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The Wave: Chapter 32 Torah, Kaballah, And When I Dream…

I realize that some readers of these pages may wonder exactly where I am heading with this discussion, particularly that which constitutes the previous section. I only ask that you be patient and not skip any of the material because it is important to further events and revelations. What I am trying to give you is a context of what was in my mind and my environment as the “clues” were given. This environment determined not only what questions I asked the Cs, but also how I followed the hints that were given to me in their answers. Every set of questions I asked the Cassiopaeans depended on the context of what I had discovered in the time between sessions. It seems to be important, also, to keep always in mind the following:

Q: (L) How come I am always the one who gets assigned the job of figuring everything out?

A: Because you have asked for the “power” to figure out the most important issues in all of reality. And, we have been assisting you in your empowerment.

It is true that my whole life has been one long question mark and I have pursued my quest relentlessly, often at great cost to myself. Once, when a guest asked if he could just contact the Cassiopaeans himself they remarked:

Q: (BRH) Is there any way I can contact you guys directly?

A: Well, B___, only if you present yourself into the presence of these third densities here. Remember, their request was hard-earned, and one of them has been channeling throughout this incarnation, much to his detriment. Those neighborhood kids usually do not respond favorably to psychic awareness, now do they? Another one here has literally turned the world upside down in search of the greatest truths for all of humanity, much to her potential peril. And the third one here had to endure almost unimaginable hardships and tests of stamina in order to realize his destined path of bringing your third density realm to the brink of fourth density transitional adjustment. So, the path is open to you. Wanna follow?!?

So, please realize that I am working as hard as I can to enable anyone and everyone who so desires to unlock the truths they have within – and to do it perhaps a little less traumatically than I did it myself!

I can take you, the reader, along with me to a great extent, reproducing for you in these words I am writing not only the events, but the thinking processes that I followed and the discoveries that I made; but it is up to you to have the perseverance and will to accompany me, and, perhaps, to go beyond.

Yes, some parts seem to be boring or less interesting from one perspective or another; but if it were not important, and even crucially so, it would not be included here. I am excluding a lot of the “false trails” I followed and red herrings I found unless they have some bearing on what turned out to be the “right” path.

It should be said that what was the “right path” for me may not be the same for everyone. So each of you is responsible for doing your own additional work and research. If what I have done makes it go faster and easier and eliminates some of the wasted time of pursuing disinformation and futile thinking, it is worth my effort.

At this point, I am going to try to finish filling in the “mental picture” that was in my mind at a most crucial point in the Quest so that I can then begin to move forward through the sessions from 1996 onward in a more or less chronological fashion. When I finish these next few pages, the reader will have all the clues that I had as well as the context in which they were given.

As I have already noted, the presence at two sessions of the young woman (RC), who was convinced that she had been connected to me in some way in a previous life in Nazi Germany, really seemed to shift the direction of the Cassiopaean communications. In retrospect, it was also the opening of a door and the initiating of a new path in my life. After the first session she attended, I had the dream of the happy wedding where I was taken to meet the faceless bridegroom, and after the second session she attended, I had the actual hallucinatory vision of the unknown-yet-familiar-face – my future husband, Ark. RC was also the one who accelerated the project of producing a magazine as an organ for the Cassiopaean material. I had envisioned something that would be more serious and yet open-minded than the usual metaphysical or UFO publications, and a journal seemed to just fit the bill. She had been producing a magazine for a few years and wanted to give it up because she had plans to relocate, and at the same time, she didn’t want to leave her subscribers hanging. It seemed to be a perfect solution for me to take over the subscription list and carry on the work.

RC’s focus had been more astrological, though she included many articles about alien abduction and conspiracy theories, so the slight reorientation I planned didn’t seem like too great a divergence from the original format. I didn’t care for the name of the rag, but that was a minor point that could be rectified. Everything looked like it was a go and we felt that this was the key to networking in a big way.

It was also at this point – as I have already mentioned – that I began to read the entire series of Matrix books. As I was digging through this mountain of material, I kept my eye open for the possibilities of Masonic connections because everyone was very hot on the Masonic conspiracy idea. It had been connected to the Priory of Sion by virtue of the Templars, in a very interesting book entitled The Temple and the Lodge, by Michael Baigent and Richard Leigh. It was proposed that the Templars had gone to ground in Scotland and England and reappeared later as the Masons. There was also that pesky number 33 that kept cropping up all over the place.

The more I looked into the number business, the more confusing it became. Anyone who seeks to do research into conspiracy theories – who is serious and honest and fair – will eventually conclude, as Dr. Robert A. Morey (who was, by the way, an anti-Masonic researcher) wrote:

Anti-Masonic writers have generally been as unreliable as Masonic apologists. In their zeal to attack Freemasonry, they have been willing to use fantasy, fraud, and deceit. They have even created bogus documents when needed. Their writings must not be taken at face value.

Naturally, when one is considering the secret significance of numbers, Pythagorean mathematics will be among the earliest considerations.

The true key to philosophic mathematics is the famous Forty-seventh Proposition of Pythagoras, erroneously attributed to Euclid. The Forty-seventh Theorem is stated thus: In a right-angled triangle the square described on the hypotenuse is equal to the sum of the squares described on the other two sides. (Grover 2005, 2)

Everyone who has attended public school and paid the slightest attention in math class knows that one. The problem is: what does it really mean that this is the “true key to philosophic mathematics?” What does C2=A2+B2 have to tell us?

Accounts of the travels and studies of Pythagoras differ, but most historians agree that he visited many countries and studied at the feet of many masters. Supposedly, after having been initiated into the Eleusinian mysteries, he went to Egypt and was initiated into the Mysteries of Isis. He then traveled to Phoenicia and Syria and was initiated into the Mysteries of Adonis.1 After that, he traveled to the valley of the Euphrates and learned all the secrets of the Chaldeans still living in the area of Babylon. Finally, he traveled to Media and Persia, then to India where he was a pupil and initiate of the Brahmins there. Sounds like he had all the bases covered.

Pythagoras was said to have invented the term “philosopher” in preference to the word “sage” since the former meant one who is attempting to find the truth, and the latter means one who knows the truth. Apparently Pythagoras didn’t think he had the whole banana.

Pythagoras started a school at Crotona in Southern Italy and gathered students and disciples there whom he supposedly instructed in the principles of the secrets that had been revealed to him. He considered mathematics, music and astronomy to be the foundation of all the arts and sciences. When he was about sixty years old, he married one of his disciples and had seven children. I guess he was a pretty lively senior citizen! His wife was, apparently, quite a woman in her own right and she carried on his work after he was assassinated by a band of murderers incited to violence by a student whom he refused to initiate.2 The accounts of Pythagoras’ murder vary. Some say he and all his disciples were killed, others say that he may have escaped because some of his students protected him by sacrificing themselves and that he later died of a broken heart when he realized the apparent fruitlessness of his efforts to illuminate humanity.

The experts say that very little remains of the teachings of Pythagoras in the present time unless it has been handed down in secret schools or societies. And, naturally, every secret society on the planet claims to have this initiated knowledge to one extent or another. It is possible that there exist some of the original secret numerical formulas of Pythagoras, but the sad fact is that there is no real evidence of it in the writings that have issued from these groups for the past millennium. Though everyone discusses Pythagoras, no one seems to know any more than the post-Pythagorean Greek speculators who “talked much, wrote little, knew less, and concealed their ignorance under a series of mysterious hints and promises.” There seems to be a lot of that going around these days! Even Plutarch did not pretend to be able to explain the significance of the geometrical diagrams of Pythagoras. However, he did make the most interesting suggestion that the relationship that Pythagoras established between the geometrical solids and the gods was the result of images seen in the Egyptian temples. The questions we would ask are: what do geometrical solids have to do with “gods?” and “which Egypt?”3

Albert Pike, the great Masonic symbolist, also admitted that there were many things that he couldn’t figure out. Hall quotes his Symbolism, for the 32nd and 33rd degrees, where he wrote:

I do not understand why the 7 should be called Minerva, or the cube, Neptune. … Undoubtedly the names given by the Pythagoreans to the different numbers were themselves enigmatic and symbolic – and there is little doubt that in the time of Plutarch the meanings these names concealed were lost. Pythagoras had succeeded too well in concealing his symbols with a veil that was from the first impenetrable, without his oral explanation. …

This uncertainty shared by all true students of the subject proves conclusively that it is unwise to make definite statements founded on the indefinite and fragmentary information available concerning the Pythagorean system of mathematical philosophy. (Hall 2003, 207, 208)

But, of course, in the present time, there is a whole raft of folks who don’t let such remarks stop them. Any number of modern gurus claims to have discovered the secrets of “Sacred Geometry.” Not only that, they don’t seem to have even studied the matter deeply at all, missing many of the salient points that are evident in the fragments of Pythagorean teachings. Regarding this, there is a passage in Foucault’s Pendulum, by Umberto Eco, that explicates the problem:

Amid all the nonsense there are some unimpeachable truths … I invite you to go and measure [an arbitrarily selected, but specific] kiosk. You will see that the length of the counter is one hundred and forty-nine centimeters – in other words, one hundred-billionth of the distance between the earth and the sun. The height at the rear, one hundred and seventy-six centimeters, divided by the width of the window, fifty-six centimeters, is 3.14. The height at the front is nineteen decimeters, equal, in other words, to the number of years of the Greek lunar cycle. The sum of the heights of the two front corners is one hundred and ninety times two plus one hundred and seventy-six times two, which equals seven hundred and thirty-two, the date of the victory at Poitiers. The thickness of the counter is 3.10 centimeters, and the width of the cornice of the window is 8.8 centimeters. Replacing the numbers before the decimals by the corresponding letters of the alphabet, we obtain C for ten and H for eight, or C10H8, which is the formula for naphthalene. …With numbers you can do anything you like. Suppose I have the sacred number 9 and I want to get the number 1314, date of the execution of Jacques de Molay – a date dear to anyone who professes devotion to the Templar tradition of knighthood.

Multiply nine by one hundred and forty-six, the fateful day of the destruction of Carthage. How did I arrive at this? I divided thirteen hundred and fourteen by two, by three, et cetera, until I found a satisfying date. I could also have divided thirteen hundred and fourteen by 6.28, the double of 3.14, and I would have got two hundred and nine. That is the year Attalus I, king of Pergamon, ascended the throne. You see? … The universe is a great symphony of numerical correspondences numbers and their symbolisms provide a path to special knowledge. But if the world, below and above, is a system of correspondences where tout se tient, it’s natural for the [lottery] kiosk and the pyramid, both works of man, to reproduce in their structure, unconsciously, the harmonies of the cosmos. [emphasis added] (Eco 1988, 288–289)

The idea has been promoted with great vigor for over a thousand years that so-called Kabbalists and interpreters of mysteries can discover with their incredibly tortuous methods the Truth, completely misses the point of a truth that is far more ancient: Mathematics is the language of Nature. The Pythagoreans declared arithmetic to be the mother of the mathematical sciences. This idea was based on the fact that geometry, music, and astronomy are dependent upon arithmetic, but arithmetic is not dependent upon them. In this sense, geometry may be removed but arithmetic will remain; but if arithmetic were removed, geometry would be eliminated. In the same way, music depends on arithmetic. Eliminating music affects arithmetic only by limiting one of its expressions.

The size, form, and motion of the celestial bodies are determined by the use of geometry and their harmony and rhythm by the use of music. If astronomy is taken away, neither geometry nor music is harmed; but if geometry and music are done away with, astronomy is destroyed. The priority of both geometry and music to astronomy is therefore established and arithmetic is prior to all of them, being primary and fundamental. Playing endless games with numbers demonstrates only that which cannot be otherwise. The real secret seems to be much more profound and most, if not nearly all, seekers of truth never penetrate beyond the surface of the matter.

