I hear you...
At the same time, I feel Laura is
incredibly honest and up front; if she is selective about what she shares, I know it is always for very good reason. There are also just some things that people do not need to share with others, this is often a natural, instinctive decision - often to protect themselves or others. There are watchers everywhere.
Just some general comments regarding Laura's words:
(these are just my impressions or thoughts that have come through sitting and reflecting...)
I think that many are being hit hard vibrationally at this time and it can be
very overwhelming... in the same breath, I also feel what Laura said was perfectly normal and it was
healthy to express it. But there did seem to be a
deeper pain in her words and frequency, beyond that which she is currently observing in the world, even beyond feeling concern about a lack of support - it was a frequency I have not 'felt' in her words since the period before Ark came into her life. A type of 'disorientation' on some level, uncertainty about how to go forward, concern about what has actually been happening, what may or may not happen, and how this affects or influences things, which is very understandable, IMHO.
So in the quote above, Laura recognises something is 'amis'. The 'Two Hats' episode resulted in Ark being under attack and was a very challenging time in many respects, those events would have been - and would continue to be - of great concern. Perhaps on some levels Laura is feeling a little 'discombobulated' by all of that, and maybe also feeling quite drained generally.
Maybe some 'overwhelm' is part of residual energies connected to this very stressful 4D STS failed attempt, that might still be affecting Laura (and others!) on some levels, even though things have transformed somewhat. It would be hard to shake that off when you have been through such an incredibly rough period. I can only imagine after all these years of giving and constantly being under some kind of attack, having to be vigilant about everything, facing many years of huge challenges, you and others close to you pouring your lives into soul questing, seeking knowledge, sustaining one another and many others... after so many intense experiences, I am sure I would be feeling:
How do we go forward from here? What now?
Something else I think it is important to consider that
frequency can go both ways -
what we are feeling and thinking could be transmitted to Laura by the group. Since Laura is one of the 'core' founders' of this group, on some level it stands to reason that
she may well feel what we are feeling intensely; possibly this is even magnified by the close connections energetically in the group. That, combined with the stress of the 'Two Hats' experience might explain some 'unusual energies' that were very heavy energetically and felt by some in the group.
I also wondered
what if the torus energy image I mentioned previously actually represented Laura - I say this because it was very expansive, in a state of continual 'flow'... I just thought it felt 'universal' but I was realising this morning it could also represent Laura and how her energy is 'universal' to those of us connected through the forum. The energy felt to me very expansive, always giving from the centre and then energy flowing back out, then returning, coming through the centre, then being given out again, which is how I see Laura in many ways... constantly giving. I'm not always very good at 'connecting the dots' with this kind of thing, and could have that all wrong but it does also mirror why I saw 'snake' looking for a 'weak point'. The interesting thing I just remembered as the image ran through my mind again, was that because the surface of the torus was not 'hard' nor 'too soft' or 'fixed' in terms of motion, it could not find a point to break through, it made it more elusive. The torus was in constant motion and because the 'snake' was also turning independently (it's own vibration?), the snake was struggling to get a hold on a particular point / find a weakness.
If the torus does represent Laura, and she is continually expanding her energyfield and knowledge, I can understand why she would be feeling.... 'uhhh... what next? What is going on?!!'
Just some thoughts...