Before I begin to talk about the rediscovery of ancient secret technology that developed from the clues the Cassiopaeans have given, I want to make some preliminary comments for the reader's comfort.

It may seem to you, the reader of these pages, that I have been hitting very hard on the concept that "man is asleep and it is almost impossible to awaken." For some of you, this may evoke a sense of despair, or helplessness. Some of you feel confident that "Love is the answer," and that everyone will be "saved" (which is to assume that somebody is damned!) if they just have love, so we needn't worry about it anyway. Others very likely will outright reject such an idea. Some of you are definitely certain that you are not asleep!

In a general sense, to almost everyone, including yours truly, the very idea of time traveling, mind marauding, hyperdimensional beings with full powers to create and maintain a reality of illusion and restriction in which we are confined like sheep, waiting daily to see which of our number will be "taken" for their wool, skins, or flesh, is so horrifying a concept that accepting it as a real possibility, is tantamount to being stripped of all hopes, dreams and comfort.

Like many of you, I began this work full of frustration with teachings that don't work or don't make sense when compared with honest observation of reality and experience. There was such a labyrinth of contradictions everywhere I searched, and I KNEW it was necessary to go beyond everything hitherto known or tried. I did have the idea that this knowledge had been available in ancient times, judging by the evidence of the megaliths and other incomprehensible structures all over the globe, but whether or not it would be possible to rediscover this path was uncertain.

It was VERY clear that there was a serious discrepancy between the observable reality and some "deeper reality" from which, presumably, ours derives something of its form and structure, but I knew there was something that separated "us" from "them." And again, when searching for answers, it always ended in a maze of insupportable assumptions and irreconcilable facts. Yes, to all of you who have written to ask me if I have checked "this" source or "that" source, it is very likely I have, and more. And I repeat, when you read ALL of them, you find, as Blaise Pascal said:

I reject equally the religion of Mahomet, of the Chinese, of the Romans, and of the Egyptians, for this simple reason that since one has no greater marks of truth than another, my reason cannot be disposed to receive any one in preference to the rest. [Pensees, chapter XI]

And you can add a hundred other "sources" to Pascal's list on my behalf. They all end in a maze, assumptions, irreconcilable "facts."

But when the Cassiopaeans began to communicate, to say things that did explain the problems I was finding in science, religions and philosophies, and those things they told us were NOT part of my expectations, I became furious and railed at such a bleak picture of our existence. I had already gone through some of this process in earlier years while reading Gurdjieff and Ouspensky, but I found that what the Cassiopaeans were saying was far more dispiriting than I was prepared to receive. I rejected ideas that suggested our "fairy tale" beliefs just MIGHT be imposed on us to keep us asleep and unaware because I didn't like them either! As time went by and evidence from other sources mounted, I raged at lessons that drove home these points in my personal life; and I have wept oceans for the loss of my innocence. So, believe me when I say to those of you who write to me struggling to grasp this, trying to reason and rationalize some way to hang on to the old, false belief systems - I DO understand!

But, when all is said and done, I think I wept even more for all the years wasted in stupidity and blindness. After a time, I realized that we are only stupid and blind exactly as long as we need to be stupid and blind, and not one second longer. I am enormously grateful for all those experiences because they DID teach me in a very deep way.

Now, a curious thing about the teachings of both Gurdjieff and Castaneda, both of which claim that man is "food" for something "other," is the lack of really specific information about this "other." Yes, Castaneda goes further than Gurdjieff in telling us some of the history of the "flyer," or the "predator," but it is still somewhat vague and amorphous.

We have often speculated as to whether Gurdjieff knew the "truth" the way the Cassiopaeans have explicated it and just simply could not bring himself to tell anyone; or if he DID tell some of his students, was this something that only those on the "inside" knew, and held back?

Ark met with Henri Tracol, one of Gurdjieff's students, in Marseille back in the July of 1986. It was a brief meeting in an airport restaurant, lasting about two hours at most. His interest was in determining if joining with such a school as the Gurdjieff Foundation in Paris, would be helpful to his own awakening. He asked many questions, most particularly relating to this idea of "being eaten" by "something." His assessment, (which is highly developed from many years as both a scientist and an instructor), of Mr. Tracol's reaction to this question was that the man was afraid to answer. As he recalls it, Mr. Tracol glanced about nervously as though he might be overheard, though there was clearly no one to overhear, and made a somewhat vague allusion to something like "interdimensional beings" of some sort.

Since it is over 15 years since this meeting, it is hard for Ark to remember exactly what was said, but the entries in his journal in the days the following the meeting reflect his state of mind at the time:

Marseille, July 21, 1966
I am an energy transformer and a converter. That is the essence of my existence. That is my only possible goal. I can choose to serve this goal or not. I can serve only as an energy transformer. So it seems to not make much difference what I do. The result will be the same.

Or, I can serve as a channel. This is the choice between self-will and discipline. What "I" do, that is "I-Personality," is self-will. What acts through me is not self-will. Thus I wish to allow "that which can act through me" that is not self-will. For this end I need to eliminate self-will. But, God forbid, not to eliminate control!

So I wish to eliminate self-will. I wish to eliminate identification. Eliminating identification is most important. I wish to self-remember. I wish to plan to account for each and every hour. I wish to get rid of my hump. To cease being a camel.

How? Through elimination of identification. I want to listen. And to consider internally.

July 23, 1996
All this world is vanity. A vanity which will pass. The sky will pass, earth will pass, trees will pass, and people will pass too. Human aspirations will pass. Science will pass. All that keeps me together - will pass. A goal - at this level - does not exist. To set a goal - at this level - is to lie to oneself.

Humanity, truth, knowledge - these are empty words. Words surrounded by suffering which is meaningless. When I say I want to "help humanity" - these are empty words. When I say "science," "knowledge," "truth," "cognizance" - these are phantom words.

I am an energy tranformer, and I need to serve as such. And that is what I can do.

Where is the way out?

Nothing will remain of what I am doing. I might as well not exist at all. To think that I am "different?" That I am "exceptional?" That I can accomplish things that no one has succeeded in accomplishing - but I will because I will have the luck? Oh Lord, that it is possible to believe these vain illusions! I will die and nothing will be left. Nothing will succeed. Nothing will remain. No goal will be reached. Only one goal seems possible - that when the end is near, suffering will be so great that I will pass with relief.

Where is the way out? What purpose do humans serve? This is an experiment! What originates in me does not count. The only thing I can do is to allow something more powerful to speak through me. To allow something more knowledgeable to talk to me and through me. To allow something more powerful to act through me. To allow something more powerful to use me. I am just a shell, I am a machine. I am a device. I am a means to an end. I am a possibility for something more powerful to be in me and to act through me. I am a place that waits to be filled. I am a carriage without a driver and without a master. True, there is brain, there are body members, there are senses. But I am just a carriage. With no driver and no master. A personality that pretends to have rights. Which play the roles - sometimes of a driver, sometimes of a master - which says "I" contininously. Yet I am just a carriage which goes nowhere, and is doomed to crash in some ditch.