So, I could see that there was a lot of nonsense being propagated in the present day, mostly by people who had not bothered to study the history of metaphysical and occult matters. But, even with such an opinion in my mind, I could not help but notice the repeated occurrences of the number 33 in not only mystical literature, but also in world events of great import. Or, so it seemed. I wonder if all the many events of significance were catalogued, would we find a preponderance of these so-called mystical numbers, or would we find a spread of numbers that indicate no statistical significance? Just because some events occurred on the 33rd parallel, did that signify it was a Masonic conspiracy? How many other events of similar significance have occurred at places and times that have no “occult” significance at all? But, of course, those that do, possibly by virtue of pure chance, get all the attention while everything else is ignored.

On the other hand, the idea was growing in my mind that such synchronicities or appearances of certain numbers and characteristics of events, were a sort of clue that the veil between dimensions and densities had been breached, either accidentally or deliberately. But who or what was doing it was still an issue.

Clearly, the number 33 was being used by some occultists at various points to signify something, even if it was supposedly initiated by Bacon with his “33 cipher.” So, the only right thing to do, I thought, was to ask the Cassiopaeans about this. It seemed to be a well-established clue that was very popular and certainly did appear to be behind or related to a lot of mysterious events.

An even deeper question seemed to me to be: If the number 33 was a code indicating both the presence and action of the Secret Masters, just why was this number the one selected? If mathematics is the Language of Nature, just what was Nature saying? With the new complexity of the picture, it was pretty clear to me that all of the old explanations just were not going to hold up to scrutiny. I wanted to ask, with no prejudice or anticipation about the answer, just what did this number 33 really mean? I was interested in getting to the Pythagorean level of secrets. So, let’s look at the session:

Q: (L) Now, the main thing I wanted to ask about is the references I come across in tons of reading, that the number thirty-three is somehow significant. Could you tell us the significance, in esoteric terms, or in terms of secret societies, of the number thirty-three? There is the cipher of Roger Bacon, based on the number thirty-three, the thirty-third degree masons …

A: As usual, we do not just give you the answers; we help you to teach yourself!! Now, take 11 and contemplate …

Here we see that the Cassiopaeans have immediately diverted my attention to the number 11, which is a divisor of 33. (311=33; 3311=3; 333=11)

Q: (L) Well, three times eleven is thirty-three.

A: Yes, but what about 11?

Again, they are diverting me to the number 11. And you are about to see how totally dense I can be!

Q: (L) Well, eleven is supposed to be one of the prime, or divine power numbers. In Kaballah, 11 is the power number …

A: Yes …

Q: (L) Eleven is ten plus one; it is divisible only by itself and by one. I can’t think of anything else. What else is there to the number eleven?

A: Astrology.

And here, even though I didn’t know it at the time, was one of the chief clues they were dropping in my lap – a clue pointing towards an eleven-house astrological system. My first thought was, of course, the eleventh house of astrology: Aquarius, which happens to be my own sun sign.

Q: (L) Well, in astrology, the eleventh sign is Aquarius. The eleventh house is friends, hopes, dreams and wishes, and also adopted children. Aquarius the Water-bearer, the dispenser of knowledge. Does eleven have something to do with dispensing of knowledge?

A: Now, third house.

Note that they didn’t answer my question directly, but redirected my thinking to the third house so that we have the two elements that make up 33, i.e. 113. The idea of the “gods” of the signs, i.e. Mercury and Saturn (Uranus was a later addition after Pythagoras), did not occur to me.

Q: (L) Gemini. OK. Gemini and Aquarius. Third house is how the mind works, communication, relations with neighbors and siblings, education, local travel, how one speaks. Gemini is known as the “consummate man.” Somewhat shallow and interested in the things of material life. It is also the divine number of creation. [I should add here that originally Gemini was the “Divine children,” Adam and Eve, and only later became the twins.] So, what’s the connection here?

A: Matrix.

Q: (L) Is there something about this of importance in the Matrix material?

A: No.

Q: (L) This is a matrix. The third house and the eleventh house create a matrix?

A: Foundation.

Q: (L) Gemini is in June, Aquarius is in February. Gemini is the physical man, and Aquarius is the spiritual man?

A: Yin Yang.

Well, in retrospect, I was completely missing the obvious. The third house and the eleventh house create a foundation. And we note that, from the Cassiopaean point of view, Aquarius precedes Gemini in the elements given:

Q: (L) So Gemini is the physical man and Aquarius is the spiritual man … Yin Yang … is that the …

A: Yes …

And, of course when the Cassiopaeans indicate three dots in a row, they want me to go deeper. But, at the time, I really didn’t know how or where they could possibly be going with this.

Q: (L) So thirty-three could represent the transformation of the physical man to the divine man through the action of secret or hidden teachings … and those who have gone through this process represent themselves with the number thirty-three, which means that they started out oriented to the flesh and then became …

A: Medusa 11.

Again, in retrospect, the Cassiopaeans are interrupting my flow of assumptions with a new term.

Q: (L) “Medusa 11?” What does Medusa have to do with it? Please tell me how Medusa relates here?

A: Heads.

Q: (L) Heads. Medusa. Eleven. Were there eleven snakes on the head of Medusa or eleven heads? This is really obscure … you need to help me out here.

A: We are.

Q: (L) Do I need to read the Medusa legend to understand?

A: No.

Q: (L) Medusa. Heads. Eleven. Is there something about the mythical Medusa that we need to see here?

A: 11 squared divided by [or into?] Phi.

At this point in time, I am ashamed to admit that I had never heard of the term “Phi” (even if I did know about the common term Golden Ratio), and I assumed that the Cs had made a mistake and that they really meant to say “pi” which even I, the math idiot, had heard of! So, I framed the next question in terms of my assumption.

Q: (L) By pi. Eleven squared divided by pi. What does this result bring us to?

A: 33. Infinity.

Q: (L) Well, we don’t get thirty-three out of this … we get 3.3166 et cetera. If we divide the square root of eleven by pi. Divided by Phi … what in the heck is Phi? OK, if we divide pi into eleven, we get 3.5 infinity, but not thirty-three.

I had a calculator!

A: 1 [pause] 1

Q: (L) Oh. You weren’t saying eleven times eleven; you were saying one times one.

A: No.

And, even though they said “no” to my question, I continued on in my assumptions.

Q: (L) One times one is what? One.

I think the fact that I was just plowing along and ignoring everything the Cassiopaeans were saying must have caused some consternation. They changed tactics.

A: 5 minus 3.

Q: (L) OK, that’s two.

A: 2 minus 1.

Q: (L) I don’t get it. A math genius I am not. What is the concept here?

A: Look: 353535. Is code.

Q: (L) What does this code relate to?

A: Infinite power.

Q: (L) How is infinite power acquired by knowing this code? If you don’t know the correspondences, how can you use a numerical code?

A: Lord of Serpent promises its followers infinite power, which they must seek infinite knowledge to gain, for which they pledge allegiance infinitely, which they possess for all eternity, so long as they find infinite wisdom, for which they search for all infinity.

Q: (L) And that is the meaning of the number thirty-three? Well, that is a round robin … a circle you can’t get out of!

A: And therein you have the deception! Remember, those who seek to serve self with supreme power are doomed only to serve others who seek to serve self, and can only see that which they want to see.

Well, that sure described me at the moment! I was just not seeing. Even if I had the objective of asking open questions, I had come to the session with some strong assumptions about what the answers should be, and I was shooting myself in the foot with every question. Well, I sort of gave up on the number thirty-three in frustration because the answers weren’t going where I thought they ought to go and diverted off in another tangent.

Q: (L) The thought that occurs to me, as we are talking here, is that the STS pathway consists of an individual who wants to serve themselves – they are selfish and egocentric – they want to compel others to serve them; they want to enslave others; and they find ways to manipulate others to serve them. But, they end up being compelled by some higher being than they are, because they have been tricked into believing that by getting others to serve them, or some agenda that they promote, that they are either drawing power to themselves or even that they are giving power to others or some god through the teachings, including the popular religions which promote being saved by simply believing and giving up your power.

And, in the end, you have a whole pyramid of people taking by trickery and deception, from others. The taker gets taken from in the end. There’s always somebody higher than you who is over you in a hierarchy. A pyramid where all those on the bottom, the majority, have no one to take from, so they take from each other until one of them gains enough “weight” to be absorbed into the next level higher, and this process continues until you get to the apex and everything disappears.

But, in the STO mode, you have those who only give. And, if they are involved only with other STO persons who are also giving, everyone receives and no one is at the bottom or at the top or in a “void” state. But, the funny thing is that, in the end, it seems like everyone ends up serving someone else anyway, and [the only difference is] the principle of intent, which basically determines who you are giving to. But in STO, it is more like a circle, a balance, no one is left without.

A: Balance, Yin-Yang.

Q: (L) Obviously the thirty-three represents the Serpent, the Medusa, and so forth …

A: You mentioned pyramid, interesting … And what is the geometric one-dimensional figure that corresponds?

Q: (L) Well, the triangle. And, if you have a triangle point up you have three, joined to a triangle pointing down, you have three, and you have a thirty-three. Is that something like what we are getting at here?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Is there a connection between the number thirty-three and the Great Pyramid in Egypt?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) And what is that connection? Is it that the builders of the pyramid participated in this secret society activity?

A: Yes. And what symbol did you see in “Matrix,” for Serpents and Grays?

Q: (L) You are talking about the triangle with the Serpent’s head in it?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Are we talking in terms of this thirty-three relating to a group of aliens, or a group of humans with advanced knowledge and abilities?

A: Either/or.

Q: (L) Is this what has been referred to in the Bramley book as the Brotherhood of the Serpent or Snake?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Is this also what you have referred to as the Quorum?

A: Close.

Remember that Yin-Yang circle of the previous discussion about the Quorum? The Cassiopaeans are here indicating that there is a subtle, but distinct difference between the Brotherhood of the Serpent and the Quorum. Yes, the Quorum is a group with advanced knowledge and abilities, but their objectives and intent are to preserve Free Will for all, while the objectives of the Brotherhood are to manipulate, dominate and control others.

Q: (L) So, we have a bunch of people who are playing with mathematics, and playing with higher knowledge, basically as a keep-busy activity to distract them at the human level from the fact that they are being manipulated at a higher level. Is this what is going on? Or, do they consciously know what they are doing? Is it a distraction or a conscious choice?

A: Both.

Q: (L) If I were to name some names, could you identify if named individuals were involved in this secret group?

A: It would not be in your best interests.

Q: (L) Is there anything more on this thirty-three number that I should look at now?

A: No. You need to contemplate.

Boy, did I ever! I was now completely disoriented. The idea of the Pyramid being associated with the STS-oriented faction sort of threw me off. And there was a definite suggestion here that the number thirty-three was associated with the consortium of humans and aliens who ruled the world from behind the scenes: The Brotherhood of the Serpent.4 This reminded me of something else the Cassiopaeans had said at one earlier point that distressed me because it went against the standard metaphysical and occult teachings:

Q: (L) Who was Hermes Trismegistus?

A: Traitor to court of Pharaoh Rana.

Q: (L) Who is Pharaoh Rana?

A: Egyptian leader of spiritual covenant.

Q: (L) In what way was Hermes a traitor?

A: Broke covenant of spiritual unity of all peoples in area now known as Middle East.

Q: (L) Who did Hermes betray?

A: Himself; was power-hungry.

Q: (L) What acts did he do [in this breaking of the covenant]?

A: He inspired divisions within ranks of Egyptians, Essenes, Aryans, and Persians et cetera.

Q: (L) What was his purpose in doing this?

A: Divide and conquer as inspired by those referred to as Brotherhood in Bramley book you have read.

Q: (L) Is this the Brotherhood of the Snake Hermes formed in rejection of unity?

A: Hermes did not form it; it was long-since in existence.

Q: (L) Who was the originator of the Brotherhood of the Serpent as described in the Bramley book?

A: Lizard Beings.

Q: (L) I would like to know the approximate year of the life of Hermes Trismegistus.

