Recto
Jedi
I've had a couple of entries sitting in my EE journal for weeks so maybe it is the time share them here. EE has been for me an overall soothing and peaceful process interspersed with a few high intensity psychosomatic and emotional releases. The two events I'm about to relate happened almost a month apart from each other and lasted 30min to an hour.
During the first release there was a lot of crying and grimacing. It was as if my mouth was pried open in order to pour some liquid then I was choked/strangled. My whole body wailed as if to free itself then it curled up in a ball, perhaps under the weight of the original event's suffering.
The second was some kind of follow up. Same introduction with crying and grimacing then what seemed like a torture session began. It was as if someone (or something) tried to pull up my shoulder blades and rip them off of my body. It went for quite while then again I curled up as if something was pressing on my shoulders, forcibly trying to make them touch.
I honestly don't know what to make of it. I don't mind those episodes as they don't bring up any emotional distress nor are they painful (the contortions are merely uncomfortable after some length of time). In any case, even though they are merely "echoes" of past suffering I can't help but cry out of empathy for whomever had to live such atrocities first hand (whatever they might have been).
During the first release there was a lot of crying and grimacing. It was as if my mouth was pried open in order to pour some liquid then I was choked/strangled. My whole body wailed as if to free itself then it curled up in a ball, perhaps under the weight of the original event's suffering.
The second was some kind of follow up. Same introduction with crying and grimacing then what seemed like a torture session began. It was as if someone (or something) tried to pull up my shoulder blades and rip them off of my body. It went for quite while then again I curled up as if something was pressing on my shoulders, forcibly trying to make them touch.
I honestly don't know what to make of it. I don't mind those episodes as they don't bring up any emotional distress nor are they painful (the contortions are merely uncomfortable after some length of time). In any case, even though they are merely "echoes" of past suffering I can't help but cry out of empathy for whomever had to live such atrocities first hand (whatever they might have been).