• EN
  • FR
  • DE
  • RU
  • TR
  • ES
  • ES

The Wave Chapter 65: The Way of the Fool

As the Wave advances, a number of very interesting dramas have been enacted. So interesting and so relevant that we shall jump away from the present story for the remainder of this volume to explore this further. And trust me, it will be worth it!

As you might recall, during our discussion of the number 11 and the 3-5 code in volume four, I brought forward some unusual exchanges between myself and the Cassiopaeans regarding an 11-house zodiac. The very idea of such a thing is almost a heresy because the 12-house zodiac, the 12 tribes of Jacob, the 12 disciples, and all the other examples of the sanctity of the number 12 are so entrenched in our thinking that it is almost impossible to break away from it and think in different terms.

After I had written about it, the matter of an 11-house zodiac was discussed on the Cassiopaea e-group, and one of the members, an extremely erudite student of arcane matters and a professional academic, made mention of a reference to an 11-house zodiac carved by an obscure eleventh century monk in an Italian monastery that he had come across in his reading.

A member of our research team made an inquiry and the source of this reference was revealed to be a book: Zelator: A Modern Initiate Explores The Ancient Mysteries by Mark Hedsel.

I checked to see if it was available, and read a couple of the reviews, none of which inspired me to think that I ought to have it right away. But I ordered it and wrote to the research team:

You ought to check out the reviews on Amazon. I ordered it just so I can track down that damn monk, but I don’t have too much hope since I discovered that this is probably Golden Dawn/ritual magick nonsense for the most part.

And as you, the reader, are likely aware by now that the Cassiopaeans are not big fans of rituals and magick. So, naturally I really expected the book to be a waste of time and money. I wasn’t even sure there’d be sufficient notes and references to tell me what I wanted to know. But, since I had been combing through an endless array of material for a number of years, looking for references to an 11-house zodiac, the promise of a single clue was enough to galvanize me to action.

The book arrived. Rather soon, even for I should say, and was added to the ever-growing pile of “to be read when I get the time.”

Meanwhile, a significant drama was developing. It was not significant in that it was a big deal – it wasn’t – but because of the way it opened certain doors. My plan for this chapter was to continue with the chronology of sessions, including the background events as I went along in a more or less linear fashion. It is a crucial period in which I learnt the deepest lesson of my life: how we are controlled and programmed by our culture, our families, and everything around us through our very physiology. It was a lesson which drove home for me in an unequivocal way, how it can be that humans are asleep or hypnotized. Until you have awakened, you simply cannot know the difference between being asleep and awake. It was also the period of time that led to the writing of the continuation of the Wave series, entitled “Further Adventures with the Cassiopaeans”.

Well, telling this part of my story is, to say the least, painful. To talk about my own programming, and how difficult it was to even come to the awareness that I was as programmed as everyone is, and what was required to overcome it, is not a subject that I relish. But there is no other way to give an exact meaning of what it means to be asleep. It’s all fine and good for Castaneda to write about how the Predator gave us its mind; for Gurdjieff and Ouspensky to write about the Evil Magician who hypnotizes his sheeple; for the Cassiopaeans to tell us that we are all programmed and hypnotized; but until you have experienced awakening, or at the very least, have had a graphic description of the state before and after, you simply cannot grasp it. And, I had an ace in the hole.

Not only was I planning to talk about this most basic and cunning of programs, I was planning to present some of the latest and most amazing scientific research on the subject from the fields of psychology, psychiatry, neurophysiology and neurochemistry that would give you, the reader, a huge edge on dealing with these issues in your own life and mind. Basically, the Cassiopaeans had pointed me in the right direction, I did the research, found the smoking gun that proved the case of the aeons of social programming and manipulation that has served to make human beings slaves, and I was going to tell! (i.e. the writing of the Wave and Adventures series.) It’s pretty hot material because I am sure that the Control System does not want this kind of information right out there in plain view. Because, in fact, this information is at the heart of the Alchemical transformation process. Awareness and application of these matters will enable any individual who truly and deeply seeks transformation in a literal sense, to achieve it.

Of course, as usually happens, the Control System went into overdrive to try to stop me. And in this instance it very nearly did it.

Curiously, the entire episode (recounted in volumes five and six) was a graphic demonstration of the very matter I was seeking to ameliorate. Not only that, it made me painfully aware that, even though I have passed through a number of tests, have been tried by fire, have been initiated; I am still a work in progress. In response to the very kind of programming I was planning on describing and exposing, emotions were in motion and even I was very nearly sucked into the pit. I was ready to delete the website, delete the e-group, never write another word; and basically throw in the towel.

And then I realized that this would be acting as programmed. Everything that was being said and done was designed to excite emotions, to shut down thinking, to block higher understanding, and to feed the Predator. Remember what Castaneda said about the Predator’s mind?

In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous maneuver – stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous maneuver from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now. … “I know that even though you have never suffered hunger … you have food anxiety, which is none other than the anxiety of the predator who fears that any moment now its maneuver is going to be uncovered and food is going to be denied. Through the mind, which, after all, is their mind, the predators inject into the lives of human beings whatever is convenient for them. And they ensure, in this manner, a degree of security to act as a buffer against their fear.” (Castaneda 1998, 213–220)

So, with this in mind, let’s have a look at specific examples of the activation of the Predator’s mind. It began with the following post to the Cassiopaea e-group, from which I have removed the identity of the individual posting it:

Greetings, I’m new to the list, I have a tireless appetite to sort out the truth of things and after reading most of the C’s material a few things really bother me. I’m not a supporter of the “it’s all love and peace” approach to the universe either, but at the end of all my reading of the C’s I get a pretty sickly feeling message that Earth/3rd dimension is a place to get out of ASAP because it’s purely STS nature is bad, bad bad if you find yourself in disagreement with their description of STS behavior. But I read NOTHING about the joys and absolute beauty and wonder of this earth and being alive.

Since reading C’s I’ve been going around especially noticing the incredible beauty of one flower, a redwood forest, the incredible awesomeness of all nature in sync, the magnificence of our bodies, the awesome ‘STS’ human contributions & inspirations in the creation of art and music, the propensity of human beings to celebrate and seek the feeling of being in joy together. And it feels so right and so good to LAUGH and play with my children, share the deliciousness of the earth in the company of friends and admire the stunning beauty around me.

I think something is terribly wrong when all of this is dismissed and ignored within the message. I think it’s easy to forget that if these are beings literally and intelligence-figuratively light years ahead of us with an awareness and intelligence we cannot begin to really fathom, they see right through us, know what makes us tick and know how to lead us in a direction they want. I sense somewhat of a game to gain some trust with accurate historical and scientific references, and then often ‘knowledge’ is flat out GIVEN and in the next sentence some further “knowledge” is WITHHELD with the excuse of not violating our “free will”. The most striking thing to me is their direct claim that they also dictated the Marciniak info as Pleadians – and the gigantic discrepancies, contradictions and completely different slant on it all between the two sets of info.

Of particular significance to me is that they state in the Marciniak books to not trust them either! – that just as all the other beings they describe have somewhat sinister agendas contrary to their front, they clearly state they have an agenda too! My question to this list is, if we put on our thinking caps and tried to imagine what a C’s non-altruistic agenda might be, what could it be??? I’m still trying to clarify my gut feeling, but it lies somewhere in the realm of leading us to look outside ourselves rather than inward for answers. But why? And possibly that you CAN be both STO and 3rd D. Again, why deter us from that? Jumping in with a thud …

Now, I know that many, even most, of the readers will not recognize in the material what this individual has extracted from it. And this is one of the chief effects of the very kind of programming I was planning on talking about. And just to give you some idea, I have put in bold text some of the clues to the programming of the writer. These words tell us something of the mode, or circuit, from which she operates and views the world. And being able to detect, interpret, and master these circuits and programs is part of the Alchemical work of transformation.

Now, the first thing we note about her missive is that, as a result of reading the Cassiopaean material, she had a reaction. This reaction actually, if she had taken the time to notice, was to feel more alive, and to find more meaning in the world. It was a shock, no doubt, but as Sartre was noted to have said, he never felt so free as when he was in the French Resistance and might be arrested and shot at any moment.

Thus, even though she was not fully appreciating what had taken place in her psyche, this reader was actually flirting with the early stages of awakening.

Gurdjieff taught himself to seek crisis consciously, as a means of shaking himself awake. He wrote:

“I had to forgo any limits, emotional, perceptual or knowable, that I had formed in myself, or had accidentally been formed in me by previous experience. I quickly recognized that any objective shock to the system could be used, provided it were safe enough to stop short – in some cases just exactly short – of total disruption of the life force in the body.”

