care and are being extra vigilant
Thanks for networking

 

[EmeraldR]

Apparently there is a pretty intense period happening right now, so what you shared fits. Here's what astrologer I am usually listen to had to say about this period. The peak of the period fell on 13-14th of February, but apparently it takes a week before and after as well, so the whole period is 7-21st of February.

Thanks Keit -just watched the vid- resonates v well with me