Enochian Aliens? Agents of Cosmic COINTELPRO and The Stargate Conspiracy?

Lest anyone doubt that current day practitioners of so-called “Enochian Magick” or OTO rituals are Fascist Synarchists, these Excerpts from: The Dawn of Magic by Louis Pauwells & Jacques Bergier, 1st published in France under the title “Le Matin des Magiciens” 1960 by Editions Gallimard, Paris, translated from the French by Rollo Myers, Anthony Gibbs & Phillips. Ltd compared to the experiences of a modern day “Enochian Magicians” should prove the case. The same forces that were behind Adolf Hitler, are behind George Bush and the Neocons. Dubya claims that God speaks to him. Hitler made the same claim. Here we get a glimpse of exactly what that means.

Let no one deceive or beguile you in any way, for that day will not come except the apostasy comes first and the man of lawlessness is revealed, who is the son of doom… For the mystery of lawlessness is already at work in the world, restrained only until he who restrains is taken out of the way. And then the lawless one will be revealed and the Lord Jesus will slay him with the breath of his mouth and bring him to an end by His appearing at his coming.

The coming is through the activity and working of Satan, and will be attended by great power and with all sorts of miracles and signs and delusive marvels – lying wonders – and by unlimited seduction to evil and with all wicked deception for those who are perishing because they did not welcome the Truth but refused to love it that they might be saved.

Therefore, God sends upon them a misleading influence, a working of error and a strong delusion to make them believe what is false, in order that all may be judged and condemend who did not believe the Truth, but instead took pleasure in unrighteousness. [II Thessalonians, 3 – 12, excerpts, Amplified, Zondervan]

Adolf und die Ubermen von der Golden Dawn

In the history of Hitlerism, or rather in certain aspects of this history, everything happens as if the whole conception on which it was based has baffled the ordinary historian so that, if we want to understand, we shall have to abandon our positive way of looking at things and try to enter a Universe where Cartesian reason and reality are no longer valid.

We have been concerned to describe these aspects of Hitlerism because, as M. Marcel Ray pointed out in I939, the war that Hitler imposed on the world was a “Manichaean war,” or as the Bible says, “a struggle between gods.” It is not, of course, a question of a struggle between Fascism and Democracy, or between a liberal and an authoritarian conception of society. That is the exoteric side of the conflict; but there is an esoteric side as well. This struggle between gods, which has been going on behind visible events, is not yet over on this planet, but the formidable progress in human knowledge made in the last few years is about to give it another form. Now that the gates of knowledge are beginning to open on to the infinite, it is important to understand what this struggle is about. If we consciously want to be men of today, that is to say, the contemporaries of tomorrow, we must have an exact and clear picture of the moment when the fantastic first invaded the realm of reality. This is what we are now going to examine.

Magick Socialis

“At bottom,” said Rauschning, “every German has one foot in Atlantis, where he seeks a better Fatherland and a better patrimony. This double nature of the Germans, this faculty they have of splitting their personality which enables them to live in the real world and at the same time to project themselves into an imaginary world, is especially noticeable in Hitler and provides the key to his magic socialism.”

And Rauschning in an attempt to explain the rise to power of this “high priest of a secret religion,” tried to convince himself that several times in history “whole nations have fallen into a state of inexplicable agitation. They follow the flagellants’ procession, or are seized by St. Vitus’s Dance…. National-Socialism is the St. Vitus’s Dance of the twentieth century.”

But where does this strange malady come from? To this question he failed to find a satisfactory answer. “Its deepest roots are hidden in secret places.”

It is these secret places that we feel we ought to explore. And it is not a historian, but a poet who will be our guide.

P.J. Toulet and Arthur Machen

“Two men who have read Paul-Jean Toulet and who meet (probably in a bar) imagine that that means they belong to an aristocracy.” Toulet himself wrote that. It happens sometimes that important things are suspended on a pin’s head. It is thanks to a minor but charming writer, unknown despite the efforts of a few admirers, that I first heard the name of Arthur Machen, practically unknown in France.

