What Rense.com is not talking about
*picks his jaw off the floor*
That right there is why this website, this team, this forum, is unlike anything that I've ever encountered, and everything else just pales in comparison - there's a certain profoundness and objective realism to this that is missing from any other theory, idea, approach, or path I've ever encountered. And this is not a compliment, it's just how I see it. It's funny though, many people will say the same thing about many different things - be it a religion, a new age religion, or whatever it may be. So of course, who is to say that *I* am correct about THIS group and THIS particular path? Why aren't the other 6 billion people correct about their respective paths and groups when they say the same thing about them? And when Laura says that SOTT is most likely the best news website in the world, bar none (and I agree), how come the other kazillion people can't be right when they say the same thing about THEIR preferred news website?
And I think there is really no answer to that - at least not one that you could explain to someone. You either SEE it or you don't. If you don't, there's absolutely no way that someone who does see it could explain this to you or prove it to you in any way until you can get to the point where you simply see it yourself.
Warning: Long and potentially boring recounting of memories and experiences follows. Read at own risk!
I remember my first encounter with the cass website and the material on it, and my jaw has not left the ground since. And one of my first reactions was - if I can SEE it, if I can read this material and SEE it for what it is, so can anyone else! Obviously I knew I wasn't the brightest banana in the fruit basket, so obviously all my friends whom I considered smarter than me, all the teachers I had who I knew were more experienced and wiser, my family, etc - if *I* could see it, then most CERTAINLY they would also! So the only problem is that they haven't read it! So my mission was to tell everyone, because I was sure that the moment they see this material, they will recognize it for what it is as I did, they won't have a single doubt in their mind - and the world will suddenly wake up and realise its own foolishness - I have found the holy grail, I've found what the world was (I thought) so desperately searching for, and I'll be damned if I do not inform the world of this asap. After already dragging myself through religion, new age, atheism, and all variations of those, and then seeing the cass.org material, it was like coming out from being submerged underwater and breathing air again. I remember staying up sleepless nights just reading and literally shaking, my whole body was just shaking - and I couldn't stop it. I wasn't cold, I wasn't afraid, it was just an uncontrollable sort of whole-body shudder which was sort of a deep down excitement due to my inner realization of the profound nature of this material. I wanted to laugh, cry, and jump on the walls. Ok u get the point, hard to contain the excitement.
And it wasn't like the fluffy feel-good calming feeling of new age, or the comfortable "god loves me" feeling of religion, or the self-assured and self-convincing feeling of atheism. It was something else, and although the shaking has stopped (well, ok it sort of comes and goes lol), something inside me has never been the same since. Needless to say, no one I showed this material to in naive anticipation has ever had the same recognition of it as I did (not counting the internet).
That was kinda when I began to get a real sense of the terror of the situation first hand. I was throwing gold at people, I was throwing diamonds at them freely and rather naively, and they were reacting like I was throwing mud and rocks. Then I decided that maybe I need a bigger audience, so I went online to ATS (AboveTopSecret), where I already happened to have an account. Ok that was my second shock - size of audience did not matter, and in fact, that's when the totally absurd attacks began on the material right in front of me. Absurd because they were SO easy to prove false, or because they were subjective, or because they were assumptions with nothing to back them up at all, or simply so stupid and obviously contrived that I couldn't understand why someone would do that - didn't they want to know the truth!?
I think this was one of the biggest pills for me to swallow - no they didn't. They were all screaming about how they want truth, but none of them actually recognized it when they saw it, none of them actually questioned reality, none of them actually questioned their beliefs and assumptions and subjectivity - it was all hot air, it was all just to be "part of the club", none of it was real. And it actually took a few years before that lesson sunk in - I was in utter disbelief, I endlessly battled and debated and tried every approach I could imagine, thinking that maybe I was doing something wrong, I was so sure that it was my approach at fault, and that their desire for truth was sincere. But no, no approach worked.
So anyway, Laura, I'm really glad you have this uncanny ability to stay on the path despite constant attempts to either knock you down completely or make you change direction ever so slightly that you still continue to think u're on the path but are no longer. Actually that has probably been my biggest worry - that the group steers itself off course very slightly, but enough to no longer be on the course that Jesus described as the eye of a needle - one blink, one mis-direction, and you miss it. There are other "4th way" groups and esoteric groups and paths, and many even have a big chunk of truth in them because they are rooted in the same material that this group reads and studies, but so far it is only this group (that I've seen) that is not satisfied with just a big chunk of truth seasoned with a sprinkle of assumption and a side of subjectivity, but here's it's ALL or NOTHING. It's the real deal, except no substitutes.
If truth is like diamonds and gold, then this group is Scrooge McDuck (er, except he doesn't share, but this group has the vault doors wide open) :D