My aspirations, my ambitions, my wants - all these belong to an empty carriage and horse that is left without control. All that I am doing means nothing. All that I am doing is personality. And that comes from personality is ballast. All that comes from personality is a camel's hump.

How to pass through a needle's eye while carrying a hump? Personality must be left aside. Aspirations and whi ms - that is not me. Blessed are those who are meek. To be meek - that is what I need. Nonattachement. Eliminating unnecessary things. And also being conscious of the fact that EVERY MOMENT IS A BRANCHING OF THE UNIVERSE.

So, this was the state of mind produced by a single two hour talk with Henri Tracol. But what it is that "acts through" or controls mankind or creates the conditions of this sleep? No real clue. We have discussed this between us, combing through the available resources, trying to determine if this was one of the big "secrets" of the Gurdjieff work, but with little result.

At the same time, I have long pondered the possible true teachings of Jesus. What we know, factually, from the available ancient documents that are generally assessed to be contemporary with the time of early Christianity, is that the Romans and about everyone else in the Pagan world considered Christianity to be an "abominable superstition!"

This is actually an astonishing statement! When you consider this fact alongside Christianity as we know it today, it make absolutely no sense! Christianity, as it is today, is simply a conglomeration of archaic religious beliefs and rites that are fundamentally NO DIFFERENT from the cultic religions of the Pagans of the time! The crucified and resurrected savior god was pretty standard. And most of the teachings from the New Testament are just plagiarized versions of what was accepted by the Romans and their subjects as "normal."

In fact, if you think about this period of time and what WAS believed and practiced, including haruspicy, which was the "going thing" at the time, and involved killing an animal and reading the omens from its liver, you have to think that for these people to call something an "abominable superstition," it MUST have been pretty bizarre! And yet, nothing remains of Christianity that could be considered by the ancient Romans as superstition because it is exactly what they DID believe and practice in their various cults!

So, we have a real problem here in figuring out just what these ancient peoples WOULD have considered an "abominable superstition."

And the only thing that fits the definition is the teaching that man is "food" for hyperdimensional beings! That is pretty objectionable at ANY time in history!

If the early Christians were talking this way, we can easily see why the Romans, who had inherited or subsumed the Greek ideas of the heavenly pantheon, would consider this to be utterly barbaric! And, if this IS what Jesus understood and expounded to his disciples in private, it is no wonder that the "forces" came along and completely obliterated any trace of the original teaching and replaced it with the standard pagan rites and ceremonies and beliefs! And, if I am on the right track with this, it certainly gives new meaning to the statement: "Ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free!"

If it is true that humans are being bred and raised like cattle in a global stockyard and fed upon both psychically and sometimes even physically, we have a truly serious situation going on here, to put it mildly. As I have explained before, I have NEVER seen a Drachomonoid being except in dreamlike states or almost hypnopompic semi-sleep states. So, when the Cassiopaeans began to talk about them, it was truly "Twilight Zone" time, in my opinion!

I have also stated that, whenever the Cassiopaeans have told us anything, I work very hard to discover if there is any form of what I call vertical or lateral corroboration. Vertical data is that which is located in history at any point different from the present. Lateral data consists of collecting reports, witness information, and other data that amounts to circumstantial evidence from the present time. It is always better if the two types of data "cross" or intersect. But it is still not the same as having a "smoking gun." But, when you are dealing with hyperdimensional realities, "smoking guns" are not very likely to be found.

In the case of the idea of man being "food" for hyperdimensional beings, there is an enormous amount of both vertical and lateral corroboration of ALL kinds. So much so that, in fact, it is almost impossible to understand why it is not generally known. Clearly, there have been deliberate efforts to "hide this fact." And, the fact that it is hidden may itself tell us something.

The point is, when Don Juan and Gurdjieff and the Cassiopaeans (and others) tell us that our religions, our social structure, our values, our beliefs about our spiritual nature and condition have been deliberately created to perpetuate the illusion that we are free; that we are (or can be) "special and adored children of a loving God;" that we are or can be "co-creators" with God, that we can DO anything at all of a positive and powerful nature, we need to carefully examine this issue!

But it is WORK to examine it objectively. It is HARD WORK because it consists of long and difficult self-examination in order to be able to overcome the emotions that prevent us from discovering what illusions we are hanging onto, what illusions are preventing us from seeing and acting in such a way as to BECOME FREE.

And yet, we CAN see that SOMETHING is evolving here! With the maturation of the "group mind," the stakes get higher and the deceptions deeper!

For many centuries, millennia even, simplistic religions and social dynamics were dominant over most of the world. This was possible because even when there was an "intrusion" by one of these hyperdimensional beings into our reality, when they did "drop in for dinner," so to speak, it was easy to conceal because of the lack of communication between tribes and peoples.

When we sit in our comfortable homes and look at our reality, including that which is outside our windows, we see a "stable" front. Cars pass on the street taking people to and from their homes in their varied daily activities. The sun shines, children pass by talking and laughing. Everyone is involved in their life in an immediate and identified way, believing that this life they are involved in is what IS.

But, once in a while, something bizarre happens to someone and they struggle to deal with this anomaly in the space/time continuum. Usually, it is sufficiently minor that they can "damp it" and forget about it; which they MUST because it is too aberrant in the normal accepted course of events. It must be shoved under the rug and hidden.

Once in awhile, bigger things happen in the reality - evidence of the hyperdimensional control system intrudes, or the "screen" breaks down in some way - and it becomes news and gets reported. Charles Fort spent many years collecting these types of things from the newspapers and magazines all over the world.

When this happens, the "accepted belief system" hurries to "damp down" the item so that everyone can go along in their respective and collective illusions. And, since the events are localized, it is easy to cover it up. And, in the past, this was a LOT easier than it is today.

When you read the collected information of Charles Fort, you see that the "alien reality" that is so widely reported today was just as active then as it is now. In fact, you see that it may even be somewhat "cyclical." Just as we have cycles of food production, planting, growing and harvesting, so may hyperdimensional beings harvest us according to some "seasonal" rule.

But, in any event, in the past it was a lot easier to keep the lid on the matter. But then, people began to become literate. Books and papers and magazines were published and distributed. Travel became easier and information from around the world about these "odd intrusions" into our reality could be collected giving an overall pattern that something was not right.

Before Charles Fort, there were some few people who already "smelled a rat." But, Mr. Fort kindly shoved it right under our noses and the reaction has been quite interesting. The "cover up" machine went into FULL operation through the most effective vectors of mainstream science and religion.

But, the rat had been smelled and some people couldn't just shove it back under the rug. The stench kept wafting in the window that had been opened.