Gurdjieff’s method included keeping his students in a perpetual state of alertness in order to solidify and grow the higher organs of perception. Only in this way can we achieve objective states of consciousness.

But, what happened to our reader? Well, the Predator’s mind, “baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now,” drove her to retreat in terror from this objective consciousness. Even though it was awakened by the very shock she had received, her interpretation of this effect was that it was dangerous, which is a rather graphic illustration of the contradictory nature of the Predator’s mind.

But, what is this Predator’s mind exactly? It is the way our brains and nervous systems are set up – as delineated by our DNA – which includes certain early periods of where our circuitry and thinking processes are established at an age and under conditions over which we have no control.

This is called imprinting. Human beings are born with certain basic behavior patterns built in their DNA. Just as a flower will follow a certain series of steps from the emergence of the seedling to the stage of producing a flower, human beings also develop certain characteristics only at certain times in their growth process. These sequences are something over which we have no control.

Konrad Lorenz illustrated this principle with his famous ducks. Ducks (and humans) are programmed at a certain time in their lives to accept a mother figure. If the proper mother figure is not there at that moment of imprinting, whoever or whatever is there will be the mother image in the mind of the duck. That is to say, when the appropriate (or inappropriate) object of need is presented to the duck at the correct time in its development, the object is labeled “mother” somewhere in the brain, and this label is next to impossible to erase.

Experiments were conducted with ducks which demonstrated that there is a critical age in hours at which a duckling is most responsive to obtaining and labeling a mother.

Similar studies were done with monkeys. These studies demonstrated that if a monkey has not received motherly stimulation before he is a certain number of weeks old, he will grow up to be cold, aloof, and unfriendly to his own offspring. The curious thing about the monkey experiments was that the sense of touch was more important than the feeding. A fuzzy surrogate with no milk was preferred over a wire surrogate with milk. This demonstrates a high-level need for touching and caressing. It also suggests the mode of this imprint – sensory. Kinesthetic.

Evidence that there is a critical period for the mother imprint in the higher animals was emphasized in the monkey experiments. In one instance, the experimenter was not prepared for the arrival of a new baby monkey and had to create a makeshift surrogate mother using a ball for the head. This was provided to the baby, while the experimenter worked on a better model with a face. But, it was too late. The baby monkey had already bonded to the faceless mother and turned the face of the new model around so that it was blank. A mother with a face was simply not acceptable because the imprint had already been made.

Joseph Chilton Pearce writes:

Occasionally we hear of people found chained in attics and such places from infancy. Their world view is either scanty or different for they are always feeble minded at best. In 1951 a child was found in an Irish chicken-house, having somehow survived there with the chickens, since infancy. The ten-year old’s long hair was matted with filth; he ate at the chicken trough; roosted with the flock; his fingernails had grown, fittingly, to semicircular claws; he made chicken-like noises, not surprisingly; he had no speech and showed no promise of learning any in the time he survived his rescue.

Forty years ago there was interest in two feral children found in India. They had apparently been raised by wolves. They were taken from an actual wolf den along with some cubs, the older wolves scattering or being killed. One of the children, Kamala they called her, survived for nine years. Only with difficulty was she taught table manners and such niceties as walking on the hind legs. Nevertheless she exhibited a growing awareness of the reward system of her new group, and displayed a strong drive toward such orientation. As with the chicken-child, however, she had missed the formative period of human infant development, and there was no easy or complete going back to retrace the steps. Kamala had formed according to the pattern eliciting response around her during her mirroring [imprinting] period. For her first two years of captivity – or rescue – she howled faithfully at ten, twelve, and three at night, as all Indian wolves do. She would also, in spite of precautions, manage to get at the chickens, rip them apart alive and eat them raw. Only when the new social reward system grew strong enough to outweigh the earlier rewards did she abandon her early training. (Pearce 1971)

We are all Kamala. We are all divine children raised by wolves.

But how can this be?

We are all programmed. Our programs are written in the circuits of our brains by those around us in our formative years, just as their programs were written during their formative years, and so on back into the mists of time. Each generation just adding a few more lines of code.

It is our ideas that shape our children. We provide what we may consider to be the ideal environment for the child, but our own programming determines what we may consider to be the proper environment. Once we have provided the environment, we then want our children to like it, to approve of it, to agree with us that it is right. And our ideas come from our culture. And our culture is created by … what? A Control System?

There is considerable evidence that agreement is also in the genes. There seems to be a genetic drive toward communion with others, for speech and preferences and disposition. As newly born human beings, it seems we come into the world with intent to be in agreement with others. But the details of how we go about being agreeable is related to the imprints we receive at the various stages of childhood development.

Everyone carries in their genes, it seems, deep archetypes that are very much like a database program just waiting for someone to input data. The thing is, this database is only open to input for a limited period of time, and whatever data is entered during that time determines how all other data will be evaluated forever after. It will produce over and over again the same response to any set of stimuli that have one or more items that have been organized by the database. Anything that is not found in the database is discarded. If the database is not utilized and no data is entered during the period of readiness, or imprinting, that possibility goes dormant and diminishes.

The higher thinking functions, laid over the deep-level archetype database, can be viewed as a kind of software that is linked to the database, and must constantly check with it in order to operate. You could think of it as a word processing program with a fixed dictionary and set of templates, and you can only write in it according to the templates, and you can only use the words that are in the already fixed dictionary. Since our brains are genetically designed to accept imprint conditioning on its circuits at certain crucial points in neurological development, these critical periods are known as times of “imprint vulnerability”. The imprint establishes the limits or parameters within which all subsequent conditioning and learning will occur. Each successive imprint further complicates the matter, especially if some of these programs are not compatible with others.

Different schools of thought describe these circuits as “stages of development.” Some of the earliest work in these concepts has passed into our culture to such an extent that they have become slang terms such as “Oh, he’s just anal-retentive,” with very little actual understanding of what is meant by such expressions. 

It seems that, according to research, the older brain structures – those necessary for basic survival, such as the brain stem – are imprinted in the earliest stages of development, and that the newer structures, such as the mid-brain and cortex develop superimpositions upon the more primitive imprints. However, the earlier parts of the brain and their imprints form the foundation for how later imprints are responded to and continue to function after the higher thinking modes are developed.

In other words, if you are traumatized as an infant at a crucial point of imprint perceptivity, it doesn’t matter if you grow up to be the President of the United States, you will still be ruled by the imprint.

And, of course, we have a classic example in Bill Clinton. It didn’t matter that he was behaving in ways to destroy his marriage and the emotional well-being of a well-loved child; it didn’t matter that his behavior was destructive to the point of practically bringing the entire country to chaos; his inner emotional drives, determined in infancy by his imprinting, ruled his behavior. His Rhodes scholar intellect had nothing to do with it. And, sadly, this is actually exactly how everyone operates in principle, though not necessarily in specific. A lot of men do have the same imprint Bill has; only they aren’t President of the United States. But then, women also have their own variations on this theme.

The first stage, or circuit, is the oral-passive-receptive, and is imprinted by what is perceived to be the mother or first mothering object. It can be conditioned by nourishment or threat, and is mostly concerned with bodily security. Trauma during this phase can cause an unconsciously motivated mechanical retreat from anything threatening to physical safety.

In recent times I have given a lot of thought to this particular circuit because of the matter of circumcision. Having come to the tentative idea that the whole Judeo-Christian monotheistic rant was a major control program, I came face to face with the question: how and why has it worked so well for so many thousands of years? More than that, how was it imposed in the first place?

I puzzled over this for weeks. I thought about several things that Friedrich Nietzsche had said that struck me like thunderbolts of truth once I was able to really step back and look at the matter:

The Jews are the most remarkable nation of world history because, faced with the question of being or not being, they preferred, with a perfectly uncanny conviction, being at any price; the price they had to pay was the radical falsification of all nature, all naturalness, all reality, the entire inner world as well as the outer. They defined themselves counter to all those conditions under which a nation was previously able to live, was permitted to live; they made of themselves an antithesis of natural conditions – they inverted religion, religious worship, morality, history, psychology, one after the other, in an irreparable way into the contradiction of their natural values.

… Christianity has waged a deadly war against the higher type of man. It has put a ban on all his fundamental instincts. It has distilled evil out of these instincts. It makes the strong and efficient man its typical outcast man. It has taken the part of the weak and the low; it has made an ideal out of its antagonism to the very instincts which tend to preserve life and well-being … It has taught men to regard their highest impulses as sinful – as temptations.

