Hello!
"You have light in sight" (as opposed to the title of this thread) are words I see for you, and it has double meaning:
"You have light inside"
Many are supporting you, but above all you are supporting yourself, becoming the very medicine you are. The purgative process has no straight trajectory. Healing is not done along a straight line. It never is. And that is important to understand. One can have no preconceived notion of one's own healing process. It is a lesson to study. And every lesson is a gift.
I'm following your progress as it appear in the thread, but last night I actually asked Universe if I can support you in some way you haven't been supported in, or cannot presently do yourself, and there was a nod. So, I knew there would be something I could do for you, in support. Normally I only support when I get consent from somebody, but consent can also be rendered the way you asked for help and advice in the forum, and by praying to the universe. Universe (our higher consciousness) always responds according to our lessons. And you are currently in your lesson and you have no, cannot have, a preconceived notion of how this healing path will be looking like, because you never walked it before. But you are now. It may appear to you like walking in foreign terrain with a blindfold. Yet nothing of this is unknown to you, only unconscious. And what is beneath is now stirring and becoming conscious to you, in portions.
So, since I am used to only be working with clients at a distance, I began a drum- and songhealing session connecting with you as a soul for a chat. I began at 11.15 AM local CET, Central European Time (23.15) and the session lasted for 45 minutes. In these sessions I fall into a trance (better also tell you I don't use drugs, just the drum and myself, and the spiritual guides of course). The drum beat and singing then reflects that which I am encountering during the trance and brings with it inner imagery.
I will summarize: I saw you surrounded by many Reiki symbols, so it is apparent you are getting support from many sources. You are strong with a loving heart, but stubborn. Which I am told is a positive trait, because you can now use it to your advantage in these circumstances. I met a deep sadness which seems to have its origin in a loss of a loved one long ago. And you seem to have been carrying this inside of you without allowing this mourning, this sadness, to flow naturally. When I met this sadness, which seemed like anxiety, I took it in and processed part of it for you.
I cannot process it all for you, because it is all in your lesson. And nobody else can do your lesson for you. Only you can.
Since I normally do not expose clients openly, but for the sake of being open in this very context, in this very forum (as I understand this thread is also not made public), I will mention two things in short:
- An underlying fear of dying
- And yes, I met the Greys. I talked to them (it is by far not the first time I'm meeting them in clients, so they must be quite fed up with my poking my nose into their hidden business all the time hehe) asking them why they needs must perform that which they are doing, and stop having this influence on you. They (a group of three or four) were outlined very clearly in the beginning of the "conversation" and then began to become weaker until they finally faded away.
But it is all still up to you how you choose to be using your free will to go on with your process. In this profound lesson you are changing your frequency, thus in due time preventing further "attacks". But remember: this is not done along a straight trajectory, because there is a lesson, with pauses for reflection. As long as you haven't given proper attention to the inner meaning of all this, the process will continue until you have.
There is literally nothing which is done to no avail, because literally everything is a lesson. And we cannot know the outcome before having worked through our lesson. Because if we knew beforehand, there would be no true lesson, right? This is the basic anatomy of a lesson.
And what I have shared here is not conclusive or on absolute answer, only keys. And it is up to you what you choose to respond to within yourself, because after all it is your lesson. I have from experience even learnt that sometimes when you translate the pieces of information you are getting from Universe incorrectly, and give it to the client. The client may think "well, that is definitely not true!" But what it does is stirring awareness around this topic in the client.
Also, by sharing yourself here, in this context, it becomes a lesson for many of us, which I thank you for.
I find the quote from the C transcripts provided by goyacobol an excellent choice of quote in this context.
In shamanic practice
intention and
gratitude are essential to
any process. And in our prayers to create the feeling of gratitude when communicating with Universe, is essential. Because gratitude in itself has such a major healing power, when activated consciously, and when being used consistently.
Consistency is the key. And to be persistent, of course, to have the willingness of going through the very process it takes to learn the lesson, not expecting it to be a straight path.
And I will share a tip with you (and everybody else reading this), that creating the feeling of gratitude in your heart is such a strong and profound changer of frequency, that it can actually be used whenever working through lessons of STS nature (which most lessons are, it seems). Because many STS sources cannot grasp gratitude and cannot handle its frequency.
Also gratitude is a great healer, if used consistently, because it aligns you with Universe and allows you to look deeper into your lesson and it builds a stable platform for confronting that in yourself which you need to be confronting.
As far as I can recall even in the C transcripts the importance of gratitude is mentioned, even if - when writing this - I cannot recall in what exact sessions. But you can go looking for it, if you will. Or somebody reading this may know.
Thank You!