And so, certain people began to start searching for the source of this stinky rat. They began to gather knowledge and information.

We can even note HOW the "cover-up" machine began to do this "damage control." When you study the history of social and religious movement and change, you can see the "control mechanism" morphing with every discovery or realization made by human beings. As they outgrew the old religions, the simplistic explanations, new "religions" were put in place. At exactly the right time - the period of scientific expansion and growing knowledge of the nature of reality which brought the old religious views into serious question - the whole spiritualist movement began, leading to channeled information that was designed to patch up the holes in the control net. Newer and more elaborate explanations of the "higher realms" came into our reality. And, with each new question, the control system had a new answer to help everybody calm down, relax, and stop asking questions!

At the present time, this is even more amazingly evident. A few years ago, when we first began sharing the Cassiopaean information, many of the issues we dealt with were not even addressed by these other "sources." But, with everything we release, the "other side" brings some new candidate forward with new explanations to "patch the holes" we are tearing in the fabric of reality. And, of course, since Ark is a physicist with degrees beyond Ph.D., some of these new sources are becoming more educated and articulate as if to counterbalance and damp down what we are presenting here.

For me, the idea of connecting the dots has always consisted of using everything available to me in terms of peeling that blasted onion right down to the center. If I have to spend weeks buried in books about genetics to verify or disprove something the Cassiopaeans have said, I will do it. Not only that, I will write to known experts in the field using my husband's cachet in the scientific world to "get in the door" and get the latest, most up-to-date INSIDE information so that I can be sure that what I am sharing is as accurate and balanced as I can make it.

And, over and over again I come to the idea that all of these things were known long ago, and that we were sent a "message in a bottle" so to say, in the form of myths and archaic practices that were "drilled" into the participants who have long since forgotten the meaning.

Of course, it does seem that many of the ancient schools and mystical paths kept some of this information intact. But, for the most part, even that was "faded on the page" due to the long period of time since such things were known and acknowledged. But still, there are those who have seen the contradictions in our reality and our beliefs and who have sought in these ancient teachings to discover what MIGHT be known. And many of them have made discoveries that, when considered with information from many other fields, assists us in this essential discovery of our true condition and purpose.

Gurdjieff was one of these.

And so, because he DID it, he made it possible for others to do it.

Even though it seems that each person who makes progress in this discovery gets "damped down" or obfuscated by their followers, each person who blazes a trail makes it easier for the next traveler to follow in their footsteps. Of course, each trailblazer is in the position of having to cut and slash their way through the thickest and most dangerous jungle surrounding the truth, and this takes them only so far. But, having arrived at a new vantage point through this great effort, they CAN see more of what is ahead, in the center. Perhaps they can only get glimpses, but these glimpses at least assure them that they are on the right track. On the other hand, they may even see the whole picture and, in keeping with the maturity of the group mind in their time period, attempt to express the revelation in terms understandable to that generation.

Gurdjieff's teachings became known as the Fourth Way as opposed to the three ways that had, as far as we can tell, evolved out of the very religious and social structures that we may think are in place for the purpose of keeping us imprisoned. This is what Gurdjieff meant when he said that many are hypnotized into believing they are Men or Magicians. The problem with these three ways, as we have already discussed, is that they concentrate on only one of the three centers in man: bodily discipline, mental development or the "way of the heart" - Love. Gurdjieff's way incorporated all of these through a form of Conscious Labor and Intentional suffering.

What did Gurdjieff mean by these things? No two of his students have ever given the same answer. The only thing we can think about this fact is that the understanding of his students was based upon their effort, experience and level of being.

Conscious labor quite obviously does NOT refer to digging ditches or breaking rocks, though it COULD. It must refer to efforts we are not accustomed to making in our ordinary lives. Intentional suffering obviously cannot be present if a person is asleep because it depends on conscience and, according to Gurdjieff, until an individual is awake, they are neither conscious nor do they have a REAL conscience. For Gurdjieff, conscience and consciousness cannot be separated.

There are now many "Fourth Way" methods scattered around the world, all of them partial and incomplete, it seems. But, the point is: Gurdjieff made a big step, he cut away a great deal of the obstructions in the path of finding ways to bring the technology back to the awareness of the group mind, and because he did, those who came after him were able to go even further in this effort.

Unfortunately, the Control System immediately put "damage control" into operation to patch the holes of revelation, and fences of secrecy and restriction were erected so that IF anybody in the organization had the deeper knowledge, it became so hidden that it is likely that the process of distortion and corruption will proceed on its normal course there as well.

Even so, we have to see each of these things as "steps." We can't leave out Sufism, Alchemy, Catharism, and other persecuted systems of knowledge which were the stepping stones before Gurdjieff. By looking at the overall picture, we can pretty safely say that when a revelation is seen to be useful, that it helps the people who are involved in it to lead fuller, more meaningful lives, the forces that be will immediately go into overdrive to destroy or conceal it. And, if they cannot do that, they will ensure that it is distorted and corrupted by putting their own "agents" in place on the "inside" to see the job done. Witness the development of Christianity via the Catholic Church.

Yes, Gurdjieff may have achieved the level of a True Sage himself, leaving us a legacy of process and application, and LRH may have come along and opened more of the pathway to greater numbers of people, but our job at present is to go further. And, as we do we must EXPECT a continuous effort to counteract, to obfuscate, to corrupt and co-opt the concepts from all quarters.

When we dig as deeply into all of these matters as possible, over and over again we come upon the idea that Self knowledge is the key. It is NOT the end, but it is the means; the first stage in self-development and the beginning of awakening from sleep is to be able to know the self in an objective way so that the "predator's mind" can be controlled. Note very clearly that I say "controlled" and NOT merged.

Gurdjieff said that we have many "I's" and at the same time, we have an animal nature and a spiritual nature. Self observation and other disciplined efforts were taught as the means of "crystallization" of a "single I." William Baldwin saw the real source of these many "I's" as the spirit attachment problem. In working with this, he found that his techniques could assist the person in eliminating this barrier manifesting the true self, in the effort to "grow the will."

The downside of it is the failure to encourage the assimilation of other knowledge as a means of having a context in which to place the discoveries that the self makes in the processes.

But what good is this knowledge when it seems that all the Cassiopaeans have to say is that we are "helpless" in the face of so great a deception? The fact is, they have said or suggested a lot more than that. It is only the constraints of time and energy that make the process of presenting the information so slow. The point is, I am trying to shock you. I am trying to make you think about things in new ways. I am trying to get you to look at yourselves, study yourself, discover your illusions and then apply yourself to becoming free of them. If humanity has any hope of surviving, it will have to have a major "change of mind," or METANOIA, which is incorrectly translated in the New Testament as "repentance." For a change of mind to even be possible, it has to KNOW ITSELF!