After some study, we discovered that Machen’s works (there are some thirty volumes in all) are, from a “spiritual” point of view, more important than those of H.G. Wells.

Pursuing our researches on Machen, we discovered an English Society of Initiates with a very distinguished membership. This society, to which Machen was indebted for an experience that had a decisive influence on his inner development and which was a great source of inspiration, is unknown even to specialists. Finally, some of Machen’s writings, in particular the text we shall be quoting, throw into clear relief an uncommon notion of the nature of Evil, which is quite indispensable for an understanding of those aspects of contemporary history we are examining in this part of our book. Before entering into the heart of our subject we would therefore like to say a few words about this curious man, beginning with a little literary digression concerning a minor Parisian author, P.J. Toulet, and ending with a vision of a great subterranean gateway behind which lie, still smoking, the remains of the martyrs and the ruins of the Nazi tragedy which disrupted the whole world. The paths of “fantastic realism,” as we shall see once again, do not resemble the ordinary paths of knowledge.

A Great Neglected Genius

In November 1897 a friend, “somewhat given to the occult sciences,” brought to the notice of Paul-Jean Toulet a novel by an unknown thirty-four-year-old author entitled The Great God Pan. This book, which evokes a primitive pagan world, not entirely submerged but still cautiously surviving and occasionally releasing among us its God of Evil and his cloven- hoofed angels, made a profound impression on Toulet and started him on his literary career. He began translating The Great God Pan and, borrowing from Machen his nightmarish decor with the Great Pan lurking in the thickets of our countryside, wrote his first novel: Monsieur du Paur, homme public.

Monsieur du Paur was published towards the end of 1898, and met with no success. It is not an important work, and might never have been heard of had not M. Henri Martineau, a great Stendhalian and a friend of Toulet, taken it upon himself, twenty years later, to republish the book at his own expense in the Editions du Divan. M. Martineau was determined to show that Monsieur du Paur was inspired by Machen’s book, but was nevertheless an original work, so that it was through him that the attention of a few literary people was drawn to Arthur Machen and his Great God Pan and some correspondence between Toulet and Machen was brought to light.

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For Machen, as is apparent in all his works, “man is made of mystery and exists for mysteries and visions.” Reality is the supernatural. The external world can teach us little, unless we look upon it as a reservoir of symbols and hidden meanings. The only works which have some chance of being real and serving some useful. purpose are works of imagination produced by a mind in search of eternal verities. As the critic Philip van Doren Stern has pointed out: “The fantastic stories of Arthur Machen perhaps contain more essential truths than all the graphs and statistics in the world.”

It was a strange adventure that brought Machen back to literature. It made his name famous in a few weeks, and the shock this gave him decided him to devote the rest of his life to writing.

He found journalism irksome, and no longer wanted to write for his own satisfaction. War had just broken out. There was a demand for “heroic” literature. This was hardly his line. The Evening News, however, asked him for a story. He wrote it straight off, but in his own individual style, calling it The Bowmen. The newspaper published this story on 29th September, 1914, the day after the retreat from Mons. Machen had imagined an incident in this battle: St. George in shining armour, at the head of his angels in the guise of the old archers of the battle of Agincourt, comes to the rescue of the British Army.

The next thing that happened was that scores of soldiers wrote into the newspaper to say that this Mr. Machen had invented nothing. They had seen with their own eyes on the Mons front the angels of St. George mingling in their ranks. This they could swear to on their honour. Many of these letters were published. England, anxious for a miracle in her hour of peril, was profoundly stirred. Machen had been hurt when no notice was taken of him when he had tried to reveal the secrets of reality. Now, with a cheap kind of fantasy, he had aroused the whole country. Or could it be that hidden forces rose up, in one form or another, summoned by his imagination that had so often been concerned with essential truths and was now, perhaps unconsciously, at work deep down within him? Dozens of times Machen insisted in the Press that his story was pure invention. No one ever believed it. Right up to his death, thirty years later, Machen, now an old man, often reverted in conversation to this fantastic story of the Angels of Mons.