A: 5211 approx. (Later research showed that this was probably 5,211 years ago, not 5211 bce, i.e. around 3100 BCE)

Q: (L) Who was this Pharaoh Rana? Was he prior to the Pharaoh Menes?

A: Much prior.

Q: Was the Pharaoh Menes the same as King Minos of Crete?

A: No.

Q: What was the relationship between the Cretans and the Egyptians?

A: All were the same originally.

Q: So they were Egyptians who left Egypt and moved to Crete and set up their version of the Egyptian culture there? Is that it? Or did they develop independently?

A: Former is closest.

Q: Was Abraham of the Jews the same individual as Hermes, which some people are suggesting?

A: No.

Q: Was Akhenaten the same individual as Moses, as some other people are suggesting?

A: Only through the eyes of the themes.

We find here the idea that Abraham was a betrayer of a prior covenant when he made the covenant with Jehovah.5 But, back to the numbers.

When I asked about the number 33, I was directed to the number 11, astrology and a matrix of some sort. Not only that, but all the occult ideas, practices and teachings that I had studied for so many years were being implicated as “keep-busy activities” of manipulation from higher levels. And, when you dig into anything occult, somehow you always find yourself confronting Kaballah.

A matrix is defined as “the womb” or “that within which and from which something originates or develops.” In math, a matrix is “a set of numbers or terms arranged in rows and columns between parentheses or double lines.” More technically, it is “a rectangular array of numbers or other elements …” having application as computational devices in such widely diversified fields as economics, psychology, statistics, engineering, physics, and mathematics.

In mathematics, matrices are useful tools in the study of linear systems of algebraic equations, linear differential equations, linear mappings and transformations, and bilinear and quadratic forms. Matrices can be regarded as generalized numbers, and their utility in applications depends on the possibility of combining them in certain definite ways. The product of a matrix A and a number a is called a scalar product and is obtained by multiplying every element of A by a. The term “scalar,” in mathematics, is synonymous with “real” as in real number or real function. A vector is a directed line segment and, as such, has magnitude and direction. Many physical quantities such as velocity, acceleration and force, are vectors.

What this means is that, using a matrix, one can establish vectors, which can then be used to calculate a scalar product, which is simply a number that can mean anything depending on how it is used.

When we think about what the Cassiopaeans were saying, or trying to say, against the impenetrable thick-headedness of yours truly, we come to this, spelled out extremely slowly. It’s obvious they were trying to teach me what Phi meant:

A: 1 [pause] 1; 5 minus 3; 2 minus 1.

Q: (L) What is the concept here?

A: Look: 353535. Is code.

Q: (L) What does this code relate to?

A: Infinite power.

This “infinite power”, symbolized by phi, is then further defined by the Cs as:

Lord of Serpent promises its followers infinite power, which they must seek infinite knowledge to gain, for which they pledge allegiance infinitely, which they possess for all eternity, so long as they find infinite wisdom, for which they search for all infinity. … And therein you have the deception! Remember, those who seek to serve self with supreme power, are doomed only to serve others who seek to serve self, and can only see that which they want to see.

In other words: Kaballah.

Basically, Kaballah developed as a way to play games with numbers and letters as described above. One school endeavors to find beneath the letters of the “sacred text,” i.e. the Torah, all references to the ten Sefirot. The Sefirot can be compared to a theory of cosmic chains or levels of reality of the emanations of God. A hierarchy of power, that is.

The Kabbalists use the Torah as an instrument. They affirm that, beneath its letters, beneath the stories and events depicted there, there are secrets waiting for the enterprising Kabbalist to discover. Thus, the text cannot be read only literally, but must also be read allegorically, hermeneutically and mystically.

Notariqon is a technique of using acrostics to cipher and decipher hidden messages. The initial or final letters of a series of words generate new words.

Gematria is based on the fact that, in Hebrew, numbers are indicated by letters and every word has, therefore, a numerical value. This allows mystical relationships to be seen between completely different words having completely different meanings. It is such relationships that the Kabbalist seeks to discover.

Temurah is the art of anagrams. Abraham Abulafia systematically combined the letter Alef with each of the four letters of the Tetragrammaton YHWH; then he vocalized each of the resulting units by every possible permutation of five vowels, thus obtaining four tables with fifty entries each. Eleazar ben Yudah of Worms went on to vocalize every unit using twice each of the five vowels, and the total number of combinations increased geometrically (see Umberto Eco, The Search For The Perfect Language).

The Kabbalists have an unlimited number of options as to how to interpret the Torah, but the important thing was that they believed that this was more than just interpretation: it was the very method whereby God created the world: understanding it would admit the practitioner to the inner circles of power and control over the forces of life.

So, we see the clue leads us to the idea of “Infinite Power.”

I hope you realize that the Kaballah has a mind-boggling array of combinations and methods. In the end, it was thought that, by these methods, along with employing certain recitations and breathing techniques, the practitioner could pass into states of ecstasy and from there, achieve the desired magical powers. Because, in the end, the objective of the Kaballah was to reproduce the same sounds with which God created the world.

The Sefer Yezirah, or Book of Creation, (written in the Dark Ages, I might add, somewhere between the second and sixth centuries), explicated this doctrine. According to the Sefer Yezirah, the “stones” out of which God created the world were the thirty-two ways of wisdom, which were formed by the twenty-two letters of the Hebrew alphabet and the ten Sefirot.

It was claimed that the primordial Torah was inscribed in black flames upon white fire and many Kabbalists denied the existence of any kind of historical development of either the Torah or Kaballah. As a result of this idea, it became widely accepted that the Kaballah was the esoteric part of the Oral Law given to Moses at Sinai. There were additional genealogies in the Kabbalistic literature which were designed to support the claim of a continuity of tradition but even Hebrew scholars note that they are faulty and misconceived, and lack “any historical value” (Scholem 1974, 5).

At first the word “kaballah” did not especially denote a mystical or esoteric tradition. In the Talmud it is used for the extra-Pentateuchal parts of the Bible, and in post-talmudic literature the Oral Law is also called “kaballah.” In the writings of Eleazar of Worms (beginning of the 13th century), esoteric traditions (concerning the names of the angels and the magical Names of God) are referred to as “kabbalah” … In his commentary to the Sefer Yezirah (c. 1130), when he is discussing the creation of the Holy Spirit, i.e., the Shekhinah, Juda Ben Barzillai states that the sages “used to transmit statements of this kind to their students and to sages privately, in a whisper, through kabbalah.” All this demonstrates that the term “kaballah” was not yet used for any one particular field. The new, precise usage originated in the circle of Isaac the Blind (1200) and was adopted by all his disciples.

Kaballah is only one of the many terms used during a period of more than 1,500 years, to designate the mystical movement, its teaching, or its adherents. The Talmud speaks of sitrei torah and razei torah (“secrets of the Torah”), and parts of the secret tradition are called m’aseh bereshit (literally, “the work of creation”) and ma’aseh merkabah (“the work of the chariot”). At least one of the mystical groups called itself yoredei merkabah (“those who descend to the chariot”), an extraordinary expression whose meaning eludes us … Historically speaking, organized closed societies of mystics have been proved to exist only since the end of the Second Temple era … [emphasis added] (Scholem 1974, 6, 10)

Kaballah is the tradition of esoteric teachings of Judaism. It is, in essence, a compilation of the different mystical movements issuing from the Second Temple in Jerusalem. One thing that has to be considered when thinking of Kaballah is the fact that its admitted purpose is to “broaden the dimensions of the Torah and to transform it from the law of the people of Israel into the inner secret law of the universe” (Scholem 1974, 5).

As I have noted in Secret History, the so-called “Second Temple” in Jerusalem may have been the First, and the forces behind its construction and the development of its theology could very well have been those very forces with designs on our freedom. So, at this point, we need to consider the roots of Kaballah, the Torah upon which it is based, as well as the “tradition.”

In The Curse of Cain, Dr. Regina Schwartz writes about the relationship between monotheism and violence, positing that monotheism itself is the root of violence. She writes that collective identity, which is a result of a monotheistic covenant explicitly narrated in the Bible, is:

An invention, a radical break with nature and with the past. A transcendent deity breaks into history with the demand that the people he constitutes obey the law he institutes, and first and foremost among those laws is the requirement that they pledge allegiance to him, and him alone. (Schwartz 1997, 18)

This is what makes them a unified people as opposed to the “other” (as in all other people), which leads to violence. For the sake of these covenants, “in the “Old Testament,” vast numbers of [the “other”] are obliterated, while in the “New Testament,” vast numbers are colonized (converted)” (Schwartz 1997, 19). So, we are seeing a clear example of what the Cassiopaeans have explicated in their remarks:

Lord of Serpent promises its followers infinite power which they must seek infinite knowledge to gain, for which they pledge allegiance infinitely, which they possess for all eternity, so long as they find infinite wisdom, for which they search for all infinity. … those who seek to serve self with supreme power, are doomed only to serve others who seek to serve self, and can only see that which they want to see.

Dr. Schwartz also writes about the idea of the provisional nature of a covenant, which the Cassiopaeans mention above: that it is conditional. “Believe in me and obey me or else I will destroy you.” Doesn’t sound like there is any choice, does there? And we find ourselves in the face of Nazi theophany. The chief thing that occurs to me in terms of the “believe in me” business in relation to religions, is that it constitutes a sort of permission, if you will, whether it is conscious or subconscious, for the deity to take the vengeful action if the agreement is broken.

Riane Eisler, an acclaimed scholar, has developed what she calls Cultural Transformation Theory, which proposes that there are two basic models of society underlying the great diversity of human culture. The first is the Dominator Model, that can be termed a patriarchy or matriarchy. It consists of ranking one half of humanity over another, in the broadest terms, but essentially can be any situation where any group dominates and any other group is considered inferior whether male or female, black or white, rich or poor, free or slave.

The second model is what Ms. Eisler calls the Partnership Model, which is based on the principle of “linking rather than ranking.” Thus, it seems that the work of Ms. Eisler is describing precisely what the Cassiopaeans call Service-to-Self versus Service-to-Others; networking versus judgment. As Ms. Eisler acutely points out:

If we stop and think about it, there are only two basic ways of structuring the relations between the female and male halves of humanity. All societies are patterned on either a dominator model – in which human hierarchies are ultimately backed up by force or the threat of force – or a partnership model, with variations in between. (Eisler 1988)

In an amazing book that should be read by everyone, When God Was a Woman, Merlin Stone reveals the sexual and religious bias of many of the scholars of the nineteenth and twentieth centuries, which have been responsible for the general lack of knowledge about these most ancient times. Most of these male scholars were raised in societies that embrace the male-oriented religions of Judaism or Christianity, and this obviously heavily influenced their opinions. One of them, Professor R.K. Harrison wrote of the Goddess religion: “One of its most prominent features was the lewd, depraved, orgiastic character of its cultic procedures.”

Despite the discovery of temples of the Goddess in nearly every Neolithic and historic excavation, Werner Keller writes that the female deity was worshipped primarily on ‘hills and knolls,’ simply echoing the words of the Old Testament. Professor W. F. Albright, one of the leading authorities on the archaeology of Palestine, wrote of the female religions ‘orgiastic nature worship, sensuous nudity and gross mythology.’ He continued by saying that ‘It was replaced by Israel with its pastoral simplicity and purity of life, its lofty monotheism and its severe code of ethics.’ It is difficult to understand how these words can be academically justified after reading of the massacres perpetrated by the Hebrews on the original inhabitants of Canaan as portrayed in the Book of Joshua, especially chapters nine to eleven. Professor S. H. Hooke, in his collection of essays Myth, Ritual and Kingship, openly admits, ‘I firmly believe that God chose Israel to be the vehicle of revelation.’

