Trevrizent said:
An update on this week's experiences with the Breathing-Meditation programme.
For a change it was relatively uneventful, both during and between sessions. As usual I zoned out after Laura started reading the Prayer of the Soul, coming too well into the music. On the night that I dedicated my 'sleeping session' to Laura and her family, I had great difficulty getting through the words and completing each round of the Prayer. However, I managed it and my eyes were wet at the end.
Did I miss a dedication?? I've been away for a few days....
*edit* found it...my heart and thoughts go out to you and your family Laura.
shellycheval said:
As I was walking toward him and looking back at him the weirdest sensations started happening. Everything peripherally went out of focus; there seemed to be only him and me in the room. The hair on the back of my neck literally stood up. Time seemed to slow down--it seemed to take forever to cross the room. He appeared to be wearing different clothes than what he had on when I first looked at him--they were now black and with, I know this sounds so dramatically cliche but I really saw it this way, a cape. I start to sweat and feel intense fear--I believed I was in the presence of pure evil and he was grinning at me! It felt like I was walking in water or jello, but I managed to look away and turn back to the kitchen--someone else waited on him.
I've never been in a situation like that....yet what you describe is so familiar...its like remembering something that was intense you've forgotten the details too. Something to add to the memories I need to explore.
fwiw I think your instincts where spot on with this guy. It also sounds like he was trying the gaze (mentioned a few posts above yours) that psychopaths use to 'hypnotise' there victims....which is probably why you didn't get it again, because it didn't work first time.
I can recall a similar state in a near miss in a car once (everything slows down etc)....I would imagine that coming face to face with a lion etc would produce the same effects.
Csayeursost said:
Regarding this "seeing the unseen", I have since a longer time ago - including before E-E, though well after finding this place - sometimes noticed and "felt" (as opposed to simply thought about) the mechanicalness of people's behavior, how they react and interact according to meaningless scripts. I have also sometimes seen (in combination with the former) as described by others the predator's mind in people - though not yet the "eye"-look thing. (those things seen also perceived in myself)
For me it is a 'felt', even if its something I'm 'feeling' thought my eyes. The best way I could describe it is extra information that is there to be read/seen....but in a way that gets translated more closely to felt+information.....
I support all this 'seeing the unseen' reminds me of the sun glasses from the film They Live, where there was hidden information you could see when you put them on.....if you can't quite see it, perhaps that's why it comes across as more of a 'felt'???? You feel the influence of the information, rather than see the information clearly.
Mona said:
I wish I could be talking to you all in person, I am terrible when it comes to writing my thoughts on a screen. I think too much and that is blocking what I really want to say.
fwiw I thought you expressed your thoughts well. Have you considered that perhaps its the predators mind/negative introject that 'thinks' (tells you) that you are 'terrible at writing your thoughts on a screen'??? Perhaps the 'thinking too much that blocks what you want to say' are its thoughts as well??
Besides the more you express here in writing, the more practiced you will be at expressing yourself in writing :)
truth seeker said:
I too have "seen" this in people. For much of my life, in fact. What I eventually came to conclude (I don't feel this way now) was that there was something wrong with me. I ended up feeling uncomfortable/self conscious with it and developed a problem with looking at people. This, in turn, led me I think to having social anxiety which was and still is debilitating.
Over the last year and a half, I was also seeing this in children (insert demonic child movie here) which really freaked me out.
Perhaps I'll start a thread about social anxiety if there isn't one already...
Same here, I'd never considered it in such terms but the description of a social anxiety that is debilitating really does fit well with what I had. And still have in minor ways. Interestingly I'm reaching the point where during social interactions I can see more clearly, self observe more and understand enough about myself to be able to question these beliefs/self images as they arise....and so far I've been able to question and drop many limiting beliefs about myself :)
If you can't find an appropriate thread please do create one as I'd be interested to read it and perhaps try and explain what my understanding is at the moment regarding social phobias/anxieties.
truth seeker said:
What I do now (as practice and I may be completely off in this technique so again, corrections welcome) is to observe it with the intent of not projecting anything (this is towards people that I perceive as being threatening). They will usually look away/back off.
I do this too. Infact I think its kind of my default state when I self remember. I try to 'listen' to everything and limit my projections into the world....I don't even think 'I see you' if I notice anyone who may or may not be a predator....just noticing them with intent observation seems to be enough. Another aspect to this is not to be judgmental and not to expect anything.
I remember a month or two ago (around the start of the E-E program) walking into work past a guy I'd seen once or twice...this time however I noticed something subtle I'd not seen before....he averted his eyes and looked down slightly (the way someone who is shy may do unconsciously)....what got my attention was that it 'felt' conscious....it felt like he knew exactly what he was doing, down to the last subtle movement. That put the hairs up on the back of my neck!
Part of me tried to hide the fact I'd 'seen him'....another part just calmly observed him in a lot of detail....to gether data perhaps?
I remember reading that psychopaths seem to have instant recognition of there own kind, perhaps they can also 'see the unseen'??? I don't know if all this will let us spot predators more easily or not...but it sure is interesting! I wonder how we would perceive each other once this is more refined/practiced??
truth seeker said:
RedFox said:
I honestly have no idea if that's even relevent....dreams being totally subjective things....but to say I've had a few where I realised something was crawling about in my head, only to leave itself open to read its thoughts....has happened many times in my life.
Can you explain this further?
Ok, like the dream I described above it is usually of the 'alien' variety....something in the dream would catch my attention (in the dream above, which was the last one so far it was staring at an alien), and I would become aware that something 'other' was in my head....it is similar to the 'felt knowledge' I described above. My understanding is it has an energetic component...but this is speculation.
Instead of the 'felt knowledge' being external, it is inside your head...and it is searching for something or doing something....it is parasitic and invasive.
What I learnt in the dream was once I became aware of 'it' I could learn information from it....hear its conversations (about me to others)...and get into 'its head' via this same energy.
Its like establishing a network connection....once there is a link it runs two ways.
So I took the opportunity to project back the thought "see, now I'm in Your heads....now you know what its like" implying it was not a nice thing to do....they where not best pleased.
Looking back however I realise that if it was more than a dream and knowing what I know now, I'd rather 'it' not be in my head at all. And I certainly don't want to go wondering around its head....that makes me no better than they are.
But for all I know they are just dreams and nothing more....and I'm probably going way off topic.
I really need a cigarette!