How We Discovered an English Secret Society

About the year 1880, in France, in England and in Germany some secret societies of Initiates and members of hermetic orders were founded to which a number of very influential people belonged. The story of this mystical post-romantic crisis has not yet been written. It deserves to be, as it might throw light upon the origin of several important trends of thought which have determined certain political tendencies.

In two letters written by Arthur Machen to Toulet we find the following remarkable passages. In the first, written in 1899, he says: “When I was writing Pan and The White Powder I did not believe that such strange things had ever happened in real life, or could ever have happened. Since then, and quite recently, I have had certain experiences in my own life which have entirely changed my point of view in these matters….Henceforward I am quite convinced that nothing is impossible on this Earth. I need scarcely add, I suppose, that none of the experiences I have had has any connection whatever with such impostures as spiritualism or theosophy. But I believe that we are living in a world of the greatest mystery full of unsuspected and quite astonishing things.”

In 1900 he wrote as follows: “It may amuse you to know that I sent a copy of my Great God Pan to an adept, an advanced ‘occultist’ whom I met in secret, and this is what he wrote me: ‘The book amply proves that by thought and meditation rather than through reading, you have attained a certain degree of initiation independently of orders or organizations.'”

Who was this “adept?” And what were Machen’s “experiences?”

In another letter, after Toulet had been to London, he wrote: “Mr. Waite, who likes you very much, asks me to send you his best regards.”

We were interested to learn the name of this friend of Machen and to discover that he was one of the best authorities on alchemy and a Rosicrucian specialist.

We had reached this point in our researches into the intellectual interests of Arthur Machen, when a friend revealed to us the existence in England, at the end of the nineteenth and beginning of the twentieth century, of a secret “initiatory” society of Rosicrucian inspiration. [See Nos. 2 and 3 of the review La Tour Saint-Jacques, 1956: ‘L’ordre hermetique de la Golden Dawn‘ by Pierre Victor.]

The Golden Dawn

This society was called the Golden Dawn, and its members included some of the most brilliant minds in the country. Arthur Machen was himself a member.

The Golden Dawn, founded in 1887, was an offshoot of the English Rosicrucian Society created twenty years earlier by Robert Wentworth Little, and consisted largely of leading Freemasons. The latter society had about 144 members, including Bulwer Lytton, author of The Last Days of Pompeii.

The Golden Dawn, with a smaller membership, was formed for the practice of ceremonial magic and the acquisition of initiatory knowledge and powers. Its leaders were Woodman, Mathers and Wynn Westcott (the “occultist” mentioned by Toulet in his letter of 1900).

It was in contact with similar German societies, some of whose members were later associated with Rudolf Steiner’s famous anthroposophical movement and other influential sects during the pre-Nazi period. Later on it came under the leadership of Aleister Crowley, an altogether extraordinary man who was certainly one of the greatest exponents of the neo-paganism whose development in Germany we have noted.

S.L. Mathers, after the death of Woodman and the resignation of Westcott, was the Grand Master of the Golden Dawn, which he directed for some time from Paris, where he had just married Henri Bergson’s daughter.

A Nobel-Prize Winner in a Black Mask

Mathers was succeeded in his office by the celebrated poet W.B. Yeats, who was later to become a Nobel Prize-winner.

Yeats took the name of “Frere Demon est Deus Inversus.” He used to preside over the meetings dressed in a kilt, wearing a black mask and a golden dagger in his belt.

Arthur Machen took the name of “Filus Aquarti.” The Golden Dawn had one woman member [no mention of Fraulien Sprengel…? -B:.B:.]: Florence Farr, Director of the Abbey Theatre and an intimate friend of Bernard Shaw. Other members included: Algernon Blackwood, Bram Stoker (the author of Dracula), Sax Rohmer, Peck, the Astronomer Royal of Scotland, the celebrated engineer Allan Bennett, and Sir Gerald Kelly, President of the Royal Academy. It seems that on these exceptional people the Golden Dawn exercised a lasting influence, and they themselves admitted that their outlook on the world was changed, while the activities they indulged in never failed to prove both efficacious and uplifting.