Albright himself wrote, ‘It is frequently said that the scientific quality of Palestinian archaeology has been seriously impaired by the religious preconceptions of scholars who have excavated in the Holy Land. It is true that some archaeologists have been drawn to Palestine by their interest in the Bible, and that some of them had received their previous training mainly as biblical scholars.’ But he then proceeded to reject this possibility of impairment, basing his conclusion primarily upon the fact that the dates assigned to the sites and artifacts of ancient Palestine, by the scholars who took part in the earlier excavations, were subsequently proven to be too recent, rather than too old, as might perhaps be expected. The question of whether or not the attitudes and beliefs inherent in those suggested ‘religious preconceptions’ had perhaps subtly influenced analysis and descriptions of the symbolism, rituals and general nature of the ancient religion was not even raised for discussion. (Stone 1976, xiii–xix)

In most textbooks of archaeology, the Goddess religion is referred to rather deprecatingly as a “fertility cult.” As Ms. Stone notes, the word “cult” always has the connotation of something less civilized than “religion,” and is nearly always applied when referring to the Goddess worship, while the rituals associated with that clever ET, Yahweh, are always reverently referred to as “Religion,” with a capital “R”!

Considering the extreme monotheistic, Judeo-Christian bias of the scholars who have written the words, directed the schools, published the books, and overseen our education for the past 1,500 years or so, how else can we think but that males have always played the dominant role, and that males have always been the doers, creators and “movers and shakers” of our cultural, social and technological development?

As children, most little girls of the Western world are told the story of Adam and Eve. Eve is made from Adam’s rib to be his companion and helper because he was lonely. Next they are taught that Eve was foolishly gullible and was pathetically “easy” to the wiles of the serpent. She disobeyed God Almighty, and led Adam down the primrose path, and forever after, all women bore the blame for this perfidy.

Not only that, but forever after, because of Eve’s foolishness, all women must accept men as their masters, the representatives of the omnipotent male deity, whose wisdom and righteousness they must admire and respect with reverence and awe!

Over and over again, the legend of the loss of paradise has been utilized to impress upon us the natural inferiority of women. Only Man was created in God’s image … woman came later and was a poor semblance of a human being. Everywhere in our culture this story pops up over and over again. It is the foundation of poetry, art, advertising and jokes. Everywhere you look, Eve is tempting Adam to do wrong over and over again. Women are portrayed as inherently conniving, contriving, (yet somehow also gullible and simple-minded) and most of all sexy. They clearly need a divinely appointed overseer to keep them out of trouble and there is a man around every corner just ready to do the job!

Stone quotes Joseph Campbell, who wrote about the Adam and Eve myth:

This curious mythological idea, and the still more curious fact that for two thousand years it was accepted throughout the Western World as the absolutely dependable account of an event that was supposed to have taken place about a fortnight after the creation of the universe, poses forcefully the highly interesting question of the influence of conspicuously contrived, counterfeit mythologies and the infliction of mythology upon the structure of human belief and the consequent course of civilization. [emphasis added] (Stone 1976, 7–8)

The religion of the Great Mother Goddess existed and flourished for many thousands of years in the Near and Middle East before the arrival of the patriarch Abraham, the first prophet of the dominator male deity, Yahweh. Archaeologists have traced the worship of the Goddess back to the Neolithic communities of about 7000 bce, and some to the Upper Paleolithic cultures of about 25,000 bce. From Neolithic times, at least, its existence has been repeatedly attested to well into Roman Times. Yet, Bible scholars agree that Abraham “lived” in Canaan as late as between 1800 and 1550 bce, a veritable Johnny-come-lately! How in the world has such a recent appearance on the world scene managed to push itself into such prominence and domination?

The accepted explanation for this is the “Aryan Invasion” hypothesis. It is thought that descendants of the Gravettian-Aurignacian cultures came down to the Middle East from Northern Europe, conquered the peaceful natives, and set up a dominator male religion. There has also been some conjecture that these were the descendants of the Mesolithic (15000–8000 BCE) Maglemosian and Kunda cultures of Northern Europe. Their arrival was, apparently, not a gradual assimilation – it was wave after wave of aggressive invasion. Their arrival in the Near East is attested to by 2400 BCE, but there may have been several earlier invasions.

Archaeology reveals that, after these alleged invasions from the North, the worship of the Mother Goddess fluctuated from city to city. As the invaders gained more and more territory over the next two thousand years, the male began to appear as the dominant husband or even the murderer of the goddess!

Over and over again in the studies of the ancient religions it is noted that, in place after place, the goddess was debased and replaced by a male deity after the coming of the invaders, assumed to be from the North. The transition was accomplished by brutally violent massacres and territorial acquisition throughout the Near and Middle East.

Oddly, the alleged invaders left neither tablets nor temples in their presumed homeland to explain why or how they came to choose a male deity. The invaders are described variously as the “Sons of the North Wind, Aeolus”, Nordics, Indo-Europeans, Indo-Iranians, Indo-Aryans, or simply Aryans. Their existence, once they burst upon the historical scene, is described as aggressive warriors riding two abreast in horse-drawn war chariots; or as big sailors who navigated the rivers and coastlines of Europe and the Near East. Jaquetta Hawkes writes:

On no subject have authorities differed so completely or with greater lack of objectivity than on the origins of these cultures. The reason for this partisanship lies in the one thing the authorities are agreed upon – that the battle axe cultures represent the roots of the Indo-European speaking peoples … What can be said with some certainty is that the battle axe people had a large ethnic, social and cultural inheritance from the hunter-fishers of the forest cultures such as the Maglemosian and Kunda. … Though it may not always or everywhere have been so, this character came in time to be dominantly pastoral, patriarchal, warlike and expansive. (quoted by Stone 1976, 63)

The alleged invasions of the Aryans took place in waves over a period of up to three thousand years according to standard archaeology. The invasions of the historical period are attested to by literature and artifacts, and are agreed upon by scholars. Those of prehistoric times are suggested by speculative etymological connections.

But there is something strange about this hypothesis; you see, up to this point in time, writing seems to have been primarily used for the business accounts of the temples. When Northern peoples that are attested arrived, they adopted this writing and used it for their own purposes, literature!

Professor Chiera comments: ‘It is strange to notice that practically all the existing literature was put down in written form a century or two after 2000 B.C.’ Whether this suggests that written language was never considered as a medium for myths and legends before that time or that existing tablets were destroyed and rewritten at that time remains an open question. (Stone 1976, 21)

What is most significant in the historic records is that these alleged Northern invaders viewed themselves as a very superior people. They were aggressive and continually in conflict with not only the peoples they conquered, but among themselves as well. Their coming revolutionized the art of war. They introduced the horse-drawn chariot, and the charioteer became a new aristocracy.

Historical, mythological and archaeological evidence suggests that it was these Northern people who brought with them the concepts of light as good and dark as evil and of a supreme male deity. The arrival of the Aryans, the presentation of their male deities as superior to female deities, and the subsequent interweaving of the two theologies are recorded mythologically in each culture. It is in these myths that we can discover the attitude that led to the destruction of the Goddess.

The Aryan male god, unlike the son-lover of the Goddess, was frequently depicted as a storm god, high on a mountain, blazing with the light of fire or lightning (haven’t we heard this before?!). In many of these myths, the goddess is depicted as a serpent or dragon, associated with darkness and evil. Sometimes the dragon is neuter or even male, but in such cases, is closely associated with the goddess, usually as her son.

However, in many of the older archaeological finds, the Goddess was represented by birds and wavy symbols that indicated water and/or energy. These same wavy lines are retained as the symbol of the Astrological sign of Aquarius which may be the oldest extant symbol of the Great Mother Goddess.

The Goddess religion seems to have assimilated the male deities into the older forms of worship, and survived as the popular religion of the people for thousands of years after the initial Aryan invasions. But her position had been greatly lowered and continued to decline. It was the assaults of the Hebrews and eventually the Christians that finally suppressed the religion.

And here we come to the most interesting thing of all: it is in the accounts of the Aryans that we find the origins of the religious ideas of the Hebrews.

There is the mountain-top god who blazes with light; there is the duality between light and darkness symbolized as good and evil; there is the myth of the male deity defeating the serpent; and there is the supreme leadership of a ruling class: the priestly Levites. All of these are to be found in both the Indo-European and Hebrew religious concepts and politics!

And this leads us to the obvious suggestion: The Indo-European patterns were either adopted by the Hebrews, or the original Hebrews were Indo-Europeans from the start, OR, the Jews simply copied histories and religious ideas from other peoples, historicized it, and claimed it for their own.

The Indo-Aryan attitude toward women is made clear in two sentences attributed to Indra in the Rg Veda: “The mind of woman brooks not discipline. Her intellect has little weight.” And orthodox Jewish males daily thank God that they were not born women!

An interesting fact turns up in the field of archaeology. Systematic examinations of the skulls in several Anatolian sites shows that in the third millennium BCE, most of the residents were predominately doliocephalic, or long-headed Mediterranean types, with only a minority of brachycephalic, or round-headed Alpine types. After the beginning of the second millennium, the proportion of brachycephalic skulls increases to about 50 percent. It is the brachycephalic types that came to be known as the ruling class of the Hittite empire.

The original people of Hatti became the subservient or conquered class, just as the “black-headed” people of Sumeria became “slaves” of their conquerors. The invading Indo-Europeans assumed roles of royalty everywhere they went, subjugating the indigenous populations one after the other. The Indo-Europeans were bigger, and possessed military supremacy never before seen due to their horse-drawn war chariots and iron weapons. They increased their height by wearing conical hats that appear to be about 18 to 24 inches high in depictions (these conical hats are interesting as a certain type of conical hat is representative of the alchemical initiate!).

The question is: who were they really, and where did they come from: northern Europe or … ? Covering that topic is the subject of my next book; suffice it to say for now that nothing is as it seems and never has been, historically speaking. Our history has been falsified more than once and stripping away those layers of lies to find the small seeds of truth here and there has taken me the better part of 40 years. It is complex and we wander too far afield to try to cover it here. What is important to know here is that just as there was a Dark Age surrounding the period of time in which the Old Testament came into being, during which time monotheistic Judaism – the parent of Christianity and Islam – was imposed forcibly on the Canaanites, and we have only the Old Testament itself to attest to its validity, we have a similar period of Dark Ages enveloping the development and codification of the New Testament and the imposition of monotheistic Christianity on the western world and Islam on those who were susceptible to neither of the former two.

Don’t you find that curious?

Out of this history emerged what is known today as Kaballah. And, so we come back in a circle to the remarks about the 3-5 code.

It was difficult to know what to think about all of it. I decided, at one point, to ask the Cassiopaeans directly about Kaballah:

Q: (L) What is the origin of the Kaballah?

A: Channeled truths given to early pre-Mosaic Jews to use your terminology.

Q: (L) When the Jewish commentators began setting down the teachings, was this the first time this had been put into writing?

A: No. Not even close.

Q: (L) Is the form that it is in today very close to the original form and can it be relied upon?

A: No. Corrupted.

So, again, we have the idea that there are seeds of truth but, for the most part, what we have today was corrupted so long ago that great care must be taken to compare and analyze; and most especially, before putting any of it into practice. But, just to give a clue to those who want something to mull over, remember the twenty-two letters of the Hebrew Alphabet? The ones that are supposed to be so special and magical?

Well, the Phoenician, or West Semitic, alphabet was the starting point of all the later European alphabets, as well as the Hebrew and Arabic alphabets. The definitive version of the Phoenician alphabet is the inscription on the sarcophagus of King Ahiram of Byblos, dated to about 1000 bce. It, too, was a systematized alphabet of twenty-two characters.

Hebrew script was formalized around the same time as the early Greek, but the characters took a different form. Hebrew was, and still is, written from right to left. Resh, with the phonetic value “r”, resembles the lower case Roman “r”, written the opposite way around. Both the Greek and Hebrew alphabets have parallel esoteric meanings. What, then, makes Hebrew so mystical and mysterious? Well, we have already mentioned the Sefer Yezirah, the cornerstone of Kaballah which details this doctrine.

