Thanks for the catch up. Apologies I didn't contribute anything. I was listening and appreciate the conversation but I was too exhausted to add anything of substance. My business is still in lockdown for another week and it seems when this happens I work harder than ever to keep the cogs turning. With 10 staff members in turmoil and hundreds of clients asking the same questions over and over again (despite actively sending group newsletters and social media posts) it seems these lockdowns make people extra needy.
As usual this chapter is very timely and something
@sid said resonated. I forget exactly what it was but it was something in the context of choosing to fight against the mayhem or choosing to truly observe. If you can remember and post about it
@sid that would be great. If not I am going to go back and re read the chapter today anyways. I think with the chaotic week I didn't exactly take in much of what I was reading.
I definitely feel my own inner turmoil of fight or flight and wanting to stand up against what is happening but then reminding myself that what we are seeing is far beyond our body centric selves. I am having this ongoing inner argument as my own freedoms are being stripped away, my own income teetering on the unknown and my own community actively looking more and more like programmed zombies.
I have to keep telling myself 'it's bigger than what I see, it's bigger than what I see' and it's requiring more faith in the process to prevent myself from yelling from the rooftops because it is becoming clearer every day that people will stop at nothing to keep their current belief system from being compromised. I have to keep reminding myself to trust the process, to observe objectively and do not get sucked into 'freedom fighting' or arguing the logic of what is happening.
This truly is a stripping away of the known, a purging of our current reality and a letting go of our regular life.
What came to me last night when
@sid was talking about the fight within ourselves was that the suffering I am going through is mostly the suffering I am putting on myself by fighting against rather than truly observing. Observing is very very hard to do - am I the only one who feels this? Just wondering.