A Hollow Earth, A Frozen World, A New Man

The Earth is hollow. We are living inside it. The stars are blocks of ice. Several Moons have already fallen on the Earth. The whole history of humanity is contained in the struggle between ice and fire.

Man is not finished. He is on the brink of a formidable mutation [“alien hybridisation” -B:.B:.] which will confer on him the powers the ancients attributed to the gods. A few specimens of the New Man exist in the world, who have perhaps come here from beyond the frontiers of time and space.

Alliances could be formed with the Master of the World or the King of Fear who reigns over a city hidden somewhere in the East. Those who conclude a pact will change the surface of the Earth and endow the human adventure with a new meaning for many thousands of years.

Such are the “scientific” theories and “religious” conceptions on which Nazism was originally based and in which Hitler and the members of his group believed — theories which, to a large extent, have dominated social and political trends in recent history. This may seem extravagant. Any explanation, even partial, of contemporary history based on ideas and beliefs of this kind may seem repugnant. In our view, nothing is repugnant that is in the interests of the truth.

Against Nature and Against God

It is well known that the Nazi party was openly, and even flamboyantly anti-intellectual; that it burnt books and relegated the theoretical physicists among its “Judaeo-Marxist” enemies. Less is known about the reasons which led it to reject official Western science, and still less with regard to the basic conception of the nature of man on which Nazism was founded — at any rate in the minds of some of its leaders. If we knew this it would be easier to place the last World War within the category of great spiritual conflicts: history animated once again by the spirit of La Legende des Siecles.

Hitler used to say: “We are often abused for being the enemies of the mind and spirit. Well, that is what we are, but in a far deeper sense than bourgeois science, in its idiotic pride, could ever imagine.” […]

Dr. Willy Ley, one of the world’s greatest rocket experts, fled from Germany in 1933. It was from him that we learned of the existence in Berlin shortly before the Nazis came to power, of a little spiritual community that is of great interest to us.

Haushofer and the Vril

This secret community was founded, literally, on Bulwer Lytton’s novel The Coming Race. The book describes a race of men psychically far in advance of ours. They have acquired powers over themselves and over things that make them almost godlike. For the moment they are in hiding. They live in caves in the centre of the Earth. Soon they will emerge to reign over us.

This appears to be as much as Dr. Ley could tell us. He added with a smile that the disciples believed they had secret knowledge that would enable them to change their race and become the equals of the men hidden in the bowels of the Earth. Methods of concentration, a whole system of internal gymnastics by which they would be transformed. They began their exercises by staring fixedly at an apple cut in half…. We continued our researches.

This Berlin group called itself The Luminous Lodge, or The Vril Society. The vril [the notion of the ‘vril’ is mentioned for the first time in the works of the French writer Jacolliot, French Consul in Calcutta under the Second Empire. ] is the enormous energy of which we only use a minute proportion in our daily life, the nerve-centre of our potential divinity. Whoever becomes master of the vril will be the master of himself, of others round him and of the world.

This should be the only object of our desires, and all our efforts should be directed to that end. All the rest belongs to official psychology, morality, and religions and is worthless.

The world will change: the Lords will emerge from the centre of the Earth. Unless we have made an alliance with them and become Lords ourselves, we shall find ourselves among the slaves, on the dung-heap that will nourish the roots of the New Cities that will arise.

The Luminous Lodge had associations with the theosophical and Rosicrucian groups. According to Jack Fishman, author of a curious book entitled The Seven Men of Spandau, Karl Haushofer was a member of this lodge. We shall have more to say about him later, when it will be seen that his association with this Vril Society helps to explain certain things.

The Idea of the Mutation of Man

The reader will recall that the writer, Arthur Machen, we discovered was connected with an English society of Initiates, the Golden Dawn. This neo-pagan society, which had a distinguished membership, was an offshoot of the English Rosicrucian Society, founded by Wentworth Little in 1867. Little was in contact with the German Rosicrucians. He recruited his followers, to the number of 144, from the ranks of the higher-ranking Freemasons. One of his disciples was Bulwer Lytton.