… What is Jewish, what is Christian morality? Chance robbed of its innocence; unhappiness polluted with the idea of “sin;” well-being represented as a danger, as a “temptation,” a physiological disorder produced by the canker worm of conscience. (Nietzsche 1888)

But, that’s not to say that Nietzsche was any paragon himself, with his mysogynistic, misanthropic rants. He was in fact declared insane in 1888. As the Encyclopedia Britannica (11th ed.) put it, “Revolt against the whole civilized environment in which he was born is the keynote to Nietzsche’s literary career.”

Nevertheless, he had a point about Judaism and Christianity (and any and all other monotheistic, dominator religions.) So, there I was, pondering this and trying to figure out how and why people could be so completely taken in by this utter nonsense. How can educated members of the human race, in this day and age, with all the resources of knowledge and awareness available to those who have the desire and energy to search for truth, possibly buy into such myths?

It just staggered my mind to think about it.

I went back in my thinking to the whole Jehovah-I Am deal; the Moses story and all that; and went over the details as they are presented in the Bible for clues. And I came up against that most interesting demand of that crafty Jehovah/Yahweh: circumcision. On the eighth day, no less.

What better way to ensure a deep, subconscious, distrust of women – not to mention an overwhelming terror at the very mention of the pain and suffering that might ensue from breaking the monotheistic covenant – than whacking a guy’s penis when he is interested only in being warm, cozy, and filling his tummy with warm, sweet milk from mother?

Talk about your basic abyssal cunning there!

The first circuit is concerned with what is safe and what is not safe. In our society, money is one of the primary items that is intimately tied to survival and biological security. Money represents survival. In addition to that, people who have been traumatized during the imprinting phase of the first circuit tend to view other people in an abstract way. It is “us and them.” They also tend to be very easily threatened by disapproval of any sort because disapproval suggests the idea of extinction or loss of food supply. And, finally, those who have been negatively imprinted at this stage tend to have a chronic muscular armoring that prevents proper, relaxed breathing; they are uptight.

One of the main characteristics of people who are heavily controlled by this circuit, or are stuck in this oral phase, is that when they sense danger of any sort, whether actual or conceptual, all mental activity comes to a halt. Such people are chronically anxious and dependent – mostly on religion. They are not able to really understand what other people are feeling or what can happen in the future in regard to relationships, given a certain present situation. They only understand what is happening now, and they can only feel what they feel. They cannot accurately grasp what others feel because they relate to others only as sensory objects.

And, how many men are circumcised? A lot, I can tell you – 30% of males, globally, according to the World Health Organization, and approximately 56% are circumcised as infants in the U.S. And, besides the Jews, for years, the American Medical Association advocated and urged circumcision of American babies for hygienic reasons. Hmm.

As a side note, trauma or failure to bond at this oral phase tends to also lead to weight issues – either overweight or underweight. The expression of healthy growth through this phase is the ability to retain the state of consciousness of the natural child who will feel safe in the world no matter what they encounter.

I would say that, in terms of the negative imprinting of this circuit, we have pretty well described William Clinton. I wonder if he is circumcised? I suppose you could ask Monica.

The second stage, or circuit, the famous “anal phase,” is concerned with keeping or letting go of experiences in interactions with others. This second circuit determines how an individual will expand their identity to include others. The drive of the second phase is to interact with other selves. It is this drive that either brings about the congregation of groups, or results in paranoid withdrawal from anyone who is different. Trauma in the formation of this circuit (generally from 12 months to 24 months) can result in a lack of social feeling, a tendency to manipulate and exploit others for one’s own gain, and cruelty to others, whether conscious or unconscious. This is generally a result of a feeling of non-acceptance, that one is missing out on something that others have, the need for approval from others and basic lack of self-esteem.

It is during this phase that the Matrix – a conditioning system of sorts – forms as a semantic universe of verbal structures. Language is conceptual, as we have discussed previously, and is one of the things that distinguishes third density from second density. Our concepts are a sort of framework of perception that we learn as we learn words. As we are learning our language, things such as hot and cold, we are also learning that one thing is good or another is bad. We can either handle things freely because they are good, or we don’t touch because they are bad. There is, in this phase, a tremendous drive in a child to create order. This drive is aimed at grouping, identifying, correlating and naming everything. And, as this is being done, there is a constant check with the parents and others interacting with the child as to whether this is bad or good or real or not real. What the child is doing is defining not only himself, but his entire world. It is at this stage that most of our complex belief systems are formed. Everything that surrounds him is raw material for the child. The matrix is created by the guiding actions and responses from the other minds around him. This matrix is, in reality, a gigantic conditioning system. And we insert our children into it through our own actions.

The mind of an infant is said to be:

… Autistic, a rich texture of free synthesis, hallucinatory and unlimited. His mind can skip over syllogisms with ease, in a non-logical, dream-sequence kind of “knight’s move” continuum. He nevertheless shows a strong desire to participate in a world of others. Eventually his willingness for self-modification, necessary to win rapport with his world, is stronger than his desire for autonomy. Were it not, civilization would not be possible. That we succeed in moulding him to respond to our criteria shows the innate drive for communion and the flexibility of a young mind.

Maturity, or becoming reality adjusted, restricts and diminishes this “knight’s move” thinking, and tends to make pawns of us in the process. … If we believe our social view sacred and made in heaven, we tend to shut off a deep potential in which many of the terrors and shortcomings of our logic and reason might be averted.

… We force our children, consciously and unconsciously, to selectively ignore certain phenomena and look for and nourish other phenomena.

… To take part in society we must accept the social definitions and agreements that make up the society’s reality picture. Our definitions outline the socially acceptable framework for what shall be considered real. This network of definition changes from culture to culture and period to period. It is arbitrary to an indeterminable degree, but is always the form for the only reality available.

… The stage of this development lasts throughout infancy and early childhood. The word and the concept become fused in that early period of development and grow up together.

If language is not built in during this formative period, it cannot be built at all.

… The emerging mind will have mirrored whatever model it had during that formative period. The pattern formed in this plastic stage becomes firm. It hardens into the functional system of representation-response we call a world view.

… The infant’s dream-like association of ideas is slowly won over to an agreement of what should constitute reality. By the time our reasoning has developed enough to reflect on the process by which our reasoning has formed, we are part and parcel of the whole process, caught up in and sustaining it. By the time the young rebel reaches the age of rebellion his is inevitably that against which he would rebel …

… Whitehead [wrote of fundamental assumptions] … But people do not know that they are assuming, for no other way of putting things has ever occurred to them; they are always merely responding to “obvious facts.”

… We are limited by our agreements on possibility. Agreement is a common exclusion of alternate possibilities. Agreement is the cement of social structure.

… The condition called reality exists as an ever-current sum total of our representations and responses. Whatever we see is what reality is for us …

… We used to think of the nervous system as a simple telephone switchboard, bringing in messages from outside. We now know … that the system is every bit as much an “editorial hierarchy” – a policy-making device determining what is perceived.

… The visual world is what we practice day by day. (Pearce 1971)

Now, I want you to keep in mind the idea that an infant “shows a strong desire to participate in a world of others. Eventually his willingness for self-modification, necessary to win rapport with his world, is stronger than his desire for autonomy.” It is very important, and we will come back to it.

Those with strong positive second circuits imprints are able to feel for others in terms of a sense of concern or identity by association. They are willing to reach out and acknowledge the being of another.

However, due to the most common imprinting of our society, which is negative, most of this reaching out is in the context of territory, which involves emotional con games, pecking order, rituals of domination or submission. It has been noted that a lot of people with negative second circuit imprinting can be found in military or hierarchical organizations where there is constant striving to please someone in order to maintain or rise in status.

This second circuit is generally most powerfully imprinted by the nearest alpha male or the earliest perceived dominant male figure in a person’s life. This circuit is also very often referred to as the ego because it mistakes itself for the whole self.

Individuals who are ruled by negative second stage imprinting generally use a lot of anal expressions or language relating to excretory functions and parts of the body. They have inveterate potty mouth. Very often those with heavy imprints in the second stage are either very concerned about physical fitness and body structure as a mode of power or just simply power over others in general. They fear thinking and feel that the best response to a problem is to frighten it away.

The reality structure of the second circuit is the prevailing mode of modern society, which is why most issues end in confrontations that bring out both bullying and cowardliness – hallmarks of second circuit trauma.

The third circuit is charmingly referred to as phallic. Don’t ask me why this term has been selected over all others but it has to do with the fact that the imprinting stage is associated with the child’s discovery of his or her genitals and this period also seems to partly determine gender role identification as well as one’s later attitudes toward the body and sex. It is also called the Oedipal or Electra stage.