To many of you, it may seem that the Cassiopaeans offer nothing but repeated statements that we are "damned no matter what we do," as one correspondent suggested. But, that is not entirely the case. Yes, it is true that, up to this point I have presented mostly the information that relates to these matters, attempting to penetrate and tear the veils of illusion under which mankind has been hidden from his higher nature or potential, but this has only been done with the intention of having a relatively clear view of what possibilities of DOing we may actually have. And, I have been trying to accomplish something else, something deep and essential: for those who are asking, I have been trying to help you find your Free Will.

And this brings us to that all-important remark made by a member of our group, Terry Rodemerk:

What we have been told on that is that this universe was created as a Free Will Universe. It was created specifically to allow all souls to do whatever they wish to do; they have complete choice about what they wish to do. The Grays, the Lizards, whoever they are who abduct and put implants in people, have the right to do that because it's their free will to come here and do that to us. And, they have the right to tell us whatever they want to tell us to rationalize their behavior. Our right is to NOT believe what abducting entities tell us. We have free will to believe or not believe them. If they tell us in one lifetime that they have the right to do this to us, and we choose to believe them then, and then, in this lifetime, they try the same tricks and we choose NOT to believe them, in each case, we are exercising our free will and so are they. This is a Free Will universe. We can change our mind. They are trying to convince us that we have no choice in that; whether we believe them or not is OUR choice.

Q: (L) Is there a tool that enhances free will?
A: No tool is needed because all there is is lessons. The learning cycle is variable, and progress along it is determined by events and circumstances as they unfold.
Q: (L) So, when a person is being hypnotized and controlled from outside, because that is the matter of concern we were discussing earlier, they are hypnotized and controlled until they learn to stop it?
A: Yes.
Q: (L) So, using the analogy of the pig sty, they just have to wallow in it and suffer until they have had enough?
A: Using your analogy of the bicycle: Is there a tool which makes it unnecessary for the child to learn how to ride the bicycle in order to know how to ride it?!?
Q: (MM) Don't you get more free will by assimilating knowledge?
A: Yes!! Yes!!
Q: (L) So, in other words, knowledge and awareness makes you aware that you have free will, and also makes you aware of what actions actually ARE acts of free will, and therefore, when you know or suspect the difference between the lies and deception and truth, then you are in a position to be in control of your life?
A: Yes. Remember, you learn on an exponential curve, once you have become "tuned in." This means that you become increasingly able to access the universal consciousness. Please learn to trust your increasing awareness. All who are present here are at one point or another on that cycle of progression, some further along than others. If you properly network without prejudice, you may all wind up at the same point on this cycle.

What do I mean by that? Well, let me try to explain it this way: A correspondent recently wrote of his despair when he realized that what the Cassiopaeans were saying truly did do a better job of explaining the "order of the universe" and the meanings behind the experiences and symbols of reality.

[Tonight] we had a ...big annual fireworks presentation that is synchronised with a radio broadcast ...The whole thing is massive and hyped up. There's lots of flashing lights (people even joined in and flashed their house lights), lots of aerial traffic and lots of flashing fireworks. All this backed by a radio broadcast that is impossible to escape since EVERYONE is playing it. As beautiful as it is, I got immensely depressed. All that I know so far, all the knowledge in me just caused me to [be unable to] escape the awful feeling of alienation and despair.

All these people, the kids, the elderly, the mothers and grandparents - they are all screwed - most likely including me. We're like sheep - we'll be happy with a bunch of flashing lights and then we'll go off to earn more money. To run the program. I think the most disturbing moment was when I saw this really gorgeous boy - 5 maybe 7. He had an incredibly smooth face, he was watching the fireworks and clapping his hand in happiness. Pity that Lizzies might eat him tomorrow. ...It's just too much to handle on your own!

We will be taken over with no problems at all. This is our destiny and only a small percentage of us worldwide will have any clue as to what is happening when the sky turns red. The rest will get burned in the packed-out churches. And what can I do?

Well, not much ...It's like one of those prophetic dreams - they happen and you can't change anything. Yeah, I tried but my acts led to the dream FULFILLING itself. So either way - whether you do something or not, little difference will be made. It makes no difference how many people I help. It makes no difference how many old ladies' days I make. No matter how many books I read and how many riddles I solve. It is all predestined anyway. I'm tired of giving already!

And so the night goes on. I am alone, with no-one to truly see what I mean in a face-to-face conversation. All the people I've ever met had something wrong with them (and there's literally thousands of them). No amount of unconditional love could turn them normal. I'm running out of possibilities here (maybe there's something wrong with ME then). I'm tired of fighting, asking, probing, observing and not being able to share properly. It's a doomed existence and I'm here to watch. Whatever happened to love, compassion and understanding? Where on Earth (HELL) has the internal beauty gone?? Is all this bickering ever going to end? Enough already! [Name of correspondent withheld for privacy]

Indeed! And how passionately eloquent! Having been there, (more than once!) my heart bled for him. And, which is worse: To see what he is seeing as a young man with his whole life before him? Or to see what there is to see in middle age, with five children for whom you have given most of your life; seeing not only that you have been lying to yourself by believing lies and deception, but that you have conveyed those same lies to the people you love the most? What do you do when you realize that most of your life you have given away your free will and, at the same time, have taken away the free will of those dearest to you? More horrible still, what do you do when you realize it has ALL been done in the name of LOVE?!

Is there light at the end of this tunnel? Is there, Oh! is there "Balm in Gilead?"

Yes, many times I experienced what my correspondent described so well. And it is only in the past few years that I am able to see it for what it was: a series of initiations. Step by step I was led through one level after another, stripping away all my beliefs and expectations, until I had no more illusions in which to hide. And what I was being taught by the Universe was the deepest and most essential thing to know - about myself.

When the last illusion was stripped away and I was left with nothing but the skeleton of my being, I reached what Kafka describes as Von einem gewissen Punkt gibt es keine Rückkehr mehr. Dieser Punkt ist zu erreichen. "There is a point of no return. This point has to be reached."

When you have been stripped of all your illusions, when you have nothing left to believe in, there is no one there at all but yourself. It felt rather like falling endlessly in icy, black, meaningless space. No rhyme nor reason, no truth or beauty, no anything that I had ever believed in could be seen anywhere. I had peeled away the layers of all the warm, fuzzy, comforting beliefs and found that it was all a lie, a deception, a mask for "feeding and manipulation." And by believing the lies, I had participated in the feeding and manipulating to so great a degree that my grief and regret became an ocean in which I was drowning. No wonder we resist giving up our beliefs! Without them, we have to face the truth about ourselves! And, as much as we think we are loving, caring, giving beings, when we see the TRUTH, when we see that most of our ideas about loving and caring and being have been manipulated to deprive us of our free will and to pass the infection on to those we love the most, it is like looking into the pit of Hell.