Bulwer Lytton, a learned man of genius, celebrated throughout the world for his novel The Last Days of Pompeii, little thought that one of his books, in some ten years’ time, would inspire a mystical pre-Nazi group in Germany. Yet in works like The Coming Race or Zanoni, he set out to emphasize the realities of the spiritual world, and more especially, the infernal world. He considered himself an Initiate. Through his romantic works of fiction he expressed the conviction that there are beings endowed with superhuman powers. These beings will supplant us and bring about a formidable mutation in the elect of the human race.

We must beware of this notion of a mutation. It crops up again with Hitler, and is not yet extinct today.

Hitler’s aim was neither the founding of a race of supermen, nor the conquest of the world; these were only means towards the realization of the great work he dreamed of. His real aim was to perform an act of creation, a divine operation, the goal of a biological mutation which would result in an unprecedented exaltation of the human race and the “apparition of a new race of heroes and demigods and god-men.” (Dr. Achille Delmas.) [perhaps these same neo-Nephilim Nazi “ubermen” are today clothed in the time and culture-appropriate sci-fi regalia of “alien”/human “hybrids” a la Whit Strieber, Harvard’s Dr. John Mack, and a veritable cornucopia of other associated — often Rockefeller-financed — socio-cultural metaprogrammers. -B:.B:.]

We must also beware of the notion of the “Unknown Supermen.” It is found in all the “black” mystical writings both in the West and in the East. Whether they live under the Earth or came from other planets, whether in the form of giants like those which are said to lie encased in cloth of gold in the crypts of Thibetan monasteries, or of shapeless and terrifying beings such as Lovecraft describes, do these “Unknown Supermen,” evoked in pagan and Satanic rites, actually exist? When Machen speaks of the World of Evil, “full of caverns and crepuscular beings dwelling therein,” he is referring, as an adept of the Golden Dawn, to that other world in which man comes into contact with the “Unknown Supermen.” It seems certain that Hitler shared this belief, and even claimed to have been in touch with these “Supermen.”

G.’. D.’. Mathers Meets the “Great Terrorists”

We have already mentioned the Golden Dawn and the German Vril Society. We shall have something to say later about the Thule Group. We are not so foolish as to try to explain history in the light of secret societies. What we shall see, curiously enough, is that it all “ties up,” and that with the coming of Nazism it was the “other world” which ruled over us for a number of years. That world has been defeated, but it is not dead, either on the Rhine or elsewhere. And there is nothing alarming about it: only our ignorance is alarming. [Indeed, those who forget history, etc. -B:.B:.]

We pointed out that Samuel Mathers was the founder of the Golden Dawn. Mathers claimed to be in communication with these “Unknown Supermen” and to have established contact with them in the company of his wife, the sister of Henri Bergson. Here follows a page of the manifesto addressed to “Members of the Second Order” in 1896:

“As to the Secret Chiefs with whom I am in touch and from whom I havereceived the wisdom of the Second Order which I communicated to you, I can tell you nothing. I do not even know their Earthly names, and I have very seldom seen them in their physical bodies….They used to meet me physically at a time and place fixed in advance. For my part, I believe they are human beings living on this Earth, but possessed of terrible and superhuman powers… My physical encounters with them have shown me how difficult it is for a mortal, however “advanced,” to support their presence…. I do not mean that during my rare meetings with them I experienced the same feeling of intense physical depression that accompanies the loss of magnetism. On the contrary, I felt I was in contact with a force so terrible that I can only compare it to the shock one would receive from being near a flash of lightning during a great thunder-storm, experiencing at the same time great difficulty in breathing…. The nervous prostration I spoke of was accompanied by cold sweats and bleeding from the nose, mouth and sometimes the ears.”