This circuit continues to be imprinted and conditioned by symbol systems, i.e. words and concepts, however with subtle conceptual complications. The child is beginning to be able to understand complex symbolism and such things as now and later and soon and never. These concepts are intimately connected to the ability to tolerate separation, as well as to mourn if the idea of grief is introduced and demonstrated by a role model.

So, essentially, we find that the third stage has to do primarily with time and spatial concepts – with what is the real world and what is not.

The part of the brain that is developing during this phase is the cerebellum and it is supposed to coordinate the lower brain functions with possible action. This part of the brain and its imprinting determines our ability to change and adapt. This is what makes us able to discriminate and compare with logic and comparative analysis. Its functions operate like a computer; it scans, categorizes and selects by cross-referencing and coding information. It is this part of the brain that makes us able to weigh choices and make decisions.

In most people, however, due to traumatic or too early potty training during the anal phase, this part of the brain becomes a slave to the emotions of the second and first circuits. That doesn’t mean that it cannot work and do its work well in terms of scanning, categorizing and coding information; but if there is trauma, depending on the severity, it can be very difficult for this part of the brain to function as the coordinator it is meant to be. The intellectual function can be scholarly as all get out, but there is no possibility of development of higher emotions. Such a condition can lead to a ruthless intellectual who tortures or kills others in the name of religion. These people have packaged their environment in terms of heavy sanctions; taboos, rules, laws, prohibitions, faith and dogmatism. Much of this will be unconscious and will pass as common sense or common decency or “it’s right, and that’s all there is to it!” Anyone who challenges such a person is a heretic, a traitor or a lunatic. They also use a lot of language that refers to sexual functions.

Those who are dominated by the third circuit respond to problems by reasoning it out, even if their reason is being directed by the emotions of the first or second circuits. When this is the case, they could be called a third circuit robot because they simply cannot break free of the emotional content of their rules and dogma. For such people, the rest of the nervous system has, for all intents and purposes, stopped growing.

There are two curious manifestations of this circuit. If the first and second circuits are basically healthy, and the third circuit is not traumatized in any notably serious way, but no effort to develop higher faculties is made, the normal conscious mind has two basic tracks. The first is the desire to use the intellect to prove that much of human experience, even including the reality itself, is delusion or illusion. Everything is mysterious and hallucinatory. The second is to use the intellect to prove that nothing exists but the material world and anything mysterious is viewed as hallucination, coincidence or sloppy research. Gurdjieff talked about these things in great detail, and clearly his understanding of the problem was deep and profound. Not only that, we will soon see how closely Gurdjieff’s view is to very modern research in neuropeptides – the Molecules of Emotion. Gurdjieff writes:

It is possible to think for a thousand years; it is possible to write whole libraries of books, to create theories by the million, and all this in sleep, without any possibility of awakening. On the contrary, these books and these theories, written and created in sleep, will merely send other people to sleep …

There is nothing new in the idea of sleep. People have been told almost since the creation of the world that they are asleep and that they must awaken. How many times is this said in the Gospels, for instance? “Awake,” “watch,” “sleep not.” Christ’s disciples even slept when he was praying in the Garden of Gethsemane for the last time. It is all there. But do men understand it? Men take it simply as a form of speech, as an expression, as a metaphor. They completely fail to understand that it must be taken literally.

… The question of will, of one’s own will and of another man’s will, is much more complicated than it seems at the first glance. A man has not sufficient will to do, that is, to control himself and all his actions, but he has sufficient will to obey another …

I mentioned before about fate and accident in man’s life. … Fate exists, but not for everyone. Most people are separated from their fate and live under the law of accident only. Fate is the result of planetary influences which correspond to a man’s type. A man can have the fate which corresponds to his type but he practically never does have it. This arises because fate has relation to only one part of man, namely to his essence.

It must be understood that man consists of two parts: essence and personality. Essence in man is what is his own. Personality in man is what is “not his own.” “Not his own” means what has come from outside, what he has learned, or reflects, all traces of exterior impressions left in the memory and in the sensations, all words and movements that have been learned, all feelings created by imitation – all this is “not his own,” all this is personality.

… A small child has no personality as yet. He is what he really is. He is essence. His desires, tastes, likes, dislikes, express his being such as it is.

But as soon as so-called “education” begins, personality begins to grow. Personality is created partly by the intentional influences of other people, that is, by “education,” and partly by involuntary imitation of them by the child itself.

In the creation of personality a great part is also played by “resistance” to people around him and by attempts to conceal from them something that is “his own,” or “real.”

Essence is the truth in man; personality is the false. … As personality grows, essence manifests itself more and more rarely and more and more feebly and it very often happens that essence stops in its growth at a very early age and grows no further. It happens very often that the essence of a grown-up man, even that of a very intellectual and … highly “educated” man, stops on the level of a child of five or six. This means that everything we see in this man is in reality “not his own.” What is his own in man, that is, his essence, is usually only manifested in his instincts and in his simplest emotions. There are cases, however, when a man’s essence grows in parallel with his personality. Such cases represent very rare exceptions especially in the circumstances of cultured life. Essence has more chances of development in men who live nearer to nature in difficult conditions of constant struggle and danger.

… Culture creates personality and is at the same time the product and the result of personality. We do not realize that the whole of our life, all we call civilization, all we call science, philosophy, art, and politics, is created by people’s personality, that is, by what is “not their own” in them

The element that is “not his own” differs from what is man’s “own” by the fact that it can be lost, altered, or taken away by artificial means.

… In Eastern schools ways and means are known … to separate man’s personality from his essence. For this purpose they sometimes use hypnosis … if personality and essence are separated by one or another means, two beings are found who speak in different voices, have completely different tastes, aims, and interests, and one of these two beings often proves to be on the level of a small child. … And it happens that a man full of the most varied and exalted ideas, full of sympathies and antipathies, love, hatred, attachments, patriotism, habits, tastes, desires, convictions, suddenly proves quite empty, without thoughts, without feelings, without convictions, without views. Everything that has agitated him before now leaves him completely indifferent. Sometimes he sees the artificiality and the imaginary character of his usual moods or his high-sounding words, sometimes he simply forgets them as though they had never existed. Things for which he was ready to sacrifice his life now appear to him ridiculous and meaningless and unworthy of his attention. All that he can find in himself is a small number of instinctive inclinations and tastes. He is fond of sweets, he likes warmth, he dislikes cold, he dislikes the thought of work, or on the contrary he likes the idea of physical movement. And that is all.

… As a rule a man’s essence is either primitive, savage, and childish, or else simply stupid. The development of essence depends on work on oneself.

… [I]n order to enable essence to grow up, it is first of all necessary to weaken the constant pressure of personality upon it, because the obstacles to the growth of essence are contained in personality.

As has been said earlier, in the case of less cultured people, essence is often more highly developed than it is in cultured man. It would seem that they ought to be nearer to possibility of growth, but in reality it is not so because their personality proves to be insufficiently developed. For inner growth, for work on oneself, a certain development of personality as well as a certain strength of essence are necessary. … An insufficiently developed personality means a lack of … knowledge, a lack of information, a lack of the material upon which work on oneself must be based. Without some store of knowledge, without a certain amount of material “not his own,” a man cannot begin to work on himself, he cannot begin to study himself, he cannot begin to struggle with his mechanical habits, simply because there will be no reason or motive for undertaking such work.

It does not mean that all the ways are closed to him. The way of the fakir and the way of the monk, which do not require any intellectual development, remain open to him. But the methods and the means which are possible for a man of developed intellect are impossible for him. Thus evolution is equally difficult for a cultured or an uncultured man. A cultured man lives far from nature, far from natural conditions of existence, in artificial conditions of life, developing his personality at the expense of his essence. A less cultured man, living in more normal and more natural conditions, develops his essence at the expense of his personality. A successful beginning of work on oneself requires the happy occurrence of an equal development of personality and essence. Such an occurrence will give the greatest assurance of success. If essence is very little developed, a long preparatory period of work is required and this work will be quite fruitless if a man’s essence is rotten inside or if it develops some irreparable defects. Conditions of this kind occur fairly often. An abnormal development of personality very often arrests the development of essence at such an early stage that the essence becomes a small deformed thing. From a small deformed thing nothing else can be got.

Moreover, it happens fairly often that essence dies in a man while his personality and his body are still alive. A considerable percentage of the people we meet in the streets of a great town are people who are empty inside, that is, they are actually already dead.

