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987baz said:
I have done and do the same thing, leave the door unlocked I mean, the downside of living alone, and it doesn;t hlp your state of mind when you are already not feeling well.

I have also have felt/feel this way, and considering I work with a lot of people every day, especially this time of year when all the students assignments are due, it can sometimes be pretty intense, but I have also felt that by helping the people at work has been beneficial too, as it takes me out of my head and helps focus on something/someone else. I have never really felt stressed by other peoples stress, but lately I can definitely be affected! And, I can totally relate to only going out when absolutely necessary, I hate the shops and all the energy that flows around, so I try to go to smaller shopping centres to buy what I need. Having said that, it can be a trap! I have definitely felt that by avoiding going out increases my anxiety about going out, so I try to balance it as best I can.

There is a qigong movement that helps, similar to Lauras bubble/shield in her meditations (which I also do) but a physical movement, still, with the hyperkinetic sensate of the wave growing every day I guess these things are to be expected?

Those of us who are more sensitive might need to find more creative ways to deal with the extra energy coming in? Suggestions welcome! I use pipe breathing, Lauras meditations, Qigong, daily walks in the park, kinesiology, flower essences and recently I've been using Louise Hay's affirmations. I have found that by replacing as many negative thoughts with positive affirmations quietens my very active mind, I use them almost like mantras, just simple stuff like I am safe, I am healthy I am loved.
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One thing that's helped me is doing the grounding meditations as described by Francesca McCartney.

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Grounding

I'm currently taking an intuitive medicine course(am a quarter of the way through) and one thing that I keep noticing is how powerful grounding is for daily life. And it's something that not many people know or use. The very first thing we are taught is to ground properly and frequently, and the...
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Laura said:
Q: (Zar) I noticed how reiki doesn't emphasize/practice grounding, so I'm wondering if a deeper grounding practice should be utilized during reiki? And would daily grounding be beneficial for some/most people?

A: Yes to all.
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I bought her two books and some audio meditations that came along with it. It's good material IMO, quite comprehensive and with a lot of footnotes for her sources. I've found it helps with daily stresses and establishing/maintaining boundaries, as well as any extra energy coming in. It takes practice, like most things, but you can learn to just send any excess energy down and into the earth.
 
iamthatis said:
One thing that's helped me is doing the grounding meditations as described by Francesca McCartney.

cassiopaea.org

Grounding

I'm currently taking an intuitive medicine course(am a quarter of the way through) and one thing that I keep noticing is how powerful grounding is for daily life. And it's something that not many people know or use. The very first thing we are taught is to ground properly and frequently, and the...
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I bought her two books and some audio meditations that came along with it. It's good material IMO, quite comprehensive and with a lot of footnotes for her sources. I've found it helps with daily stresses and establishing/maintaining boundaries, as well as any extra energy coming in. It takes practice, like most things, but you can learn to just send any excess energy down and into the earth.
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thanks mate, I actually bought a grounding matt a while ago and used it for a while, but I got a weird electrical buzzing vibration from it one day and haven't used it since as I thought it may be faulty. I will dig it out and see if I can test it to make sure it's safe and working. I do try to stand on my small patch of lawn at the back of my place when I get home from work, and in summer I spend an hour or two at the beach (so that will help too)

I will give the meditations a go they look interesting and definitely worth a try and I will look up Francesca McCartney, thaks again for the recommendation!
 
placematt said:
So the attachment that I had formed with my mother and the subsequent conditioning that im not worthy, that i should try to make my mother happy and then she will love me, was playing out with my relationship with divinity or just how interacted in my life, This meant i was extremely emotionally and mentally volatile because I had no internal reference for love or self worth. It was always "What happened to my life". Does that make sense?
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I see, thanks for clarifying.

It's just that I'm having kind of the opposite experience, kind of. I always felt very loved and accepted by my mother and consequently have developed an attitude of always being taken care of by her, and by extension the DCM, and this is pretty much how my life's gone; the right people and circumstances fall into my path for me to have what I need.

I'm now facing - in my interpretation of life - a kind of karmic blowback for always taking the support of the Universe for granted. Don't get me wrong, I've faced a lot of demons and suffering as well, mostly of my own making, but in broad strokes I've had it pretty good, subjectively speaking.

My karmic lesson of learning to stand on my own two legs and let others lean on me rather than me leaning on them is - at least in my subjective view of my own situation - a peculiar shadow side of having had "a good childhood". I was never really pushed out of the nest in a harsh enough manner for me to take the lesson of 'standing on your own two feet' to heart, and I see in retrospect that I've leaned too much on others. This also ties into an aspect of my character where I turn the other cheek and avoid conflict because it could - in my programmed mind - lead to me not being taken care of when I need it. If I "hurt somebody's feelings" they won't support me.

I'm trying hard to balance out my life right now and find myself fluctuating between "soul crushing" and "rebirth". I've accepted that I'm way further down on the ladder than I initially thought but somehow, paradoxically, the abdication to hopelessness has also reoriented me and brought me more clarity.