Hitler Claims to Have Met Them Too

Hitler was talking one day to Rauschning, the Governor of Danzig, about the problem of a mutation of the human race. Rauschning, not possessing the key to such strange preoccupations, interpreted Hitler’s remarks in terms of a stock-breeder interested in the amelioration of German blood.

“But all you can do,” he replied, “is to assist Nature and shorten the road to be followed! It is Nature herself who must create for you a new species. Up till now the breeder has only rarely succeeded in developing mutations in animals — that is to say, creating himself new characteristics.”

“The new man is living amongst us now! He is here!” exclaimed Hitler, triumphantly. “Isn’t that enough for you? I will tell you a secret. I have seen the new man. He is intrepid and cruel. I was afraid of him.”

“In uttering these words,” added Rauschning, “Hitler was trembling in a kind of ecstasy.”

It was Rauschning, too, who related the following strange episode, about which Dr. Achille Delmas, a specialist in applied psychology, questioned him in vain: It is true that in a case like this psychology does not apply:

“A person close to Hitler told me that he wakes up in the night screaming and in convulsions. He calls for help, and appears to be half paralysed. He is seized with a panic that makes him tremble until the bed shakes. He utters confused and unintelligible sounds, gasping, as if on the point of suffocation. The same person described to me one of these fits, with details that I would refuse to believe had I not complete confidence in my informant.

“Hitler was standing up in his room, swaying and looking all round him as if he were lost. ‘It’s he, it’s he,’ he groaned, ‘he’s come for me!’ His lips were white; he was sweating profusely. Suddenly he uttered a string of meaningless figures, then words and scraps of sentences. It was terrifying. He used strange expressions strung together in bizarre disorder. Then he relapsed again into silence, but his lips still continued to move. He was then given a friction and something to drink. Then suddenly he screamed: ‘There! there! Over in the corner! He is there!’ — all the time stamping with his feet and shouting. To quieten him he was assured that nothing extraordinary had happened, and finally he gradually calmed down. After that he slept for a long time and became normal again…” [Hermann Rauschning: Hitler m’a dit. Ed. Cooperation, Paris, 1939. Dr. Achille Delmas: Hitler, essai de biographie psychopathologique. Lib. Marcel Rivimere, Paris, 1946.]

We leave it to the reader to compare the statement of Mathers, head of a small neo-pagan society at the end of the nineteenth century, and the utterances of a man who, at the time Rauschning recorded them, was preparing to launch the world into an adventure which caused the death of sixty million human beings. We beg him not to ignore this comparison and the lesson to be drawn from it on the grounds that the Golden Dawn and Nazism, in the eyes of a “reasonable” historian, have nothing in common. The historian may be reasonable, but history is not. These two men shared the same beliefs: their fundamental experiences were the same, and they were guided by the same force. They belong to the same trend of thought and to the same religion. This religion has never up to now been seriously studied. Neither the Church nor the Rationalists — that other Church — have ever allowed it. We are now entering an epoch in the history of knowledge when such studies will become possible because now that reality is revealing its fantastic side, ideas and techniques which seem abnormal, contemptible or repellent will be found useful in so far as they enable us to understand a “reality” that becomes more and more disquieting.

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The Golden Dawn is not enough to explain the Thule Group, or the Luminous Lodge, the Ahnenherbe. Naturally there are cross- currents and secret or apparent links between the various groups, which we shall not fail to point out. Like all “little” history, that is an absorbing pastime. But our concern is with “big” history.

We believe that these societies, great or small, related or unrelated, with or without ramifications, are manifestations, more or less apparent and more or less important, of a world other than the one in which we live. Let us call it the world of Evil, in Machen’s sense of the word. The truth is, we know just as little about the world of Good. We are living between two worlds, and pretending that this “no-man’s-land” is identical with our whole planet. The rise of Nazism was one of those rare moments in the history of our civilization, when a door was noisily and ostentatiously opened on to something “Other.” What is strange is that people pretend not to have seen or heard anything apart from the sights and sounds inseparable from war and political strife.