In Kabbalistic Judaism, it is stated that the God, Jehovah, is not transcendent, but is rather subordinate to a higher form of existence, the Ain-Soph. The Ain-Soph exists beyond the realms of cause and effect, beyond desire, beyond the realms of being and non-being. And, the god of creation is only an agent of the Ain-Soph. The creation of the universe itself has come directly from the Ain-Soph through a complex process, achieved by the operation of the emanations, or Sephiroth, which are supposed to be ten in number, the same as the fingers on two hands. However, most Kabbalistic images of the Sephiroth in the tree of life diagrams include an eleventh Sephira for which various explanations are given. If we just turn off the sound and look at the picture, what we see are eleven Sephiroth, twenty-two letters of an alphabet which is a multiple of eleven. Then, if we think about the major arcana of the Tarot, which is supposed to have strong Kabbalistic relations, we find the number twenty-two appearing again. If we put those items together with the fact that the Cassiopaeans have tried to point us in the direction of examining the number eleven more closely, we may come to some interesting conclusions.

[During the Babylonian captivity] strange events occurred. Besides Ezekiel’s resurrection of Israel’s religious tradition, which urged them to return home to Jerusalem, the men responsible for the inner teaching of the Religion realised that here was a unique possibility at the second rebirth of the Nation. Hebrew, in the overriding presence of the vernacular used in Babylonia, had ceased to be a first language. So here was a chance to embed, before it became established again as a national speech, many ideas – make it a language that contained more than just an everyday vocabulary of meanings. At this point we know that the actual twenty-two letters of the alphabet were reconstructed, changed from the ancient pictograms into a more robust alphabet known as the Syrian script.

Later, long after this new Hebrew had been established (though it never quite took over from Aramaic the lingua franca of the Middle East), it became regarded as a holy language, and like Sanscrit to be used in Holy matters.

One work in particular reveals the philosophical construction of the Hebrew alphabet. This was the Sepher Yitzerah, reputed to be written by Abraham, but more likely to have been drafted in the earlier centuries of the Common Era. In this, to each letter was ascribed a planet and a Sign of the Zodiac. Herein lies our date clue inasmuch that the Sign Libra was inserted into the Zodiac circle long after Abraham died. (Halevi 1972, 18–19)

What happened to the hand of God inscribing the fire letters and all that? What are we going to do with all the mystical allusions to this most holy of languages and works? Could it be possible that we might obtain as much enlightenment by applying the Kabbalistic practices to a copy of War and Peace or The Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire? I have the feeling that this is the case. Anybody game to try it?

Getting back to our story, what gradually dawned on me was the fact that all the centuries of Kabbalistic Gematria and Notariqon and Temurah might be nothing but a distraction from truth. Yes, we can see intimations of certain threads that will bear closer scrutiny, and the Cassiopaeans have suggested that we might figure out something important if we examine astrology as an eleven-house system. We also find confirmation of this number eleven as an important number by simple virtue of the numbers of letters of the alphabets along with the major arcana of the Tarot.

But then, there was the odd mention of Medusa and “heads.” What did Medusa mean in relation to this? Were the “heads” the Sephiroth of the tree of life, since there are, in some versions, eleven? It is called the “unseen Sephira” which “functions only in particular conditions.” Daat is “the veil of the bride” beyond which lies knowledge and being of the Objective Universe. One writer on Kaballah says:

In their totality the Sefirot make up “the tree of emanation” or “the tree of the Sefirot,” which from the 14th century onward is depicted by a detailed diagram which lists the basic symbols … The cosmic tree grows downward from its root, the first Sefirah, and spreads out through those Sefirot which constitute its trunk to those which make up its main branches or crown. This image is first found in the Sefer ha-Bahir … However, in the Bahir … [the tree] includes only those Sefirot from Binah downward [that is to say, only nine Sefirot in the oldest Tree of Life Image.] … Alongside this picture we have the more common image of the Sefirot in the form of a man. While the tree grows with its top down, this human form has its head properly on top, and is occasionally referred to as the “reversed tree.” The first Sefirot represent the head, and, in the Zohar, the three cavities of the brain; the fourth and the fifth, the arms; the sixth, the torso; the seventh and eighth, the legs; the ninth, the sexual organ; and the tenth refers either to the all-embracing totality of the image, or (as in the Bahir) to the female as companion to the male, since both together are needed to constitute a perfect man [!] … On the whole, however, the overall structure is built out of triangles. [emphasis added] (Scholem 1974, 106–107)

That is to say, exactly three triangles. And what was said about triangles?

A: You mentioned pyramid, interesting … And what is the geometric one-dimensional figure that corresponds?

Q: (L) Well, the triangle. And, if you have a triangle point up you have three, joined to a triangle pointing down, you have three, and you have a thirty-three. Is that something like what we are getting at here?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Is there a connection between the number thirty-three and the Great Pyramid in Egypt?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) And what is that connection? Is it that the builders of the pyramid participated in this secret society activity?

A: Yes. And what symbol did you see in “Matrix,” for Serpents and Grays?

Q: (L) You are talking about the triangle with the Serpent’s head in it?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Are we talking in terms of this thirty-three relating to a group of aliens, or a group of humans with advanced knowledge and abilities?

A: Either/or.

Q: (L) Is this what has been referred to in the Bramley book as the Brotherhood of the Serpent or Snake?

A: Yes.

And we come back again to the 3-5 code, which is what we ended up with by asking about the number thirty-three. I have to admit that my first ideas about this 3-5 code were very Kabbalistic. The 3-5 code stuck in my mind as a means of finding some coded secret in some ancient text. I will admit that I followed this idea to an almost absurd degree, reading through and marking only the third and fifth words, or reading the thirty-fifth line, or the thirty-fifth word, or the third chapter, fifth word, and endless permutations thereof in a large body of occult literature. I created charts, diagrams, tables of permutation. I did Gematria, Notariqon and anagrams. It was becoming such an obsession that I had to deliberately will myself to stop counting everything all the time.

I finally gave it up. It wasn’t going anywhere. Sure, there were occasional hits, but there were also endless nonsensical combinations. When I kept notes on the results, I found that the hits were no better than chance, and I wonder if that is not the case for many so-called occultists who see only the successes of their methods, and ignore the failures. Or, they read more into the hits than are really there. As Dr. Eco says, the structure of the universe is expressed in mathematics. Is it any wonder that anything and everything relates to everything else via numbers?

Another thing that struck me were the remarks about the pyramid being associated with the hyperdimensional STS controllers. I had a lot of work invested in the Egyptian religious traditions as being of positive orientation. But, the comments about the pyramid shape being related to the negative STS hierarchy reminded me of something else the Cassiopaeans had said earlier in 1995:

Q: (L) We have some questions tonight. We were discussing earlier this evening the “abomination of desolation” as written about by the prophet Daniel and also spoken of by Jesus. What is this?

A: Disinformation.

Q: (L) Are you saying that the abomination of desolation is disinformation, or that the writing about it is disinformation?

A: Both.

Q: (L) Who, or what was the source of that information as prophesied by Daniel?

A: Illuminati.

Q: (L) The prophecies given to Daniel were disinformation?

A: Close.

Q: (L) Is there an abomination of desolation?

A: There is anything, if the definitions are unrestricted.

Q: (L) Well, OK. Who were the Elohim of the Bible?

A: Transdefinitive.

Q: (L) What does that mean? Transcends definition as you just mentioned?

A: And variable entities.

Q: (L) Were the Elohim good guys?

A: First manifestation was human, then non-human.

Q: (L) Well, what brought about their transformation from human to non-human?

A: Pact or covenant.

Q: (L) They made a pact or covenant with each other?

A: No, with fourth density STS.

Q: (L) Are you saying that the Elohim are STS? Who were these STS beings they made a pact with?

A: Rosteem, now manifests as Rosicrucians.

Q: (L) What is their purpose?

A: As yet unrevealable to you.

Q: (L) OK, since he relies so heavily on this Elohim idea, what is the source of the Keys of Enoch that was written by James Hurtak. He claims that he was taken up to the higher realms and that the ‘Keys’ were programmed into him …

A: Disguised reality. Both the place he was taken to and the message.

Q: (L) What is the source of this disguised reality?

A: Research to discover explosive reality trailblazings.

Q: (L) OK. Is there coded information in this book on several levels as M suggests?

A: There is coded information all over the place. Suggest slower pace of studying in order to discover earth-shaking principles. Remember the old parable about biting off more than you can chew? It is important because it is hard to see the veins in the leaves when the car is traveling too fast to see the trees clearly. We suggest that you be more like the tortoise than the hare. Network and all falls into place. We cannot tell many things at present, because then you would not learn, and if you do not learn, you do not progress as an individual soul!

Well, I was trying. And, along with my growing obsession with numbers, a couple of very strange things happened to me in the week following the session where the 3-5 code was brought up. The first was the beginning of a long series of Out-of-Body Experiences that continued for over a year and a half, and the second was a dream accompanied by a physical trace. Interestingly, in the very next session, the Cassiopaeans seemed to be desperately trying to communicate some things to us without violating free will. Naturally, we had our own agenda and very often our questions were what limited us, but revealing the activities of some sort of Secret Masters of the world seemed to be very much on the Cassiopaeans’ mind. As usual, the door to strange things was opened by a seemingly innocuous question:

November 18, 1995

Q: (L) Is there any relationship between all of the terrorist bombings that have been taking place in Paris recently, and any stepped-up alien activity?

A: Open. USAir-194 crash; United Air crash, Colorado Springs; connection? Get voice recorder tape transcripts.

Q: (L) Is this in some way related to the question about the Paris bombing?

A: No. Strobe lights are used for third density mind control. [Now, how did strobe lights come in here when we were asking about terrorist bombings? Further, what did it have to do with a plane crash?]

Q: (L) Strobe lights located where?

A: Not a question asked with much thought! We have picked up your thought waves, which are progress-oriented, and are trying to assist you in your increased learning and progress frequency wave. You see, this increases the energy level!! It is advisable to ask questions, but be unconcerned with the nature or content of the answers beforehand.

Q: (L) OK. You mentioned the strobe lights. Are these strobe lights that are used to control minds, are these something that we would or might come in contact with on a daily basis?

A: Do you not already know? We didn’t say: some strobe lights, we said: strobe lights, i.e. all-inclusive!

Q: (T) Strobe lights come in many forms and types. TV is a strobe light. Computer screens are a strobe light. Light bulbs strobe. Fluorescents strobe. Streetlights strobe.

A: Police cars, ambulances, fire trucks … How long has this been true? Have you noticed any changes lately??!!??

Q: (F) Twenty years ago there were no strobe lights on any of those vehicles mentioned. They had the old flasher type lights. Now, more and more and more there are strobe lights appearing in all kinds of places. (L) And now, they even have them on school buses! (T) And the regular city buses have them too, now. (L) OK, is the strobing of a strobe light set at a certain frequency in order to do certain things?

A: Hypnotic opener.

Q: (L) What is the purpose of the hypnotic opener being used in this way?

A: You don’t notice the craft.

Q: (T) OK, what craft are we not seeing?

A: Opener. Is precursor to suggestion, which is auditory in nature.

Q: (T) What suggestion?

A: Put on your thinking caps. Networking is not making assumptions. Bold unilateral statement of “fact” is.

Q: (T) Oh. Phrase your statements in the form of a question! I’d like “Hypnotic Openers” for $200, Alex! Cosmic Jeopardy! (L) OK, you said the “suggestion is auditory in nature.” If this is the case, where is the suggestion coming from auditorially?

A: Where do you normally receive auditory suggestions from?

Q: (L) Radio, television … (T) Telephone … (L) Is that what we are talking about?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) If you encounter a strobe while driving, or you are sitting in front of your television, then the suggestions can be put into you better because of this hypnotically opened state? Is that it?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) What are these suggestions designed to do, to suggest? In a general sense? To not see the craft?