These sure are interesting times to be alive and whatever ends up happening and wherever I end up I can't help but feel such deep gratitude for the totality of this life experience in this complex labyrinth of 3D existence.
 
MatiaS said:
I see, thanks for clarifying.

It's just that I'm having kind of the opposite experience, kind of. I always felt very loved and accepted by my mother and consequently have developed an attitude of always being taken care of by her, and by extension the DCM, and this is pretty much how my life's gone; the right people and circumstances fall into my path for me to have what I need.

I'm now facing - in my interpretation of life - a kind of karmic blowback for always taking the support of the Universe for granted. Don't get me wrong, I've faced a lot of demons and suffering as well, mostly of my own making, but in broad strokes I've had it pretty good, subjectively speaking.

My karmic lesson of learning to stand on my own two legs and let others lean on me rather than me leaning on them is - at least in my subjective view of my own situation - a peculiar shadow side of having had "a good childhood". I was never really pushed out of the nest in a harsh enough manner for me to take the lesson of 'standing on your own two feet' to heart, and I see in retrospect that I've leaned too much on others. This also ties into an aspect of my character where I turn the other cheek and avoid conflict because it could - in my programmed mind - lead to me not being taken care of when I need it. If I "hurt somebody's feelings" they won't support me.

I'm trying hard to balance out my life right now and find myself fluctuating between "soul crushing" and "rebirth". I've accepted that I'm way further down on the ladder than I initially thought but somehow, paradoxically, the abdication to hopelessness has also reoriented me and brought me more clarity.

These sure are interesting times to be alive and whatever ends up happening and wherever I end up I can't help but feel such deep gratitude for the totality of this life experience in this complex labyrinth of 3D existence.
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Hi Matis,
I appreciate your response. In the bold part above all I can say is I have felt the same way too, I have felt that I am so far down the ladder, and have alot of growing up to do. I think a big key here is having compassion for ourselves. There is no manual for life on the big blue marble. No right or wrong way. But surrounding ourselves with a network, such as the one we luckily find ourselves in, is a real blessing. I think it depends on why you lean on others too. Having a reciprical and healthy network of friends and family to lean on in times of difficulty, when you need support and/or advice is a healthy way an adult makes his way through the world. OSIT.

It sounds to me that your taking responsibility for this and are endeavouring to try and stand on your own too legs. I am reminded of the saying when the student is ready, the master will appear. I had a friend remind me some time ago that there is no need to go looking for lessons, they will come to you.

In regards to turning the other cheek, make nice programs can certainly be difficult to break. For me I remember that i fulfull my own needs for love and it helps me to move foreward in situations where I need to have stern boundaries.
 
I had a weird experience yesterday. I've bought two melatonin bottles a few days ago; one of the Swanson brand, the other of some local, not known widely. When they arrived, I've opened that less known, as I had experience with Swanson and wanted to try something else for a start. For a few days, I've taken 1 mg pill before going to sleep from that less known, already opened one without even opening Swanson. Yesterday morning I saw the bottle that I've used lying on the kitchen table. Clearly fell out from the shelf above. It was open, and the pills were scattered. At night, before going to sleep, I wanted to take one pill, and the bottle that I was using for a few days in a row, and fell in the morning was tightly closed and sealed like a brand new one. Swanson one was opened :shock: The thing is that I clearly and vividly remember that I didn't open the Swanson bottle exactly because I wanted to try the other one first. If two of them would be opened, I'd not even notice, as one of my family members could open other bottle, but why was the other one sealed brand new? :nuts: Thanks for messing with reality, 4D folks!​
 
Overall, a very unpleasant feeling of being 'stuck', as if waiting for something to happen before doing anything.

A few days ago, while partially awake, I had two visions when I closed my eyes. In the first one, I was on top of a moving object (which I could not see) that was approaching a dark, armored vehicle. In hindsight, it looked like a suicide drone aiming at a presidential vehicle. In the second vision, I was on top of a space object (which I also couldn't see) that was about to land just below the Great Lakes. Both visions lasted a few seconds, appeared sequentially, and dissipated at the moment of impact. Yeah... smashing times ahead!
 