And when you look into the pit of Hell and realize that you have been feeding that black and bloody, sucking and gaping and gore filled maw waiting to swallow you, and that you have taught those you love to feed it as well, the horror of the realization is enough to drive you mad with grief and despair. And you search for a meaning, some little point of illumination, and there is no light anywhere, not even a single candle to dispel the darkness.

But, while falling in this dark, empty space, something begins to form inside you. In the beginning it is very small, but it catches your attention and, since it is the only thing that is "different" in the sucking, feeding darkness, you become riveted on it. You cannot be sure exactly what it is at first, but your attention gives it energy and it begins to grow inside you.

What you have found is your will.

And once you have found your will you SEE "the CHOICE." Choice is a function of will. Where Will exists, Choice comes into being. You CAN choose.

What you see is that you can choose the ORIENTATION of your soul.

The way the thought came to me was: "well, okay, I don't see any light or love or truth or beauty anywhere; and the universe may just blink out one day without it ever having really existed. But that would be a tragedy." Desolation overwhelmed me and I felt so great a pity and love for what MIGHT have been - for what radiant and sublime dreams may be in the Mind of God that might never be fulfilled; because the deceptions are so deep, and the reality is so monstrous - who can really SEE it, and survive? And I became aware of the "feather like weight " of my inclination, my True Will to Be. It was not more than an inclination, a propensity, a preference. But as I noted it and focused on it, it became firmer and purposeful.

And I realized "I am just one single, solitary, lone being in the darkness, and there really and truly might never, EVER, be anyone or anything in existence of real love, truth and beauty." And the sadness and despair vaulted from my soul into darkness that enveloped me. But nothing answered except that my attention was drawn back, again, to this small thing that was growing inside me which had now begun to glow and give off warmth in that soul-chilling blackness. Somehow my thoughts were making it grow. My thoughts were aligning me with it. Resolution and steadfastness began to blossom. And then I realized that it was connected to some greater source of Light and by my penitential love and compassion for the Dream of Love and Truth, the light was increasing.

And I understood that this darkness was ALSO God!

Disasters, misfortunes, tragedies, ruin, destruction, adversity, suffering, pain, anguish in all the varied manifestations we find them in our world are expressions of the IDEA of Nonexistence. I understood that the idea of nonexistence exists ONLY as an idea, and ONLY because in a realm of ALL Potentials, even the potential of Non-existence exists as Non-being . In the two fundamental ideas of Being and Non-being, all creation is manifested. In the act of Creation, the outrush of creative energy, half of the Consciousness of God "formed" itself into a reflection of this idea of non-being as part of the Grand Experience. And this reflection of Nonbeing is matter - it is only the half of the Consciousness of God "gone to sleep" to offer itself as the clay from which the Cosmos is formed.

I also understood that, in that eternal instant of "falling asleep," of compression, there was a sensation of "loss" in this half of God that "volunteered" for the role of matter, and that this "sensation" is expressed as a recoil, a contraction upon itself. It is this "recoil and contraction" in flux interaction with outraying creative consciousness that establishes the "tension" of polarization which is the dynamic by which the cosmos is manifested. And, in 3rd density terms, this recoil or contraction is the essence of Service to Self; those who choose this mode, recycle into sleeping matter.

The creative consciousness half of God "uses" the matter that is formed by the "recoil/contraction" of the other half of God to take on form, to engage in exploration of all the ideas in the mind of God. This results in an increase it's relative energy. This "using of matter" to increase energy is felt by the sleeping consciousness/matter as "fear of loss of self." To assuage the fear, the "matter oriented consciousness" must circumscribe, limit, and restrain. It must believe that the grand constructions of illusion are not only REAL, but ALL THAT EXISTS. Physicality becomes the standard, the measure, the object of veneration. The Physical Universe is, in effect, God. This is the essential dynamic of all physical or partly physical realities, including the hyperdimensional 4th density STS reality.

And I finally understood the reason for the masks and mazes of our world: it is The Parable of the Sower!

A man went out to sow, and as he sowed, some seeds fell by the roadside, and the birds came and ate them up. Other seeds fell on rocky ground, where they had not much soil, and at once they sprang up, because they had no depth of soil; But when the sun rose they were scorched, and because they had no root they dried up and withered away. Other seeds fell among thorns, and the thorns grew up and choked them out. Other seeds fell on good soil and yielded grain, some a hundred times as much as was sown, some sixty times as much, and some thirty. He who has ear, let him be listening and consider and perceive and comprehend by hearing.

...To you it has been given to know the secrets and mysteries of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it has not been given. For whoever has to him will more be given and he will be furnished richly, so that he will have abundance; but from him who has not, even what he has will be taken away.

While any one is hearing the Word of the kingdom and does not grasp and comprehend it, the evil one comes and snatches away what is sown in his heart. This is what was sown along the roadside. As for what was sown on thin, rocky soil, this is he who hears the Word and at once welcomes and accepts it with joy; Yet it has no real root in himself, but is temporary - inconstant, lasts but a little while and when afflictions or trouble or persecution comes on account of the Word, at once he is caused to stumble... and he falls away. As for what was sown among thorns, this is he who hears the Word but the cares of the world and the pleasure and delight and glamour and deceitfulness of riches choke and suffocate the Word, and it yields no fruit.

As for what was sown on good soil, this is he who hears the Word and grasps and comprehends it; he indeed bears fruit, and yields in one case a hundred times as much as was sown, in another sixty times as much, and in another thirty. [Matt. 13: 3-23, exc., Amplified, Zondervan]

Our reality is masked as a medium for growth. And what we are growing is our Will which, when aligned with a given Thought Center, allows that Thought Center to manifest its Will in our reality to the extent we are in alignment and can be amplified! To be in alignment with the STO Thought Centers results in an increase of Spiritual consciousness and a diminishment of the "sleeping" consciousness of matter. To align with the STS Thought Centers, as we ARE, results in an increase of the "sleeping consciousness," or "Wishful Thinking" of matter, and a diminishment of Spiritual Consciousness.

Karl von Eckartshausen tells the tale of the Path to the Temple of Secrets:

The Temple of Secrets is located on a high mountain, and everywhere thorns are covering the path leading to the Temple. The inconceivable, mysterious height of the mountain is the reason why many people doubt the existence of the Temple of Secrets. Some think of it as a Fairy Tale, some consider it an old Myth and others believe it to be the Truth.

At the entrance of the narrow path stands IGNORANCE, with her sisters STUPIDITY and LAZINESS, and they tell awful tales to the travelers and of horrible adventures the travelers will encounter if they set foot on this path. That is how lazy Human Beings and fearful Human Beings can easily be persuaded to turn back.

There are a few Human Beings on which ignorance attempts her deceptions in vain. They climb up the first part of the thorny steep path, and when they are about half way up the mountain, they reach a plateau on which they find the Temple of Self-Love. Next to this Temple stands Self-Conceit, Pride and Know it-All and they offer the traveler a cup, out of which he drinks his own Self in great gulps and thereby becomes intoxicated with himself, with his own "I."