A: Yes.

Q: (T) Do we get these signals from the radio in the car even if it is turned off?

A: Depends upon whether or not there is another source.

Q: (T) Another source such as?

A: ELP, for example.

Q: (L) What is “ELP?”

A: Extremely Low Pulse.

I should note here that, until Col. Phil Corso published his book The Day After Roswell, I had never heard the term “ELP.” And, remember, this session was in the latter part of 1995. Corso’s book wasn’t published until several years later.

Q: (T) ELF, Extremely Low Frequency, and ELP, Extremely Low Pulse – is this the same thing?

A: Sometimes.

Q: (T) This would be an external pulse or frequency?

A: Yes.

Q: (T) Would it be originating from the source of the strobe?

A: No. They act in unison.

Q: (L) And this process prevents us from seeing something, such as craft flying in our skies at any given time?

A: Or maybe see them as something else.

Q: (L) Now, we have to stop for a minute because I want to tell you something. In the past few months, I have really been watching the sky carefully every opportunity I get. On three or four separate occasions I have seen what I thought was an ordinary airplane, and I would watch it carefully and then scan to the left or right, and when I looked back at the place where this plane should be, based on observable speed and direction, there would be nothing there. I have stood there and searched and searched and found nothing. These things just vanished. I knew I had seen it, I knew I wasn’t crazy, I knew it couldn’t have gone away that completely – and having it happen several times has just really unsettled me. What are the implications of this, other than the fact that we could be completely overblown at all times for any number of purposes and be, as a mass of people, completely unaware of it?

A: Yes, monoatomic gold!

Q: (L) And what does the reference to monoatomic gold mean?

A: Total entrapment of the being, mind, body and soul. Strobes use minute gold filament. What composes minute filament, do you suppose? Hint, it ain’t from Fort Knox! You see, this has extraordinary properties.

Q: (T) I’m sure it does! The thing is, if it does what Hudson says it does, the power structure would have shut him down – he wouldn’t have gotten this far with it. So, if they are letting him do it, it’s because it doesn’t do what he says it does, it does the opposite. Which is what he said. When you take the stuff for so many days, you complete the program, it restructures your genes. Isn’t that what happened to us before? Do we want to do it again? (L) And, wasn’t it said that light was used to cancel certain DNA factors? (J) Exactly! (L) OK, how do we block this kind of control?

A: You don’t.

Q: (L) Let me ask this, CD asked an interesting question. It was, if we know what he thinks we know, and if we are building the kind of strength that he thinks we are building, and getting factual information about all such things, why hasn’t somebody, either on third density or fourth density, seen fit to stop or block us? He was asking very plainly why has something physical not been done to, as he put it, “take us out?”

A: The powers that be want slow release of information.

Q: (L) Does this include the fourth density STS?

A: No, but they don’t see that which they do not wish to see. [Now notice the distinction here. They said that “the powers that be” want a slow release of information, and I asked if this included the STS factions and the answer was “no.” So that obviously means that the “powers that be” we are talking about here may be the “good guys.”]

Q: (L) They don’t see us as a threat?

A: More like an annoyance.

At this point, I wanted to ask about the strange experiences I had been having since the beginning of the inquiry into the secret societies business, the Out-of-Body Experiences. Apparently, they were not all precisely the same thing.

Q: (L) OK, I want to ask about the experience I had the other night – I had what seemed to be an OOBE the other night. Was I actually having one?

A: Was an “all-intensive ooze” of the solar realm.

Q: (L) OK, what is an “all-intensive ooze” of the solar realm?

A: Realms are compartmentalized at graduated levels, like everything else. The root basis of the study of astrology is the “unified entity realm,” which relates to the effect that local cosmic bodies have upon the body and soul of third density beings in any given locator.

Q: (L) So, what does this mean in terms of what I experienced? I felt that I was moving in and out of my body over and over, sort of like doing an exercise.

A: Solar activity occurring when your experience took place was such that, based on your “solar return,” had the effect of partially separating your soul from your body. Now, just for fun, why not check your chart for that day, and see if the aspects were a little more favorable for expiration of the body potential than usual?

Q: (L) Now that I have been able to play with it a little, will I experience it again, or can I?

A: Well, it is always experienced at least once in the lifetime of a human being, but for most people, it occurs at the conclusion.

Q: [much laughter] (L) You mean I died? Or was this what people experience when they die?

A: Yes, but you got to come back in time for dinner!

Q: (L) So, that wasn’t just an OOBE, it was a separation of the soul from the body? Is that different from astral projection?

A: No. With “astral projection” the consciousness level is not as intense because of “the silver cord” and the shroud of third density awareness.

Q: (L) You guys just don’t know how intense this experience was. I was so conscious of everything! (T) More conscious than you have ever been before, right? (L) I have to say yes. I was playing with what was happening to me and having fun. I noticed every little sensation. The separating from the body produces a sizzling sound, a sort of electrical sizzle, and it changes as you move in and out of the body. I was actually having a ball playing with the effects. (T) In astral projection, the soul is still connected to the body. In this case, was Laura’s soul completely separated from her physical body?

A: Not completely, but the part that was, was.

Q: (L) Well, I did sort of keep a toe in. (T) So, if Laura had lost complete connection, would she have died at this point?

A: Yes.


Q: (L) Now, the next strange thing after this was that I had a safari dream. I dreamed we all went to Africa, and I got some information there from some people in some kind of an underground place, like a cave that went into rocks in the side of a mountain. There were all kinds of rooms and people and electronic equipment monitoring the planet and we were being taken on sort of a tour that seemed like a series of lessons. At one point, something was given to me, a stone, and I put it in my pocket on the right side. And then, just a few days later, still in the dream, I felt a danger, something probing in the direction of my mind and the children here in the house, and a protective device shot up out of my lower right abdomen, like a rocket. When it reached a point just above the house, it opened out like a crystal parachute and enveloped the entire house with a sort of shield. The crazy thing is, next day when I was in the bath, I noticed a small, deep, wound at that spot. What was this?

A: Energy surge. Magnetic plane weakness there.

Q: (L) So, is it beneficial to be able to do this?

A: Maybe.

Q: (L) Well, it seems that having the body automatically erect defenses when a threat is felt is a pretty handy talent to have.

A: Sure, in fourth density.

Q: (L) Was this a fourth density action, or ability?

A: Close.

Q: (L) OK, it was an energy surge. Did this energy surge leave the wound in my body?

A: Yes. Learn naturally as you evolve.

Though I never again had the same intense OOBE as I did just after the introduction of the 3-5 code information, I continued to have almost regular experiences with what must be fourth density reality. I could see with my eyes closed, I could sleep without being “asleep,” and be fully aware of both the present reality, including the children and all their varied activities around me, and at the same time, a whole other world was open to me in which people came and went and talked to me and I conversed with them. It was impossible to generate such experiences, but this bleed-through occurred so often that I could say that about half of my day-to-day experiences took place in a dual reality. I observed this phenomenon with curiosity and skepticism. I would project myself to where the children were to see what they were doing exactly, and then come back, make myself orient in this reality, and then physically go to check the observations. Over and over again, I realized that what I was doing was, in some strange sense, real. I didn’t know what was happening to me or even why, but it was sufficiently strange to keep me in an attentive state. I didn’t want to talk about it too much because whenever I brought such things up to the group, it seemed that even they were not quite able to grasp what I was trying to tell them. I did spend some time reading psychology texts in an effort to determine if I was losing my mind! Exactly what I was experiencing, I wasn’t sure, but some clues to the possible nature of it were given in the next session. And, again, the Cassiopaeans were using an opportunity to bring up more information about the Consortium:

November 25, 1995

Q: (L) The other day I experienced one of those extended pre-sleep states, and it seemed that I was in a class and there was someone explaining things to me. What they were telling me was that during this Christmas season, certain steps would be taken by those controlling the economy, and that after Christmas, in January and February, a whole lot of stuff was going to be put into motion to send the economy into a dive of major proportions. It was not clear that it was this year, but that it was right after Christmas. Can you tell me where this information was coming from, and what was I experiencing?

A: This is a long and complicated subject, but we will do our best to explain it. What you were seeing was one possible future. The economy of your third density world is entirely manufactured. The forces that control it are both third density and fourth density. There are conflicting opinions in the third density sector right now as to when, where, and how to institute an economic depression. This has been “in the works” for quite some “time” as you measure it. So far, the forces arguing against institution of a collapse have prevailed. How long this condition will be maintained is open to many outcomes. Also, please be aware that the state of the economy is entirely an illusion. In other words, the world economy performs solely based upon what the population is told to believe.

Q: (L) Well, that is all fine and good except for one fact that I have been observing lately, and that is that prices continue to go up, and wages for the average person do not. I watch prices, and they have been jumping in a very erratic and frightening way. I know for a fact that people simply cannot afford to live. A large segment of the population cannot, that is.

A: Nobody who obeys the “rules” can afford to “live,” but if you refuse to play the game as you are told to, you will do quite well, indeed.

Q: (L) OK. What do you mean by not playing by the rules? What rules?

A: The best way for us to answer that is for you to think out loud, and wait for our responses.

Q: (L) OK. The first rule is that you have to have a “regular job.”

A: “Trap” number one!

Q: (S) Rule number two is that you have to save your money.

A: You save your money by multiplying it, not storing it. When you store it in the bank, you are helping the Brotherhood AKA Illuminati AKA Antichrist multiply it for itself; all you get is the “crumbs” left over. And, the Antichrist can “call it in” anytime it wants to!

Q: (L) One of the most popular ways to make money by investing is in the stock market. But, it seems to me that the stock market is also part of the Antichrist system and investing there would also amount to only getting “crumbs.”

A: Yes and no. Not all stocks traded publicly are under direct control of the Illuminati. We are not suggesting anything specific, we are just laying the groundwork. With the general clues we give you, you will figure out the details yourselves, which is tantamount to learning, which is how you progress as souls.

Q: (L) You said we should multiply our money and that storing it is not making it work for you …

A: If you notice, all successful business people do this. They multiply their money; expand their horizons, continuously. They multiply their money by multiplying their output, thus their intake likewise. And the process is never-ending, because they understand instinctively that it is part of a cycle. For the intake to continue, it must not be only retained, but must increase in order to keep pace with the ever-spiraling cycle of increase and expansion. And, for this to happen, the output must be expanded accordingly. When it stops, it collapses. And this is how the Illuminati AKA The Brotherhood AKA The Antichrist creates a “Panic,” by stemming the flow, even only slightly, and then broadcasting the created impression aggressively.

Q: (S) Well, investing is fine if you have money, but Laura and Frank don’t have any money to invest. What would be a way for them to do this?

A: One example would be to share their experiences, insights, and learnings. One way to replicate such would be to publish, for example.

Q: (L) I know you are sixth density light beings and we are just third density humans, and it is hard for us to continue what we are doing when under constant attack from all directions, internally and externally. I don’t see how we can tell about all these experiences without risking further problems.

A: The work has not been stopped and will not be. You have been told that publishing all or parts of your work is merely “a phone call away,” but, as of yet, you have not had faith in that statement, and you have problems asking for what you want for fear of creating the wrong “impression,” which is in your head and also a part of the attack process. We have lead you to this position, but you know what they say: “You can lead a horse to water …” You have expended an enormous amount of energy communicating with many sources, but most of these are fruitless. We have told you to network!! This works wonders!!!

Now, aside from the interesting remarks about the economy, the significant thing for me was the remark that I was seeing “one possible future” in this semi-dream state. I wondered if that were the case for the many other instances of bleed-through. Was I at some sort of point of branching of the universe, where the energies are such that many realities are present in potential? And, again, the Cassiopaeans urged networking as something that “works wonders.” Was I networking? I thought I was. I was sure talking to a lot of people and working very hard to put a magazine together that would become an organ for the Cassiopaean material. But getting the work done alone was a crushing labor. The entire burden, it seemed, was mine.

