Same here. Its like I live in a shadow reality--> in the negative pole of a parallel universe and the other version of me in the positive parallel universe has the abilities - IQ, math, physics, algebra, academic skills, improved brain chemistry - I sense these frequently that I should-could have, but I don't and that I have to be cursed and ability-lobotomized in this parallel universe so the other me can have very successful life over there. Because we are connected. --this is the idea-- Only way I could make sense of this persistent desperate sensation.Artemis said:I would if I could. It's very hard for me to put into words. I had this knowledge - something I just understood I could do, and it all made sense in that very moment, and I thought it was amazing. Almost as soon as it came, it was gone, but I remember knowing that I knew it. Can't get any clearer than thatT.C. said:Thank you for sharing the session with us
Could you elaborate on this at all, Artemis? It's just that it stood out to me personally because I've always wished I could ask the C's an almost identical question.Q: (Artemis) Okay. I have this experience where I have this knowledge where I thought that I could do something, like I had some sort of ability, but I lost it. Do you know what I'm talking about? I can't describe it to you.
It feels like shouting through thick soundproof plexiglass to my wife in the other room (who can't hear me), who believes I disappeared, but she can't get rid of the persistent vibe / strong intuition that I'm still alive. Its like a realization-barrier.
This is why I'm willing to try that one time psylocibin / ayahuasca use. I don't care about freeing up the garbage as I have been sorting through my garbage all my life, so its no problem. One time, and the effects could be lasting. That might help, maybe.. could be worth trying. Who knows? If one of us could gain something that could help this group, it would be already worth it. Question is where to get this exact mushroom in question - for one use - that has the exact chemical properties that was alluded to.