It is fortunate for us that we do not see and do not know it. If we knew what a number of people are actually dead and what a number of these dead people govern our lives, we should go mad with horror. And indeed people often do go mad because they find out something of this nature without the proper preparation, that is, they see something they are not supposed to see. In order to see without danger one must be on the way. If a man who can do nothing sees the truth he will certainly go mad. Only this rarely happens. Usually everything is so arranged that a man can see nothing prematurely. Personality sees only what it likes to see and what does not interfere with its life. It never sees what it does not like. This is both good and bad at the same time. It is good if a man wants to sleep, bad if he wants to awaken. (Ouspensky 1949, 144, 161–164)

So, having all of this to think about, let’s go back to the message of the e-group member. She has a “tireless appetite to sort out the truth of things.” Truth is something to be eaten. In every sentence about “beauty and wonder” and the goodness of physical life, the writer has used the expression “I feel.” Everything that has to do with the material world is “awesome” or “incredible” or another superlative. In every remark about the Cassiopaeans, which is singularly suspicious and negative, she has used the term “I think.” Thus we suspect that this is an individual who is very suspicious of thinking and this is further emphasized by the suggestion to “put on our thinking caps.” Thinking cannot be abstract, it must be felt. The general tone of the letter is to retreat from thinking into feeling. That is one of the biggest clues that the Predator’s mind is operative. Her first circuit imprint was active.

This writer claims to have read something that is simply not true, i.e. that the Cassiopaeans have made a “direct claim that they also dictated the Marciniak info as Pleadians.” This is a clear example of twisting the text and inference of that which was never implied. It is, in fact, a very clear example of what Neuro Linguistic theories refer to as a kinesthetic dominant mode of cerebral processing. This person was being shocked into thinking and retreated in terror from the threat to what felt safe.

Let’s take a look at what the Cassiopaeans actually said:

September 30, 1994

Q: (L) How many members are there in the Orion/Lizzie group?
A: 16.
Q: (L) Who are the good guys? You say the Cassiopaeans are the good guys. Who else?
A: Pleiadeans and many others.
Q: (L) How many?
A: 16.
Q: (L) Are the sides equally balanced?
A: Yes.

Here we have the idea that there is a distinction between the Cassiopaeans and Pleiadians. In fact, we have a more or less sorting and enumeration of groups.

October 5, 1994

Q: (L) Who were the original creator gods?
A: Us. Sixth Density.
Q: (L) The Cassiopaeans? Were the Pleiadeans also the original creator gods?
A: Same. Sixth Density.

Here we have an idea that the “creator gods,” (not to be confused with the Prime Creator) are all at the level of sixth density. This is not the same as saying that each group is exactly the same. It’s comparable to me saying to an alien that I am the same as Barbara Marciniak because we are both from Earth.

November 26, 1994

Q: (T) Are you also the Pleiadeans?
A: No.
Q: (T) Are you connected to the Pleiadeans?
A: Yes and so are others.
Q: (T) You are all the family of light?
A: Yes. Exactly. You have been “doing your homework”.

So the remark, “direct claim that they also dictated the Marciniak info as Pleadians,” was a sign off remark. As I have noticed on many occasions, when the Predator’s mind is activated, it seems always to need, due to ego, to give some sign of its presence. And, as the reader will also note, I adhere to the Sherlock Holmes School of Research.

“You know my method. It is founded upon the observance of trifles.” —“Sherlock Holmes” in Doyle’s “The Boscombe Valley Mystery”

The trifle in this case was the remark, “Jumping in with a thud.” This phrase triggered the insight of what was happening to this reader. She was being overwhelmed by the forces that act on a person when they are confronted with truth and the possibility of awakening. Castaneda was to experience it in a more direct manner:

I fought a nearly invincible desire to fall asleep. I succeeded, and found myself looking at the bottom of the valley from an impenetrable darkness around me. And then, I saw something that chilled me to the marrow of my bones. I saw a gigantic shadow, perhaps fifteen feet across, leaping in the air and then landing with a silent thud. I felt the thud in my bones, but I didn’t hear it.

‘They are really heavy,’ don Juan said in my ear. He was holding me by the left arm, as hard as he could.

I saw something that looked like a mud shadow wiggle on the ground, and then take another gigantic leap, perhaps fifty feet long, and land again, with the same ominous silent thud. I fought not to lose my concentration. I was frightened beyond anything I could rationally use as a description. I kept my eyes fixed on the jumping shadow on the bottom of the valley. Then I heard a most peculiar buzzing, a mixture of the sound of flapping wings and the buzzing of a radio whose dial has not quite picked up the frequency of a radio station, and the thud that followed was something unforgettable. It shook don Juan and me to the core – a gigantic black mud shadow had just landed by our feet.

‘Don’t be frightened,’ don Juan said imperiously. ‘Keep your inner silence and it will move away.’

‘I was shivering from head to toe. I had the clear knowledge that if I didn’t keep my inner silence alive, the mud shadow would cover me up like a blanket and suffocate me. Without losing the darkness around me, I screamed at the top of my voice. Never had I been so angry, so utterly frustrated. The mud shadow took another leap, clearly to the bottom of the valley. I kept on screaming, shaking my legs. I wanted to shake off whatever might come to eat me.” (Castaneda 1998, 231–233)

And notice this last remark by Castaneda. It is clearly the feeling evoked in the writer who was “jumping in with a thud.”

Well, at the time this posting was made, I had a choice to make: should I take the several days necessary to address each and every point that was made by this writer, detailing the material I was already working on for the website, thereby putting off the publishing of the page for all the other readers, or should I just ignore it, thinking that the other, more developed members of the group could deal with it and I could continue working?

I opted to ignore it and keep working. But I didn’t realize how great a hold the Predator has even on those of us who can see through most of the most obvious manipulations and maneuvers. This was, indeed, a subtle attack and it fed the Predator in many other members of the e-group. In fact, it woke up the Predator in people I had thought were well past this kind of subtle manipulation. As I read the many responses to this post, I knew that the present work, which dealt with these very issues was the very key that needed to be given to the readers in order to unlock the prison of their own minds.

Ark took time out from his work to respond to the above writer so that I could keep working:

E-group member wrote:

But I read NOTHING about the joys and absolute beauty and wonder of this earth and being alive. Since reading C’s I’ve been going around especially noticing the incredible beauty of one flower, a redwood forest, theincredible awesomeness of all nature in sync, the magnificence of our bodies,the awesome ‘STS’ human contributions & inspirations in the creation of art and music, the propensity of human beings to celebrate and seek the feeling of being in joy together. And it feels so right and so good to LAUGH and play with my children, share the deliciousness of the earth in the company of friends and admire the stunning beauty around me.

Dear Reader,

You missed completely the most important point of the Cassiopaean message. This is, in fact, almost exactly the same as in the teachings of Gurdjieff. Except that Gurdjieff thought that people are not yet ready to accept the naked truth, so he was using allegories. Here is one – it is repeated in the Abduction Series:

“There is an Eastern tale which speaks about a very rich magician who had a great many sheep. But at the same time this magician was very mean. He did not want to hire shepherds, nor did he want to erect a fence about the pasture where his sheep were grazing. The sheep consequently often wandered into the forest, fell into ravines, and so on, and above all they ran away, for they knew that the magician wanted their flesh and skins and this they did not like.

“At last the magician found a remedy. He hypnotized his sheep and suggested to them first of all that they were immortal and that no harm was being done to them when they were skinned, that, on the contrary, it would be very good for them and even pleasant; secondly he suggested that the magician was a good master who loved his flock so much that he was ready to do anything in the world for them; and in the third place he suggested to them that if anything at all were going to happen to them it was not going to happen just then, at any rate not that day, and therefore they had no need to think about it. Further the magician suggested to his sheep that they were not sheep at all; to some of them he suggested that they were lions, to others that they were eagles, to others that they were men, and to others that they were magicians.

“And after this all his cares and worries about the sheep came to an end. They never ran away again but quietly awaited the time when the magician would require their flesh and skins.”

And here is another one, also from In Search of Miraculous:

“Man contains within him the possibility of evolution. But the evolution of humanity as a whole, that is, the development of these possibilities in all men, or in most of them, or even in large number of them, is not necessary for the purposes of the earth or of the planetary world in general, and it might, in fact, be injurious or fatal. There exist, therefore, special forces (of a planetary character) which oppose the evolution of large masses of humanity and keep it at the level it ought to be. For instance, the evolution of humanity beyond a certain point, or, to speak more correctly, above a certain percentage, would be fatal for the moon. The moon at present feeds on organic life, on humanity. Humanity is part of organic life, this means that humanity is food for the moon.”