These travelers then become so intoxicated with themselves that they imagine that their Temple, the Temple of Self-Love is the Temple of Secrets and there is nothing, but nothing, above them. The inscription on this temple, the Temple of Self-Love, reads as follows: The Sanctuary of the Wisdom of the World.

Desires, passions and wantonness are the servants of these priests. However, those whose heart searches for the truth will not find any satisfaction with this and they will keep on searching.

A few thousand steps from this Temple you will find a very secluded little hut, inhabited by a hermit, with the following inscription above the door: The Residence of Humility.

The man who lives here guides the strangers to the residence of humility, which in turn leads them to Self-Recognition. This Divine Beauty becomes the traveler's companion, and with her, he conquers the inaccessible mountain. Whosoever tries to reach the Temple of Secrets without this Divine Beauty can very easily be misled by his Self-Love, and as a result, will follow the wrong path. His greed for knowledge will lead him to the Temple of Curiosity. The inhabitants of this Temple are: fraud, seduction and deception, the founders of most of the secret societies, and those Human Beings who , in search for the Truth and for the Temple of Secrets will, if they join these Secret Societies, be robbed of the ability to see with their Soul. They are then led to the top of the mountain, where they fall into the abyss or into the labyrinth or maze, in which they will walk in circles for eternity without finding the Truth.

Humility alone is the best guide. This alone will lead the seeker to the Master of Teachers of all secrets. This Master Teacher is the PURE WILL.

This pure will becomes the friend of the highest of knowledge and they enter into a bond of eternal union.

The knowledge of the effects of the Eternal Light of godliness in all created beings is True Magic in Theory.

The conception of this Light, or the transition from the intellect to the will, is True Magic in Practice. [Von Eckarthausen, Magic: The Principles of Higher Knowledge, 1788]

Now, note the sequence above; those who align with the Thought Centers of STS manifest IGNORANCE, STUPIDITY and LAZINESS in the sense that they believe awful tales and horrible adventures of travelers, and they are easily be persuaded to turn back. That is to say that they are persuaded that knowledge will bring them to grief, or that "asking questions" is a manifestation of "lack of faith," which will earn them condemnation at best, and a quick ticket to Hell at worst. The comparison between this analogy and the Parable of the Talents in which the servant who buried his talent because he was afraid and was cast into outer darkness are interesting especially when we consider the end result of the STS alignment, which is to recycle into primal matter. I would suggest that such as these are "eaten" rather quickly just as the seeds that fell by the wayside were immediately consumed by the birds in the Parable of the Sower.

Then, we have another class of STS alignment. They aren't easily put off by terror tactics, so special deceptions are set up for them. They DO reach the "plateau on which they find the Temple of Self-Love. Next to this Temple stands Self-Conceit, Pride and Know it-All and they offer the traveler a cup, out of which he drinks his own Self in great gulps and thereby becomes intoxicated with himself, with his own "I." We can see that these are the ones that achieve the higher levels of STS orientation. The key in the analogy is that they "become so intoxicated with themselves that they imagine that their Temple, the Temple of Self-Love is the Temple of Secrets and there is nothing, but nothing, above them." This is what the Cassiopaeans have described as "Ultimate in Wishful Thinking." And, of course, these are the purveyors of most of the deceptions in our world today because, one of the things that these individuals most Wishfully Think is that they are the purveyors of the Wisdom of the World!

Von Eckartshausen tell us that "Desires, passions and wantonness are the servants of these priests." And we know from this that these individuals may be very high in the STS Hierarchy themselves. And they use the "Predator's Mind" which is the nature of Hunger within humanity to do their will.

Q: (L) It says here: In 1979, Project Phoenix, with the assistance of the Grays, was successful in producing a mind amplifier. This was used in conjunction with putting people with exceptional psychic or mental capabilities under drug influence, hooking them up to this machine and keeping them in a state of pre-orgasmic sexual excitation wherein they were able to create some type of physical form. They say: "The fire within man that is characterized as passion is the secret that can be utilized. The secret to all things is passion. With passion all things are possible. The amplification experiments of the Phoenix Project have been explained as having amplified brain waves. In fact, it amplified the passion of the subject. It was that 'inner will' of the subject that was amplified, that inner spirit within all of us is that driving force is manifested as electrical energy. Master that force and you cannot be controlled, the universe is yours. Master the inner spirit and you shall master the physical." Comments please.
A: "Passion" does not set one "free," quite the opposite!
Q: (L) But what if your passion is for knowledge? What is it that gives some people this drive, this steamroller compulsion that they are determined to get to the absolute bottom of everything and strip away every lie until there is nothing left but the naked truth? What is the source of this desire?
A: That is not passion, it is soul questing. It is simply that one is at that point on the learning cycle. At that point, no drive is needed.
Q: (L) So, you more or less are there because some critical mass has been reached that 'jumps' you to the point where seeking truth is simply who you are? It defines the parameters of your being?
A: Yes. [Cassiopaeans, 1996]

However, there is a kind of person who has some sort of "inner inclination" for Truth. They are simply unable to accept anything else. They cannot be satisfied until they have peeled the onion to the very core. And these keep their eyes on the goal of Truth.

The seeker of truth continues to gather knowledge in the same way the servants in the Parable of the Talents continued to "invest" their money. Gathering knowledge without prejudice inevitably leads to humility. Humility added to knowledge inevitably leads to self-recognition. And self-recognition becomes the companion that enables a person to navigate the emotions and illusions that seek to distract us and blind us! Finally, self-recognition, which is the ultimate state of Humility, leads us to PURE WILL.

Now, notice, it didn't say STRONG will, just pure. A person's "will to be" is his natural frequency. And, when you marry will to knowledge, you have hope of using the will in a particular way. This Will is the "mustard seed" of the Biblical parable. Again: Will to be, or orientation, is FREQUENCY

Application of will via knowledge, to choices produces FREQUENCY RESONANCE VIBRATION in the consciousness which can then manifest in the experience of the individual in very particular ways as I will try to explain.

Any given system has a natural frequency. A human being has several frequencies which relate to the atomic "signature" of the cellular structure, etheric body frequency, and the frequency of the consciousness which is a function of will or orientation.

If you record a pure tone, you can connect the output line that would go to a speaker to an ocilloscope instead. In this way, you can SEE the sound rather than hear it. As you observe it, you note that it oscillates. You are seeing a wave. Frequency is the number of crests of a wave in a designated unit of time. That is what determines frequency. More units in time means higher frequency. Frequency is in inverse ratio to the length of the wave. The higher the frequency, the shorter the wave. (It is important to note here that a "unit of time" is an arbitrary measurement, so assigning a "number" to a frequency is merely a matter of convention.)