One of the things in the Matrix books that interested me particularly, considering the comments made by the Cassiopaeans about Hitler and the creation of a master race, was the idea that it was the Nazis who were really the Secret Masters of the world. It was further suggested that they were producing the whole show, including the alien scenario, because they had been able to construct a Time Machine. There were some variations on this theory, including an evil Consortium of Nazis and American secret groups involved in mind control experiments, among other things. So, I brought it up:

December 2, 1995

Q: (L) Did the Germans construct a time machine during WWII?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) They actually did it?

A: Ja.

Q: (L) Were the German experiments in time travel carried to the U.S. after the war?

A: In splintered form.

Q: (L) Did the U.S. take possession of a time machine constructed by the Germans?

A: No.

Q: (L) Why not?

A: Was taken elsewhere. Mausenberg, Neufriedland.

Q: (L) Where is Mausenberg?

A: Antarktiklandt.

Q: (L) Who is in control of or running this machine?

A: Klaus Grimmschackler.

Q: (L) I didn’t mean a specific person, a group. Americans or Germans?

A: Deutsche.

Q: (L) Did they use this machine to transport themselves there and also in time?

A: Has been performed in Glophen in gestalt, bit, yie aire das gluppen und werstalt de vir seinderfor bidde. [Since I don’t know German, I don’t really know where to put the word breaks in this string of letters and have done it based on my best guesses.]

Q: (L) Why are you giving this so that we don’t understand?

A: Sorry, got the transmissions mixed up due to subject matter.

Q: (L) Getting back to this German time machine: did the Germans capture a crashed, or retrieve a crashed, UFO during the war?

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Who was flying that craft – excuse me – operating that craft?

A: Grays.

Q: (L) Were the Germans able to back-engineer and construct other craft similar to the one they captured?

A: Did not need to. They got the information on such things from channeled sources.

Q: (L) Did the Germans get the information from the Vril Society?

A: Partly. Also Thule Society.

Q: (L) These individuals who have this time machine in Antarctica, what are they doing with it or what do they plan to do with it?

A: Exploring time sectors through loop of cylinder.

Q: (L) What is a loop of cylinder?

A: Complex, but is profile in fourth through sixth density.

Q: (L) Are there any particular goals that they have in doing this time exploration?

A: Not up to present, as you measure it.

Q: (L) Well, if they escaped and took this time machine to Antarctica, are they working with any of the so-called aliens?

A: Fourth density STS.

Q: (L) Are these Germans and their time machine, any part of the plan to take over earth when it moves into fourth density?

A: Maybe.

Q: (L) Are the Germans behind any of the conspiracies in the U.S.?

A: No. Fourth density STS behind both.

Q: (L) So there is a maverick German element, but to focus on that as being the foundational aspect of this phenomenon is to focus on the wrong thing?

A: Maybe.

Q: (L) Among the things that were discussed among the Germans in the Thule Society and the Vril Society was the “Black Sun that Illuminates the Interior.” Can you tell us what this Black Sun is?

A: Ultimate destiny of STS orientation.

Q: (L) Is this Black Sun an actual astronomical phenomenon?

A: In essence.

Q: (L) What would we know this Black Sun as? A black hole?

A: Good possibility.

Q: (L) A little off-to-the-side, but is there any Japanese connection here as suggested by a recent episode of the X-Files?

A: Only to extent of level of participation in “secret” world government.

Q: (L) Terry has a theory that the United States is so greatly in debt to the Japanese, and that they are going to default on their obligation and cause the Japanese government to fail, and that the Japanese and some others are going to be played as the “bad guys,” once again, as they were in WWII. Is this a plan in the making?

A: No.

Q: (L) Why did the X-Files have an implied Japanese experimental conspiracy blamed for the UFO/alien activity in the United States? Why are they presenting the Japanese as the Bad Guys?

A: Remember, the “X-Files” has a fictional basis.

At this point, I went off in other directions so I will omit that material. However, right at the end of this same session, I remembered something the Cassiopaeans had said almost a year earlier right as we were winding up another session. The issue of the present moment was the UFO conference in Gulf Breeze that was to be held rather soon. We were talking about attending and distributing our magazine, the Aurora Journal, and I was reminded of the fact that the Cassiopaeans had suggested going to a Gulf Breeze conference “in the spring” at a time when the Gulf Breeze conferences had always been held in the fall. The older session went as follows:

Q: (T) Any other questions?

A: Go to Pensacola.

Q: (L) Who wants to go to Pensacola?

A: I do, I do. [Laughter]

Q: (T) Is something going to happen in Pensacola?

A: Conference. Increasing activity in Florida panhandle, vortex. If you go to Pensacola you will see UFOs of all origins including yours truly.

Q: (T) Oh! It’s your conference! And we’ve been invited!

A: OK.

Q: (T) When is it that we are supposed to go. Is it that whenever we go, then will be the conference?

A: May.

Q: (T) Is there something in May? In Pensacola? (J) Project Awareness is in May but that’s in Tampa. Are you talking about the conference in May that is being put on by the Pensacola group?

A: Look and see.

Q: (T) OK, in May we should go to Gulf Breeze?

A: Yes.

Q: (T) OK, the conference in Gulf Breeze in going to be in Tampa in May.

A: Do a session and monitor the skies at the same time. Have someone posted outside with a video camera!! Let’s try to steer all these “Ufologists” in the right path.

Now, the strange thing about this UFO conference that we were talking about was that the normal schedule was for the spring conference to be held in Tampa and the fall conference to be held in Gulf Breeze. As it turned out, that very year the fall Gulf Breeze conference was nearly canceled because of a hurricane! That, in itself, was an extremely interesting event. We had been planning on attending this particular conference and T and J had already made the reservations. Hurricane Opal was spinning around in the Gulf and everyone was waiting to see where it would come ashore:

A: Review: what did we say about weather. Why do you suppose “Opal” occurred at time, place reference point?

Q: (L) To put a stop to the UFO conference in Gulf Breeze? Does this mean we ought to stay home?

A: Up to you, but, suggest deferment, we could tell you of titanic battle!!!!

Q: (L) So, hurricanes are a reflection of battles at higher levels? Did the good guys win?

A: Yes, but not concluded, and we fear for those drawn to locator because of sinister plans by fourth density STS.

Q: (L) Plans such as what? More weather phenomena or something more direct?

A: Both, several options open to them, and in works; monstrous hurricane to hit during conference, or tornado strikes Embassy Suites hotel, or bomb blast levels conference center, or mass abductions and mental controls initiated in order to cause dissension and possibly violence, followed by extreme factionalization.

Q: (L) So, there is the possibility that something really positive could come from the connections made at the conference and, to prevent this possibility, the fourth density STS are taking steps?

A: Yes, why do you suppose it has been disrupted as of now? And have you noticed that the hurricanes have been increasing in October, rather than decreasing as would normally be true?

Q: (L) Well, then, I guess we will be staying home.

A: Free will.

So, we canceled our reservations for the UFO conference. As it turned out, the hurricane did hit Gulf Breeze almost dead on, and the conference was moved to Mobile. Clearly, there was no bomb blast or tornado so if any of the above-mentioned possibilities did play out, they would seem to have been mass abductions and mental controls initiated.

As a result of this hurricane, the organizers of the conference decided to switch the schedule around so that the Gulf Breeze conference was held in the spring the following year, 1996. But, not in May. In March. So, even if the Cassiopaeans were picking up something about this specific switcheroo, it was not a bull’s-eye exactly. Another thing that has happened since that hurricane is that the organizers of the conference broke up their organization and reformed. They no longer hold UFO conferences, but rather focus on Metaphysical/New Age assemblies. So, it may be that there was a mass abduction and mental controls that initiated dissension. But, it would be difficult to make Ufologists any more fragmented and factional than they already were and are! But, getting back to the first spring UFO conference in Gulf Breeze:

December 2, 1995

Q: (L) This year the UFO conference in Gulf Breeze is in the spring. Is this the one we are supposed to go to?

A: Yes.

When I brought up the subject of going to a weekend UFO conference with my ex-husband (to whom I was married at the time of the events we are discussing), he didn’t make any real objections but, as the days passed, his sniping and complaining and finding fault (which was standard behavior for him) rose to new levels of intensity.

I was still in therapy three times a week from the automobile accident back in December of 1994, and this was one of the tools he used against me. Obviously, if I could go to a UFO conference, I didn’t need any help with the house or the children. Not only that, but he began to covertly encourage the children to not do their own chores. When I would tell them that they were grounded or otherwise restricted for not doing their work, he would override my authority and tell me sneeringly “that’s what mother’s are for – to take care of their families.” Obviously, by his definition, that meant being a hand-servant and a doormat to everyone in the house.

The situation escalated daily and I had a complete relapse from progress in my therapy. The nervous tremors in my hands increased, the various nerve pains, numbness and partial paralysis that I had begun to overcome slowly came crashing back, and I became so depressed over this that I was hardly able to function at all. Not only that, but I suddenly acquired an ear infection that made the side of my head swell out two or three inches. There was no way I could get on an airplane with an infection like that. The doctor put me on 850 mg of Augmentin four times daily, which reduced the infection, but it just wouldn’t go away completely.

But, the struggles I was having with my health did not seem to matter to either my ex-husband or, because of his attitude and manipulations, my children. During the times I was unable to even get out of bed, I would lie there listening to my husband and kids merrily watching television in the next room; knowing that they were all deliberately making as much mess and noise in the house as they possibly could; knowing that he was intentionally instigating it; and that if I said a word I would be shouted down as a woman who no longer wanted to be a wife and mother! I had been so determined to try to go to this conference, and it seemed that my will to do anything was slowly, but surely, being sapped.

I remember lying there, feeling more alone and imprisoned than I ever had in my life; imprisoned not only by the circumstances of my life, but by the deterioration of my health. My eyes would wander to the racks of guns on the walls in the bedroom (I was not allowed to decorate the room as I might like it, but had to live in a room full of gun collections and hunting gear), and I thought how easy it would be to just give him his freedom, give the children what they wanted, which amounted to a life of no rules and restrictions, and obtain peace and freedom from pain for myself.

All it would take would be one singular act of … what? Was it courage I lacked?

But then I thought about the children. Even if they were being manipulated by him, what would it mean to them, especially the baby, to hear a gunshot and run in to find their mother with half a head and her brains splattered all over the walls? I couldn’t do that to them. No matter what, I had to endure the pain and the frustration. It was a burden I had chosen, so I needed to just square my shoulders and pick it up and carry it. But, oh! How lonely it was!

As usual, I tried to find the flaw or fault in myself. Perhaps it was my attitude, or some sort of distortion of my perception. Maybe there was some simple answer – something I could do to make life more pleasant and functional for the whole family.

As it was, I went to enormous efforts to make sure that the sessions and the related work interfered as little as possible with family life, but it would have been impossible for it to have no impact. Maybe I was seeing what we were doing as important when it was not? Maybe I should just give it up or, at the very least, schedule the sessions less frequently? It seemed pretty clear that, if there were no Cassiopaeans, if there were no sessions, if I returned to the Baptist fold of my husband’s faith and became a dutiful and meek wife, all would be well.

But I couldn’t do that.

The drive to learn, to resolve the issues of my past and present were too imperative. I could no longer shove things under the rug. I could no longer lie to myself and say that “God is in his heaven and all is right with the world.” I had seen and experienced too much. Only a lobotomy might have helped at this point!

Nevertheless, I resolved to ask the Cassiopaeans about what I could do to make life a little smoother for all our sakes. I knew it meant breaking the “no personal questions” rule, but I could see no other hope for an answer. It turned out to be a very unusual session:

December 12, 1995

Q: (L) I am sorry but I have some personal questions tonight before we get started with other things. I would like to know what is the reason for this terrible depression I have been experiencing for so long now. I am sick of it.

A: It is a crushing attack.