You may ask “What is this moon?” in Gurdjieff teachings? Read our Abduction series [High Strangeness] and you will know.

So, what is this main message from Cassiopaeans? The message that must be always, always, kept in mind?

Here it is: We are food!

Here it is again: We are sheep!

There is a moon! It is real and powerful. There is a magician. Real and powerful. We are hypnotized sheep. The magician, the moon, feed on us. You can either accept it as a viable possibility, or you reject it as nonsense. If you reject it as nonsense ­– you are free to go to laugh and play with your children, share the deliciousness of the earth in the company of friends and admire the stunning beauty around you, read Marciniak and trash Ouspensky.

But if you think that you can admit that there are signs here and there that we might be hypnotized sheep (or something equivalent), then you will want to learn how to escape yourself, and to teach, at least your own children, the art of escaping – if there is such an art.

If you think that sending love and light is the way – this is not what Gurdjieff and Ouspensky were talking about. You miss the point completely. The New Testament is also using allegories (but, notice, the Magician also took part in producing the New Testament). Here is one, the shortest one that is relevant and worth pondering:

“Enter through the narrow gate, for wide is the gate and spacious and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and many are those who are entering it.”

Now read again Ouspensky:

“The evolution of humanity beyond a certain point, or, to speak more correctly, above a certain percentage, would be fatal for the moon. The moon at present feeds on organic life, on humanity. Humanity is part of organic life, this means that humanity is food for the moon.”

Now replace moon with aliens (as in “alien abductions”). Then think again if it feels so right and so good to laugh and play with your children, or is it, perhaps, “the way that leads to destruction, and many are those who are entering it.”

“He hypnotized his sheep and suggested to them first of all that they were immortal and that no harm was being done to them when they were skinned, that, on the contrary, it would be very good for them and even pleasant; secondly he suggested that the magician was a good master who loved his flock so much that he was ready to do anything in the world for them; and in the third place he suggested to them that if anything at all were going to happen to them it was not going to happen just then, at any rate not that day, and therefore they had no need to think about it.”

Does it sound like your “laugh and play?” It does!

And this is what Cassiopaeans are talking about. But who wants to enter through the narrow gate when there is a wide and spacious and a broad one: “the incredible beauty of one flower, a redwood forest, the incredible awesomeness of all nature in sync, the magnificence of our bodies, the awesome ‘STS’ human contributions & inspirations in the creation of art and music, the propensity of human beings to celebrate and seek the feeling of being in joy together.”

Here it is again: “the magician suggested to his sheep that they were not sheep at all; to some of them he suggested that they were lions, to others that they were eagles, to others that they were men, and to others that they were magicians.”

The choice is yours. But please, notice, you are also responsible for your children. They are small, so your choice of the gate is, by necessity, also their choice … until they grow enough.


But in counterpoint to my realization of the need to keep working, to get the information out as soon as I could, the drama escalated. Another member of the e-group posted. I have placed in bold text the words that provide clues to the circuit dominance in the above writer.

Hello A, B here-

You write: “The most striking thing to me is their direct claim that they also dictated the Marciniak info as Pleadians – and the gigantic discrepancies, contradictions and completely different slant on it all between the two sets of info.”

B: May I inform you that the Pleiadeans have been characterized by Michael Topper as “the bad guys pretending to be the good guys”, i.e. precisely the wolf in sheep’s clothes. And in fact if we carefully analyze their (Pleiadians’) shapeshifting story-board like messages, we can clearly see they’re not here to teach us first-hand principles (which ought to be true and helpful under any circumstances) – we clearly see that their blind stories are nosing us around into a mess. No common sense, no carry-through-logic anywhere. Yet this is exactly the way the pleiadeans want it!!!! That’s very revealing, isn’t it?

If you still don’t get the clue, let us look what sort of info Laura gets from their ostensibly “benign” Cassiopaeans: She gets a shapeshifting story about “353535” which drives her mad the instant she hears it. We must think about the possibility that the Cs deliberately wanted to drive Laura mad. How “benign” could that be???? Not benign at all!! All we need to know is: from what sort of background are the Pleiadeans giving their advice, or stories?

Why, these Pleiadans come from a self-admitted future probability-wave wherein the evil Reptilians have taken over the Earth, and over the rest of the universe on top of it!! That is the reality they want to draw your attention to, as a sort of extra-reinforcement to “weave the future probability-waves strong enough”! Enough said? My advice: Drop all channeling, and get in touch with a walking, talking, and really benign incarnated Master. One that you can see, feel, smell, touch, and, last but not least, trust, because he’s teaching verifiable first-hand principles that are helpful under any circumstances. Verily, Topper comes to mind. Indeed, but Topper only. Enough said. B

This is an individual who is dominated by the third circuit and is under the control of the second! In Neuro Linguistic theories, it is called “visual.” Notice the preponderance of terms relating to eyes and seeing or blindness. The third circuit is also the circuit in which the concepts of time are dominant – linear time – and he evinces fear when he mentions the references to probability and future.

The third circuit is the thinker, the creator of the semantic universe, as we will discuss further on, and it tends to categorize everything in the strictest terms of black and white, and wants very much to use its abilities: to think, analyze, inform, consider and teach. This individual fears audition, as well as anything that is not hard and material, or powerfully based in linear thinking, as is indicated in the below mentioned remark “shapeshifting story about “353535” which drives her mad the instant she hears it.” His remedy for this is: “We must think … ”

The problem with the third circuit is that it very often is dominated by damage to the second circuit and produces what in psychological parlance is referred to as a “second circuit robot.” There is good development of the cerebral function, and a desire to use it as the dominant mode. But the anal phase overlay on the phallic phase development is evident in the fact that the above writer has needed constant monitoring and requests to not use profanity on the list.

He is, in fact, one of the main reasons we opted to enforce a rule on the moderated list that no profanity is allowed. There is a higher reason for this, which involves the creation of an environment in which the elements of the higher circuits can develop, but that’s another matter. The fact is, the above post arrived with profanity in the title, which was deleted before it was forwarded to the group. I then responded to it:

Hello E-group member, Laura here:

You write:“If you still don’t get the clue, let us look what sort of info Laura get’s from their ostensibly “benign” Cassiopaeans: She gets a shapeshifting story about “353535” which drives her mad the instant she hears it. We must think about the possibility that the C’s deliberately *wanted* to drive Laura mad. How “benign” could that be ???? Not benign at all!!

Laura: Well, you are not going to bait me with this into telling you what has been discovered as a result of this clue before it is in sequence. Indeed, it drove me nuts in colloquial terms, but the result was like stoking the firebox in a train to fuel it to achieve a certain destination … and what many people seem to forget is this: the Wave series is being written as a chronological piece … what drove me nuts then, past tense, was the seed of what I know now – in the present. And we are not there yet in the story.

As to whether or not it was benign. Well, that will be for the reader to decide once they have all the same clues that I have … . as well as the evidence that resulted from these clues, which will certainly put every single person in a position to actually do something from a position of true free will – to the extent possible in this density. Which, of course, brings up the present discussion.

As I have noted in the past, very often when I am writing about certain things that most assuredly will give the reader insight into the Control System and how it works on a daily basis; things that will go far to set people free; it seems that those individuals most easily disturbed or manipulated to create diversion and discord – which distracts me from the work at hand so that I must divert time and energy to handle what masquerades as pressing issues rather than dealing with the revelation of crucial evidence – are activated more or less simultaneously.

I am not the only person who sees a pattern in this. Every page I have produced has been preceded by a chaotic uproar to one extent or another. Of course, at this point, I can almost validate the truth of my conclusions by the extent to which the control system will go to manipulate the thinking and emotions of those who seek to create discord and disruption. And I can tell you that I am on a hot subject now.

E-group member: Why, these Pleiadans come from a self-admitted future probability-wave wherein the evil Reptilians have taken over the Earth, and over the rest of the universe on top of it!! That is the reality they want to draw your attention to, as a sort of extra-reinforcement to “weave the future probability-waves strong enough”!

Laura here: But that directly contradicts the teachings of Michael Topper [who argues that we have no participation in the creation of our reality.] You are suggesting that we “create our own reality” by what we think. I tell you that we create our own reality by what we believe. And what we believe very often directs our thoughts in exactly the opposite direction [of that we wish to manifest] in order to create balance. Those who believe the world is broken seek to focus only on “love and light” in order to fix it. Those who cannot look at it as it is, in all its terrible aspects as well as those realities of ineffable beauty, and accept it as it is; as perfect; will experience all the problems that make them desperate to change the world. And once you believe the world is perfect, deep inside, once you let go of fear, once you can look and see and not judge anything as being wrong, though it may not be desirable or preferred by you, then your reality will change to the most perfect for you.