Frequency Resonance Vibration is directly related to what is called Forced Oscillation. Any wave system may be driven by a force from the "outside." Whenever a system is made to vibrate by a periodic force, the resulting motion is called Forced Oscillation. An example would be the glass that shatters when the opera singer hits the "right note."

Forced Oscillations take place with the frequency of the driving force rather than with the natural frequency of the system. The amplitude of the response depends on how the driving frequency is related to the natural frequency. If these frequencies are nearly the same, even a very weak driving force can, in time, feed enough energy into the system to give it a large amplitude of motion. This condition is called Resonance.

Everybody has probably pushed a child on a swing. What you notice is, after a series of very strong pushes to get the swing going, you can stand there and just give an occasional push or "tap" to keep the same swinging motion going. But, as every parent knows, it has to be given at exactly the right instant. The tap must be applied in the same direction, and at the very instant of the swinging away motion for it to work. If you give a push at intervals instead of at every return, you will find that an increase of force is necessary depending on how many times you let the swing come and go before applying another tap. If you set up a series of "every other return" before pushing, you will have to apply the exact same force at each of these arbitrarily determined intervals which will be a multiple of the force you would have to apply if you pushed with every single return. These intervals of pushing at arbitrarily designated returns are submultiples of the natural frequency. And, as you see from this example, they can produce the same resonance also, the Frequency Resonance Vibration being the swinging in response to being pushed.

If the pushes are continued, and if the swing had long enough ropes and a brave enough child, a regular series of pushes could eventually launch the child into outer space!

But, you will notice that if the pushes are not given at the right moment, if they are not constantly delivered either with every swing or in a submultiple, if no periodicity is maintained, the swing will slow down and stop. You will also notice that if you do not apply the pushes in a fixed period, the motion of the swing is erratic. And you will definitely notice that if you push at the wrong moment, or against the swing direction, you will cause it to slow down! In such a case, you are taking energy away from the system.

The very same principles apply to Forced Oscillation of any wave whether it is a sound wave, radio wave, light wave or whatever. In fact, it could be said that light is produced is Forced Oscillations of atoms. All things in nature which are a "response to a stimulus" are Forced Oscillations.

A human being could be considered to be a series of Forced Oscillations.

And here we come to the problem:

Besides depending on how close the driving frequency is to the natural frequency, the amplitude of response of the forced vibrations of a system also depends on the strength of the damping. The less damping there is, the greater the response of resonance. The resonance frequency is always lower than the natural frequency but gets very close as the damping is reduced. [Freeman, Physics Principles and Insights, 1973]

Now, as we have said, a human being is a combination of frequencies of the cellular structure, the etheric/genetic body, and the consciousness orientation. If these different frequencies operate in harmonious submultiples of a certain fundamental frequency, we say that the system is in harmony, that is to say, there is Harmonious Frequency Resonance.

We can also say that, by changing one of the frequencies and amplifying it, the others may be brought into harmony by the process of Forced oscillation IF the natural frequency of each is a harmonic of, or is close to, the driving frequency.

At the same time, the act of changing ANY of the frequencies can be accomplished by Forced Oscillation from the "outside," whether for harmony or not. That is to say, if the forced oscillation is not close to the natural frequency, there will be less amplitude.

Now, a human being, in general, is under the powerful influence of the matter of which his body is constructed. Matter is the result of the STS "Thought of Non-being," or "Sleeping Consciousness" of God. Therefore, in a general sense, by being in 3rd density, to a great extenct, man is "asleep;" he is under the influence of the frequency of the STS polarity. His Frequency Resonance Vibration is STS, or that of matter/contraction - the predator's mind.

But, man has a possibility of CHANGING FREQUENCY, aligning with STO polarity, IF he can find that part of himself that is truly of Service to Others and AMPLIFY it through the process of Frequency Resonance Vibration, resulting from the Forced Oscillation of alignment with the STO thought center. It is only his Will that can do this, and it is only WHEN it is "married to knowledge" so that he can truly KNOW what his choice is and how to implement it. These choices are the "pushes" of the swing. If sufficient amplitude is achieved, ALL of his other frequencies will also gradually be forced into Frequency Resonance Vibration.

Of course, this process is not only dependent upon the natural frequency of the individual, but also upon the dampers that may be in place that can restrict the amplitude. The fewer dampers, the greater the amplitude that can be achieved with the least application of energy.

We have to discover and remove the "dampers" to our systems.

Again, it is in the gaining of knowledge that we can remove the dampers, little by little. It is hard work and it is painful. But as we do this, we come, step by step, to the position of humility and self-knowledge that enables the alignment of the will. If the natural frequency of STO is present in the moment of choice, this pure will "becomes the friend of the highest of knowledge" and they "enter into a bond of eternal union." And one is then able to connect with the Eternal Creative Light within, which then becomes the Forced Oscillator that changes the Frequency Resonance Vibration in dramatic and life changing ways. This amounts to giving up self-will to allow the greater will of the Thought Center to manifest. The manifestation of this in one's daily life via choices become "pushes" of the swing of the etheric/genetic body and the atomic signature of the cellular structure which then changes the entire reality.

When we finally achieve Self-recognition/humility, we understand that it is implementation of our choices at THIS 3rd density level that increases the amplitude of our Frequency Resonance Vibration, which IS, in actuality, our polarization. Amplitude constitutes our "ripeness" for advancement to the next density. What we are choosing is, in effect, which part we will play in the NEXT cycle of creation! What we do now determines our course into either consciousness that creates, or the intensely contractile Thought of Nonbeing that "goes to sleep" as primal matter. Neither of them are "higher" frequencies, they are DIFFERENT.

Mass and "Spring Constant" are the determinants of Frequency in material terms. Using the principle of "As above, so below," we must assume that similar constructs apply to "spiritual frequencies." The Spring Constant is the measure of the force needed to extend the mass by an arbitrary measure. Mass, since it relates to matter, in spiritual terms is analogous to "sleeping consciousness" or IGNORANCE. This means that the fundamental "ignorant" or "sleeping" nature of the STS orientation equates to greater mass AND Spring Constant. Greater mass and Spring Constant require greater strength of Forced Oscillation to produce Frequency Resonance Vibration even if the Natural Frequency is very close to the frequency of the Forced Oscillator. Thus, since the "Natural Frequency" of the human being is that of matter to the greatest extent, it is more inclined to be influenced by the STS polarity Forced Oscillation.

Less mass and Spring Constant are the result of knowledge. Knowledge is a function of consciousness, and all knowledge that IS knowledge and not assumption, prejudice or illusion, increases consciousness.