Q: (L) Where is it coming from?

A: Fourth density STS.

But notice that the agents of the attack were the members of my family! Observation has shown me that this is most often the case.

Q: (L) What can I do to break it before it breaks me?

A: Counteract.

Q: (L) By what? How do you counteract the things that are just beyond my ability to deal with?

A: How is the attack represented in third density for you?

Q: (L) How is it represented? Well, it seems that my husband does not love me. I do not feel safe or in any way able to function as a wife and mother with this feeling, and I know that it must be a misperception on my part, but I cannot help but feel this way. How can I get over this feeling that he is constantly trying to break me into pieces? Not only do I have to bear the constant burden of the children with no support, the house, managing everything, but I also am continuously sniped at by him. None of my feelings are ever considered. I feel like I am being shoved over and buried by a bulldozer. Is that what you want to know?

A: You are diverting by secession.

Q: (L) What do you mean?

A: What is the definition of “to secede?”

Q: (L) To leave a union. To step out. To break a union.

A: Attack is not countered by following objectives of attack.

Q: (L) What are the objectives of this attack aside from crushing me?

A: Secession at an inappropriate juncture to throw plans askew.

Q: (L) What plans would be thrown askew by secession at this point?

A: Voice.

Q: (L) What?

A: And all other. Suggest ignoring “snipes” and other unpleasantness, as it is not of your being, thus should not be taken “to heart,” and when taken thusly, causes emotional disturbances which manifests as depression and related maladies. These ailments tend to grow in scope and intensity, thereby causing severe damage to plans and activities aimed at executing one’s “mission.”

Q: (L) That’s all fine and good. But, just exactly what is the mission?

A: You are awakening to it just fine, thank you!

Q: (L) Are you saying that all this constant discussing and taking things apart and talking about them and thinking about all these things is actually getting us somewhere?

A: Absolutely!!!!

One of the main reasons we wanted to go to the Gulf Breeze conference was because we were putting a magazine together, as I have mentioned. It was hoped that it would be an organ for the Cassiopaean material since I could really think of no other affordable way to make the material available. We planned to print a thousand copies and take them to the conference with us and give them away with a subscription form attached inside.

Q: (L) Well, let’s get on with the questions. Is the magazine or some other mode of getting information out part of this mission?

A: When you have learned, you have energized yourself.

Q: (L) What does that mean in relation to the question?

A: Lead by the hand? No way, Jose`!

Q: (L) Frank and I discussed a name for the magazine last night and we came up with – and who knows how – Aurora to symbolize the dawn, waking up … that sort of thing. I was researching the legend of Orion, and in the end he is cured of his blindness by the goddess of the Dawn. Is this a good name to use? I like Barbra Marciniak’s Bringers of the Dawn, but I think I like the name Aurora.

A: Refer to the previous 2 answers.

Q: (L) No comments?

A: No need, you are doing just fine by yourselves.

Q: (S) What did you expect them to say? “Atta girl!?” [Laughter] Well, since I am going broke putting out the first issue, will the magazine support itself?

A: We are not going to answer that, as it would violate level one directive.

Q: (L) What is a “level one directive?”

A: Refer to last answer.

Q: (L) Well, fine! I want to know just one thing here: is there some place that gives out orders?

A: You will know when it is right, and not before!

Q: (L) I want you guys to know that I sometimes feel a wee tiny bit like a pawn on a chessboard!

A: You should, you inhabit third density STS environment.

Q: (L) I was at least hoping that if I was a pawn, that some of the players were good guys. Is that asking too much?

A: Yes. Good guys don’t play chess.

Q: (L) But there have been so many strange events, so many synchronous events. My life is so utterly bizarre! Is that the good guys helping or the bad guys leading me astray?

A: Neither. It is Nature running its course.

Q: (L) OK. One of the sensations I have experienced lately is the feeling that that I have had it up to the eyebrows with the negative energies and experiences of third density. I have even had the thought that this feeling of having had enough, in an absolute sense, is one of the primary motivators for wanting to find one’s way out of this trap we are in. I want out of it. Is this part of this “nature” as you call it?

A: Yes. When you see the futility of the limitations of third density life, it means you are ready to graduate. Notice those who wallow in it.

Q: (L) Some people obviously wallow in extreme materiality. And there seems to be another kind that is more subtle, which has to do with saying that you want to grow and become enlightened, and yet such a person is unable to pierce the veil of their own illusions about how to become enlightened, and this illusion is the wallowing …

A: Wallowing takes many forms. More often, the sign [of wallowing] is someone who does not feel alienated by the obvious traps and limitations of third density.

Q: (L) Well, that says a lot. One of the questions on the list is: In many of the Sumerian drawings and literature, the gods, the Annunaki, are described as eating a plant that grew at the bottom of the ocean, and this plant was the source of eternal life.

A: Nonsense! The source of eternal life is existence!

Q: (L) Well, the point was that there was some sort of food that these beings ate that was unusual or different that somehow enhanced their abilities to an extreme degree …

A: Totally false and you should know it!! All so-called “special powers” come from nonphysical sources!!!

Q: (L) Well, Carlos Castaneda talks about the “Eagle’s emanations,” the Eagle being, I suppose, Prime Creator that emanates down through all the densities, and that the Nagual who can “see,” sees the Eagle as a large black-and-white object. Are they seeing the source, or are they seeing something on just another density?

A: Source? There is no such thing.

Q: (L) You mean there is no Prime Creator, no origin or source of our existence? [I was practically crying here. I sure wanted somebody “out there” to haul my buns out of the fire!]

A: You are Prime Creator.

Q: (L) But that is so esoteric … I am talking about …

A: The point is: stop filling your consciousness with monotheistic philosophies planted long ago to imprison your being. Can’t you see it by now, after all you have learned, that there is no source, there is no leader, there is no basis, there is no overseer, etc. You literally possess, within your consciousness profile, all the power that exists within all of creation!?! You absolutely have all that exists, ever has, or ever will, contained within your mind. All you have to do is learn how to use it, and at that moment, you will literally, literally, be all that is, was, and ever will be!!!!!!!!

Q: (L) That is all fine and dandy and sounds wonderful, except for one little item. You also say that the monotheistic concepts were imposed on us to prevent us from knowing this. So, if we are all that is, how can something exist that can impose something so unpleasant on us?

A: Choices follow desire-based imbalances.

Q: (L) If that is the case, why can’t any one person just turn off the lights, end the illusion, and everything becomes nothing?

A: Well, first of all, everything does not become nothing. Secondly, some have already become everything.

Q: (L) Terrific! And I understand that we are digging our way out of this particular illusion. And that is a rather profound but useless thing to say to someone still stuck in the mire! Change of subject. I have had three death dreams and Frank has had one. I would like to inquire about them.

A: No comment.

Q: (L) You said that my life would be straightened out and that this would happen through the Internet. In fact, you said that my life would change suddenly and dramatically …

A: Yes.

Q: (L) Yet, all I have experienced has been the most oppressive internal and external attack imaginable …

A: Benefits follow oppressiveness, what is it that you tell to others?? The darkness always precedes the dawn!

Q: (L) Well, I don’t know which way to turn. I am not in a position to do anything about any of it just now.

A: Ask for help, silly!

Q: (L) I don’t like to ask for help.

A: You have to.

So you see what happens when you whine and complain to the Cassiopaeans! All they do is get your dander up! But, oddly, it was what I needed. Even though I desperately wanted to have somebody come and fix what was wrong in my life, I knew that it was unrealistic to expect anyone to clean up the mess that I had made. And the only way I knew to ask for help was to pray and meditate. So, that is what I did.

As a result of my prayers, I came to some ideas and conclusions. No matter how dreadful the present situation was, I could not help but feel that my life was being guided somehow (even if it was just nature taking its course), and I had only to demonstrate my faith and commitment for things to work out as they should by acceptance of the situation as it was. Of course, I had the idea that if I just had enough faith, my husband would undergo some dramatic change and the dream of the “bridegroom” would come true. Until that time, I would be a good and attentive wife, do the best I could for the sake of the children, get whatever satisfaction I could get from my work, my friends, and some little writing and sharing of information, and just not worry about what he did. A commitment is a promise, and I didn’t break my promises. I was sure God or Nature was going to fix it. I knew that, for the moment, I was essentially alone. I didn’t have a husband; he was as much a lost child as the children were, and I accepted the responsibility of them all. I believed this to be the direction the Cassiopaeans were pointing me. If I accepted the situation as it was and did the best I could, I felt sure that it would change on its own. Never mind that my idea of this change was that what was broken would be fixed!

This last session was during December. Just a few days before Christmas I was doing my Christmas baking. I remember sitting at the kitchen table, covered with dustings of flour, my girls helping me, and such an apparently happy family scene all around me. The kids didn’t know they were being manipulated by their father; they didn’t know how it was between their father and me; and I was resolved to keep it from them. They deserved happiness and stability. And, I was now trying in every way to make my husband happy as well, short of giving up my mind and my work. I redoubled my efforts to the point of absolute exhaustion so that nothing I did would interfere in the normal events of our lives so he would have nothing to complain about. But, the more I tried to juggle everything, the more demanding he became so that it was harder and harder to manage it without some sort of scene with him. Not only that, it was physically destroying me.

So, there I was in my kitchen, baking Christmas goodies with my children, and feeling utterly devastated that I could not feel the happiness that I was working so hard to create around me. The radio was playing and a haunting song caught my ear …

I could have a mansion that is higher than the trees

I could have all the gifts I want and never ask please

I could fly to Paris, oh, it’s at my beck and call

Why do I go through life with nothing at all?

But when I dream, I dream of you

Maybe someday you will come true

I can be the singer or the clown in every room

I can even call someone to take me to the moon

I can put my make-up on and drive the men insane

I can go to bed alone and never know his name

But when I dream, I dream of you

Maybe someday you will come true.

(Sandy Mason Theoret, Jando Music Inc.)

… And I broke down and began to cry. What did it matter if I solved the mysteries of the Universe or died in the effort? No one else would ever know … No one who really cared, that is. The forces that were driving me, the Quest seemed to be mine alone. And I was alone.

All the dreams of “Him” came flooding back and I wondered if He was somewhere on the planet wondering if I was somewhere on the planet. Again, for the millionth time I sternly reminded myself that all such thoughts were nonsense. There was no such thing as “The One.” It was only romantic fairy tales at best; pathological delusions at worst. Get a grip on your mind, girl!

The children were very concerned with my tears, and I explained that middle-aged mothers just do that sometimes. Nothing to be concerned about. And I pushed the thoughts back under the rug and told myself that I should be overjoyed with what I had and not be such a whiner and crybaby for what I didn’t have.

But, even though my mind issued the orders, something deep inside was not listening! Our preparations to attend the Gulf Breeze UFO conference continued. We thought we had experienced High Strangeness in our lives. We didn’t know how strange it can get!

1 If one keeps in mind the proposition that these locations – Egypt, Phoenicia and Syria – may not be the same as we know them today, but rather Northern European areas, i.e. Druid territory, it gives the whole story a very different perspective.

2 The issue of students that are not worthy of initiation turning against the teacher, even to the extent of violence, is covered in Almost Human. I have definitely experienced this reaction myself!

3 On this topic, Christopher Knight and Robert Lomas have proposed an excellent theory in their book: Uriel’s Machine. Even if they make a lot of factual errors and go on flights of Biblical fancy due to their a priori assumptions about the alleged history of the Jews vis a vis the Northern Europeans, their work on megalithic stone circles, geometry, etc, is outstanding.

4 See William Bramley’s book, The Gods of Eden.

5 This will prove to be very interesting in my upcoming second volume of Secret History: The Horns of Moses. It is also interesting in the context of the Merovingians as a tribe of Franks who were derived from “Chatti” which was another name for the Hittites, and Abraham was said to have been a Hittite. Those who are sharp may be able to take these clues and do their own research with interesting results. Or, you can just wait for my book…