E-group member: Enough said?

Laura here: Indeed. More than enough. The rules of the list include one that excludes profanity. I have edited the subject field of this post accordingly. And the rules of the list will be applied as a result of the profanity used.

Egroup member: My advice: drop all channeling, and get in touch with a walking, talking, and really benign incarnated Master. One that you can see, feel, smell, touch, and, last but not least, trust, because he’s teaching verifiable first-hand principles that are helpful under any circumstance. Verily, Topper comes to mind. Indeed, but Topper only.

Laura here: Okay. You got it.

And he was removed from the list. His antics had been reprimanded numerous times both on list and privately. And the final thing was: his proposal to “drop all channeling” was a clear indication that he did not belong on a list whose premise was stated in the list rules, that it is a group formed to discuss channeling.

Naturally, I wasn’t happy to delete a person from the list, most particularly one who was so evidently capable of work in the third circuit. But, there are other matters to consider that will be seen as we proceed here.

All of this drama was acting on my own programming. It is said that the true High Initiate is one who can no longer cry. They feel compassion, but it is cosmic and non-attached. I’m not there yet. I still cry. And, I am always reminded of the shortest verse in the Bible where it says: “Jesus wept.” (John 11:35. How’s that for your 11 and 3-5 code?) He had not yet been fully initiated, after which he left the planet, so I expect that, as long as I remain, I will weep. And, as the drama continued on another front, I did.

A message was posted to the unmoderated CassChat e-group, of which I am not a member, but another member on that group forwarded it to me privately. It was written by a former member of the Cassiopaea e-group who had been the first to be removed because, well, you will see why:

Casschat egroup member here: If you read the Cassiopaean material, when the Cs mention to Laura about luck. Read this section and Laura is basically stating that Ark is a fourth density Nordic. This ego on this guy is hilarious. He is on such a power trip it is absurd. Ark I would love to meet you in person, and really see how much of a man you are. You’re a typical Reptilian coward with NO BALLS. He has taken me off the Cassiopaea list because I said I would not have my future dictated by higher beings. Can you believe this guy? He is supposed to be an STO candidate? He is the most close minded and censoring person I have ever met on any board. Laura; can you honestly say he is a truly compassionate and understanding guy?? The Cassiopaeans must be truly proud of you Ark. You kick people off your boards without even a warning. Who actually likes you or thinks you are a positive influence on anyone? Everyone on [another e-group] thinks you’re a total jerk. Do you realise everyone on your boards sends me letters telling me I have brought up great subjects and activity on your board. If you did not notice your board is usually pretty dead when I do not post. Are you such an egomaniac that you cannot have someone more stimulating than you on there? I knew you would be looking to get rid of me with all the actual stimulating conversations I have created on your board recently. I really hope Laura is beginning to realise you are an evil person. WAKE UP: HE IS AN AGENT OF THE REGRESSIVES.

I think that the reader will now be able to go through this message and determine which circuits are dominating.

Now, this individual is one who began writing to me privately some time ago, and I spent many hours patiently answering his questions, which seemed to be honest and sincere. However, no sooner would I deal with one issue by directing him to the pages where it was already addressed, he would bring up others that were also already addressed on the site. And most of his questions were quite similar to the “twisting” phenomenon we have seen in the first post reproduced here, where the writer either did not read the words carefully, or did not consider the context carefully, or simply could not receive what was being said. What she mirrored was not what was viewed. So, I realized that this was an individual who was also very much stuck in the second circuit, only his trauma must have been severe. I wanted to ensure that he, as anyone else, had the opportunity to work with others to undo this programming, since he was asking for help, or so it seemed. I sent him to the e-group so that I could get back to work. By this time, I had given him several days of my time with no end in sight. I needed to get to those issues with which he was dealing, and the only way I could do it was to continue working and not be distracted.

The only problem was, as soon as he had an audience, something strange began to occur. He used many nom de plumes or email handles, and was apparently active on several other groups because many people found his posts here and there and forwarded them to me. I filed them away and kept working.

Finally, as the archives on the Cassiopaea e-group will show, he became so disruptive that dozens of people were writing to us privately asking to have him removed. And it was as a result of this that we realized that to preserve the higher-circuit-thinking environment of the e-group we must begin to moderate it and give it more time and attention than we had up to that point.

Naturally, the announcement that the group would henceforth be moderated raised a hue and cry about censorship and what might be dark motives. There were no intentions to censor. All subjects were still open to discussion; it was just that the objective of the e-group had been, from the beginning, a forum to aid in the mutual uncovering of truth and programming and sharing of knowledge and experiences. And the free will of those who were there in congruence with that intent was of paramount importance.

But, many of the members could not see that the very emotional reaction they were having was their own emotional programming. Free will means free will for all, which often requires the refusal of control by someone who wishes to deprive others of free will. In this case, one or two individuals wanted, and attempted, to impose their will and thoughts on the other members of the group. And, when this control was refused, they then accused us of the very thing they were attempting to do. And, naturally, those who shout the loudest get heard, and it definitely pushes all the buttons that turn on the Predator’s mind.

And the very thing that I want people to realize is that we are programmed, and one of the biggest controls on our lives and minds and our very fate is our own emotions. As the Cassiopaeans have remarked: “Vibrational frequency level involves nature of being and emotion, not intelligence.”

And then at a later session:

September 2, 1995

Q: (L) So, you are saying that the path to illumination is knowledge and not love?
A: That is correct.
Q: (L) Is it also correct that emotion can be used to mislead, that is emotions that are twisted and generated strictly from the flesh or false programming?
A: Emotion that limits is an impediment to progress. Emotion is also necessary to make progress in third density. It is natural. When you begin to separate limiting emotions based on assumptions from emotions that open one to unlimited possibilities, that means you are preparing for the next density.
Q: (L) What about love?
A: What about it?
Q: (L) There are many teachings that are promulgated that love is the key, the answer. They say that illumination and knowledge and what-not can all be achieved through love.
A: The problem is not the term “love,” the problem is the interpretation of the term. Those on third density have a tendency to confuse the issue horribly. After all, they confuse many things as love. When the actual definition of love as you know it is not correct either. It is not necessarily a feeling that one has that can also be interpreted as an emotion, but rather, as we have told you before, the essence of light which is knowledge is love, and this has been corrupted when it is said that love leads to illumination. Love is Light is Knowledge. Love makes no sense when common definitions are used as they are in your environment. To love you must know. And to know is to have light. And to have light is to love. And to have knowledge is to love.

Notice particularly the remark: Emotion that limits is an impediment to progress. Emotion is also necessary to make progress in third density. It is natural. When you begin to separate limiting emotions based on assumptions from emotions that open one to unlimited possibilities, that means you are preparing for the next density.

Now, I have underlined the remark about the natural necessity of emotion for progress so that those who will tend not to see it won’t be able to miss it. Nobody is saying that emotions are bad or that we should not have them. They are natural and necessary.

But, the crucial point is that emotion which limits you is an impediment to yours progress. Think about that long and hard. Then, think about the process of separating limiting emotions based on assumptions from those that limit, and the fact that this opens one to unlimited possibilities, you may begin to get a glimmer of the point we were trying to make when we reorganized the e-group.

Nevertheless, to satisfy everyone, we created the CassChat e-group that is completely unmoderated, and of which I am not even a member. This was to enable everyone who had found each other via the website to be able to stay in touch and to do whatever they liked, whether it was exchanging recipes or trashing Ark and Laura.

There were many members of CassChat, the majority of whom were becoming very adept at spotting these very things. They could, for the most part, coolly and objectively look at their own Predator’s mind. But, even some of these – including yours truly – are subject on occasion to certain triggers. And the next event really pulled mine!

There was something in the above post that caught my eye:

Casschat member: Everyone on Mashtrioka [another e-group] thinks you’re a total jerk. Do you realise everyone on your boards sends me letters telling me I have brought up great subjects and activity on your board. If you did not notice your board is usually pretty dead when I do not post.

I had no idea what this other e-group was. And the button that was being pushed was, of course, an attack on my husband. Even if the reaction in me was very mild, because I have learned to tolerate an almost infinite amount of abuse, I was curious as to what was meant by the remark “Everyone on Mashtrioka thinks you’re a total jerk.” Who were these people who thought my husband was a jerk?

I decided to have a look.

Ark didn’t think it was a good idea because he knows better than others that I still cry. But I insisted. I’m a big girl now, I can take it. Bring it on!