Q: (L) We have been discussing memories and how memories of, say, past lives are stored, and that leads to the question of what is the structure and composition of the soul? How does the soul remember? How does it carry its memories from lifetime to lifetime, from body to body, whether simultaneous or sequential? How does the soul "store" them?
A: Has to do with atomic principles. These with gravity present the borderland for the material and the nonmaterial. Which theoretical atomic particulates would you think form the basis here?
Q: (L) How about tachyons?
A: Maybe neutrons? Neutrinos.
Q: (A) Neutrinos are funny particles because they are massless. But, some people don't believe that neutrinos exist. Do they exist?
A: Okay, we are going to throw caution to the "winds," and say yes. [Laughter.]
Q: (L) In terms of these neutrinos and soul composition, how are memories formed or held or patterned with these neutrinos?
A: Contained within for release when and if suitable.
Q: (L) Memories are contained within the neutrinos?
A: Sort of.
Q: (L) Are they contained within patterns formed by the neutrinos?
A: Closer.
Q: (L) So, that means that if one "consciousness unit," or soul, has more memories or experiences than another consciousness unit, it would have more neutrinos?
A: No.
Q: (L) What's the difference?
A: More data per unit, sort of.
Q: (L) Does that mean that an individual neutrino can be, in and of itself, more "dense" in data, so to speak?
A: So to speak.
Q: (L) Does this increased density of data change the nature or function of the individual neutrino?
A: Maybe it changes the function of the awareness, thus the environs.
Q: (L) Is there a specific number of neutrinos that constitutes a consciousness unit, or soul?
A: Number is not quite the right concept. Orientation is closer.
Q: (L) What are the orientational options?
A: Vibrational frequencies.
Q: (L) Do the vibrational frequencies increase or decrease with density of data?
A: Change; better not to quantify.

Note that the nature of the soul is fundamentally changed by changing not only the ORIENTATION of the basic units and orientation has to do with CHANGING frequencies. And the process of changing orientation or frequency is dependent on increasing the data within the basic units; making them more "dense." Vibrational Frequencies change with increase of density of data.

Increase of data changes the frequency in a natural way from the orientation of STS to that which is closer to STO which results in a reduction in Mass and Spring Constant which means that less energy must be input from the Forced Oscillator in order to produce Frequency Resonance Vibration!

This is why it is "easier" to increase amplitude via the STO alignment. This is why it is "easier" to graduate to 4th density via the STO alignment. This is also WHY all the dampers and controls are held so tightly in place. The STS gang do not WANT humans to graduate to 4th density and that is why they create beliefs and illusions and controls that are designed to induce us to make STS choices no matter what we do. As long as we believe lies, we are aligned with STS. As long as we are aligned with STS, our Mass and Spring Constant make it impossible for us to increase our amplitude for graduation.

And this points up another fact. In order to graduate to 4th density via the STS pathway, several conditions must be met. First, nearly ALL of the dampers to STS, or STO inclinations of the individual, must be removed to increase the potential for amplification. Second, the natural frequency of the individual, which we already know is a function of choice, must be so close to the pure STS frequency as to be almost identical in order for the Forced Oscillation from the higher density Thought Center to have any effect at all. This means that the degree and depth of depravity, malignity, malevolence, degeneration and contraction must be VERY pure in the individual.

Cassiopaeans: We wish to review some things... The concept of a "master race" put forward by the Nazis was merely a 4th density STS effort to create a physical vehicle with the correct frequency resonance vibration for 4th density STS souls to occupy in 3rd density. It was also a "trial run" for planned events in what you perceive to be your future.
Q: (L) You mean with a strong STS frequency so they can have a "vehicle" in 3rd density, so to speak?
A: Correct. Frequency resonance vibration! Very important.
Q: (L) So, that is why they are programming and experimenting? And all these folks running around who some think are "programmed," could be individuals who are raising their nastiness levels high enough to accommodate the truly negative STS 4th density - sort of like walk-ins or something, only not nice ones?
A: You do not have very many of those present yet, but that was, and still is, the plan of some of the 4th density STS types.

When you "grok" the level of STS that has to be present in an individual in order to GRADUATE to 4th density STS, the "purity" of the evil - the consciousness of it - well, it is a pretty horrifying thought. It's like Ted Bundy, Albert Fish, Ed Gein, and Jeffrey Dahmer all rolled into one and amplified exponentially! Not only that, SMARTER! Such beings would not have the damping effect of any STO frequencies on the STS frequency; efforts would be made to reduce, or eliminate entirely, any residual STO inclinations which might act to "expose" them in their moments of STO "weakness." That is TRULY scary. Something we need to keep in mind. Such a being would be able to ACT in any way they chose, without glitches that "give them away," to disarm and deceive in order to get their prey where they want them.

Unfortunately, a mixture of STS and STO choices do NOT add up to graduation to 4th density STS. All they do is damp each other, thus making it less likely that any amplification will occur. The person who wishes to pursue the STS pathway with the intent of "graduating" has to give up any and all thoughts of experiencing love or kindness that is freely given. Yes, they can be in "love" relationships and can "act" kind. But, at this level, it is all PURE manipulation for the purpose of "owning" or subsuming to the self the energies of others. Yet, there ARE those to whom this path is attractive.

However, this is not clearly seen at the lower densities until the masks are stripped away. The deepest implications of this are hidden by many veils. And even the 4th and 5th density STS participants do not necessarily comprehend the ultimate dissolution at the end of their philosophies which is why there are so many sources at higher levels that are convinced that they are teaching Love and Light and Truth and Beauty, and why so many on 3rd density are deceived by these teachings. They believe because it "feels good," or because they "want to." And this belief that is sustained in the face of all empirical evidence to the contrary amounts to "Wishful Thinking." It is seeing what one WANTS to see, rather than what IS. Ultimate Wishful Thinking.

The deepest implication of "Wishful Thinking" means that those who adopt this view of reality cannot SEE that they do not become God by what amounts to assimilation and control of other selves; but that the real result is a gradual compaction and implosion and dissolution into primal matter and NON-being. The negative hierarchy is a pyramidal food chain; the apex of the pyramid is comprised of the most persistent of the negative graduates, the one who has stuck it out against every evidence of diminishment, and is the ultimate example of "wishful thinking."

And this is the most important point of all. It IS a "way home" because, at the eternal moment when those that return to the Light return, those that hold the idea of Nonbeing, or darkness ALSO return. In an eternally instantaneous unification/dispersement Act that Was, Is and always Will BE, the energies of Darkness and Light fall into their respective roles Eternally. When you realize that it is NEVER GOING TO END, that NEITHER PATH will take you to "Heaven" and "Eternal Bliss," or Oblivion or any of the illusions perpetrated upon mankind, it then becomes simply a matter of preference. And that preference is only an inclination. It literally has the weight of a feather.

And that, my friend, is the choice that I faced. The possibility of Service to Others in a realm composed of matter which is, by its nature, Service to Self, under the control of higher density beings who are oriented by to Service to Self. That's where we are. That is what IS in this realm.