This shoulder news comes in a period of my life where I am being productive professionally, in something that I am passionate about and that allows me to put my sensitivity and skills at the service of others. Ever since I started studying Family Constellations, I have increased the sensitivity that I have since I was a child. I realized that I was afraid of my potential coming out because of beliefs that I have seen in therapy. From the moment I recognized that sensitivity, I have had dreams with messages for myself. I don't know if my shoulder and potential are related but I wanted to mention it.
I think that sometimes the body takes a bit long to "catch up" with changes. When there is a pscyhological component and it is manifested in an ailment, once you learn to deal much better with the cause, the body may have a hard time adjusting. It is, after all, what it is used to, and has been for years. So, my approach, FWIW, is to persist until I can be at least a bit more sure that subconsciously, I'm not wishing for the old type of suffering to be back.
This subject makes me sensitive because I thought I was going to save myself from surgery due to arthritis. I am afraid of having a surgery.
Understandable! On the one hand, mechanical solutions such as surgery can be effective, but as you know, they treat the symptom, not the cause. Perhaps the trick is to embrace (the arm is related!) life, rather than do things in order to avoid something (surgery), or to fix something for ever. It is a subtle change in perspective. You fight FOR your destiny while accepting your reality/life lessons, not against a particular problem or anticipating a specific outcome.
I feel sad, frustrated, angry and even guilty. I had a very aggressive relapse in 2014 from which it took me 3 years to recover by changing my diet, doing the protocols that the forum recommended, and working on my emotional state that I believe was what accelerated my recovery. Don't misunderstand me, I am extremely grateful for the information you share here but it is inevitable to ask myself if this would have happened to me if I had gone to a rheumatologist.
Yes, those are legitimate questions. But what is done is done, yes? So when you think hard about it, what do you really think you should do? What could be missing in your attitude or approach or beliefs, what haven't you tried that may be helpful? What does your inner voice tell you if you leave aside guilt and what could have been? What you have is what IS. So what is the best approach NOW? That may or may not involve a surgery, I don't know.
My 2 cents! I'm very sorry to hear this, but I have a feeling that this is an opportunity for you to have a positive breakthrough.