All these movements: the modern Rosy-Cross, Golden Dawn, the German Vril Society (which will bring us to the Thule Group where we shall find Haushofer, Hess and Hitler) were more or less closely associated with the powerful and well organized Theosophical Society. Theosophy added to neo-pagan magic an oriental setting and a Hindu terminology. Or, rather, it provided a link between a certain oriental Satanism and the West.

Theosophy was the name finally given to the whole vast renaissance in the world of magic that affected many thinkers so profoundly at the beginning of the century.

In his study Le Thiosophisme, histoire d’une pseudo-religion, published in 1921, the philosopher Rene Guenon foresaw what was likely to occur. He realized the dangers lurking behind theosophy and the neo-pagan Initiatory groups that were more or less connected with Mme Blavatsky and her sect.

This is what he wrote:

“The false Messiahs we have seen so far have only performed very inferior miracles, and their disciples were probably not very difficult to convert. But who knows what the future has in store? When you reflect that these false Messiahs have never been anything but the more or less unconscious tools of those who conjured them up, and when one thinks more particularly of the series of attempts made in succession by the theosophists, one is forced to the conclusion that these were only trials, experiments as it were, which will be renewed in various forms until success is achieved, and which in the meantime invariably produce a somewhat disquieting effect. Not that we believe that the theosophists, any more than the occultists and the spiritualists, are strong enough by themselves to carry out successfully an enterprise of this nature. But might there not be, behind all these movements, something far more dangerous which their leaders perhaps know nothing about, being themselves in turn the unconscious tools of a higher power?”

Laura’s note: I found the descriptions of Hitler’s and MacGregor Mathers’ interactions with the “gods” to be strikingly similar to another account [By Vincent Bridges. In case the link does not work, see Vincent Bridges AKA “Dr. Strange”: New Age Grifter or COINTELPRO?]

“Before our trip to Egypt, Darlene and I had both studied and prepared ourselves to do serious magick in the temples. We were on a quest, a serious attempt to create a Zodiacal Earth Temple back in North Carolina that required us to charge crystals and do other magickal procedures. Unfortunately, we were also in a large group of new age type spiritual consumers.

“The group’s leader chose to be threatened by our project, and we found ourselves in the postion of asking for divine guidance. Should we go along with the group vibe, or should we move out on our own and do the work? This was extremely important to us. We needed to know.

“At Edfu, where the friction between the leader and ourselves had boiled over, we made contact with a Sufi group. At Luxor, we were met with open arms by the local Sufis. This helped us to strike out on our own. At Karnak we were led through a series of chambers and structures, including a small Osiris chapel out near the eastern wall. We had no idea or plan, we simply followed their guidance and charged our crystals and did our work at the places they showed us. I knew of the Ptah temple on the north wall and its Sekhmet statue, and planned to stop there for guidance. I didn’t know that our guides had the same idea. I insisted on following the path shown in the guide book, instead of following the directions of our guide, and so we found them waiting for us.

“It was early in the morning, we had been there at dawn, and the Sufi was waiting on us to open the site for the day. He unlocked the temple, then closed the door behind us. We groped forward in the complete blackness until we turned a corner and saw the statue floating in a shaft of light coming from a small hole about ten feet over Her head. The Sufi showed us how to make our prostrations before the Goddess, then left us alone.

“We did the prostrations and asked the Goddess what to do about our situation. As we finished, I looked up directly at the statue and was shocked to see Her eyes. My first thought was, ‘Wow, what an incredible use of faience, I’ve never seen anything like that!’

“As I looked more closely, I saw that this could not possibly be a trick of the light on jewels or enamel. These were eyes; the irises were a deep green like new foliage and the pupil bent back at the top like a fan. The Goddess was there, in that statue, and She was looking at me. It was a shock. Except I couldn’t move. I was pinned like a small animal in the headlights of an oncoming truck. We are small, so very small, and the Gods are vast, vast beyond our comprehension.

“We received our answer, and as we finished our little ritual, the Sufi came back and showed us how to make a direct contact with the energy of the statue. I found myself clinging to the Goddess, crying my heart out. A very heavy initiatory experience, indeed.”