Famous last words.

We subscribed to this group and I noticed that a direct quote from the Cassiopaeans was on the main page, and that was nice. Even if it was not sourced, that was okay. My general attitude is to give the material away anyhow, so no big surprise. But then I started to read some of posts. And a very deep and primal program was activated. The program called “betrayal.”

And the bomb went off.

After reading several of the posts, I could read no more. I scanned the list of names and saw some of my friends there. I could not help but think that they were participants in a tremendous deception and betrayal, writing one thing to me on the Cassiopaea e-group, and here in this other group participating in what is to me the most hideous of acts: betrayal and deception. The essence of STS.

And, for a brief moment, I wanted all of them to know that I now knew who they were and what they were doing. I forwarded one of the posts that was most revealing to the Cassiopaea e-group. Knowledge protects, right? But this was actually a more or less combined activation of the first and second circuits in myself. Not only was I retreating, I was going to scare away the threat!

These circuits had been turned on inside me. The only thing is, I knew what was happening. I could feel the neuropeptides rushing out of these brain centers, flooding my system and binding to the receptors all over my body. Anyone who has ever been in this position will know what I am talking about.

The difference is: I know that it is chemical. I know that it is a result of a circuit activation that connects elements of a present experience to something deep in the past; infantile responses. I know that the reaction is encoded in the brain, and that the chemicals are released according to a single trigger.

If you have a negative experience as an infant in a room painted blue, you will be programmed to react negatively to blue, and whenever you are in a blue room your brain will release the same neuropeptides that were released at the very time of the infantile experience. You won’t know why you feel frightened or panicky or sad or whatever the negative experience produced, and you will think it is something to do with whatever else is going on in that room, or who you are interacting with, without even being aware that you are being triggered by the memory of the negative experience as an infant in a blue room. Your mind will seek to rationalize the feeling by blaming it on anything or everything, because the idea that the color of the room could be the cause is too illogical.

Sure, maybe you avoid blue. You don’t like it, but you surely will never admit that it can control your emotions and your experiences. It will be rationalized as a preference. No reason, just is. Well, there are a lot of things in our lives we think are us, and they are not. They are programs.

Suppose you have a very positive experience as a small infant with someone wearing a blue baseball cap. When you are grown, you meet someone wearing a blue baseball cap. You are flooded with the same neuropeptides that were released in the pleasurable experience of your infancy and you are sure that you just really like this person. Never mind that they turn out to be the worst enemy you ever had. As long as they are wearing that blue baseball cap while giving their explanations for why they did rotten things to you, you will believe them because the same neuropeptides will be flowing in response to the cap, and you will be rationalizing in your mind why you should forgive and forget. Even if they are not wearing the cap, the fact that you met them wearing the cap has already formed a matching circuit to the original one. It has been augmented and strengthened.

People fall in love and marry the most damaging people for these reasons. Maybe they have the same nose, or eyes, or hair as someone who provided a very pleasurable experience as an infant. Those traits will trigger the neuropeptides of the memory, flood the entire body and, voila! You are in love.

Never mind that the person turns out to be a lout. Every time you argue with them, the same signals are being sent that bring on the neuropeptides of pleasure and your brain will rationalize forgiveness. How can it be bad if it feels so good? How can they be lying? I feel such love and truth in them!

The most interesting thing about this is that neuropeptide receptors are found all over the body; you have a whole body sensation! You can actually feel it flooding like a rush through your system. But I can guarantee to you that it is chemical. It has nothing to do with higher emotion. And it most definitely has nothing to do with objective reality. Your imprinting creates your very own subjective view of the world and maintains it. And it is in this way that we all live in wishful thinking.

The neuropeptide receptors are also clustered in the gut in very high concentration. We receive gut reactions according to programs set up in the imprinting stages of infancy. It has nothing to do with the exact circumstances of the present moment. It has everything to do with the program and the response to a particular cue that turns on the neuropeptides of pleasure or trauma. The receptors are also arranged in clusters along the spine. With the proper cues that may or may not be from benign sources, they can be felt as the “raising of kundalini”. This can also be a real initiatory event, but in that case it would be activated from a different center and with different chemicals.

The most loving and ideal of mates, in terms of mind and soul, will be rejected if the nose or ears or hair or clothing, or some other aspect that was imprinted, is that of someone who hurt you when you were an infant. The most horrific abuse and tragedy will continue in your life if the person who is the source of this just happens to have all the right triggers for your pleasure neuropeptides.

And, until you have read the studies of how potent these chemicals are, and how powerfully they control us, you simply have no idea of what you are dealing with. You will rationalize until the cows come home that it is “really my higher understanding” or “it is really love, this is an exception to the rule” or “I am in touch with my higher mind” in the face of the evidence that will repeat over and over again.

And this behavior is, of course, reinforced by our cultural programming, our religious programming, and all the lies and half-truths delivered to us along with the painful or pleasurable experiences that produce neuropeptides during the time of infancy when these circuits are created. To go against your own programming, to do the opposite of what you feel because you have truly assessed the evidence objectively, is exactly like going through drug withdrawal. And in the throes of withdrawal, the individual will do almost anything to get the neuropeptide fix he needs. That’s why so many people go back, again and again, to an abusive partner. That person has some feature that triggers neuropeptide binding in the pleasure centers of the brain and body.

We are made addicts inside our own skins.

And I knew what was happening.

So once I realized that people with programs switched on were sucking me and others into their black hole of distorted emotions, I understood that the only thing to do when you realize emotions are in charge of thinking is to do exactly the opposite of what you want to do. To go against the program. And that was my program. I wanted to crawl into a hole and never come out again. I couldn’t believe that people could misunderstand so completely and be so cruel.

My first circuit wanted to withdraw to safety and comfort. These people were not being cruel, they were merely programmed. My feelings of hurt and betrayal made me want to just stop everything, pull the plug on 35 years of labor, and group all of humanity as one big threat to my well-being. I was making a judgment. The Predator went “thud” in my gut’s neuropeptide receptors like a lump of cold lead. I wrote a post to some of my friends, who at this point were also somewhat suspect. It said:

After glancing through some of what they had written – a sufficient amount to make me want to lose my dinner – an overwhelming sense of isolation came over me. I realized why people who for whatever reason become ‘public property’ tend to end up isolating themselves completely.

Naturally, when I began the website, it was simply a labor of love – what I had to give. And the e-group was a place for all the walking wounded who wrote to me for help and relief from their feelings of isolation. Everyone on this list has come from those ranks. I naively thought that I could just write and give it all away, and those who found something there would take what they liked and be polite and if they didn’t like it, would simply demur with equal politeness.

I struggled daily to answer questions from hundreds upon hundreds – actually moving into the thousands – of people. Not because I thought I had the answers, but because I had certainly found some things that seemed to work universally if applied, and nobody else seemed to be doing much in really taking the clock apart to see how it operates. I work sometimes 10 to 16 hours a day trying to keep up with everything. And for what? For that kind of crap? And even from people who pretend to be my friends or at least pretend to be something other than what they are on the group?

My naive idea that people could actually begin to really emerge from their programming ­– and act in unison with the idea of giving to one another freely and openly and honestly – had just died. I saw no point in continuing to write. I saw no point in continuing the e-group. I saw no point in anything. And I didn’t think a pat on the head and a “Good Laura! Good doggie! You helped me!” was going to make an ounce of difference. Frankly, I didn’t think I could believe anybody anymore.

Of course, looking at the sequence of events, it is clear that this state was a trap. The very fact that the active principle in operation happened to be the very thing I was working on exposing, that it was set up in time for one person to trigger emotions in another; the second person’s emotions were set off and he went off like a hand grenade; and I was then lured into reading remarks made at an earlier point in time, which set off the bomb in my own physiology, could not have been more cunningly designed.

It took several hours for me to master my emotions, and my husband, Ark, advised against taking any action until I was in a cooler state. It’s a good thing he did or there would be no Cassiopaea website or forum today. I turned off my computer and went to read a book. Zelator. Right on top of the pile.

By the next morning, I determined to continue writing because I realized that stopping The Wave series had been an objective of the Control System since the series had started. Unfortunately, my computer would not boot.

Not a surprise. I’ve burned bigger computers with less energy than I blew off with this one.

Without going into all the technical details, suffice to say that after two days of diagnostics a new computer was thought to be the best solution. The computer was purchased, and it took another two days to retrieve and transfer all my files and install all my programs. Four days altogether, in which I read Zelator off and on between managing what I could from Ark’s computer and getting caught up with the house and kids.

And that brings me to the book itself.