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I tend to wake up in the morning more in touch with reality, but also just dead, without a sense of humor and emotionally bottled up.
And then the intensity hits me as I start to reach out to people. A fear of being exposed.
I have so much pain and emotion bottled in my body that I haven't even dealt with. But do I even need to? I say that because sometimes fixations and obsessions are the very obsticles reverberating problems that aren't really as big as they seem.
How is that facillitated without transference? Well that's simple, don't do it.
I do struggle with emotional control and when that happens, if I'm writing or something, I do get emotional.
I forget the rules here. I don't know if we're allowed to tell stories.
I unleashed holy hell on a Costco.
For some reason they are obsessed with having people efficiently go through the entrance and meander through the store.
You can't go through the exit to the food court now, and the restrooms beyond for security reasons.
Normally I can just go through anyway because they are like, oh he's sweet, just this once then.
I had a client who was incontinent and in a wheelchair, so I just went through.
But with that angry, irritated edge.
Sir, sir, you can't go that way... you get the idea. Freaking out over nothing.
I knew it was wrong to set it up, but at the same time it felt like there were two things going on.
I don't express assertiveness very well.
Do they even know customer service anymore? Are inhuman rules treating people like cattle costing employees their soul in enforcement? Do you not give them the authority to think for themselves?
They could they at least say, "I think you are right, to a degree, but I can't do anything about store policy on a corporate level."
In general I am excited about the election. I can feel it through the country. Also I'm excited because there will be watch parties. And that's going to be so much fun. It could be disappointing, but I'm pretty sure I know whats going to happen.
 
I am feeling rather cautious, could be the elections in the US or stuff the world over, but I have come to find myself needing to be very cautious of what I say where and to whom. And I've always practiced some form of strategic enclosure, but lately I've just had this sense of needing watch my words and be very impeccable with them because people in general seem to have a very short fuse.

I do have a feeling it's going to get worse before it gets better.
 
Alejo said:
I do have a feeling it's going to get worse before it gets better.
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Natus Videre said:
Overall, a very unpleasant feeling of being 'stuck', as if waiting for something to happen before doing anything.
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Yup, same here. There is a very heavy dense feeling for want of a better word, I’ve been trying not to let myself wallow & to be as productive as I can instead. It could be the build up of the US elections, but it feels somehow more than that.

Alejo said:
I have come to find myself needing to be very cautious of what I say where and to whom. And I've always practiced some form of strategic enclosure, but lately I've just had this sense of needing watch my words and be very impeccable with them
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We were talking about the crazy astrological aspects for the month of November in our recent reading workshop. I was listening to Annie Botticelli’s video below where she says the most dangerous aspect this month is the Pluto vs Mars opposition on 3 November (will be felt a week before & after), which will cause people to generally feel under a lot of pressure and pulled apart in different directions. Any emotionally charged interaction or aggression will boomerang back in explosive ways & she advises caution in how we handle ourselves over the next week.
 
I guess with the election happening it’s pretty normal for us to be feeling like something is about to happen, not that there’s anything we can do about it. That and the strong astrological changes that seem to be kicking things up even higher. I got the tower in my tarot spread this morning fwiw, ( dramatic change) I think caution like Alejo said is a wise way to be, keep the strategic enclosure firm and hope for the best.

When I wake up in 8 hours things could be quite different, can I take a sick day so I don’t have to listen to work people singing Kamala praises or how hitler won 😂

At least we can voice ourselves here and discuss the craziness whatever happens. Stay strong brothers and sisters be kind to yourselves and keep sharing your thoughts and feelings
 
I went to the polls early so I could vote and get home. No one in line discussed politics. All agreed with me that federal election day should be a national holiday. Now I am going to stay close to home for a few days. I voted for Trump and I live in a blue area of PA. I hope things stay peaceful.
 
987baz said:
I guess with the election happening it’s pretty normal for us to be feeling like something is about to happen, not that there’s anything we can do about it. That and the strong astrological changes that seem to be kicking things up even higher. I got the tower in my tarot spread this morning fwiw, ( dramatic change) I think caution like Alejo said is a wise way to be, keep the strategic enclosure firm and hope for the best.

When I wake up in 8 hours things could be quite different, can I take a sick day so I don’t have to listen to work people singing Kamala praises or how hitler won 😂

At least we can voice ourselves here and discuss the craziness whatever happens. Stay strong brothers and sisters be kind to yourselves and keep sharing your thoughts and feelings
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It's sobering to hear what the C's said about truly insane people among the PTB. I can imagine a truly insane person with their fingering of a nuclear button in a manipulative attempt to get their way. And then the massive cheating--I mean they get real-time data wired through fusion centers...I leave it at that.
And just with me, how hard it has been to change? Big corporate business has really corrupted society. To big to fail means they can't learn grow or celebrate human values.
But yes, I walked up behind a car and put my ballot in the ballot box on a rainy day.
Trump, and conservative almost all down the line. Never thought I'd say that. I was a libtard. Never thought I'd say that and feel good about it.
 
A bit off topic but I thought I'd share some thoughts about how I'm feeling.
When I was an artist I went pretty deeply, and that's why I relate well to the style and purity of expression to people on this forum.
But I had unresolved hurts, trauma and emotion in the physical and emotional body-a war within that I needed to mature and understand; meaning that there were and are unresolved hurts that I've been avoiding and needed to map out and understand least it draw me down further into lower vibrational states egoistically laying claim to my body.
I think the key with me right now is OK, I'm scared, I feel this fear, but I'm not going to let it get the better of me. It'll pass.
Then emotions will flow, can be mapped out, and understood in the context of things that have happened, and transformed into feeling.
 
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