Joe said:
Mandatory Intellectomy said:
As a side note, I suppose I could check with a doctor and have things tested, but my trust in doctors has gone below zero, and I find them more incompetent than the police and economists, and with their general ignorance about iodine, ketosis, toxicity, and other things, I really don't feel like even asking them. Last time I went to see a doctor was an exercise in futility and uselessness. And I don't know any good ones here. Pretty much the only doctor I trust is Gaby.
Why not get some broad blood work done? Also, why not try some DMSA and see if you have any reactions.
Also consider a good quality Iron Free multi-mineral (to take on non DMSA days). One reason the body can hang onto toxins is it has nothing to replace them with (i.e. minerals).
Joe said:
monotonic said:
Joe, it sounds like you are experiencing what it is like for others who experience this most of the time.
Well I've consulted with others on this and it seems like it was more intense and protracted than what others experience. Nevertheless, it has made me aware that, even when relatively mild, it can be pretty debilitating. Of course, there are different 'flavors' of it that are specific to each person, but the general feeling of "blah" "it's all pointless" combined with fatigue is probably a general description. It just means that those who are less "sensitive" and therefore more able to get on with things, have a responsibility to help others through rough patches in whatever way is needed.
I'll add my 2 cents to this. I hadn't realised it until seeing what Joe and others had been through that this state of being has been one I've lived with (and as such normalized) over most of my life. So
to all who are struggling.
My way of coping was dissociation. The iodine removing my ability to dissociate was crippling for some time, until I learned what to do with that.
I've yet to try the DMSA and sauna again - in the past they made pretty much no difference (didn't even get detox symptoms), so will report back how it goes.
So the first thing I can suggest to others is, if you already have a sensitive personality, suffer chronic pain or suddenly find yourself in this state is to go very slow on the iodine. Stick to a low dose and don't try to up it for some time (months). The body, mind and emotions will need time to adjust.
Impatience and comparison to others (real or imagined) are the two largest emotional elements for creating suffering in these cases.
Impatience leads to anger at the self, and in this case the emotions - and
resisting your emotions actually intensifies them.
You may find that this then leads to
the “Agony of Defeat” - which is still a comparison to others and/or a belief that you shouldn't be feeling what you are. That this level of emotional intensity makes you socially unacceptable.
You may remember a time when you where unable to communicate this level of emotional intensity to others, because they have no frame of reference. Feeling unheard and socially rejected for just being 'sensitive'.
When humans are in pain, they look for social connection to help cope with it - so this kind of 'just get over it' attitude others who have not experienced it can be massively rejecting/painful. This can then lead to an internalized feedback loop where you are stuck unable to verbalize the pain (because of social rejection) and become hypersensitive to comparing yourself to others (to avoid social rejection, by hiding the sensitivity) - thus amplifying the feelings.
You can have perfection and fear of failure mixed in here too, so it's important to remember that accepting feelings is not giving in to them or admitting some sort of defeat (defeat implies failure, that comes from the comparison to others). It doesn't mean not wanting to change things either, but to sit with your feelings without judgment or wanting to change them 'now' (i.e. escape them).
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Acceptance
Acceptance in human psychology is a person's assent to the reality of a situation, recognizing a process or condition (often a negative or uncomfortable situation) without attempting to change it, protest. The concept is close in meaning to 'acquiescence', derived from the Latin 'acquiēscere' (to find rest in).
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It should be recognized, before any breakdown to types, that acceptance is treating what happens, the actual event which is the outcome of all the combined previous events, as on balance the best outcome. Acceptance typically contains the concept of approval; it is important to note that the psychospiritual use of the term infers a non-judgmental mindset. Acceptance is contrasted with resistance, but that term has strong political and psychoanalytic connotations not applicable in many contexts. By groups and by individuals, acceptance can be of various events and conditions in the world; individuals may also accept elements of their own thoughts, feelings, and personal histories. For example, psychotherapeutic treatment of a person with depression or anxiety could involve fostering acceptance either for whatever personal circumstances may give rise to those feelings or for the feelings themselves. (Psychotherapy could also involve lessening an individual's acceptance of various situations.)
Notions of acceptance are prominent in many faiths and meditation practices. For example, Buddhism's first noble truth, "All life is suffering", invites people to accept that suffering is a natural part of life. The term "Kabbalah" means literally acceptance. Minority groups in society often describe their goal as "acceptance", wherein the majority will not challenge the minority's full participation in society. A majority may be said (at best) to "tolerate" minorities when it confines their participation to certain aspects of society. Acceptance is the fifth stage of the Kübler-Ross model (commonly known as the "stages of dying").
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Self acceptance
Self acceptance is being loving and happy with who you are now. It’s an agreement with yourself to appreciate, validate, accept, and support who you are at this moment.
For example, think of acceptance of yourself like being okay with your house right now. One day you might want a bigger house or you have this dream house in your mind, but there are advantages to your smaller home now. So you can be happy with the house you have now and still dream of your bigger house as a reality later.
Self acceptance leads to a new life with new possibilities that did not exist before because you were caught up in the struggle against reality. People have trouble accepting themselves because of a lack of motivation. Some have the misconception that if you are happy with yourself you won’t change things about yourself. This isn’t true; you don’t have to be unhappy with yourself to know and actively change things you don’t like.
Iodine taking away dissociation is actually a double edged sword - the reason it seems dissociation doesn't work so much is that the observer part of the mind is waking up. That is, you can with practice step back and observe more easily.
We spend so much time and energy struggling to deny the reality we find ourselves in, both internal and external. We believe that seeing and feeling painful things fully (facing reality) will destroy us or cripple us. And it can, but only if you are still fighting reality.
Accepting reality also includes our current state - how much we are capable of right now. Impatience and frustration means we are trying to push beyond what is realistically possible - we are
pushing to avoid reality rather than working with it.
Acceptance is about facing reality as it is, whatever the feelings, and then working from there based on observation and knowledge rather than
reactions to feelings.
On a more physical side of things, supporting neurotransmitters whilst detoxing can be helpful. Earlier in the thread Joe mentioned mercury lowering neurotransmitters.
B1 also helps with stress tolerance. Detox and acceptance of reality are stressful, so it may be worth considering.
And because it's important to say, we are all in this together. We are all human (comparison gets in the way here!). We all have unique strengths and weaknesses, knowledge and experience. But that should not be seen as weakness or something that isolates you.
We should remember that
shared pain brings people together, and makes everyone stronger.
One explanation for the finding is the classic one: that the value comes from dissonance reduction and the need to convince yourself that a painful exercise was worth it. Another theory, however, derives from something closer to the idea expressed by Emile Durkheim, writing in The Elementary Forms of the Religious Life, Part 2, that pain, when it does not occur naturally, creates communal bonds in part because "suffering creates exceptional strength." The willingness and ability to endure pain for some greater cause tells you something about yourself and your fellow sufferers. A club is more valuable to you if you and everyone else endured feats of extreme physical endurance to enter it. [..]
The experience of pain focusses our attention - first on the pain, and then, in a newly heightened state of awareness, on all that follows, including people.
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Or, as Bastian puts it, "Pain is a kind of shortcut to mindfulness: it makes us suddenly aware of everything in the environment. It brutally draws us into a virtual sensory awareness of the world, much like meditation." The real bonding power of pain, then, may be in the pleasure we feel so acutely in its wake.
So share, and know you're not alone.